cal and astarion do NOT get along. it started with astarion having a very dismissive attitude about cal where cal got the feeling that astarion was mocking him / dismissive of his abilities / telling him along the lines to "run along now, little boy" and cal absolutely hates these things so it already soured his opinion if astarion. and then astarion tried to bite him in the night, and cal reeaaaallly didnt like that astarion is lucky that he wasnt killed/sent away. but the funniest part of all this for me is when they were dealing with the flesh book; astarion wasnt there when they found it, but he was there when they acquired the stone to open it. and he wants it sooo bad, but cal wanted it real bad too, hes a sorceror he wants get better at magic / understanding it / have more magic/power at his disposal. so he refuses to give astarion the book and reads it for himself. he acquires the ability to cast speak with dead once/long rest as a ritual and, smug, he gives astarion the amulet of lost voices as a consolation prize since he doesnt need a mere trinket to speak with the dead any longer
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Im sorry for the inactivity, my cat died recently and ive fallen on bad financial times, most of my time now is being spent on commissions to recover, im sorry for those who are excited for more CTS au or more Sun nd Moon art in general but im afraid that won't be for a while.
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Any advice for a skinny boy who wants to follow in your footsteps and swell up real quick. Just nervous what friends and family might think 🤔
You HAVE to change ur mindset and just EAT
Speed depends on a persons genetics bc I didn’t mean to gain like 70 lbs in 4 months. Its all about your attitude. I get this question asked a lot and I always say “oh try to eat more than 5000 cal a day.” anyone can train to eat to that point but if you’re always self-conscious about what others think, then you’re always gonna go back to being skinny. People are gonna judge u regardless, you can have a shitty haircut and people will talk. Its your body and if you really want to be fat then you have to be confident in your decision.
I get tons of remarks from family, especially from my mom. I simply ignore or snap back bc i know being bigger feels so good and that i was miserable being skinny. I feel great, hot, and sexy rn. Gaining is really about self love. You are your own advocate
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Dear friend,
if anyone is out there and reading this then hi! this is my little part of the world where i can talk about the stuff that i cant tell anyone about irl.
My name is Rob and im 15 years old. Im anorexic, i also have depression, anxiety and adhd :D Fun ikr?/j. But yeah its a lot to deal w and i just needed somewhere to talk about it all and here we are.
Ive had ana for about 2 years now but ever since i moved to my mom its been good and bad periods. Right now you could say im in a "bad period", just meaning that i dont want to get better. Honestly I wish that i could be normal but i just got a scale and i cant imagine gaining weight and being able to see each kg i gain.. I also just get nauseous when i eat literally anything so i would rather not.
My depression also has good and bad periods and sometimes i just want to give up but i cant bc then i get behind on school work. Ive been feeling like im holding my head just above the water, waiting for someone to help me but no one ever does. That was awfully depressing but it really is true! Ive been getting worse and i even started hurting myself again.
some days i get this overwhelming sad feeling and it consumes me until theres nothing i can do but cry, dissociate or hurt myself. The worst part is that this happens in school quite a lot and most times i go non-verbal too. I am just very exhausted and i want this all to be over soon. I wish that life was like a movie so that you could stop it and watch something else once in a while.
There is a lot of bad things to talk about but there is some good too! I have recently gotten into DnD for example. Its very fun but a lot to learn. I am going to be DM for a group of new players while i am as well a new player so its a bit scary. I am very excited about it still!
Some of my other interests are reading, writing, listening to music, sleeping, observing, and musical theater/theater.
I like mitski, rain, big theif, the cranberries, The perks of being a wallflower, Aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe, Dead poet society, smoking, and going on walks.
some things about me are that i go to a waldorf school, i live in sweden, i have a gf (<33), im greyace, i acually have good grades (whatt:0), and basically my whole wardrobe is thrifted!
Anyways, back to the bad-ish stuff! Okay well this isnt all "bad" but i am going to be posting pro-for-me ana stuff cuz i need somewhere to share it all so here is some of that.
cgw - 37kg (updated in bio)
ugw - 35kg (or just basically as low as possible)
lw - 37
cw - 38.3 (updated in bio)
cbmi - 15.7 (updated in bio)
So rn im not acually counting my cals bc i feel that its easier to just not eat during the day and then if i really have to ill eat dinner (cuz of my mom). So far its working, i just wish i lived by myself. Everything would be so much easier.
Sorry this was a lot longer than i thought it would be:o Hope you enjoyed hearing a bit about mee and i hope ur having a good day/night<3
//Love always,
Rob
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!TW! LITERALLY JUST ME VENTING, I needed to put this out somewhere
I think I maintained this week when I was aiming to lose more or maybe even gained a few grams😭😭😭
I had a LOT of tests to study for and so I couldn’t fast cause I needed energy for my brain so I ate “healthy” IDKKKK aaaa plus I couldn’t walk to burn extra cals as much as usual bc of studying
I don’t feel as bad as I thought I would for not losing cause it was for a good reason but I feel like such a wann4r3xic rn bc of it :(((
bro i literally just want to reach 50kg already so I can start to go below 50 it’s supposed to be easy why isn’t it easy it’s usually so easy for me but NOW ITS NOT???? It’s been so hard this last week I feel so bad
I didn’t binge, cause I usually don’t ever do it, but I still counted and my cals were like 1500-1200 daily so I totally didn’t lose much + maybe even gained IDK or maybe I am just paranoid or definitely I am just paranoid
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helloooo. my morning weigh-in was kinda disappointing, i basically just maintained, but tbh its prob bc i was rlly close to my cal limit yesterday. oh well, im fasting today to fix it, im on 18.5 hrs rn. also drank some water before it so im gonna pray thats the extra weight
went to a store and walked around n completely ignored all the food, didnt give in to temptation and buy a pastry or smth. got myself a protein shake with 20g protein for only 134 cals!!
now i gotta get back to studying tho lol
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