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descentinto-hell · 6 months
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ana-banana-fo-fana · 4 months
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purging is so difficult i don’t know how people do it. i tried it today but could only get a little up, how do y’all get everything out???
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ivehadthatdream · 3 months
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Just a reminder that people only see you if you're not fat.
I definitely can tell I get treated differently when I'm at my heaviest vs when I was at my LW. It sucks but its true. If you're fat they can't see you. They just see a fat person, not the soul you are.
Every. Fucking. Day. I wanna rip myself apart for gaining all my weight back. I miss being at 220. Even tho 220 is still fat, people could at least see me. They treated me so much better then, vs now with me being 290 *yes I've gained even more weight :(((((*
I want to crawl out of my skin. I hate myself.
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carrotzcake · 6 months
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halfheartedly made a goal to not binge and purge tonight; it's funny how easy a symptom becomes hard to break. almost made it, was relaxing after evening snack but then started snacking...I feel guilty and want to escalate into further symptoms but don't really have any food and it's too late to order something. i should just go to sleep but I worry about my weight in the morning
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lunapotter-tsuki · 1 year
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tonight at a birthday party i refused a piece of cake (and i skipped dinner).
I feel so f*cking powerful right now. I’m so proud of myself.
(i’m not pro, it’s just because i ate a lot in the past few days and i demonstrated to myself that i am in control, not the food)
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naiyah8scals · 6 months
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Note to self: Don’t eat like a pig because purging hurts
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dreamingof117lbs · 8 months
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nah bc i just spent 5 mins blowing food chunks out of my nose …. just be normal and come out of my mouth please … i’m clearly out of practice
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invisible-anagirl · 1 year
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Genuine question:
How long can you go in the hospital with hiding food and getting rid of it in the toilet? (Hospitalized for an Ed)
Faking weight so it looks like I’m gaining, (not)
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pasta-problems · 1 year
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Actually third base is when they see you cry over calories
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daintyy-boness · 1 year
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i’ve lost SO much weight in the last year. over 60 pounds gone. but i feel like i can’t lose anymore, and even though i lost all that weight, and i’m pretty close to my gw1, it doesn’t look like it. my stomach is huge, it hangs over, it’s not flat. if i lose more, i’m scared nothings going to happen and i’m going to look disgusting always.
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wintergirl238 · 1 year
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I wish I could put into words exactly how it feels to live everyday with an eating disorder - how it feels to live everyday with depression, and anxiety, and such a strong hatred of myself and everything I am.
I think maybe the words just don’t exist.
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iwant-devastation · 1 year
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3 days without eating only to ruin it with my upcoming binge/purge session.
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Hey guys!! It’s been so long since I’ve logged in on Tumblr. I think that I relapsed lmao after a year of being good, so I’m back but anyways some of y’all said the link to my Spotify playlist is dead, so Here it is!! Can’t believe that I’ve had this playlist since 2020 when I was like 15 ish 💀
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1cxoQBh6pTK2nPO2zQz8wg?si=qRJHGr4sRn68k2BnKKD3lA
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carrotzcake · 6 months
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I feel urgey, want to use behaviors badly but my roommate is in the living room watching tv and i don't have the privacy or motivation to really engage with these thoughts so I guess that's good. I'm looking forward to therapy tomorrow, though I don't entirely know what we'll discuss. perhaps my depression, thoughts that i'm not making progress, that I never will
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lunapotter-tsuki · 1 year
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i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body.
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naiyah8scals · 1 year
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I need my ED to ED like it did in 2020
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