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d0v3uae · 3 months

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okay, i was just rewatching season 4, and i realized something, remember this scene in the airport right in the beginning of the series? Mike says “i handpicked those for you in Hawkins” most likely he got those from the field that we also saw in the end of this season, and the one of the very first scenes in season 3. now, i was watching the very last episode, and the very last scene, and i noticed when el was walking forward, she picked up dead flowers, specifically the same colors Mike got her as a gift back in the beginning (yellow and purple). this means the fall/deadness of their relationship, because as we already know, they are NOT on good terms. i mean i really tried to like their ship, but i just cant see it without being toxic, and having communication issues for example: El felt the need to lie about her life and Lenora, and how she had friends, and everything was good. why would she need to lie? shouldnt they trust each other and tell each other things like this? And back in the beginning when Mike tells Lucas that they dont want to be popular, and the airport scene when El says that she wants burritos for breakfast, Mike says something like “really? no i mean i trust you,” that scene to me meant that Mike was very awkward, and not acting like himself. and not to mention but Mikes outfit was not himself AT ALL. Argyle says “oh no its a shitty knockoff,” meaning again, that mike is acting like someone hes not in front of his girlfriend.

now, i wanna talk about the roller rink incident, because there is a LOT more stuff going on then what it seems. so basically Mike and Will are fighting while trying to find El, and Will says “well what about us?” and Will DID NOT mean this romantically, but Mike took this romantically?! Will meant it as “Ok i get it, you have a girlfriend, but what about our friendship?” Mike took it as romantic, which is why he said “We’re friend! We’re friends!” and the fact that he said it two times is also insane, and his tone of voice when he said it was so tense almost. when people in other shows/movies say they are just friends, they most if the time end up as an endgame couple. for example: the office, Jim and Pam, they both had crushes on each other throughout the first seasons, but oh look they were an endgame couple, and even got married. what im trying to say is, Mike took it romantically, when Will didnt.

And another thing with this fight, is that as soon as Mike said “We’re friends” the song “in the closet” started playing, and some people think “oh its because Els in a closet” which yes, in a way, but it was an employee’s shed. and also this song started playing RIGHT AFTER Mike assured that they were “just friends” little sketchy right? And i also just wanted to point out that after Mike said that, he saw Wills face and immediately knew he made him sad, and we can see the tension in his face almost disappeared.

now right after the skate incident, El, Mike and Will were all standing there in a triangle if i may point out, but anyways, we can see Will reacted normally, he said “oh my god..” but Mike reacted very aggressively towards it. and the camera pans over to El sitting alone at a table, and Mike and Will are right next to each other. really quickly, i wanna point a few things out. when angela takes el onto the rink, we can see Mike not care, hes just like “meh” but Will knows, so he stands up and says “oh no” which directly after he says that, he stands up so quickly, but this is weird for me. because Mike can sense when something is wrong with Will, but not El. because we see that when angela comes over to the table they are sitting at, it is very tense but Mike doesnt really notice, but Mike notices when something is wrong with Will almost IMMEDIATELY. and this is proven back in s2. so Will is closing his locker and Mike says something like “come on” and Will looks worried or even tense, and Mike immediately notices, because he says “what” many times and not to mention in his soft voice that he only uses for Will. so i think this means Mike understands Will and Will understands Mike.

i think this might be foreshadowing to the break up to Mike and El in season 5. so, once again. BYLER ENDGAME!!

#byler #mike wheeler #mike wheeler is gay #will byers #byler endgame #byler is canon #byler kiss #byler nation #byler tumblr #stranger things #byler analysis #mileven break up #anti mileven

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itgomyway · 8 months

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you cannot serve two masters; “you either have it or you don’t”

i believed neville said it before(?) but have you actually took the time to understand what it means? you either decide you have it or you decide its a process where youre going to eventually get something (or you don’t) but nothing happens until you decide.

decision shouldnt be met with opposition because no matter what, you are always deciding. whenever someone speaks to you, it happens quickly but you still process the information and decide how to respond.

the fears you associate with deciding come directly from the ego, however since the situation and the ego are on the same “level of realness” (cause nothing is real in the first place) one shouldnt be any more intimidating than the other unless you think it is.

i am aware of the many nuances that come with this way of thinking however if youre going to ever hope to get anywhere, you need to discipline yourself into understanding the world from a non dual perspective. you quite literally can decide how things go bc youre in total control

existence in any form cannot happen until the observer (you) is made aware of it. last night i was thinking ab my grandpas health and started crying but then my mind wandered somewhere else and when i went back to the thought i wasnt crying or sad anymore. why? because it left my awareness therefore was not real anymore.

it no longer existed to me bc i wasnt aware of it at that moment. babies are taught that things exist outside of their awareness(which is false) when they play peek a boo. as a baby u were much closer to understanding ur true form than u are now so you knew the power of awareness

youve been taught so many limiting beliefs your whole life of course you might struggle unlearning them but you have to start somewhere and what better way to start than by making your life easier?

#consciousness #nondualism #nonduality #awareness

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comradekatara · 1 year

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I think where people get caught up on the healing/blood bending dichotomy is that we see healing with water bending as taking a glob of water and moving it over the skin until the burn goes away, using it to direct energy in the body, while they think of blood bending as some thing more internal somehow and I’m sure someone would think it’s easier to directly bend the blood and force it to clot then to take a glob of water and press it against the wound and somehow make the blood stop… I think it would’ve been neat if we had more time devoted to katara getting instruction in the art of healing, to learn some more technical details about it, because people really seem to ignore healing as an art form and then try to reinvent it through blood bending, when in reality it’s just forcing the water in someone’s body to move around thus forcing the body to move.

Maybe Aang should have gotten some time to learn healing while Katara was mastering more advanced forms, but idk. Sorry this is a bit rambly.

we see some of how healing works when katara enter's yugoda's classroom. once you realize that healing isn't just about treating surface wounds but also manipulating chi paths in the body, it becomes a lot clearer that healers are already using the techniques people think katara "banned" when she said no one should bloodbend.

katara: it's wrong to violate someone’s autonomy in this way that is akin to rape or torture

fans for some reason: omg she hates surgeons!!!!!!

also yes i definitely agree that it was weird for aang to never express interest in learning healing. i've said it before but i can't find where so i'll just say it again now. healing is one of the coolest powers ever and i don't understand why anyone with the potential to do it wouldn't want to do it?? it's not that aang believes in the gendered binary between healing and fighting that the northern water tribe does, so i can only chalk it up to his naivete, and imagine that as he gets older he learns healing from katara, as anyone with a shred of common sense would.

Hot take: Hama wasnt “right” exactly but she shouldnt be imprisoned again. She should be home with her people. She should be with Kanna , not living her twilight years in a firenation prisoncell. She should be pardoned or some shit idk. If we take her age and The conditions of the other victims in her flashback to the logical conclusion , she is likely the sole survivor of a concentration camp for the SWT benders. Its fucking abysmal. IDK what it would take but its so cruel her current status.

yeah i've said this before too. i like to think that instead of being reimprisoned or executed she manages to escape, and after the war katara finds her and sends her to the south pole to live out her final years there.

I like the great divide because I like the sibling arguing part over something that is kind of ridiculous, Katara and Saka are not part of these groups and neither has any particular reason to believe one over the other but they both pick a side and go whole hog, and as someone with a sibling with about the same age gap as those two that felt pretty realistic.

i mean katara and sokka fight over trivial shit all the time, that much is true, but the argument itself makes no sense. not only would katara not care about getting rained on, seeing as she is a literal waterbender, but the zhangs and the gan jins have the stupidest fucking "conflict" like this show that is otherwise wonderfully nuanced presents the most simplistic two dimensional plotline ever, and also expects us to believe in the process that katara is prim and proper and prepared and sokka is messy and spontaneous or whatever not only is that blatantly untrue it's just straight up bad writing it's a bad episode and you guys need to stop trying to justify it. that said aang's first ever conflict resolution as the avatar being a straight up lie is pretty funny.

Sorry for spaming ur inbox i am full of thoughts atm

i can see that

#madam-melon-meow #asks #katara #aang #hama

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dykeluc · 22 days

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anytime a kaeya or diluc blog says "no shipping discourse" its such a red flag. im sorry but you cant just say "well sometimes i think kaeyas adopted and sometimes i dont or 'i get how people can view both" no dude. hes adopted. its explicitly stated. its not hard to write "no [any form of] incest/pedo ships on my blog please and no further discussions of it

i just dont think people get how weird it is to not openly say kaeya is adopted. he is adopted. idk if you know this but basically his whole character plot is about him being adopted 🤯🤯🤯 and dilucs is about him missing his family and how life was 🤯🤯🤯 [i mean i think their the main focus, arguments could be made otherwise, but their obviously ONE of the main focuses]

sorry but as someone who is adopted, your weird. I dont think its a red flag to not explicitly state "pedophilia shippers dont interact" because anyone who ships that well. is either a pedo or on the road to be one [abused to abuser pipeline]

(second person)

its mainly the fact that, if kaeya was biologically related, you would of said no incest. but no you say weird shit like "psudo incest" and "step incest" <- which are step doesnt apply to kaeya n diluc and pseudo incest is not a thing this context. funfact! you can say biological incest and adoptive incest, because yeah its different but the clarification shouldnt be made out of "well biological is bad bc of breeding" when half the time its [assuming both parties are cis] mlm or wlw. if your only disgust with incest is the fact its blood related and not the emotional and psychological aspects, your weird. funfact! accidental incest happens alot when a party is adopted or unknown half siblings etc! its still messes people up! both of them suck but if your only reasoning is that 'its only incest if its biological' then your weird. its only biological incest if well, ya know its biological incest.

im not saying you have to hate keluc but i think as someone whos adopted, if you interact with people who

dont think kaeya is adopted, or the people who only ship the incest because its non biological, your weird.

ive stated this before but id rather interact with an incestious proshipper who says its incest, and doesnt see it differently than biological incest and doesnt like it just bc "its not 'real' incest" when it obviously is just as real as biological.

im rambling. im just reaaaaaaaal sick of it. the way you treat fictional adoptees directly correlates (not fully but majorly) into real adoption and how you treat and see adoptees and adoptive families. just stop being weird my god.

i also am sick of people telling me not to complain about it or to keep it to myself. sorry but if i dont tell people their weird on how they treat fictional adoption and its weird to say that about fictional adoption because it shows how you treat/view real adoption to an extent then who fucking will? Most peoples knowledge on adoption is LIMITED, HIGHLY LIMITED. adoptees are an unheard minority and our issues are not spoken or talked about enough and im sure this is because adoptees are told its not important and to stay quiet. If peoples only interaction with adoption is via fiction then its a bunch of biospawns saying stuff without actual adoptees saying what is and isnt true or what isnt offensive to say/think etc. god alot of my friends are like "its mentally bad for you" okay?? okay and?? you expect me not to tell people that their being offensive? god it just feels like the same shut up mentality a bit, even if they just dont want me to be stressed out. if no one will say it, then i will, because i know adoptees out there need to hear that their thoughts and feelings are valid, because if I speak up, maybe they will too.

Im rambling. Im just angry again.

#Dykeluc rants

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thedemon-crowley · 6 months

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Hey Crowley. I um. I was hoping to get some advice from you. There's this girl, and put bluntly, I absolutely love her. I'm completely head over heals for her. Well, I saw a post she made online, and it's very obviously about me (thats what caught my attention actually. Saw some details and thought hmmmm.... that sounds like me lol. I shouldnt have clicked on it, but curiosity will always be my downfall. That and i didnt see the username at first). The post was her mostly asking for advise about what to do when you have a crush but also trying to talk herself out of it, and hoping to get others to talk her out of it. It was very clear with how this thing was written that she never expected me to see it. I just stumbled across it on accident. She seemed genuinely scared of falling for me. Which I totally get, the situation is complicated, but it still kinda stung. Cause well, I love her. And to know that I'm part of something making her upset just..... well it goes against what everything inside me screams. I just need her to be happy. Even if that's not with me. Anyway, what do I do now? How do I stop myself from going completely insane over this? How do you cope when the person you love doesn't want to love you back? Mostly, how do I continue on like nothings happened? I can't risk losing her over my stupid pining.

- A sad gay goth in love with a bibliophilic sweetheart

You are not the first person to come to me for romantic advice, and I cannot for the life of me imagine why any of you would.

But here goes anyway!

My advice? If it doesn’t feel right to push the issue just yet, WAIT.

I cannot stress to you enough that pushing someone before they’re ready, no matter how much they might love you back (and if you’re scared of falling for someone, it’s already happened, I’m afraid) will only make them feel cornered. And then you end up further back than when you started.

That said, it might not hurt to make them aware that you know. Just maybe not super directly, or you might end up with the same problem.

In the meantime, try to enjoy what you do have. Do you have things you do together? Do more of those! There’s no harm in sort of…quietly courting them.

Besides, things are never quite as complicated as they seem, really. In time it might be that you sort of…fall into place together.

Anyways, whatever you decide to do and whatever happens, best of luck anon.

#crowleyposting #crowley ask blog #go crowley #good omens askblog #good omens #good omens asks #it's ineffable

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ithisatanytime · 3 months

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i just want to say that its also the timing, for fear of appearing literally schizophrenic i dont document everytime i see them making moves specifically based on what ive literally JUST figured out for myself and shared publicly the night before. i dont think that the television is talking to me specifically, or that my cat is possessed by the ghost of st paul and hes commanding i kill taylor swift, i merely have seen numerous numerous very specific examples where i will offer up some idea or some take that i have literally NEVER seen anyone type nor heard anyone mutter before, and within hours or the following morning, threads dealing with that very specific thing. i have been harrassed online, but more, i have been harrassed in real life, only once that i NOTICED, but they made it so i had to notice because they realized that i dont pay attention. the way they harrassed me was direct, 2 strangers on the same day the fourth of july of this year, if i described the events of what happened it would sound like nothing, but if you had been there with me hidding perhaps in a bush i swear to you that youd believe everything i said in that instance because of what you saw.

im pretty sure i already mentioned what happened but i will briefly go over it, but understand i know this will sound mundane and there are other possible explanations that seem way more likely to you because i will not be able to properly express the nonverbal communication and full details. but in short, a jonah hill looking motherfucker was riding his bike in my direction on a sidewalk on my way to the beach, behind me about 20 yards so a bit of a distance was a group of young teenagers about 13 years old four to six in all. as he pass me, with his shirt open standing on his pedals as he rode past, he looked to me and said calmly “im on drugs im on probation, they cant do shit.” which he then repeated. i have been yelled at by crazy people many times, i spent 6 months in new york city, this shouldnt have made me feel as uneasy as it did, but it did. you have a sense usually, at least i do, of when someone coming towards you is crazy, or messed up on drugs, its not USUALLY a surprise when it happens you are tensed up waiting for it. i was immediately worried about the kids walking behind me, i turned around and started walking back towards the teens and saw him ride past them. when i got to them i asked if that man had said anything to them and they replied that he had not (this is highly unusual they were young attractive women with one very small young boy, the man didnt strike me as gay, i thought for sure if he yelled at me those kids were next makes no sense) i told them what he said to me, we laughed about it and moved on, occasionally while i was at the beach one of the kids would shout “im on drugs, im on probation, they cant do shit” and we would laugh. it made me really uneasy in a way no other public encounter had, not fearful but perplexed it just didnt fit in with everything else i knew about the world i had inhabit ted for 33 years. on my way home from the beach, a much more directly threatening encounter happened. this is the same day mind you, i am standing alone at an intersection, the road is clear, this is a small rural town, a young black man who sort of resembled xavier wulf but a bit skinnier a slightly more gracile bone structure, slow rolled around the corner, i mean hes practically stopped, and his window is down, his face is practically out his window at me and hes smiling as wide as he can in a cringy unsebtling low budget horror movie way, and nodding at me, his music is turned down, im not dressed out of the ordinary just waiting for my light, this is what i mean though, you will have to take my word that im not exaggeratting this and you must imagine it exactly as ive described it, if anything im under selling it. all i could do was smile and nod back mirroring him in a daze trying to make sense of what was happening right in the moment. he was so close i could have take a step forward and brushed his cheek as he slowly crept by. if you were there, you would have came to the same conclusion i did after a few minutes of walking home and pondering, but instead i must rely on peoples words.

i am not taking pictures of license plates, or claiming a particular red car is following me, hell they might be! i literally would never know it, i am not paying attention. its possible these two encounters on the same day were not meant to be threatening, though independantly of one another, they on their own, each felt threatening to me, i wasnt scared, what i mean to say is i got the sense the message both these young men were sending was meant to convey a threat, each on their own, never felt that way about an encounter before, and both on the same day.

#youtube

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csmeanerr · 5 months

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Hey, This is Red. One of the victims in the document made against Retrokaiju/Akuma. I was made aware that this situation was brought up by a third party without me or any of the consenting parties that where effected. We remained anonymous for a reason. In the future, please do not do this as it is literally endangering the people who probably don't want to be involved anymore and long since moved on. It is a reckless thing to do , but I can't say I am not glad or annoyed that this was brought up after so many years. I can say a lot has happened behind the scenes more than what was added to the doc.

Please take for what I am about to share with a grain of salt, my discord has long since been deleted so I no longer have direct evidence to support my story, but I do have witnesses who can back me up, people who have been there and seen this behavior unfold.

When Yellow and I confronted Akuma, the two of us separated under stressful means and later down the line I returned to Akuma. I do not know why, back then I was foolish enough to downplay the severity of the situation with what happened in that server but in my head, someone who was my best friend, I believed it was a honest mistake. in my head I depended on them in some way. Don't do what I did.

In calls I would hear Akuma ranting and venting how "Minors traumatized them" how "terrible their situation is." How it shouldnt be them. Green, would comfort them just as I but I did it to little extent. But Green continued to coddle them none stop. Later getting into a relationship with Akuma despite them being 17 at the time they began [Soon to be 18 ] and Akuma was turning 21.

Which to my annoyances, Akuma drew NSFW of both Greens sona and their's the moment Green turned 18. I did not approve of this but expressing my distaste I was afraid of being ganged up on and abandoned. [ During this period of my life was extremely stressful.]

I was playing minecraft alone earlier in the year when I got a message from Akuma asking for my opinion on something that happened recently[This was in 2021 I believe.] I said sure and they put me on call with both Green and him. They begin explaining their situation to me, about how a fucking 13 YEAR OLD, "consented" to Green making NSFW jokes and something similar of sort. The two got banned from the said server for their explicit behavior in front of a minor. I told them straight up regardless that wasnt okay for them to do that. I explained to them a 13 year old regardless can't consent but those two where so amendment on shifting the situation like they where not at fault. The 13 year old said it was okay, so they did it. I was just flabbergasted to what I was hearing. After some talk I left the call, my friend messages me who run the server explained to me that Akuma at first didnt defend green but then later proceeded to ride tooth and nail for them. and that it wasnt just one minor that was in the call, there was another one.

It became more and more clear to me, as I grew older that Akuma would not learn. Not once did he directly apologize to me about what happened like he claimed. The instance where he "apologized" he did not even write it himself, it was Green who wrote it to try and ease the tension from the Deviantart community and whatever was ongoing. I apologized to HIM if anything and he forgave ME. Everytime the situation would be brought up they would break down, say the same things and saying how much he starved himself in the midst of it. While I did feel bad for them and cared about him I grew increasingly tired how they shifted the blame to the other party, got a pat on the back and continued their life like they didn't just hurt people without ever realizing their mistakes. I realized, this was not my friend. I just dropped them, after a few years I got help for my troubles. A waking moment if you will, it hurts me a lot thinking about what had happened. While I did not plan on ever calling Akuma out. Some point someone will, I can only hope for the best that no one else was involved. I just needed to share my further experiences after the doc was made, I want Akuma to be held accountable this time. I was disgusted rereading the document how much I downplayed the situation at hand when I was effected, Yellow was effected and Green was effected . Never do what I did please, if you are being groomed or someone who is older than you is acting this way to minors, call them out and get out of there. I can't ever forgive them after everything. They where my closest friend who helped me through my darkest hours, but the damage has been done.

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The information was brought back up because Retrokaiju still had a platform where minors were present and unaware of their behavior. As you wrote, taken with a grain of salt, then this behavior has only continued and needs to be made aware of. I'm sorry for what happened to you and hope the best for you going forward.

#froads #retrokaiju

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everything-i-couldnt-tell-u · 1 year

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hey if youre reading this i just genuinely wanna know the reason why you used to expose me in the server in the first place. i thought i was over it but no. like was i a laughing stock to you? or was my humor too horrible but you couldnt tell me directly that its weird as fuck? were you aware i was just joking whenever i said all those bullshit? did you just not think it through when you did it? or did were my jokes too horrible that i deserved to be exposed. cause if i was in the server i would be kinda fine cause ill be explaining myself out but no. i have no control over what happened. do you fucking understand that those people see me as a weird ass perverted, insane, and unhinged person now? like i know i am but they think thats my whole personality. cause the way you exposed me sounded like you looked down on me and like you didnt even gave the whole context of our convos. like im the only one who ended up looking deranged there. i know that you know youre on the same level of deranged as me but i never did that shit once to you. you know what i always told people about you? that you were such a nice friend, you were so special to me, and even if i knew you werent a good person and i always felt that i shouldnt be hanging out with, i didnt care because you were special to me and i saw you differently. i accepted you for who you are and i never once looked down on you. but seeing the way you talk about me with other people like i was your stupid toy you can just laugh at... you dont know how bad my panic attack was. and the fact that you sent my message with me saying i wanna record your voice so i can turn it into my ringtone? bitch did you not get that i was joking? like if i record your weird laugh and make it my ringtone itd be so funny. id easily wake up if i heard a funny laugh as my ringtone not because id be motivated to wake up if i hear your voice. you think im into that shit? you exposed it without any context and they thought i was being a weird obsessed person who simps for you? tf? like if you could do something about the situation and stop them from having that impression of me being a downbad wild simp then id forgive you but i bet thats impossible. i was just joking when i said all those bullshit, but you exposed me to the server without them having any context about me so they thought i was being serious and now theyre disgusted. im scared because what if you were doing that shit the whole time and what if i cant trust you? i know you stopped doing it (well i believe), but i cant trust you anymore. i know someone in that server who can use what you exposed against me and do you fucking understand the trouble you put me into? i honestly dont know what i want you to do and i dont want it anymore. maybe i couldve asked you to genuinely apologize in the server for doing that shit to me before or like make it clear to them atleast that im not that disgusting but i guess you might have seen me just like how they do so i dont care anymore.

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suckishima · 2 years

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Asahi?

Yess, thanks for asking!!

First impression: i loved asahi pretty much immediately, not only was the contrast between his image and his personality really funny to me (although i still disagree that he looks scary lmao, imo he's probably one of the most conventionally pretty/handsome characters in the show, but the various characters reactions to seeing him the first time is still funny), but i also related to him right off the bat. i was absolutely convinced that he was gonna be my favorite character at first lol

Impression now: other characters have stolen my heart a biiiit more than asahi, but that's honestly more bc of narrative focus than anything else. i still have such a soft spot for him, i really like how he is kind of a cautious scaredy-cat but at the same time he gets so focused in-game. the manga has these really nice detailed panels of his hands during his pre-serve routine and i just really like how it's used as like a representation of him pouring his intensity/emotion directly into his physicality so that he can play to his fullest. idk it kinda goes back to how i think contrast makes him interesting

Favorite moment: this is small, but i think about how he reacts to hinata trying to take the ball from him during the tokyo training camp a lot. he isn't mad or offended, or even like worried (like tsukki sort of implies), but instead he's motivated to keep working harder and solidify his place as the ace

Idea for a story: oooo i have a spoiler-y answer that i'd love to read from someone someday (and that i'm sure must exist somewhere), but maybe like a one shot from his pov of him and the other third years hanging out at nationals and like savoring their last tournament together

Unpopular opinion: i guess i already said this lol, but hOW is he scary-looking 😆i mean i get it, it's like the goatee and long hair as a teenager and there’s definitely a cultural aspect to those things with him being a teenager in japan, but i personally just can't look at him and see anything other than a very kind man lol

Favorite relationship: nishinoya! their friendship is so fun! like on paper they shouldnt get along, but i absolutely love how noya is asahi's number 1 hype man, and i can like actually picture them hanging out and doing stuff together outside of volleyball

Favorite headcanon: shimizu’s words about his bun being too tight and causing a receding hairline haunts him for the rest of his life until he eventually throws out all his hair ties and just leaves his hair long and free

#hq #ask #asahi #rayofsun936

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doodledrawsthings · 4 years

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Her Aim Was Getting Better

(Ahit ““““““Coffee Shop AU”““““““ rp log)

This is part of an RP between @displacedentities and myself detailing the meet-up between Luka and Vanessa, when she spikes his coffee with the curse. We did this a while back to get a feel for the characters and how that scene would go down, and they nailed it with how they wrote Vanessa. So I asked them if I could post it. Some of the stuff here was written before we had other things established, so some things like Hatties’s age and how long ago they split might be inconsistent with other posts I’ve made, but Enjoy!

(also forgive me for the way i write my parts, I’m not as practiced at writing rip)

(MysticDoodles) Despite the warm paper cup in her hands, Vanessa couldn't deny the chill in her bones. It had yet to go away since that day in court, biting at her skin and hovering just at the base of her brain stem. It always seemed to grow colder whenever she thought about how she got here... the things she'd said. What she almost did to that poor briefcase jockey in the courthouse.

But it didn't matter, anymore. If anything, her mom was happy she lost that case. Losing her husband and... child had stripped away all excuses she had not to throw herself into her work, and her mother was happy.

Vanessa was not happy.

In fact, she was seething.

Luka took everything from her, that day. Her love, her place in their home. His adorable smile, his laugh... they weren't hers anymore. He only gave them to that- little gremlin. The parasite that took his love away from her, her precious nickname given to their daughter.

Nobody got to be Luka's princess except Vanessa herself. Never again.

She lost the custody battle and her efforts to take Luka's obsession away from him, but she was going to make sure he lost so much more.

Vanessa waited in the autumn breeze, her fingers clenching and unclenching around the coffee cup. Chestnut-infused Columbian. His favorite. A sister cup sat opposite the table, waiting for him. If he was brave enough to show his face. .

(DeusExMakena) He could see her from his car as he pulled into the parking space, sitting at a table by the large window at the front of the coffee shop. How long had it been now? Around five years, right? Hattie was barely a year old when they split.

He used to get so excited about meeting her, being in her presence, making her smile... and now the very thought of just getting out of his car and making eye contact with her left a pit in his stomach. As much as he'd loved this woman in the past, the way she treated their newborn daughter.... he had to stop thinking about it. Starting this meeting out in an angry mood wouldn't be a good idea.

With a sigh he finally willed himself to leave the vehicle, and just as he looked up their eyes met. The pit in his stomach deepened as he walked up to the cafe doors.

(MysticDoodles) The ice crept up her neck again. Vanessa forced it down, and put up a smile. No reason to start this off as cold as the ice in her veins.

Luka can see from her attire that she's doing rather well- financially, anyway. A thick coat against the autumn chill- or maybe from her heart, so closed off- and a scarf stuffed into her bookbag. Her mother must have improved her stipend, now that they split. What a beastly woman. It's pointless to ponder what-ifs at this point, but maybe if Vanessa's mother had been someone else... no. No point.

With one hand, she gestures to the chair opposite her. Empty and waiting. "Hello, Luka. I got your favorite. You're doing well?"

...the tenor isn't as friendly as it sounds, and feels more plastic than her smile appears.

(DeusExMakena) He hesitates, looking around the venue at the other tennants before wordlessly taking the seat across from her, mostly staring at the coffee cup in front of him.

Why is he having such a hard time looking at her?

"I'm... fine," he manages to force out as he takes the cup in both hands. Come on, man just get this over with and you can go home. "So uh, what brings you here?"

He wishes he could kick himself in the face for how out of place he feels, right now. What do you even say to someone you haven't seen in years, when the last time you saw them had been after an intense battle over the custody rights of the child you fought so hard to protect?

At least the warmth of the cup in his hands provides him with some reassurance.

(MysticDoodles) Something in Vanessa's smile twitches, but it's gone before he can really tell what it was.

"Oh- I just wanted to chat, catch up on old times, you know? I'm guessing the bar exam went well?"

...

Awkward silence, as Vanessa turns her smile away. She lifts her own coffee cup to her lips and takes a long drink, looking at the pavement.When she sets it down, there's a brief moment where her fingertips looked blue. It soon fades back into perfectly trimmed nails.

"...you know why I called you here, Luka. Don't make me lie to you." Her voice grows quiet, though pensive or frustrated is difficult to parse. "You were always better at lying, anyway."

(DeusExMakena) He squints slightly at that last remark and has to do enrything in his power to hold his tongue.

"I dont, actually. With the way things ended the last time we saw eachother, I was almost sure that would be it." he says, probably with a bit more venom in his tone than he should have used, but he was here for less than 10 minutes, now, and he could already feel his patience waning.

"But if you're really just here to reconnect, you'll have to forgive me" he takes a moment to swirl the cup in front of him before lifting it towards his mouth "I'm not very good at small-talk."

Chestnut-infused Columbean bean. Cream and Sugar. So nice to know that she never forgot.

(MysticDoodles) Vanessa smiles as he takes a drink. It's gone by the time he removes the cup again.

"...sorry," she says. Her stony expression shifts into a frown. This wasn't how she expected this conversation to go- but really, she had been expecting nothing, so no pain or gain thus far. "I'm not being very polite, am I? I guess I just- missed you, Luka. It's very different, going back to my mother's apartment after-... well. Being with you."

...

Another quiet sip. Vanessa runs her finger on the plastic cap.

"...do you miss the nights after we studied, when we'd just sit on the couch together and watch garbage movies?"

Before Harriet came along, she didn't say aloud.

(DeusExMakena) Of course he did, he loved her. And as much as he'd love to revisit those moments, to relive the sense of elation he felt when he got her to laugh over awkward acting and nonsensical writing... He just couldn't forgive her for what she did.

He sighs, opting to indulge in her to see where she's going with this.

"Yeah," He takes another sip, looking back down at the table "Sometimes I still wonder why that had to stop."

(MysticDoodles) There's no way he misses the way her fingers tighten on the paper coffee cup. Especially since it's accompanied by an audible pop of paper crumpling in a half inch, and liquid sloshing within.

"They did stop, Luka."

How could he be so blind?

"They stopped when you stopped spending them with me. You spent all your time with our daughter, and not with the loving wife who gave her to you. Don't you see how unfair that is? I deserved your time, too."

Vanessa sighs, her words almost chastising. It reminded of the times she shifted into 'disappointed mother' mode around Harriet. Their one year old, at the time, who didn't understand consequences for things like dropping a toy in the sink. She even had the nerve to sound hurt as she speaks those words.

(DeusExMakena) He is absolutely apalled.

"I-" he doesnt know why he cant find the words to respond. His eyes wide and his eyebrows furrow as he glares directly at her. He shouldnt be surprised by this, really, he saw this coming. Five years, and some things will just never change.

Luka pinches the bridge of his nose, he MARRIED this woman.

"I'm sorry, are we- are we really doing this again?" He sets his coffee cup on the table with a little more force than he wanted to, "You do realize you're getting jealous over a literal one-year old that we both agreed that we wanted to have. I'm her father, I'm sorry, again, for doing my job and raising our child."

(MysticDoodles) Vanessa's long-suffering expression hardens back into stone, pouting out her lip as once more, Luka shows no signs of budging on his stance. How very lawyerlike of him. To the bitter end, he would fight for his side of the case against the opposition. She wished they didn't have to be on opposite sides, anymore, yet here she was for the second time.

"Is it so wrong that I wanted to spend more time with my husband? All toddlers need to learn to share, anyway." Vanessa shrugs, as if this were no big deal. "You never spent evenings with me, anymore, Luka. Every night that you came back from graduate classes and networking with firms, you would go right to her. The honeyed words for me didn't come until dinner, if they came at all. And don't talk to me like I wasn't a good mother- I kept her out of trouble during the day, whenever I was out of rotation."

...

"How is my little Harriet doing? It's been so long since you've squirreled her away."

(DeusExMakena) No. No, no, no, he's not doing this again

"You..." He tries to hold his tongue, but peck, he doesnt want to deal with this right now. He feels his hands ball into fists "No. I'm sorry, no, you don't get to ask how my daughter is doing. You had every opportunity to join us, no one was stopping you from being happy but yourself! You wanna talk about sharing? Then why are you throwing a fit over a over a child spending time with her father?"

...

"She wanted a relationship with you, you know. It's... really hard having to explain to a five-year-old that she doesnt get to see her mother because she was too immature to realize 'oh hey! I could hang out with both my daughter AND my husband at the same time!'" He says that last bit in a mocking tone as he picks up his coffee and goes in for another sip, glaring straight at his ex-wife with pure exasperation.

(MysticDoodles) There he goes again. His daughter.

This time, Vanessa doesn't look away as she returns the glare. The medical graduate holds unflinching eye contact as she lifts her own cup and downs half the contents. Trying to make a statement, maybe? She always did have issues with competition.

"...so where does that leave us, then? You drink the coffee I got you, and walk away? Are you really so set on burning this bridge, Luka? Things can go back to the way they were, if you really want it that way. My stipend will get us through the rest of exams, and then we can live a good life together - high paying jobs, a comfortable apartment, as many dates and trashy movie nights as we want. Doesn't that sound wonderful?"

...she didn't say a word about five-year-old Harriet.

(DeusExMakena) Luka takes a moment to stare at her, eyes half-lidded and tired.

He picks up the cup and downs the rest of his coffee, before placing it back on the table and standing up from his seat, his eyes never leaving hers.

"Allow me to light the match for you."

With that, he turns towards the door, ready to leave. Why would he feel bad about burning a bridge that leads nowhere?

(MysticDoodles) Luka can hear the squeal of the metal chair legs as Vanessa stands abruptly from her seat. There's no click of heels on riverstone, but he knows she's got her fists clenched at her sides, watching him. She always did that when she was angry. Maybe this time she'd have some ice on her wrists, now that her abilities were public. She'd put less effort into hiding it after the court case, anyway.

"YOU'RE MAKING A MISTAKE!" Vanessa yells after him as he continues, stride unbroken. "You'll regret this! You won that case, but you'll always be my prince, and I'll always be your princess!"

But legally, she couldn't touch him, now. Luka and Harriet were no longer family. He knew that, and she knew he did.

...

Oh well.

The door closes with a crnk-ling of the bell, and the background noise of the cafe starts to fade back into her awareness. Or lack thereof. Everyone nearby was staring, not that she cared.

Stiffening her upper lip, Vanessa grabs her bag and loops it back over one shoulder. She pats the side, removing the scarf off the copy of 'Ancient Botanicals & You' she'd found at the antique bookshop, and tying the garment back around her neck. With one hand she picks up Luka's cup, and looks inside.

Empty.

A smile traces her lips as she takes it along with her own, and tosses them both into the trash can.

Now all she had to do was wait and see.

#ahit #a hat in time #ahit 'coffee shop au'#The Snatcher #Queen Vanessa #fic #fanfic #kiiiinda??#displacedentities #mysticdoodles #lemme know if i should tag anything

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Genshin Impact Visions & Gods

This has been bugging me since i started playing in mid november, but what makes a certain Archon give a Character their Vision. Considering i couldnt find any official info, I decided to do some research on each Archon and then on the player Characters we have of each element as of beginning of December 2020.

This will contain spoilers on characters & story!

Note: The travelers will not be included due to them not having Visions and having more then one Element.

I am basing this on overlaping themes and not on anything related to the actual Archon. I did add some info on the archons tho, due to this being about Visions and archons

“It is unclear whether Visions are directly granted by its element's corresponding Archon or by the nation's Archon. There is also the possibility that granting a Vision requires approval from both Archons. Yet another possibility is that they are granted by neither, and are instead given by the gods on Celestia.”

-Genshin Wiki on reciving Visions

Starting with my Favourite Element, Electro.

Electro wise, We have five Characters as of right now: Kequin, Razor, Beidou, Fishl and Lisa. The Electro Archon, God of Eternity, Baal, is the ruling Archon of the Area, Inazuma, whitch is the area we are getting in the 1.4 update in 2021.

To start off i read into any info i could find on Baal and i gotta say, she is a interesting Fellow. As of right now we know that Baal has locked Inazuma down and has initiated a Vision Hunt Decree, due to her thinking Visions should be under the sole domain of divinity. She also hasnt handed out any Visions since this decree which means all Electro characters we know have gotten theirs before this drastic change.

Now, why did these 5 characters get their Visions? Well each character has a different reason, from Razor wanting to protect those he calls friends to Lisa simpley saying it would be of use to her and just getting it. From what I've found there isnt really a big overlap in the reciving of the characters, but what is overlaping is their fixation on something.

Razor recived his vision due to him being fixated on getting stronger to protect his friends after he failed to while being dragged away by an abyss mage

Kequin was fixated on sharing her beliefs, that the people of Lyiue shouldnt rely on Rex Lapis and have their Pride and that their views are of Equal importance

Fishl was so fixated on a book series she changed herself to be like the main character, fishl and her Vision manifested in the form of Oz, one of the characters from said book

Beidou was fixated on killing Haishan, a sea monster, from a young age and recived her vision when she did so

Lisa is pretty much fixated on understanding magecraft and the cost of reciveing a Vision.

Now onto a easier Element, Geo

The Archon of Geo and Contracts, Morax, Archon of Lyiue.

Morax or Rex Lapis, was one of the oldest gods, defended Lyiue in the Archon war, the Currency in Teyvat, Mora, is named after him and as of Chp.1 Act 3 we know that he has taken the form of Zhongli and has retired as the Geo Archon.

Morax, Along with Barbatos, are the only two Archons of the Original Seven that havent been replaced.

Now, who are our Geo Characters? Noelle and Ningguang, two dedicated powerhouses! This one is fairly simple, thanks to voicelines we have of Zhongli since he came out as a player character (Bless the pity pull for giving me this man)

In his “About Ningguang” Voiceline he says: ”Despite the multitude of affairs she deals with in a day, Ningguang always continues to press on. A rare gem indeed. I'm reminded of the time that she used to walk barefoot from Yaoguang Shoal to the south wharf, trying to sell her wares as she went. Time is cruel to humans.”

Noelle recived her vision when Jean Acknowledged her hard work when she tried to get into the knights of favonius. in her “Vision” story it states: This was a lucky day that she would always remember, for she would receive recognition from two all-important sources this day: once from Jean, and the other from the gods. Her hard work has been remembered after all.

So for short: Hard working and dedicated = Geo Vision

Next up we have Anemo

Our wonderful Tone deaf bard, Venti or otherwise known as the Archon of Anemo and freedom, Barbatos, the not really ruling Archon of Mondstadt.

Barbatos is a freedom loving guy and refuses to rule over Mondstadt, the city of freedom and is by far the weakest of the Archons, despite this the people of Modstadt still love and adore their windy God.

I went into this one thinking “Oh this is easy, itll be love for freedom or something!” Nope, it surprisingly wasnt. Jean and sucerose recived their visions through their Determination it seems. Sucerose from doing her 159th Dandilion seed Simmering experiment and Jean seemed to be determened to be a good grandmaster and to protect Mondstadt.

That aside, i couldnt find many overlaps with the two, they are both free spirited and love what they do.

Now on to Pyro

Pyro, the Element of the Archon Murata who is also the god of War, is wielded by the fan fav Diluc, as well as Klee, Xiangling, Amber, Bennett and Xinyan.

Not much is known about Murata, Venti describes her as a “ wayward, warmongering wretch” and thats about all we know. She presides over Natlan.

Now to the characters, this was acually the easiest of them all: Passion.

Every Pyro user has a huge amount of passion that a rolemodel or Loved one ignited within them.

This one definitly surprised me the least and i am really excited for when we meet Murata and Natlan.

Diluc has the same passion his father had

Klee has a passion for Explosives that her mother ignited

Xiangling has a passion for food and cooking she got from her father

Amber got her Passion for Mondstadt and the outriders from her grandfather

Bennett got the Passion for adventure from all the old adventurers he calls dads, yes Dads as in plural, that raised him

Xinyan has a passion for Rock, tho i havent found out more of her story due to her being so new.

Now heading onto Hydro

Hydro, along with Dendro, is the only element where we do not know the name of the Archon. All we do know is that they are the Archon of Hydro and Justice and rule over Fontaine.

So straight to the Hydro characters: Barbara, Mona and Xingqiu.

I dont really count Childe due to the only thing talked about is his dilusion and i am rather confused on if he even has a real vision but i still love him lots

Im going to be honest this one really had me running the brain gears for a while.

All three recived their Vision as an extension of the self.

Barbara got hers after helping a sick boy by singing to him to help him sleep through a fever, Mona rekindeled a learning aid to her vision, to aid her with her search for the truth of the rules of the world and Xingqiu got his after he explained the principles of his clans martial arts anew, litterally saying that martial artists should see Visions as a extension of the self.

Last but definitly not least, Cryo

Cryo, the Element of the Archon know as the Tsaritsa. We acually dont know her corrisponding ideal nor her acual name and this one was just as geargrinding as Hydro.

The Tsaritsa, Ruler of the fatui and the one that gives them their Dilusions, is one interresting lady. We get a description of her from Childe: “Her Royal Highness the Tsaritsa is actually a gentle soul. Too gentle, in fact, and that's why she had to harden herself. Likewise, she declared war against the whole world only because she dreams of peace. Her gaze was cold but pure, arrogant yet sharp. She was not only the sacrosanct Cryo Archon but a true warrior also.”

Kaeya, Chongyun, Diona and Qiqi, our current four Cyro userer, all have rather interesting storys when it comes to how they got their Vision.

All dont accept something

Kaeya felt guilty about hiding who he was from the family that adopted him after his father abandoned him to be a spy in Mondstadt, and told Diluc, someone he used to be very close with, the truth, since then he sees his vision as a stern reminder that he must live his life under a heavy burden of Lies. He pretty much doesnt accept the truth of his situatin and would rather live with that heavy burden

Chonyun is surpressing a part of himself, the condition he has, and as Xiangling says in Chongyuns stories, is denying a part of him. He trys to work around his condition and wont accept it as the way to go about how he practices exocrism.

Diona wont accept the truth about her father being a Alcoholic, and places the blame on the Alcohol industy instead of accepting that he isnt as high and mighty as she thought. She wont accept that her fathers bad control over his drinking habits is the reason he acts as he does and instead blames the alcohol industry.

Qiqi didnt want to accept her death nor does she really accept her Zombie like traits and only uses them when she needs to defend herself.

My theory is the Cyro Visions are recevied when you wont accept the grim reality as it is, if this is positive or negative variates

When it comes to the last element, Dendro, we sadly know nothing nor have we seen any dendro character in action. So that might be a addition later on.

I’m really interrested if we find out the actual criteria for reciving each Vision one day

#genshin impact #genshin diluc #genshin theory #kaeya #diluc ragnvindr #zhongli #childe #genshin venti #genshin chongyun #this game is taking over my life

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