#but he wouldn't agree if told ]

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

you know if we do accept the last epilogue-esque sequence as a sort of dream/wish of ted's and therefore not necessarily canon, very funny if we then simply go "yeah, trent's book is called 'the lasso way' actually. he didn't change that. nope."

#listen on one hand #i think that like #i don't think ted actually changed trent's mind about the title #i think trent changed it because ted asked him to #and like that's especially interesting bc he even made a point of being like #'tell me if you disagree with anything and i'll tell you why you're wrong' #but he respects ted; more than that he likes him and he wants him to like the book--like him #anyone else and trent would have told them to fuck off but ted? ted asking him to change the title? yeah #i think he didn't agree with 'it not being about him'--and not bc of any feelings he may have for ted--but if we accept that him changing #the title is canon then like. he did it because ted asked. nothing more nothing less #maybe he felt he owed it to ted as the subject of the book; maybe he just respected him too much not to #maybe it's partially bc of his feelings; maybe it's because he just couldn't say no to ted #but it's ultimately just. because ted asked him. #and trent respects him; trusts him; cares about him #and that's pretty heartwrenching #but like on the other hand if we say 'no that was ted's wishufl thinking trent definitely went 'sorry ted it's called the lasso way'' #also like.... him being like. like quietly not changing it and if ted said something him just. being like #ted. i respect you. i care about you. i trust you. but with all due respect absolutely not #yes it isn't ONLY about you but YOU made this happen. YOU are special and YOU have a place here whether you can stay forever or not #yes it's about the team and the coaches yes you aren't a one man band but ted. TED. you touched lives. you changed lives. and that was YOU. #that was you and your philosophy and your attitude. #you made richmond what it is today. yes the team deserve credit too for the kind of bond they have now but YOU facilitated that #none of the coaches currently here woudl be coaches if not for you. the diamond dogs wouldn't exist. literally every single one #of our friends--OUR friends--wouldn't be where they are and probably wouldn't be as happy #you got through to people over and over again who were hurting and lashing out. to rebecca. to roy. to jamie. to nate. to me. #and you can be humble but there's being humble and there's acting like you don't matter to any of us like you didn't have an impact #like you can just leave without a trace. we don't blame you for leaving--i especially don't--but acting like we won't miss you and like #your time with all of us--our time--meant nothing is more insulting than it is humble because we /love you/ #and yes. it was the goddamn lasso way that built this place #this community.

[za-baransu]

what is your lifetrap---?

Your lifetrap is: Unrelenting Standards (67%)

Followed by: Emotional Deprivation (63%), Mistrust-Abuse (38%), Social Exclusion (33%), Defectiveness and Subjugation (29%), Vulnerability (25%), Abandonment and Entitlement (17%), Dependence and Failure-Impairment (0%)

Your primary feeling is one of pressure. You feel as if you can never relax and enjoy life. That you must always push to get ahead. For you, life is only doing. It is having to work or achieve all the time. You feel frustrated and irritated with yourself for not meeting your own high standards.

Physical stress is common with you. You may have headaches, digestion or bowel problems, as well as high blood pressure and/or insomnia. At root, you probably feel chronically angry, but with no apparent object to direct that anger towards. Instead of staying with that anger, you channel it outwards to your surroundings. Everything has to be perfect. You need to feel in control. 

Most likely you are successful. But you rarely stop and enjoy your success. The balance between work and pleasure feels lopsided. You turn many forms of activity into work and it enslaves you. You seem to have lost touch with your basic self. You go through the motions, but no longer know what makes you happy.

One of your parents may have used shame or criticism when you failed to meet their high expectations. As an adult, you feel you cannot let go of your need for perfect order, achievement, or status. But your excessively high standards are in fact impinging on your quality of life. You are successful, but not fulfilled. You need to learn that you can lower your standards without feeling like a failure.

Tagged by: from my own blog

Tagging: @quirofiliac | @pwophet | @chernozemic ; @thusspoke | @humificates ; @kuraikyu ; @adenial ; @jinjahime ; @bornhollow ; @kamitakes ; @hxbiris ; @reiiishii ; @cinghialefedele ; @keikakudori ; @imagend ; @inouehs ; @despairforme ; @baishouqijia ; @owabisuru | @gyakusama ; @zajevre ; @deathleads ; @liecoris ; @lured-into-wonderland ; @mikroteros ; @determinazione ; @deityforged ; @trireign ; @huntiburon [ and whoever else wants to, else i'm gonna go off for pages again ]

#☆ [ headcanon ] #[ early morning meme #it's kinda fascinating to see because i know where the explanations come from #they apply on a sort of meta-level for him #but he wouldn't agree if told ]

[grapejuicegay]

There’s a lot of stuff in this show that is obvious in hindsight through context clues which starts to make sense after we get the added context.

One major one would be Akk and Ayan’s first conversation in the teachers’ bathroom. The tension there makes a lot more sense when you know that Akk knows Ayan just saw him set off the car.

But we also have a lot of context that a lot of characters don’t have. Here are a few examples:

Thua doesn’t know that Wat has been watching Kan look at him for a while now. Thua didn’t see the look of devastation of Kan’s face when he was talking to Ayan.

Wat was the only one who noticed Akk was trying to side with Waree in the class to try and settle things. Most people do still think Akk is just a suck up

Almost nobody has seen Namo be shady

To date nobody knows why Kan was late to class because he got in a fight

Nobody knows Wat is making a short film 

Kan knows about Akk and Ayan but Wat and Akk don’t know about Kan and Thua

Wat doesn’t know about Akk and Ayan - not really

Nobody outside Chadok’s office knows that Dika is dead 

Thua took over the curse from Akk very quicky - there wasn’t a lot of downtime between those two events. Even for people looking into who is behind it, it’s the same person. That’s why even though Akk almost set the school on fire it seems like escalation because he didn’t, and the banner was more drastic and public than throwing paint on the posters.

And in that same vein, Thua never knew that Akk was being brainwashed, or that he had decided to stop the curse, or that he had changed his position and beliefs. For the most part, if anyone knew that outside of Ayan or Wat or Kan, it was The World Remembers because Akk quietly apologised to them the last time he took their things - it was the most he could do.

Thua had no way of knowing. From his perspective, it was all still going.

#yes this is a defense of thua fight me #thua being behind the curse also wasn't a surprise #i saw that coming in ep 10 #he'd been gearing up to a fight for a WHILE #and they TOLD us in ep 10 that it was him #it's all context clues #it's been building since ep 1 with his snarky interaction with kan on that bench #kan: you should have said it nicely; thua: you wouldn't listen #it's been a looooong time coming #were his methods wrong? yes #but he's like a caged cornered animal lashing out #(also if you want to talk about how thua outing akk and ayan wasn't okay #p'golf agrees it's on their twitter #but this is a fictional teenager FINALLY lashing out some shit is bound to go wrong) #the eclipse #eclipse series

[sensesdialed]

the way some people will just go out of their way to misconstrue m.cu peter is like. can we get a new bit maybe

#now genuine mcu writing criticism i understand and agree with. also some choices regarding his creation in general #but talking about him as if he just accepts may's death and 'his fate' right there in comparison to atsv is. oh my god #he did not just say 'okay' and move on. tobey and andrew were NOT telling him to accept may's death 'because it had to happen' #they were showing solidarity with this grieving kid and trying to prevent him from spiraling over something that had Already Happened #and this whole movie was peter REFUSING TO LISTEN and SAVING THE LIVES of multiple villains that he was told were supposed to die #not ONCE in any movie he's been in has he EVER been one to listen to authority?? if he had been told that may would die before it happened #you're telling me you think he WOULDN'T have tried to save her? #if he were around for atsv he would empathize with and side with miles! #like i already HAD thoughts about the very similar position he was just in and how complicated he'd feel here but since spiderman fans #can't fucking handle nuance i'm making a point of the fact that he KNOWS where miles is coming from first #i also think the spiderverse movies are objectively better but there is no reason to be This obtuse about his characterization #🕸 ❝ i have nothing left… except spider man ❞ → ooc #atsv spoilers #kind of??

[adore-gregor]

:)

#but i am feeling better overall about it all since yesterday #i should have read it sooner but as i told you i got an a in that class #and the professor also gave me feedback it was so nice 🤧 #i love my uni professors they're really great ☺️ #it just reminded that i am good at some things and maybe i will hopefully achieve a good job with my studies one day... #he gave me feedback on a text i had to write on the course and also more general #he wrote he apreciated my interest & participation in class &that he loves seing nothing more than in his students than that as a professor #:)) #i also got 10/10 points #and he agreed with a lot of my observation and thought it was interesting to read #but also while i do love football i am thinking of quitting it #altough i don't like to be a person that runs away from difficulties #but honestly i don't feel very welcomed in the team either and they are just so different we have little in common #they are not mean to me but i don't really feel part of it either and there is this one girl who is overly competitive #and she moans at you if you make a mistake in training like in training! #i mean i'm not overly upset about if sometimes some words fall in a match it can happen in the pressure but in training?? #like she also probably thinks she's so good but if she were she wouldn't be at our team now would she 😂 #like calm down #and she's a defender but if she had to defend me in a 1v1 i bet she'd lose actually because she could never keep up with my speed 😅 #i mean she's not horrible otherwise but and not that i'm that great besides my speed and sometimes i have my moments where i dribble well #but i'm not the one acting like this #and she's also the type of person who has inked in her bio on social media which i find funny sry 😂 #if anyone who reads this has this too pls don't be offended #but you know it just makes me think why? how is having a tattoo one of the most interesting things about you 😂 #it's not a personality trait? nothing else of interest in your life that's sad 😅 #doesn't need to be true for everybody but if you disagree tell me why like i don't see it lol #and i'm also worried i won't play like i'm not putting in so much time to then sit on the bench #i'd even try goalkeeper tbh if that means i'd be appreciated for it if i were good at it #it's not that i think i'm so good that i need to play just that i have limited time with uni and tennis already... #it's a lot already i would at least like to get something out of it

[ahalal-uralma]

Eastern Philosophers vs Western Philosophers. Epic Rap Battles of History

I’ve watched a lot of these, but I can’t believe I’ve missed this one and it is the best one out of all of them easily. I needed a few minutes to clear my eyes from laughing too hard. I have thoughts, but will preserve them in tags.

#epic rap battles of history #erb #firstly let's get right into it #i love the opposition of the philosopher's regarding morals and ethics #and how they turn on one another based on conflict of opinion alone which remains an issue of contention to this day for those learning #love how Nietzche calls Voltaire out for being immoral despite his judging society and the government for being so #and I agree #even if I did love the works of Voltaire myself #can't deny he was a hypocrite in life #he was a lech and scammer #he built his entire status and wealth off of the lottery #by replaying it #that came at the expense of the government #and now for what I disagree with!!! #It's about to get spicy... #Socrates is not the father of Philosophy!!!!!!!!! #I told you #It's going to get spicy and it's Thales if you want a name #since a lot of Pre-Socratic Philosopher's didn't properly document their ideologies and my next take is that Sun Tzu wouldn't have #supported Military Force #He wasn't aggressive #so take this video with a grain of salt #best part of it for me? #when Nietzsche spelled out his last name #like I already messed that name up myself in tags earlier

[lostlovepunk]

fucking. psychiatrists

#asked to check out of the clinic #doctor questioned how right i am to do that #i got tense (surprise!!) #he said i seemed pretty stressed qnd ut wouldn't he a good idea to let me out without having stress skills #just fucking assumed i have bpd in an attempt to dismissme (when my actual psychiatrist there told me thisweek i have traits butnot enough) #and basically refused to let me go if i didn't agree to do a 'practice overnight stay' #so yeah. i have to go there again tomorrow to get my fucking meds #but hey how dare someone be upset when you want to deny them their bodily autonomy /s #spike spoke

[juuheizou]

ok but think about juuzou and tooru as parents to a baby girl🥺 what r your thoughts pls they'd be so adorable

Completely valid. Their caring sides are pretty adorable, both of them. Mutsuki, despite being as timid as he is, would be the one encouraging her spunkiness even a little too much and completely at her mercy when she wants to play or cuddle with dads. Suzuya would be thrilled to have a dress-up friend to make cute sparkly crafts or whole ass furniture fixings for, after they're done getting into mischief as a team, of course. That being said, this is the baby girl I cannot stop imagining, and won't ever stop imagining.

source: Kitty Lee Photography

#listen i know as the person who posts ramblings on tumblr as a hobby its on me to make the post but #imagine suzumutsu getting their first pet thats truly both of theirs and its a little kitten #you cannot tell me they would not be just as obsessed as a couple expecting a human baby #though if you told mutsuki one day he would be half the cat lady suzuya is he wouldn't believe you-- cats are a little scary #but then he meets *his cat* #answers #anon #suzumutsu #sorry i don't like kids myself so maybe that influences me a little but i love childfree cat people suzumutsu so much and find it so cute #and yet as obsessed as mutsuki is he still only amounts to half of suzuyas cat lady quirkiness #am i trying to put a bandaid on me not agreeing with a potential friend with cute kitten pictures #or did i find an article about a photographer who did a whole newborn photoshoot for their kitten and become obsessed #the world may never know

[healingheartdogs]

All of my planning and worrying didn't matter because he went on his own last night at home and it was traumatic as fuck for me and Selene both.

#dont read the tags if you dont want any details #he didnt seem that bad yesterday #he was swollen but he was still up and moving around on his own #he even took all his meds and ate a full bowl of food without any trouble #we called the vet to ask them to call us back to discuss options yesterday around 4 #vet called us back around 7 to discuss new meds to keep him comfortable while we got home euth set up for him #and we agreed ro go in today to pick them up for him and then got off the phone #and like five minutes later Banana suddenly started panting hard #so me and Selene sat on the floor with him trying to figure out what was wrong #and he started having a seizure which we're used to so we were keeping him company waiting for it to pass like normal #only it didnt #he suddenly died in my arms instead while I cried and screamed and tried to get him to start breathing again #selene call d the vet and told them we were bringing him in for an emergency visit and i was just sitting on the floor numb #cuz i knew the vet was too far away to be any help and even if they werent it wouldn't matter #he was already gone #he was gone so fast and I wasnt ready #it was so fucking horrible #im never going to be able to get the way he looked before he collapsed out of my head #my poor old man #that was not how it was supposed to go im so sorry

[devilsskettle]

anyway this scene is making me insane like this is literally what i’ve been talking about . i think she is so sick of being confined to her role and like having to be the “good one” or something and having people tell her what she should or shouldn’t do, or should or shouldn’t be okay with, and now with what happened in the desert she’s sorted out her priorities and they’re different from what everyone is telling her they should be and yes one of her priorities is her pro bono work but another one is pulling off these elaborate cons with jimmy and actually those two things are not that different to her, it’s a similar kind of challenge/risk/reward situation . and like she can be honest with herself about what she wants without having it compromise any other part of her life . and for both of them now i think a lot of their boundaries have been revealed to be lines drawn in the sand that are very easy to step over, over and over again . so anyway idk what i’m talking about but i get frustrated for her that other people are constantly trying to put her on a pedestal, because sure it’s nice to be admired but what about like her agency and her actual desires and personality and shit like that . anyway i think she should be allowed to be as fucked up and conniving as she wants. as a treat 

#kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #bcs #better call saul #anyway that guy who wouldn't move out of his house for the mesa verde call center told her she did good things for others to feel better #about herself and my friend who i'm watching this with kind of took that at face value and agreed with him #i do not think that's right though! i think even when she's conning people it's with a sense of justice tbh #and like a feeling of productivity and accomplishment that she doesn't get with straightforward corporate success #and after FIVE SEASONS does jimmy not realize that she is ON BOARD with all the antics #she loves that shit. now she doesn't have a reason to feel tension between doing what she wants and having a sense of like professionalism #or whatever. i don't think it's just straight up moral vs immoral i think her moral compass allows sketchy shit #like idk not that she doesn't care about morals but i think her morals are a lot different than other people expect #fucking over howard is acceptable to her because she thinks he's a condescending asshole who needs to get knocked down a peg #and it will help her and jimmy and a bunch of old people get a decent payout . and she can pull off a great little scheme #that is NOT contrary to her morality!! even if it's contrary to conventional morality i guess #i feel like the mistake people make is thinking kim is normal lmao there is something wrong with her and i'm obsessed with it #anyway i'm just saying shit recreationally.

[amatres]

mutual destruction everyone! give it up for mutual destruction!

#ama plays baldurs gate #balaerra (oc) #ship: you will always be hungry #ill post more screenshots this just fit well as it's own post lol #also i did the turning scene more than once to see different dialogue and did you know that depending on what you choose #they either keep their eyes open and look worried or keep their eyes closed? interesting! #also for why i did it multiple times: i was curious and also none of the dialogue options Really fit balaerra for once #she wouldn't have asked for anything she would have told him she got what she wanted now that cazadors dead and he is safe #his dialogue wouldn't change much tho i think. he would still try to convince her to become his spawn and she would agree to it #bc who better to keep her safe than him? and eternity doesn't sound to bad especially if it's with him. #mutual destruction at it's finest my guys

[nostalgia-tblr]

"Wren had begun advising on the repair of the Old St Paul's in 1661, five years before the fire in 1666."

Hrm... bit sus if you ask me. Do we know where he was when that fire started?

#on another wikipedia spiral #i don't like to call it a “conspiracy theory” but wren was pretty keen to tear down and rebuild large bits of london #and everyone was like “nice plans but obviously we can't do that” at him AND THEN LONDON WENT ON FIRE HOW VERY CONVENIENT #the st paul's cathedral page doesn't really convey the beauty of that bit where Wren's plan got rejected by the Anglican clergy and so he #agreed to build something more to their taste with a huge spire in the middle like they wanted #and then just went ahead and built what he wanted to anyway #nobody seems to be clear on *how* he managed to get so far before anyone willing + able to stop him realised what was going on #at uni i got told “he put up a lot of scaffolding” which seems like it wouldn't hide enough but who knows? #apparently based on the current foundations there is NO WAY he ever intended to build what he'd been told to build #moral of the story: if your architect reluctantly agrees to your ideas it's best to check on him a lot once construction starts #history stuff

[yeonban]

HOW DO YOU BEST LIKE TO BE LOVED?

SOMA: touch me with tender truth.

you crave being known and held. you just want the warmth and pressure of another body against your own. sometimes, late at night when you're alone in your bed, your skin aches with the lack of touch. you've tried touching yourself, and it isn't the same. one time someone gripped your shoulder and squeezed it in passing, and you thought about it for weeks after - the ghost pressure of their hand lingering. don't you deserve it? consistent physical love and caring? i think so, i think you do. but i also have to ask - do you fear it even as you want? after all, if you get it then it might also be taken away. i hope that if you fear it, you push through past that fear. that you ask for the touch you desire and deserve. i hope that you get touched with love and kindness, wrapped up in warm arms and rocked from side to side until the tension and pain falls away layer by layer and only you are left.

NAOTORA: write me your words of wonder.

you want to be thought of with intent, for someone to sit down and want to share their thoughts with you specifically. and their thoughts about you, even more. for someone to Know you, or at least desire the knowledge. for them to write it out in a way that you can read as quickly or slowly as you desire. that you can reread again and again, or lock in a box and never read after that first quick consumption. you crave that tangibility. and the small moments that lead up to the letter being in your hand. to be told, 'it's in the mail' and then to have the simple joy of checking the mailbox to see if it has come today. to hold the envelope and feel the love within. there is a purpose of intent within physically written words, and it patches the parts of you that feel like you aren't worth thinking about. my darling, know that you are. you are worth intentional thought and cursive letters and an envelope sealed with a kiss.

MIKITO: laugh with me long and loving.

jokes are simple and easy to comprehend, and laughter helps with all that tension in your belly. you just want a break from the other stuff, and if someone makes you laugh, then that means that they care, in some way, about your happiness. especially, if, after making you laugh the once, they try and do it again. if laughter is the greatest medicine, then you can share it and no one has to be sick. it is contagious, and free to give and receive. there is never too much of it. there is never too much of you. i hope when you laugh you speak it from your belly. that you use your muscles and let it fill the room. that you know the sound rings like a bell and is lovely. i hope that when you smile you show your teeth.

TAGGED BY: @deathfavor Tysm Britt!

#muse: date soma. #muse: takeda naotora. #muse: inumura mikito. #* date soma. / development. #* takeda naotora. / development. #* inumura mikito. / development. #That “All I ever wanted from you was to know that I was wanted by you. That would have changed everything.” was so foul for Soma #Overall kind of accurate for all of them?? Soma's is VERY on the spot #Naotora's... well I agree that he wants to know he's thought about and loved; but it's fine no matter if it's written spoken or shown #And Mikito... I don't think he's truly capable of love as we know it anymore; not as Mikito; so this result is probably the best one for hi #He wouldn't care much about being told or shown that he's loved; but he Would answer positively to sb making him /laugh/

[cosmojjong]

my grandpa ended up passing away only 11 days after i saw him and what hurts most right now is trying to deal with such a sudden loss and the fact that i can't go to his funeral. i don't know what to do with myself

#it doesn't help that i am physically alone #i can't tell you how apologetic i feel towards him knowing i can't walk with him through his last step #i should've gone i should've mustered the courage to make it for him #but my parents thought it just wouldn't have been good for my mental state #quite a few people around me told me that i am too fragile to witness it and i know i agree with that #but still i feel selfish and disgusting for not having gone #i mean it's tomorrow but i cannot take the flight anymore #even my family struggled to find tickets as he passed so suddenly #i have other cousins who didn't go and i wish i didn't blame myself and lived it differently like they do #my heart is such a mess and so tired right now #there's also the fact that last time i saw my grandpa he smiled at me and held my hand so tight #so i was trying to protect that image #i just don't know if i would've physically handled the image of seeing him closed in a casket #i am so hurt so sad so mad at myself #i have regrets already #i love him so much and i feel like a terrible person #i feel like i am so undeserving of all the love he gave me all my life #and everyone tells me that i can just say goodbye to him in my heart #but it's not that easy

[llycaons]

Yes he loves Wei Wuxian still and if asked, he would give back his core in a heartbeat

hm. would he though?

#I don't think it really matters since it's not possible and it's not the underlying issue between them anyway #but I don't think jc would want to give it back #or rather. I think that he wouldn't even conceive of it as a possibility #he's not mad that it happened he's just mad that he wasn't told #but I don't think he would have refused it. maybe. there's no way to know #and as much as he cares about wwx he considers wwx to be in the jiang's debt too. at least postcanon. he tells him to his face #so I feel like he'd agree that the core was a fair trade in principle #ugh it's all so messy. I do not believe that jc would want to give the core back tho #ficblogging

[ipatrichor]

William Driftwood || Water Genasi Warlock

A scout exploring the deep ocean, William and his team were attacked and nearly killed by an ancient creature. To save his team, he made a deal with the creature to become its champion, causing crystals to grow from his forehead as he gained strange magical abilities. Afraid of what consequences might come of this pact, the colony leaders sent him to the surface world, decieving him into believing he’s on a mission to scout for danger abovewater. Now, he wanders the land taking notes about everything he finds, in hopes of one day returning home.

While used to the possibility of death, William is still naive in many ways. He’s a firm believer in heroism and helping where he can, and has a self-sacrificing streak a nautical mile wide. He also trusts blindly, believing whatever he’s told about the world above water, and buries his more complex emotions in favor of keeping everyone else’s spirits high and supporting them.

#dnd moodboard #moodboard #dnd character #warlock #water genasi #william driftwood #here he is my sweet sweet boy #he gave up everything to save his team and in return got lied to & essentially abandoned #and if he knew? he wouldn't be angry. #he would be rlly hurt dont get me wrong but like. he'd agree with the decision on principle #you know what kills me even tho i'm the person who wrote it??? #if they had just explained. been honest with him. told him that him being there potentially put the colony in danger bc of the pact.... #he would have left willingly. probably would have suggested it even #if they had just been honest he would have done it anyway #anything for the colony. anything for his people. even if it meant leaving his home maybe forever #He Would Have Left If They Had Just Asked i am screaming #my poor guy deserves so much better kgbdhg #<- the person who wrote all the bad things that happen to him :'