#but like... this is SUCH A TORTURED SOUL

[sassydefendorflower]

It's actually so important to me that the first time we see Ed actually cry in Fullmetal Alchemist (Brotherhood and Manga) - apart from the automail surgery - is when Hohenheim offers him his life to bring back Alphonse.

Throughout the entire story Ed doesn't cry because of his misguided love-filled promise to Al. No matter how horrible their odds, no matter how traumatizing their journey, Ed refuses to cry. He comes close. So, so close. When Izumi tells them it's okay to be sad, offering comfort after a long time without. After Nina dies and Ed and Al let the rain wash away their sorrow. When Hughes dies and guilt becomes an even heavier cloak weighing their shoulders down. When death comes knocking on Ed's door and he decidedly sends it packing.

Ed laughs and rages and smiles and screams.

But he doesn't cry.

Just because Al can't.

Ed was eleven when he made that promise. He was a child suffering through something truly horrific when he promised himself and the world that he wouldn't cry as long as his brother wasn't allowed to do the same.

Which is painful to watch - especially since it tells us that Ed knows how much crying is a part of life. He gave something up, not out of some misguided idea of masculinity, but because he knew it would be a sacrifice to keep himself from crying. A punishment since his brother could no longer offer his tears in the face of sorrow.

But by the end of the story Ed has cried. And it's not tears of joy, like the ones he promised Winry. No, Ed is angry when he cries - and Alphonse is no longer there.

In a way Ed kept his promise to Al - he only cried when the person he made this promise to (be it silent and secretive) was gone.

As far as they knew Al was dead.

But that truth alone didn't bring tears to Ed's eyes, though it certainly shattered his heart and made him quiver in desperation. No, in the end it was Hohenheim who finally allowed Ed to spill tears kept locked away for four long years.

And I love it.

I love that Hohenheim trying to do something truly loving, something completely selfish, something absolutely sacrificial was the thing that pushed Ed over the edge.

Because Ed never forgave his father for leaving, but by the end of the story he understands why he left.

Because Ed is so unbelievably angry with this man who abandoned him, and he still cares for him - partially because he knows Alphonse does.

Because Ed was never forced to forgive Hohenheim, but we still know that Hohenheim loves his children and his wife and would do everything for them.

Even, no, especially if it means dying.

And Ed can't take it.

So many others have died by this point, they are all painted in blood and pain, and Ed has lost his only constant - and now his father wants to make an ultimate sacrifice?

No.

So, Ed gets angry. And he cries. And he saves Al on his own - with the help of all of his friends, and Hohenheim.

Because no matter Ed's feelings on the man who gave him life, he doesn't want to see anyone else die. He doesn't want anyone else's blood on his hands.

And he wants Hohenheim to get a chance to be a rotten father - because at the end of the day Hohenheim is someone worth crying over even, no, especially by the boy who promised he wouldn't cry.

(there is something to be said about Hohenheim crying on their family portrait, only to be mirrored by Ed grinning while holding his own child - there is something to be said about Hohenheim willingly offering his life, only to be stopped by the tears running down his son's angry face - there is something to be said about Ed's anger and Hohenheim's soft grief and their shared past)

#fmab #fma #edward elric #alphonse elric #van hohenheim #fullmetal alchemist meta #fullmetal alchemist #fma meta #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fma brotherhood #i love them your honor #like... i dont think hohenheim would ever win dad of the year #but like... this is SUCH A TORTURED SOUL #and i think him trying to die #by saving Al #was his way to apologize for all that #for leaving and not coming back #for being awkward and not knowing what to say #if he could die for Al it would all be worth it #only Ed wouldnt let him #because he knew it wouldnt be equivalent #and because he couldnt watch someone else die #not even a rotten father #(especially not a rotten father Ed somewhat cared for) #they never made up #the show never asked Ed to forgive Hohenheim #but I do think Ed understood him by the end #they are very similar after all #and Hohenheim truly loved their mother #and he truly truly loved his sons

[dramaism]

Why is he carrying Naksu's sword that once killed him? Some say he is bearing a bitter grudge, while others say he is just painfully in love with her.

#alchemy of souls #alchemy of souls: light and shadow #alchemy of souls 2 #kdramaedit #kdramadaily #kdrama #kdramagifs #userharumi #tosnimeat #syaring #samblr #udeokmis #mufaloedit #tw blood #alcofsedit #it was the hardest aos set for me in terms of picking out scenes pure torture #but what a beautiful narrative??? like he now uses the sword the woman he loves owned once #it was soooo hard to choose if i’ll make a somewhat of a timeline for the sword or just a compilation #so it's a compilation and a mess at the same time djbfdkjfb

[arom-antix]

I bring to thee some quick late night Viktuuri sketches because I think we could all use some fluff

#some viktuuri for the soul! #my blorbos are always in my mind even if im not creating for them in that moment #they never leave <3 #their eepy leepiness is a reflection of moi and i love their eepy leepiness for them i hope theyre getting some great naps #just some calm and quiet #love that for them #also this isnt the first time i draw in like two months what are you talking about? #the last art i posted totally wasnt from the 14th of march shhhhh the date on the post is definitely wrong source trust me #no but like i have been so dead for months #dont expect to see much art from me before july when my break starts and i can stop being stressed out of my mind #now i can be one of those tortured artist types except i havent done any art to communicate how sad i am #tbh im just tired i just wanna sleep #am i gonna? youre funny of course not but now i can at least pretend my awake time was vaguely productive #yuri on ice #yuri on ice fanart #fanart #art #arom antix art #arom antix #viktor nikiforov #kastuki yuuri #viktuuri

[comradeboyhalo]

q!badboyhalo, pre-purgatory: i have to meticulously burn bridges with the people i love through intense mind games and careful deceit all for my master plan to take down the federation

q!badboyhalo, in purgatory: holy muffins this is so much easier

#qsmp #badboyhalo #like slay maybe he didnt need to torture himself with soul vultures

[whitestnoise]

#first kill #firstkilledit #calliope burns #calliette #tess franklin #(mine) #please don't misunderstand i'm not trying to woobify vampires here #but since in this universe there's no such thing as losing your soul when you're turned #the argument can be made that they are basically people just like humans #humans can choose to torture and kill and vampires can choose to feed only on willing partners (without murdering them!) #i suppose the fairmonts might be a bit of an outlier in the vampire community because the nurture their humanity in a way #but still - the are capable of deep affection and emotions

[sunrayram]

Has Vox ever tried to trade or bet with Husk for Alastor's soul?

Hmmm, he has not! I think maybe he's thought about it, but the other Vees have convinced him it's a bad idea.

Plus, Vox is a bit intimidated by Husk. Not enough to not push at the edges of his territories, mind you, but Husk is a powerful overlord, and has been for a while. If Vox did have a plan to take Al from under Husk's thumb, it'd have to be long, complicated, and all together very convoluted.

Good thing that long, complicated, and very convoluted plans are Vox's specialty :D

#hazbin hotel #bad beat au #hazbin hotel au #au #ask #hazbin alastor #alastor #hazbin husk #husk #vox #hazbin vox #also let it be known that Vox is not a good person and him owning Al's soul would not be better oof. #Like maybe he'd be a bittttt nicer #but that would only be it's own form of torture.

[artaintfartwarriors]

All of starclan in his mind

#goosefeather #thunderclan #pinestar's choice #goosefeather's curse #tallstar’s revenge #yellowfang’s secret #crookedstars promise #bluestar’s prophecy #leopardstar’s honor #spottedleaf’s heart #onestar’s confession #honestly. i fuck with this guy #his Novella was quite sad I’m very sorry for him #didn’t deserve to be tortured by the literal souls of the… not damned? #find it incredibly funny that Mapleshade screwed with like EVERYONE back then tho lmfao #also ur right king stormtail should’ve fucked off

[my-drama-heart2406]

That scene where Huijoo confesses to Tae-oh.

And he says... "Seuseung wa Cheja"...

SEUSEUNG WA CHEJA.!.!.!.!.!.

(Master and Pupil for those who don't know)

And I just🥺😲😳😶😢😖 I just stopped listening any further.

I had to pause, takeoff my earphones and tell myself to focus on the show that I was watching and stop thinking about the show that I have already watched n number of times that has permanently taken up over half of my brain since 1 and 1/2 years and still refuses to leave...

#lee jae wook #“SEUSEUNG WA CHEJA” #master and pupil #i was like.......... Jang Uk #and then I was like... f**k no. stop. stop thinking about jang uk #why is no one else freaking out over this??? #it's almost torturous that they made Lee Jae Wook say that #I've heard those two words so many times coming from his mouth that my brain just went 👀🫠 #the impossible heir #alchemy of souls #jang uk #han tae oh

[fake-married-my-dead-fiance]

My favourite character type: Metaphorically Tortured and Literally Covered in Blood

Jang Uk from Alchemy of Souls counts, even though I don't think he's ever simultaneously tortured and covered in blood, but that is only because that series doesn't use a lot of blood. Dude was mentally tortured and literally killed 86 people in one go, there should be blood.

In order: Jang Uk & Naksu/Mu-deok/Cho Yeong Alchemy of Souls, Han Ri-ta & Kim Do-ha Moon in the Day, Kang Cheol W: Two Worlds, Myul Mang/Kim Sa-ram Doom at Your Service, Lee Chang & Seo-bi Kingdom, Lee In Captivating the King, Lee Rang Tale of the Nine Tailed/1938, Jang Man-wol Hotel Del Luna, Moo-yeon/Yoon Seok-ha 100 Days My Prince

Each time I asked myself, "Are they actually covered in blood or did they just get a little on them? Are they sufficiently tortured or do they only have minor mental turmoil?" These are very strict, scientific criteria.

#tw: blood #alchemy of souls #moon in the day #w two worlds #kingdom kdrama #doom at your service #captivating the king #tale of the nine tailed #hotel del luna #100 day my prince #like the king in The Forbidden Marriage is tortured but not covered in blood #the Happiness characters aren't tortured even if they have blood on them #you need both or it doesn't count #Also I left out characters from shows that I hated #which includes Destined with You and My Demon #but also the My Demon guy might be covered in blood but he's not tortured enough

[mishapen-dear]

something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

#qsmp #he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them #he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them #qsmp badboyhalo #ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs #and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community #and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’ #’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’ #and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse #and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent) #(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily) #ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels #ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper #and the other eggs #because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health #issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection #and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone #you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends #look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large #never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety #never mind that your friends and family are worried about you #you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow

[fetlockflowers]

Inspired by tortured souls.

#I had this drawing stuck in my head #I found it so compelling so I made my own drawing. Mine is a lot more cute? For lack of a better word? But I like how it turned out. #my art #is this fan art? #clive barker #tortured souls #tortured souls 2

[paladinpeterparker]

me before ttpd vs me after ttpd

#this is only a guess because obviously the album isn’t out yet #but like #i’m already a slightly unhappy poet #after this album i will for sure be a tortured poet #i can sense that ttpd will break my soul #the tortured poets department #ts ttpd #ttpd #tortured poets department #taylor swift #dead poets society

[poorlittleyaoyao]

gentle reminder that Wen Qing and Qin Su are both still alive and thriving because if the other characters don't ever mention their deaths again, then that means they must be fine 😌

#all I'm saying is that there is no evidence of WQ's death and while QS stabs herself ppl get stabbed all the time on this show and are fine #yes JGY acts like she's dead but if ppl think she's dead then they won't ask her about the severed head in the secret torture room #and sure LXC checks Qin Su's pulse and/or qi flow but do you trust his medical knowledge? I do not #if only there were a renowned doctor around that they could check with! #wait shit hold on they absolutely COULD have asked her questions couldn't they? couldn't they do Empathy on the dagger? #her soul isn't busted; it's just inside a cool knife. why didn't they do Empathy on the dagger??

[escapismqueen]

Why do I have the BEST bestie in the world. Like omfg this girl is !!! @chenfordspiral She messaged me about the new TTPD cardigans, I was like ‘oh I don’t have any money for that’ she’s only gone and BOUGHT ME ONE !! Brb gonna go and cry about how grateful I am to have found her on this little hellsite 🥹😭

#taylor swift #ttpd #the tortured poets department #TTPD cardigan #I cannot with her #like omfg #my soul sister fr

[didsomebodysaypancakes]

When I'm watching a show/movie or reading a book, I have this thing called the Sam and Dean Test where I try to figure out whether, if one character died, the other would sell their soul to hell to get the other one back. Passing the Sam and Dean Test means that the characters would sell their souls to hell to get the other back.

Anyways, I'm 100% sure that Starsky and Hutch pass the Sam and Dean Test.

#chuck and Sarah also pass the sam and dean test #starsky and hutch #starsky & hutch #my proof: that time hutch was gonna get arrested bc IA thought that he murdered his ex wife #and starsky's solution was to insert himself in the situation and go on the run with hutch #bonus insanity points for hutch straight up expecting starsky to do this + initially being pissed when he thought starsky wasn't gonna do it #also: hutch accepting getting shot to death bc he wouldn't shoot at vic bellamy or w/e his name was #bc hutch thought that he was the only one who would have the antidote for what he poisoned starsky with #also also: starsky shooting the person who he thought was his only chance at survival bc that guy was about to shoot hutch #most ships do not pass the sam and dean test bc they are typically Normal people who do not want to be tortured for all eternity #norman and norma from Bates Motel unfortunately do pass The Sam and Dean Test #Shawn and Juliet from Psych do not pass the sam and dean test but shawn and gus might lol #josh and donna do not pass the sam and dean test #Josh is messed up but not like that #bangel and spuffy don't pass the sam and dean test bc Buffy wouldn't sell her soul to hell for either of them #idk if clois from smallville pass this trst #i feel like clark was always down to suffer for anyone

[lucy-the-demon]

If you have a brain you like Stardew shane

And If you don't, you probably like Shane Dawson

No offense tho

#stardew valley #stardew valley memes #sdv shane #shane stardew valley #sdv #stardew valley shane #stardew valley shitpost #sdv shitpost #i hate shane Dawson #shitpost #sdv memes #chicken husband #chicken man #blue chicken man #just give Shane some weed and he might end up making purple chickens or something #i had to download a photo of Shane Dawson for this meme #prey for my tortured soul #not like itll do anything #my athiest ass dont believe in that shit #but i do believe in miracles #and sdv shane is a miracle to #me..