#but the one part thats gonna be there no matter what

[engstlersbueckers]

E. Engstler NSFW Alphabet

A/N: Haven’t seen anyone do this yet. lets mix it up.lmk what ya think and apologies for any mistakes!

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

She’s an angel when it comes to aftercare.Asking multiple times if she was too rough with you and no matter how much you insist you can do it on your own,she always cleans you up. “Uh uh. You stay right here I got it baby.”

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Emily’s an ass girl. I said wtf I said. She’s always grabbin on your ass. Loves rubbing it when you’re cuddling and dont get me started on when she’s fucking you from behind. The sound your ass makes when she’s hittin it from the back drives her crazy. As for you,her hands(quite literally) have a chokehold on you. All she’s gotta do is move her hands in a certain way and your mind just fixates on it.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

She’s addicted to making you cum. She wont stop until you’re gushing all over her fingers,tongue,strap,etc. Your taste is something she can’t live without.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory,)

She’s not really super secretive about what she wants to do with you. If it’s something she wants to try she’s gonna tell you straight up.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Oh she definitely knows what she’s doing. The best sex you’ve ever had in your life was from her. The way she fucks is unique,but she can lay it down like her strap is attached to her body.

F=Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Doggy. Like i said a few letters ago she loves the feeling of your ass bouncing against her.And in doggy,she can still get up in your ear and talk to you,pull your hair,and reach around and play with your clit all she wants.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? Are they humorous? etc.)

Not much laughing during the act but afterwards she’ll have you cracking up. Usually saying something dumb like “I hope I wont lookin’ at you all crazy I was really into it.”

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

She always says “The only hair you’re gonna find is on my head” so do with that what you will.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

You mean everything to her so she fucks you like it. She takes her time to warm you up before she even takes off her own clothes.When she’s putting her strap in you, she holds you really close and kisses you while she slides it in. “There it is…That’s my fuckin’ girl.So pretty for me.”

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

She doesn’t touch herself much. Maybe on certain occasions like an away game she’ll call you and you get off together. But not much other than that. She has great self control.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

She’s pretty big on asphyxiation. She loves to choke you. Especially if you’re in front of a mirror,she loves seeing your eyes glaze over in the reflection and feeling how tight you get when she does it.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Yall have pretty much done it all over the apartment. But her personal favorite is in the shower.The warm water running down your bodies while you kiss and touch all over each other,the way she presses you against the shower door. Theres something about it thats so hot to her.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

The sounds you make get her so riled up,but it’s one particular sound you make every time she hits your g-spot,it almost bottoms her out she loves it so much.“Oh my god,fuck. Make that noise again baby,I love it.”

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Anything either of you are uncomfortable with you wont do.Pretty straightforward.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

She loves giving you head.Every single time she does you damn near have to push her off you to get her to stop. The sensation of her piercings just intensifies it too.So anytime shes licking up your slit,or sucking your clit you can feel them<3

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Definitely depends on the mood. If you’re feeling really intimate,she’ll fuck you nice and slow and deep. Taking her time to fill you up to the hilt. But when she’s angry or really fired up,it’s game over for you.She’ll have your eyes in the back of your head within seconds. Just pounding away at you like you’re her favorite sex toy.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

There’s not really much time in either of your schedules for quickies so you don’t really do them often. Unless it’s right before a date or an important event and you have some time to kill.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)

Both of you agreed to be pretty open minded with a lot of things,including things that involve your sex life.So she’s almost always down for experimenting.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Baby,she’s an athlete. She can go for however long she pleases. She even teases you about being able to keep up after a couple rounds. “No way you’re tappin’ out on me already? C’mon gimme one more.”

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Most of the toys that you own she uses them on you. Of course you can use them whenever you want but she prefers to help you out. Like if its a vibrator she’ll sit you between her legs and keep it right on top of your clit while she teases your breasts and talks you through it.“I know…I know baby. You’re doing so good for me. Makin’ me so proud.”

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

She loves teasing you. When she does it she’ll do something real subtle like “accidentally” resting her hand waay too close to your inner thigh. Then when you call her out she’ll play dumb.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

She’s more of a talker than anything.But she prefers when you’re the one getting loud for her. “Dont cover your fuckin’ mouth lemme hear it. Let everyone know whos fuckin’ the shit out of this pussy.”

W = Wild card (a random

headcanon for the character)

Okay..personally I feel like she’s really into phone sex. Like i feel like a broken record when i say that she loves being verbal with you. And she thinks it’s so hot that she has the power to get you off even when you’re miles away from each other. Of course she’ll always leave you anticipating what she’s gonna do to you when she comes back. “Hope you don’t have anything planned cuz once I get home I’m tearin’ that pussy up.”

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

She’s not on some wimpy dick shit. When she says she’s packing,she doesn’t just mean there’s a strap in her pants. That thing got some size to it. Her biggest one she has in “the shoebox” is an 8 inch. (It’s also your personal favorite :) )

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

She can be hard to read sometimes,but when her sex drive is high,you can tell because she gets really handsy. Not just the usual touching but she’s constantly grabbing your ass ,kissing all over your neck,she can just be straight up pussywhipped sometimes.

A/N:Yay you made it to the end!! This is my first ever time writing one of these so I really hope you liked it. If you have any requests my inbox is always open. I love youu<3

-S🩷

#wlw fanfic #wbb #wlw smut #emily engstler

[heartl3ssromantic]

𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑒𝑎

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ʀᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛ ☞︎ ʏᴏᴜ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ᴀ ʀᴇᴀʟɪsᴛɪᴄ ᴘᴀᴢᴢɪ ꜰɪᴄ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴜɪsᴇ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ

⇝ ᴘᴀɪɢᴇ ʙᴜᴇᴄᴋᴇʀs x ᴀᴢᴢɪ ꜰᴜᴅᴅ

⇝ ꜰʟᴜꜰꜰ

⇝ ᴍᴀsᴛᴇʀʟɪsᴛ

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3ʀᴅ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ᴘᴏᴠ! (ɪ ᴛʀɪᴇᴅ ᴍʏ ʙᴇsᴛ)

"i still don't know why i agreed to this." azzi had no interest in going on a cruise right now like always, paige had somehow managed to convince her to go with her.

"cause you love me." paige retorted to the brunette speaking in a way that elongated her words to tease azzi.

"yeah whatever you say." azzi smiled at paige as their car was now pulling up to the parking lot.

azzi was never one to go on cruises, but obviously her girlfriend being one to not take no for an answer she was now going on a five day long cruise with her.

maybe it would be fun? shes not gonna have to worry about any chores, cleaning, going out, and best of all shes gonna spend it with her girlfriend.

thats the part azzi was most excited about. spending time with her girlfriend, doing things together, and being a normal couple.

but of course the only time they would be able to be a "normal couple" is in the comfort of their own isolated room away from the public, although both desperately wanting to show public affection knowing the everlasting consequences of doing so.

they parked the car getting their suitcases, making their way towards the ship. so far it had been a calm day with no one recognizing them. or if they did they'd be respectful enough to let the girls have peace.

as they boarded the ship they immediately started to make their way to the rooms trying to find theres. after about five minutes they found their room sighing in relief.

walking into the room paige immediately jumps onto the bed landing on her stomach being tired from the drive to the ship. not even ten seconds later she feels a new found weight on her.

paiges smile quickly growing knowing what that new found weight on her was. turning around to lay on her back only to find her girlfriend lazily sprawled on the bed leaning onto her.

maybe this cruise wasn't gonna be such a bad idea, paige was with her girlfriend after all, just don't tell the media she said that last part.

after about 30 minutes of both of them laying in silence azzi spoke up breaking the silence. "im kind of hungry can we go get something to eat." she lifted her head to look at paige as paige looked at her.

"yeah of course, lets go." they both stood up grabbing their phones and headed down to get some food. of course though no matter where they go at least one person was gonna recognize them.

so it wasn't a surprise when some girls came up to them asking for a picture, azzi made sure to try and stay out of the picture of the girl and paige because she didn't want people to start speculating things.

but like always, things don't always go as planned. after thinking that she successfully was able to stay out of frame in time she would come to find out that she in fact didn't, and it would start some new "theories" in the fandom.

everyone online always speculates something about the girls, especially after ice pretty much outed them from a three second clip from one of her lives.

lets just say ice is still on a live ban around paige and azzi.

"lets get some pizza?" paige suggested trying to fight every urge to hold her girlfriends hand, or wrap her arm around her. anything that would give them away.

"yeah, that sounds good." azzi nodded as they made their way to order some pizza.

after a while of waiting they were finally able to get their food and decided to sit down at a table near by.

"do you think were ever gonna be able to go public?" azzi suddenly asked her girlfriend with her voice tone lowering into a mid whisper catching her off guard as paige just looked up mid bite.

"i hope so, but i don't think its the best idea since were on the same basketball team right now, its gonna bring unnecessary attention thats not relevant to our careers. cause the media is constantly gonna be up our asses more than they already are." paige made some good points, azzi definitely agreed but she was tired of hiding her love bigger than sea for paige.

"yeah, i see what your saying. i just wish we could just do our own thing without people making it a big deal." paige gave her girlfriend a look of empathy as she spoke her mind.

"hey, lets not worry about it. lets just try to make the best of it mkay?" azzi looked up at the blonde as she nodded while taking a bite out of her pizza.

and its not that the girls have a super secret relationship either, when they're at storrs, they have more freedom knowing that the students there respect their privacy.

i mean for them to have been caught by ices live at a bar means that they're pretty comfortable with each other while at storrs, but no where else knowing people are constantly watching them.

thats what they both liked about being at uconn, and that town in general. everyone just respects each other and don't go out of there way trying to find things out about them.

after they both finished their food they headed back up to their room exhausted from the long day they have had so far, of course before they could actually make it upstairs they had about 5 more people ask for pictures to which they happily agreed to before actually making it back to their room.

as they made it back to their room the minute they shut the door they let out a sigh of relief as they flopped onto the bed exhausted.

both girls cuddled up against each other enjoying each others company, being left alone with their thoughts at peace knowing its just them against the world.

"it hasn't even been two hours and a photo i took with a fan just got posted." azzi lifted her head to look over at paiges phone when she said that.

"oh shit is that me in the background?" azzi zoomed into the photo to which it was in fact her in the background.

"i don't think anyones gonna notice." paige said trying to reassure her girlfriend.

"i hope not but i doubt it. these fans could literally know if it was me with half of a pixel." azzi said making a joke out of it to which they both giggled at.

"you know, even though we can't really do anything in public, im so glad we have each other." paige looked down at the brunette who had her head laying on paiges chest as paige smiled at her while slightly rubbing her back.

"yeah?" paige spoke to her through a smile.

"mhm. im serious i don't know what i would've done if we never met." azzi's sweet words made paige go crazy, but it also inflated her ego by a lot. this girl really is the love of her life.

"im so glad im lucky enough to call you mine. without you i probably would've been so lonely." paige looked up at the ceiling as she spoke enjoying the comfortable silence between the two.

it really is just them against the world and they both knew it. whether they showed in or not they know that its forever gonna be them.

#uconn wbb #paige bueckers #basketball #anon ask #thanks anon! #anons welcome #anonymous #azzi fudd #cruise ship #heartl3ssromantic #pazzi #pazzi is real #i tried my best #this lowkey sucks but its okay #my inbox is always open!! #heartl3ssromantic's writing #wlw love #wlw #wlw post #wlw blog #wlw sfw

[i-maybe-exist]

who invented anatomy

#this is BULLSHIT #im starting a new piece but the composition isnt solidified for. reasons #but the one part thats gonna be there no matter what #is a character lying on a couch and im. STRUGGLING #vi rambles #also hi i dont post on tunglr dot org anymore. hows it going followers who dont share a discord server with me

[trainingdummyrabbit]

yes yes the inherently difficult and complex nature of angelas development and her intrinsic instinct to be guarded at all times But Also . i just want angela to get a fucking hug. or like. a pat on the shoulder, or Something

#piktalk #projmoon #im gonna drive myself up a fucking wall i just keep thinking abt it . #girlieee. girlie youre doubling down on your inability to connect with those around you in a horrible feedback loop that makes itself worse #haha girl noooo youre distancing yourself from the closeness youve desired from day one haha girl noooooo #someone please get over there and ruffle her hair or something she needs it #haha youre submitting yourself to this otherness and making yourself a pillar out of instinct and habit? #lol thats funny girlie heres a reminder that you are in fact present and cared for in the eyes of your peers whether you think so or not #heres a seemingly juvenile expression of how despite everything you Are acknowledged as being present and part of the group #no matter what you see yourself as you are still just as much one of us as anyone else #AND its ruffling your stupid lil haircut. get scruffled IDIOT. get acknowledged DORKUS!!!!!!!!!!! #. anyway getting out of bed now see u all in a few minutes ✌

[konfizry]

ahhh i just remembered alphen and shionne are gonna be at the next tales of festival again and damn that's three times in a row for them!!! that's amazing (for me specifically)!! like genuinely i assumed last year would be the last time they were gonna have both of 'em on, bcause, well it can't be the arise Celebrity Couple all the time, everybody's probably sick of them already and the hype's gone down and all that, and heck they even hinted at that in one of the kagenare, but!! against all odds i get yet another year or shimoji and satotaku performing together

#they've only been announced for day 2 and i'm being so brave about it #and to think we probably have BtD to thank for that......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaahhhhh #anyway i gotta enjoy this while it lasts until arise eventually fades into obscurity byyyeeee #but *will it* fade into obscurity tho #because like as a matter of fact it very much did sell 3million copies #so you could argue thats like. a Milestone. a Whole Thing. Arise has left a permanent mark on the series #and is on its way towards becoming one of the quote unquote Important Titles like symphonia or uuhhhh symphonia!!! (vesperia???) #but on the other hand. is that *really* the case like #like ok thats a LOT of sales but. that doesnt mean it's necessarily gonna have the cultural IMPACT like. #the tales fandom dislikes it for one #and so like. like statistically most of the ppl who bought it are like. they're not in the fandom right. like. they played it and moved on #(god i wish that were me) #like that's what im asking is arise gonna be a cultural milestone in the series even #and like. yes and no??? lmao. because like. there's a high likelihood that the upcoming games are gonna be more like arise right #since that sells. and so. well those subsequent games are gonna draw in ppl who like that type of experience :))) so #uh. YEAH. yknow like WHAT IM SAYING IS #as much as zestiria broke the fanbase it's more likely that there's gonna be 2 distinct pre- and post-arise eras #right. uuuhhh. the pre-arise fans and the post-arise fans are just not the same ppl. (for the most part) #anyway so probably arise is not fading into obscurity aaaaaaarrgghhh noooo #but at the same time like. less and less side materials (manga; drama CDs; comic anthologies etc) are being made so what does it matter #what does it matter if they keep arise alive if it's just to routinely sell figurines and uhhh *checks notes* booze and acrylic stands #anyway i'm so excited for the next ToFestival!!!!!!! #toarise hate #im this close to saying arise has destroyed the fandom for good in favor of casuals who are not interested in the Fandom Experience but #im not saying it. i dont know that.

[insert-neologism]

back to you by flower face (reupload)

#yellowjackets #jackieshauna #mitos incredible life #mine art tag #hope it STAYS this time goood #anyways. I still think the allie part is funny sue me #when i was like 'omg im gonna edit the whole album' it was party bc I knew back to you was in there and I was like 'that song is #SO jackieshauna that it doesnt even matter if all the other songs arent' #dont know anymore bc it was so long ago and im not very far with the whole. js: tsiyw - n thing #(im at maybe bc today familys here bc easter) #if somebody wants a specific song edited to them hmu btw #i do have like. many ideas (for jackieshauna at least 6 from what I remember‚ 1 lottienat n general yj some) #and thats just the like sorta planned out ones. So Idk if I will ever like edit more but PROBABLY bc im nothing if not. other ppl #(sincerly hope that doesnt make sense) #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water

[faggotry-enjoyer]

oh i'm definitely gonna lose some friends for this one huh

#already got vagueposted about by one former friend as 'comparing pro-palestine sentiments to antisemitism' #direct quote 'israel desperately wants them to believe this is a religious war and not a genocide' #same guy who said 'boy howdy do we know their side of the story' and ten short texts later said verbatim: #'we can't use religion as birthright thats stupid and the Number One Tool of Colonizers' #which is a STAGGERING amount of cognitive dissonance #as if religion is the relevant part and not the literal historical fact of jewish indigineity to eretz israel #mind you at the time of the vaguepost the ONLY thing i said regarding palestine #was that if your 'support' for palestinians includes sharing basic antisemitic dogwhistles and blatantly lying about history #then that 'support' will accomplish nothing for palestinians and only get jews killed #and i feel like looking at that and insisting that i'm comparing all pro-palestinian sentiment to antisemitism is uh. telling #we'll see how this ends up going - i fear it may not be the greatest for my social life but i stand by what i said #bc even if i am wrong about Everything directly surrounding israel and palestine #i was strictly discussing antisemitism in the discourse surrounding it #and a longer version of 'no stance on israel makes you immune to antisemitism and antisemitism runs deep and will affect your thinking on #the matter and refusing to acknowledge that is dangerous' isn't actually dependent on the intracacies of the conflict it's just True #and i'm not gonna back down again i'm not going to downplay antisemitism again i'm not going to give up #i'm not sure if i have jewish friends i simply do not know about who see what i say on there #but if i do then i need it to be clear they have Someone who is willing to fight for them #and if not i still need to make it clear i won't stand for blatant antisemitism no matter whose name it's in #the only thing that would make me consider taking down what i said is if i believed it's counterproductive #and part of me wonders if it is - i don't want to put people on the defense bc that's simply not conducive to good faith discussion #but at the same time i know that a lot of what i've needed to hear was fed up or harsh words #that i started off just reading and keeping my defensiveness inside until they sunk in over time #and maybe my frustration will have that effect for someone #damn i really need to make some jewish friends... maybe after break i'll reach out to hillel or a local shul to ask if they could use a han #or something idk we'll see #personal #faggotry enjoyer original

[frecklystars]

i hope ryan gosling has the best birthday ever 🥺🥺💙💙💙

#i have been shedding actual tears over how much i love Ken and Driver for the last 4 days #my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ill literally just be listening to music and thinking about them being sweet to me #and then i start crying. they saved my life. not to be dramatic but YES to be DRAMATIC #I FUCKING LOVE MY BOYS they saved my life this year!!!!! #i am cherishing his characters so goddamn MUCH 😭😭😭 #even when this hyperfixation ends... i will always be so grateful #bc his characters have been helping me thru the worst fuckin time in my life #this has been the worst year. but barbie/ken breathed some life back into me #and now six/sebby/driver/etc everyone is all one by one helping me out #i feel like myself when im with them #i feel like Me again. thats all i can hope for #one day the feeling of safety will not be unfamiliar to me anymore. wont be as foreign of a sensation #and ryan's characters all have a part of it #and no matter what happens in the future im always gonna look back on these characters #and think to myself. oh my god. you. you saved my life. i love you. thank you for holding my hand thru that hell. #woof

[midnightdemonhunter]

It doesn’t cry.

#danganronpa #sdr2 #remnants of despair #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #super danganronpa 2 #midnight draws #whats that? fucked up art of fuyuhiko with a focus on him killing people and having junkos eye? #you betcha! #anyway. create the content you want to see in the world #if anyone is curious the silhouette in the doorway is peko. i have so many fuckign thoughts about this guy all the time #HES SO EMOTIONAL AND YET HE BECOMES A KILLER AGAIN AND AGAIN #AND ITS WHAT EVERYONE ELSE WANTS. BUT HE NEVER DOES. #and again theres that idea of junkos parts on their bodies as betrayals of their emotions and selves. a corruption of their intentions #a part of you that never cries no matter how many people you hurt #a part of you thats already dead #this is gonna flash me back to one of my fav remnnat fics and kill me instantly. god.

[appsa]

completely removed from t he soulmate au discussion, i feel like "it is still a fantasy that a select few people in ur life can ever make up for a lack of community support" rubs me the wrong way a little becaue idk community is great and all but not everyone does thrive best with large groups of people. i genuinely am miserable when i need to maintain relationships with more than 2 or 3 people and need large spans of time to myself in complete solitude to function

Ok i see u, but thats not what i meant by community support. When i said community support i mean friends and neighbours who will intervene when kids arent being treated right, or actual professionals (not cops 😖 but ig in this scenario it is them) de-escalating when theres a domestic violence incident. That kind of thing!!! What i meant by "select few ppl" was that even in queer "found families" if smth goes wrong, there is no safety net for them because of the alienation they face, like cishet ppl might have (and even that is questionable support. U kno what i mean?)

#ask #ik thats part of the fantasy- that u can find all that v just a few ppl #but ig the fact remains is that we need community outside of our immediate loved ones unfortunately #friends and family u choose to hang out with all the time is a different matter #im talking abt whos gonna be there for u when it doesnt work out #like what frameworks r u gonna rely on to get out safely #also dw anon hsskdh didnt read it as discourse type thing at all i was p vague there yeah

[mooodyblue]

i hope y'all know i haven't forgotten about any day now 🥹

#i've been seeing ppl reread it recently or discover it and anytime i see a notif for it im like OH. Right #i swear to goodddddd u guys i think abt it every single day #im putting too much focus into requests and not the things that i wanna write #im gonna do a clean up of my requests this week cuz im sitting on 20ish and there's nooo way #i know its like #why do i keep requests open if i can't bring myself to write them all #thats such a great question unfortunately i just do not have an answer to it #but also im like ... what if i get something really good and i can combine a couple requests into a huge fic #anywaayyyyyy i added (SLOW) to my profile like it makes any difference #i didn't mean to ramble here i just wanted to let yall know that i know it still exists and i miss her and think abt her every day #bc i have a lot of ideas it's just a matter of writing it out #i started on part three ages ago and never went back to it #let's all pray i get at least one more chapter out by the end of the year 🥴🥴 #been slacking this week cuz i been busy but not busy #it's a long story #damn ok lily shut up

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#Jesus. just finished my interview. no idea how it went #i think it was much too rambling on my part and they asked almost exclusively sciency questions #ugh hopefully i didn't look like a completle moron. the guy was sorta inscrutable so no idea what he thought #and he was like hmm whats ur competition here? and i dont give a fuck abt competition and also it doesnt really matter #fuck. i should have said. it would b fine if they were doing the exact same project bc we would b evolving different strains and it would b #interesting if they evolved even the exact same traits. fuck #i think objectively i probably looked like someone who halfway knows what theyre doing without the specific knowledge #which is exactly true. like mother fuckers ive got a full time job to be overworked in. i dont have time to memorize details of every #pathway change in every desert cyano #uuuuugh its just annoying bc my brain doesnt work well in the moment. i need time to process and knit together an answer #so i wouldnt b surprised if i was ranked low. oh god i was told the interview was prob a formality unless it goes terribly #itll b real embarrassing if i dont get passed this stage now #whatever it was a bit chaotic on their end too bc one guy didnt show up until halfway thru so i kinda had to go back and say things twice #uuuuuuuuuuggh. well that kinda sucked. at least its done. out of my hands now. #i was getting too excited abt it anyway. this will reaffirm my: obviously im not gonna get it vibes #i mean thats what i get for trying to join a very competitive program. like i am not a competitive person #rip to my lab mate who im gonna whine at all day abt this. i have to meet him in less than an hour #welp. there r other schools. god i hope at least one of them accepts me #ugh i just think its kinda annoying they they want u to be perfectly qualified for things lol. like i would need someone to step thru the #lab process with me literally once or twice and then id be good to go #like maybe a couple hours of someones time to remind me. thats it. humans r adaptable #i can obviously carry out a project to its conclusion and i have a lot of passion. not that they asked. but yeah #oh well. i should have breakfast before i freeze in the desert all day #unrelated

[dirt-str1der]

Not to be a shipper but its so fun and makes me soo happy bobo

#Listen to my problems #this wasnt prompted by anything i was just thinking about how a lot of things for me are now skewed by the relationship persepctive not even #purely ‘romantic’ ones i just now think in terms of this person interacting with that person ... ... #i was also thinking about kiryu and majima again (i lied this is what really prompted this) and how they ddint even text each other #like you get wrapped up in all sorts of passions as a kid (in your twenties) and then when its over you part ways and not talk to each other #one of you is honourbound to stay behind and watch over things. and the other’s happiness and peace of mind depends on them ... kiryu told #him to take care of daigo and majima was like okie doki and dedicated his life to that #like i KNOW !! he had his own reasons for doing so. he wasnt just doing it for kiryu he was doing it for saejima (who by the way i havent #been introduced to a single member of his so called saejima (seajima) family) but it matters so much that he stayed and put up a fight about #it thinking since this is the last time we’re gonna see each other lets make it count !! and then get the crap beaten out of you and then #have a smoke break with him all well ... take care. because im not going to call or visit you lol. and i hope you forget about me because i #know ill be thinking about you and thats a pain in the ass innit .... #majima constantly has so much on his mind at all times always he cant even live for himself he just has to do it for other people ... so its #fucked up that kiryu just left him like that... call him at least let him know you think about him ... let him know its okay to come bother #you once in a while ..! bitch. that reminds me i have to finish watching breaking bad

[strayheat]

im starting to feel the "dead" in deadlines

#one big one due tmrw #but i might be getting feedback on it and having to fix some parts up till early feb so the deadline doesnt necessarily end the work here #another one till next friday and sometime after ill have to go to uni and present it so its another soft line #and then theres this vague one that doesnt have a date yet so im calling it the deadarea #thats prolly gonna be due mid february and will also require a presentation #and THEN theres another one that doesnt have a date yet but its The Big Boy Project and im gonna give a presentation and answer questions #and THATS WHEN I FINISH UNI WOOOOOOOOO #i so cannot wait i CANT #and i hate that so many dates are not set yet cause i cant have a specific day to wait for until its over and done #cause rn the only way i can look at it is that i'll for sure be a free man before march #which is a month and a half away and thus doesnt seem particularly optimistic #but hey at least tmrw ill have one thing 98% taken care of and im already done with the hard part of the second thing #im just. tgeres so much work and its already been weeks of this and theres weeks more?? motivation is negative #one good thing is that time passes no matter what u do. so every second of this is inevitably getting me closer to the end !!!! #yeah. i sound a lil bit like a negative nancy but rly im mostly positive just tired heh #straytalks

[1spooky-dad]

I love making hyper complex ocs that fit into whatever story they're for, idk how people can stand to just slap an oc into a story with no explanation. Where did they come from? Who is their entire extended family? What environmental changes shaped them into who they are today? How close to canon can you get them while still being op as shit but also still likeable and believable?

#anyways i made a soul eater oc cuase im rewatching it #yes theyre a love interest for stein who do you take me for? #theyre from tsubakis clan like her much older second step cousin or something #so they can transform into lots of different things #but their soul is super tiny and not easy for a meister to like. know whats going on in there #instead of a meister connecting to them they are able to just worm their way into a meisters soul and transform into whichever weapon #would be easiest for them to weild. which they knlw from merging with their soul ofc #they use this as a way to teach young meisters how to get a grip on handleing a weapon #some meisters get it right away but others need practice with a weapon thats gentle on them and doesnt hurt them #the catch tho is that stiens used to matcjing his soul to the weapon and theyre used to matching their soul to the meister #so they clash with him hard #which doesnt matter to them much cause they dont interact with him much considering theyre basically just a remeidial teacher #stiens students are usually more advanced so theyre in completely different parts lf the school #but stein is stein and hes a nosey bastard and wants to know whats up with them and why he cant get a good read on them #oh and their actual weapon form when not conforming to a meisters prefered weapon is a spray bottle of neurotoxin #and they look like a mushroom #they can change the components of the toxin to have varying symptoms and lethalities #stein: so you change weapons a lot but which one is your actual main? OC: oh you know. a spray gun filled with VX neurotoxin. Stein: what. #yeah idk what their name is yet but its probably gonna be a bastardized version of some sort of poison name

[jaded-ghoster]

every day i wake up and i wish i had a device that would erase my memory up until the time before i discovered my favorite rare pairs because this is HELL

#i just dont get it #its not even the content part of it #im fine with no content #because im making that content #but god i see these rare pair fics with so little reads that i hate it #like someone is definitely gonna be like #waaaaah what kind of shitstain clout chases on ao3 wahhhh #me #i do #because its fun and i love it #if no one will read the fic that im pouring my soul into trying to develop then why write at all #thats how i see it anyway #reads definetly dont matter to anyone #i just find it nice #and it makes life a little nicer #rare pair #rare pair hell #fic writing