#even though it's hard

[bunn-iiii]

my unkillable drum head shirt means so much to me

#beinh disabled and horribly depressed will make you gravitate to some white guy writing ''unkillable'' on a drum head #my hands hurt a lot and my knees and hips and back and ankles noticably hurt nearly 24/7 #and i have a hard time getting school work done #and i feel like i am dragging myself through life #and I'm in a state that is trying to kill me for being trans #and through it all I've not died yet. #i can't die yet #i have to live. #even though it's hard #and hurts #and i want to cry a lot

[mirmirma]

It hurts

#emotions aren't fun #i want to turn them off #i've lived my whole life feeling pretty lucky because despite falling into a couple minorities i've never been given much trouble for it #i mean people bullied me for being neurodivergent and i've definitely been the only woman in the room before #only my dad ever gave me shit for identifying as bisexual #but now i've started college #in the past year i've been given so much shit for being who i am #it's insane #i don't think i'm ever gonna recover the person i once was after all this #but i refuse to give up #i've said my whole life that empathy is the most important skill #that we should strive to show empathy even for the people who hate us #i stand by this #i won't quit #even though it's hard #even though it hurts #it hurts so much #i won't give up #vent #tw vent #tw implied bigotry

[transthatfag]

looking.

#I was really in the mood to do a portrait soooo #though the colors were really hard for me to settle on ngl #like even not im on the fence about them but its cool #the hand and the face are pretty fine tho #art #digital art #my art 🦷 #mcr #gerard way #my chemical romance #mcr fanart

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[im-still-watching-anime]

apollo’s confidence in court: oh my god i’m the worst lawyer ever my client is going to go to JAIL because i can’t even do my JOB

apollo’s confidence outside of court: i’m the only smart one here, i’m the most normal guy in the world and NO ONE is doing it like i am, investigations are EASY, klavier gavin wants me carnally

#ace attorney #apollo justice #klavier gavin #klapollo #ace attorney incorrect quotes #the last one isn’t even his confidence tbh it’s just a fact #he says it like he doesn’t ALSO want klavier gavin carnally though which he does #alternatively: #apollo at klavier in court: *sweats* he’s so hot and competent #apollo at klavier outside of court: um…hello….you are kind of really nice🥺👉👈 #disgusting #im obsessed with them #preordered the new trilogy of three games i already own today😌 #$60 of my very hard earned money right into that #and i cant even regret it im SO excited #all the extrassssss #PLEASE go look at the aa twitter account to see the art extras btw #they’re SO fun #apollo justice trilogy really being about 75% of my will to live rn

[nerdpoe]

Dan hates his Nicer Self.

He does. He really, really does.

The kid is naïve, cocky, strong in the weirdest ways that don't make sense-

And he's such a busybody! Always helping, always jumping into things, and always saying that he's definitely not trying to be a hero.

It's annoying.

It's so annoying.

For instance, Phantom got called in by the JL for an all-hands-on-deck situation right before a super important test. Phantom accepted the call.

But the JL had dealt with threats like this before, a million times-there was literally no need to answer the call.

Yet the little dumbass had.

And now Dan was at home, staying on the other side of the room away from Vlad, and watching the fight on TV.

Phantom takes a hit. Then another. Then another.

Good; he'll learn not to jump when the JL says jump, then.

Phantom goes down, disappears behind some rubble.

Dan doesn't care. He doesn't. Let the kid learn a lesson.

Phantom doesn't get up.

Just like Jazz didn't get up.

Or Sam, or Tucker, or his mom or his dad-

Dan sees red.

He barely hears Vlad as he rips a portal to the fight and steps out, in his own ghost form, and decks the bad guy-some demon named Trigun or whatever, fucking weeb-so hard he knocks the guy back.

The fight pauses.

"You touched the twerp," Dan growls, voice distorting and allowing his powers to manifest at full capacity for the first time in years, "So you get to lose your head."

#dpxdc #dcxdp #dp x dc #dc x dp #phanfic #story prompt #Flash has been trying to hard to instill good hero instincts into Phantom whenver he gets the chance #only to have this happen and be like #oh #OH #YOU'RE NOT THAT GUY #YOU'RE HIS LITTLE BROTHER #OH FUCK #OH NO #i also headcanon that even though Dan has twerp body his ghost form is the same #so he's built like a horrifying brick shithouse #agit spoilers #a glitch in time spoilers

[dmcoffee]

Maybe I take the rest of today to just listen to messy ass Reddit Stories and draw. Maybe I just let myself rest today.

#It's hard #because if I keep pushing I'm going to burn out #And that's super not ideal right now #And I'm waiting lists for housing #The places I'm recommended to apply to close by are fully staffed (sob) #And it's just #A matter of time really #So I gotta keep my spirit up #Even though it's hard #But I'll rest

[pinksartdump]

I am obsessed with VOXXXYYYYY umm also I tried to animate eheheh the voice actor they picked for him is *CHEFS KISS*

#fanart #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin alastor #alastor the radio demon #hazbin hotel vox #vox #radio static #alastor x vox #I SHIP THEM SO HARD EVEN THOUGH I KNOW ALASTOR IS LIKE AROMANTIC OR WHATEVER #FUCK FURRIES WE LIKE INANIMATE OBJECTS AS HALF HUMANS NOW #digital illustration #animated #hazbin hotel #radiostatic #staticradio

[electrozeistyking]

"She's Gone"

This bad boy was started on the third of November, and finished on the seventh. In total, there are thirty panels (all of which were drawn separately).

A good chunk of N's dialogue near the end came to me after I did some improv to figure out what he should say. I have since dubbed it "N's Failure Monologue."

#murder drones #murder drones n #murder drones tessa #murder drones uzi #tessa james elliott #serial designation n #uzi doorman #the absolutesolver #BOY let me tell ya there was some movie magic pulled in areas #even though i told myself to keep it simple... despite knowing how well that worked when i made crash test #ah well. i go overboard so you guys can enjoy the end result #and hopefully not dock off points for my inability to draw characters holding swords. i tried SO HARD #ALSO JUST SAW THE BEGINNING OF THE END TEASER THING BEFORE POSTING THIS #OH MY GOD MY HEART IS DOING THINGS TO ME AND I'M NOT SURE THIS IS HELPING #YES THAT IS THE ONLY TEASER I WILL EVER WATCH BECAUSE IT WAS UNAVOIDABLE ANYWAY (it’s in glitchx 2023) #solveruzi au #zeisty’s heavy hitters #zeisty’s comic stuff

[sockich]

You think you can take me down twice?

BLUE EYE SAMURAI (2023)

#i think she can take you down as many times as she likes and you'd be into it #love that for once a scene like this ends with an actual canonical hard on #and love taigen's chill if awkward reaction even though he believes mizu is a man #honestly cliche though it is i'm not not into them #taigen #mizu #love them #mizu x taigen #blue eye samurai #tv #my posts

[mizgnomer]

Interviewer: [Because there's a Doctor Who reference in Good Omens], does that mean David Tennant, the actor, exists in the Good Omens universe?

David Tennant and Michael Sheen discuss Doctor Who in the Good Omens Universe (and good Doctors)

Source [ comicbook.com ]

#good omens #david tennant #michael sheen #go2 #go2 spoilers #gos2 #gos2 spoilers #good omens 2 #doctor who #ineffable husbands #tagging for spoilers because i suppose this is one #even though I doubt it really gives away anything in the plot #but it is adorable #and michael can't pass up the opportunity to give david a hard time #bless them both #stuff i posted #doctor who and good omens #two loves of my life coming together #originally the videos weren't showing up for me due to my ad blockers #good omens spoilers

[anininas]

WIP because I'm not sure if I have it in me to finish this

#fun fact Re2 is my favourite #even though it's the least I draw #He's so hard to draw for no reason either it looks nothing like him or it looks like zac efron #resident evil #resident evil 2 #leon s kennedy #ani's scribbles

[perplexingly]

“Frankenstein, or the Modern Prometheus” by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley (1818) // Frankenstein from the Royal Ballet (2016) // National Theatre Live: Frankenstein (2011) // Frankenstein: The Metal Opera (2014) // Frankenstein (TV Miniseries 2004) // Creature (TV Miniseries 2023)

Grief of the Creature across various adaptations

#I’m sorry I’m not done with this brainriot yet 🥺 #Frankenstein #I like it when the Creature embraces Victor in the adaptations even though he doesn’t in the book #it feels right #he doesn’t do it in the vimeo musical or the 1994 film adaptation #he kinda does in the Puppet Opera but it’s hard to see on a screenshot

[daftmooncretin]

fellas is it gay to lovingly caress your captains face as you remove his memories because you don’t want him to cry anymore. (he’s crying because he flirted with leonardo da vinci’s robot girlfriend too hard and she blew up fyi) just before this a mutual friend told you he pitied you because you had no capacity to love.

#although wiping jims mind was quite an unhinged breach of trust #the way he just sadly whispers ‘forget’ 🥹 #why did bones come for poor spock so hard this episode this episode though? #he didnt even do anything to deserve it lmao #he actually tried to protect kirk from finding out the truth because he knew it would upset him #and bones was still like this is on you bitch #episode is requiem for methuselah btw #tos #star trek tos #star trek #jim kirk

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Wangji might be an unstoppable force, but Xie Lian has 800+ years of practice of being an immovable object.

(poll results here for context)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #bonus comic #The most resounding conclusion the community came to agree on is thar Xie Lian is bad at cooking on purpose #and is stubborn to the point of refusing to let go of this feature (not a bug) of himself. #though if you practice being bad at something on purpose you do just…get bad. #Poor lan wangji probably had to watch him do horrendous food crimes in the kitchen. #crushing eggs in his fists and throwing it into the bowl or pan (shell and all). #Burning water. Throwing in ingredients based on the roll of a dice. Putting in leaves and cool rocks he found. #He is living his best life mind you. And I think as long as he is happy then let him make his potions. #This is *his* version of art therapy. It just shouldnt be fed to anyone. #lwj would probably try to make it more theraputic after realizing that the bad cooking skills were on purpose. But even then XL is a rock. #he will not do anything he does not want to. Including processing feelings. #Don't idealize that btw. You will do yourself no favours by ignoring hard emotions. Love and peace everypony; Its a hard world out there. #Hua Cheng and wwx hung out during all of this and have since become hunting buddies. #Sometimes its birds sometimes it's each other. For sport.

[leonardcohenofficial]

there’s a great write up by someone on here that i will have to search for in which they discuss how the ultimate evil for david lynch is sexual violence against women (even more severe than murder, which is often auxiliary to that type of specific violence); twin peaks is incredibly soapy—on purpose! lynch and frost are playing with form and content on purpose to examine incredibly difficult subject matter through a (for lack of a better word) more palatable format—which most of the time i think works to its advantage and makes those moments of visible horror so much more effective (i use “visible” rather than “true” or other similar adjectives because the horror is always there, it’s embedded in the entire town, shows up in every generation we see in screen and we watch them grapple with it in different ways, but that’s a separate post)

however—and i’ve talked about this before—i find that once you’ve watched fire walk with me it is so much harder to watch the show because the ignorance of nearly every single member of the town (yes, including cooper) pervades the way the action unfolds. twin peaks viewers knew the premise of the show going in and we get to discover details and information alongside the characters. when albert rosenfield comes in as the only voice of reason and reality, it’s set up to be jarring to both the townspeople and to the viewer. why?

sheryl lee said in an interview, “fire walk with me was very difficult for me to watch… and, emotionally it’s a reminder: this is a movie, but this continues to happen every day and how can we stop it? when i watch fire walk with me now, as a mother, i watch it and i think look at all those signs that were being exhibited. this girl was in danger, and look at all these people that were in her life. what would have happened if someone, somewhere, somehow could have helped or stopped it? that’s hard to watch.”

much has been discussed critically about fire walk with me and whether or not it’s exploitative in the ways that it portrays sexual violence against women. while lynch does not shy away from making that violence visible, it is done so in an attempt to make the viewer examine their own relationship to that violence and how it shows up in their own lives. the audience is forced to think about the ways that they are complicit in how and why these violent acts occur and what they can do to stop it, which is why for many it is an uncomfortable watch. for others, it is a painful (and speaking from my own perspective) necessary watch because lynch didn’t make a horror movie, he made a documentary.

fire walk with me is necessary (in my humblest of opinions) to understand why the pieces that lynch and frost put into twin peaks work. there’s so much backstory to how they weren’t originally going to reveal who laura palmer’s killer was until ABC made them, lynch wasn’t around during much of the second season so things got a little off the rails storytelling-wise, etc. etc. but fire walk with me allows them to tie difficult, often horrifying threads (ben horne unknowingly attempting to have sex with his daughter, the townspeople’s distancing of albert, the hands of random townspeople trembling as BOB attempts to claw back into the material world, the list goes on and on) back to the central thesis of “sexual violence is the ultimate evil, it is completely avoidable, and you have a responsibility to recognize the signs and stop being complicit”

#twin peaks #david lynch #fire walk with me #this is a huge essay but i’ve been really thinking about this lately as even though i love—LOVE—twin peaks (i have a twin peaks tattoo!) it #has been getting really hard to engage with lately and for me this is why; the combination of the fact that FWWM is an incredible #examination of horrific real life violence and because of the ways that we see the ignorance of everyone else (purposefully) put on screen #in short i think david lynch is a master for this reason but man if it isn’t hard (and important! but hard!) to engage with!