Want It All - jjk
there are only two types of people in the word: those who have it all, and those who want it all.
» genre: (mini) series, angst, smut, some fluff.
» description: high society, arrogant rich boy jjk meets strong-willed reader, and together they hatch a plan to have it all. enemies to lovers, fake dating au :P
» word count: 11k (... i know but HEAR ME OUT... i worked three days on this and not my school work so just give it a chance 😭)
Part 1 | Part 2
have you ever met someone that seemed to love the things they hate? it's as if they run on spite, constantly doing the opposite of what others tell them to do and crush every expectation and prediction put upon them.
for you, this was turning against your family's generationally toxic values and living how you wanted. and you made no effort in hiding your plans.
this came down to almost every detail. it didn't matter what anyone else thought of you, of course. you knew that. but you can't deny the power of not only crushing but exceeding people's expectations of you.
even when you were given scholarships for a great school, and became successful, you still wanted more. there was still something to prove, even when "having it all" (being smart, pretty, and practically guaranteed money and success) there was still a missing, undeniable, factor.
and that is when you met jeon jungkook.
god, did you hate, jeon jungkook.
being the type of person you were, also garnered a lot of hate. you always chalked it up to jealousy, or envy. all the same, it only fueled you more, and otherwise had no purpose. so therefore, you did not feel jealousy. (or so, before you met him).
your university was among the top in the country, and being one of the top ranked in your class meant you were granted opportunities others were not. it gave the up and coming (or simply privileged) people a way to make connections and "friends" (people deemed acceptable company) so dinners, party's, charity events, and balls were all accustomed to you.
during your last year of university, you decided to purchase an enchanting sequined, black dress that had caught your eye a few months earlier. it was perfect for the event, and a little out of budget, but you could work around it.
and boy, was it worth it.
"wow, it's like that dress was made for you, y/n." sooyung awes, equally as gorgeous when she's dolled up and in a red dress.
"i wish it was acceptable to wear stuff like this all the time, because you're right, this totally is made for me.
she laughs, "you should contact the designer, he'd be all over you."
you chuckle and wave her off after dressing and assembling your mini purse to match, you both are ready to head to the charity ball. dinner, service, and a free bar. doesn't get much better than that.
the night goes on the same as ever, having been attending this ceremony every year since your first year, and many people had the same story as you, in that sense.
which means all the faces become known, so seeing one as striking as him that you didn't know, only made him more alluring. especially considering he hadn't taken his gorgeous eyes off of you all night.
you wondered when he'd approach you. you gave him ample opportunity, even setting up a few perfect scenarios. the night was past it's peak and began to wind down when you found yourself seated alone at the open bar.
he slides into the stool beside you and orders himself a drink, and you another of whatever you're almost done with.
you raise your brows at him with a grin, "should've done that several hours ago.
your mean words don't cause him to turn away, instead he laughs, "forgive me, it took some courage."
you hum, "courage? i would think a man like you would have no problem approaching women."
the server hands us both our respective drinks and he swishes it around before sipping, "you've got me there."
you nod, intrigued by his honesty. "have i ever seen you before?"
his eyes widen the slightest bit at your question. you don't understand why, but it was a subtle change, you conclude you're overthinking him. men are simple creatures.
"i have surely never seen you before, because if i had, i would not have forgotten."
you smile, "charming." he bites at his lip, making the silver ring all the more noticeable as it shines against the light at the bar. "what's your name then?"
"jeon jungkook." he extends a hand.
you take his large hand into yours, extending the shake, "y/f/n."
he grins, and you can't deny the depths of his grin, both soft and so, so dark. "it's a pleasure to meet you."
and as all things happen, when one pent-up college student meets another in equal standing and frustration, it doesn't take you long at all to end up with an invitation to his place.
"your place?" you ask as he leads you outside the venue.
he nods, digging in his pockets to find his keys, "yeah.”
as you predicted, his daddy most definitely did have money. he led you to a very nice apartment complex. fitting for someone his age, but still opulent enough to not sacrifice the luxurious things he likely grew up with.
and clearly, patience was not one of the things he was taught at a young age. had it not been for your request of a surface softer than the front door, you think he would have taken you right then and there.
his body is heavy pressed against yours, easily clouding your thoughts when his lips are on your neck and his thigh presses between your legs.
you give as much as you take, reaching down to feel him through his pants and he rewards you with a groan. you undo his belt and he kicks his pants off. he only detaches himself from you once, to strip his top half and instructing you to turn around so he can unzip your dress.
he's quick to trap you between him and the door again and you struggle to detach yourself from him long enough to whimper out a request.
finally the mention of his name has him stopping long enough for you to ask, "mind if we take this somewhere a little softer?"
he grins, "anywhere you'd like gorgeous."
he takes your hand and leads you to his bedroom, sitting on his bed first before leading you into his lap to continue to kiss you feverishly.
your hands become entangled in his dark locks and his hands grip your ass, moving you ever so slowly back and forth against him as he kisses you.
you pull away, hoping to get this moving a little quicker and disconnect your lips and tip his head back to attach your lips to his neck. he moans at a sensitive spot beneath his ear, and another above his collarbone.
he curses and flips you both over, making quick work of your bra as he pulls it off from beneath you and tosses it away. he groans and grips your chest as if it was his first time seeing such a thing.
he worshiped you as if you were his first and last, although by the way he worked your body it was clear you would be neither of those things.
he trailed his mouth down from your chest to your pelvis, peeling your lace underwear off as he went. "mind if i have a taste?"
he asks as if you'd stop him now.
"absolutely."
he chuckles almost arrogantly. and you hoped he was as good as he pretended to be. as soon as he put his tongue on you, that truth became evident.
he had you mewling beneath him. practically dragging your hips against him to beg for more, as if he wasn't already giving you everything he had. he absolutely relished in the sight of you coming just from his tongue.
you curse and he makes his way back up to you, "still up for more?" he asks with a cocky grin.
your chest is still rising and falling as you admire the way he stares at you. "i'd be awful not to reward you after that."
he smiles, "i was hoping you'd say that."
you grin and run your hand up along his thigh, "so what'll it be, jungkook?"
his words are vulgar but they come out soft, dripping in power. "can't help but picture what you'd look like bouncing on my cock." who are you to deny such a request?
with your approval he situates himself against his headboard and holds you as you position yourself above him. his breathing slows and he looks at you determined, as if he had this planned from the beginning.
you're glad he was kind enough to get you off first, because you're certain now as he fills you up that you would've been a goner otherwise. you hadn't really paid close attention to what he was packing until you felt him inside of you. he was a stretch to say the least, and from his position he hit all the spots he needed to. you're almost sure he would in any position, and you were up to test that too. "god, jungkook, you're big.
what you anticipate is a cocky comment from him but he's just as in awe as you are when he cusses, "god, you feel phenomenal."
you grin at his choice of words and begin to lift your hips up and down. you watch him closely, having pegged him for an ass guy early on has you rethinking the way you'd drawn him up in your head as he ogles at your chest. his eyes stutter between that, and the part where your bodies connect. one of his large hands grabs at your ass and the other helps you keep pace against your hip.
"fuck, more, please." he requests and you oblige as much as you can, but the issue with giving more is you tire quicker.
he seems unfazed, tilting his head back and letting his sounds reverberate in his bedroom. you do the same, no room for shyness when you're both being so open about the pleasure. he cusses and grips your hips tighter, "can we switch it up?" you nod, and he smiles. "head down, ass up."
you almost moan at the mention of it. he matches your excitement with eagerness, not wasting any time as he slides back in and builds up to the pace you were at before, then beyond.
he grips tightly on your hips, pulling you back with him with every thrust. the harshness of it in perfect unison of your impending highs. he's close and you can tell.
"fuck y/n, are you close?"
you nod and whine out a yes. he groans and snakes one of his arms around your front and circles your clit. "wanna see you cum around my cock." he breaths, "can you do that for me gorgeous?"
you're plenty past the point of letting him control you, letting him fuck you senselessly into the mattress when you struggle to moan out a response. he just chuckles and continues to play with you until your orgasm comes crashing down and you both moan in unison. he fucks you through it and stills soon after.
you turn over onto your back and let your eyes flutter shut. not concerned with what he was doing, although you were sure that was when he discarded of the condom he filled and slipped his boxers back on after cleaning himself up.
you awaited further instruction for what comes next. guys are different, you don't assume you can stay until you're explicitly told. you assume you're not when he doesn't join you in bed again. instead you ask to use his restroom and he points to the door across from the bed.
when you come back out you begin the search for your clothes. he's sitting on his bed, clearing his notifications it seemed. he looks up at you while you're scavenging the floor, "you should stay, it's pretty late."
you shrug, sliding your bra back on, "it's fine, i'll catch an uber."
he crawls over to you and slips off the bed, standing in front of you and looking deeply into your eyes. you feel one of his hands ghost your jaw before he places another kiss against your lips.
this was something you deemed out of character, but it definitely helped him create an offer you couldn't refuse. "come on, i'm a great cuddler and i'll even make breakfast."
you're not usually a fan of staying, unless you're too drunk and it's too late to be safe, so when you agree to his offer you surprise yourself.
and it turns into one of your biggest regrets when you wake up the next morning.
"fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck"
you curse, practically rampaging through jungkook's room as soon as you wake up. it was serene for perhaps a minute. your mind caught up with you, and you quickly realized you woke up on your own accord and not according to your alarm.
you looked around frantically for a clock or phone of sorts. and the panic that set in once you read the digital alarm clock on his bedside table would have any doctor believe your heart was actually in the pits of your stomach.
"no fucking way. this can't be happening right now."
a trick to maintaining a healthy social life to academic life balance is setting your alarms before you go out. so no matter what happens, you always have time.
except this time, your phone wasn't in your purse. in fact, it wasn't in his bedroom at all. jungkook opens his bedroom door to find you dressing as quickly as you could, prepared to find a car or even race to your interview in the same dress and heels if you had to.
"someone looks panicked, what's got you in such a hurry?"
"fuck! where is my phone?!" he laughs and you are not amused in the slightest as he casually leans against the doorframe with an absolutely shit-eating grin. "seriously jungkook i really need to go, help me out?"
he shrugs and doesn't move an inch. i shove past him in an angry mumble, "men are so unhelpful."
he scoffs, "you certainly didn't hold that opinion last night."
you roll your eyes, "seriously jungkook, do you know where it is or if i had it?" he ticks his head towards the couch. "right there."
you frown, "how the hell did it get there?" he grins, "that alarm was awfully annoying. do you normally do that after hooking up with people? what a terrible way to wake up, you don't get a lot of call backs do you-"
"you heard my alarm? and you didn't wake me up?!" you stare at him in disbelief.
he chuckles, "you are fun to play with y/n, but i'm not a huge sadist so in the favor of not prolonging this, allow me to fill you in."
he pulls a chair from the table beside him and straddles it, crossing his muscular arms on top and over the back of it as he looks at you darkly. "you must be aware of the list of candidates mr. kim chooses for his internship." you nod, not even concerned how he knew about the internship interview you missed this morning or what this had to do with him, "it's a short list, and he doesn't only choose from the school he teaches at. he just wants the best of the best."
you nod and scoff, "yeah i already know all of this, the point, please?"
he chuckles, clearly annoyed, "well the list turned out to be awfully hard to get my hands on, but even harder to decipher who the candidates were when he only wrote the students code and their university on the forms. all i knew was he had us all ranked, and someone from your university was in the number one spot, and not me."
my thoughts race, in all my years studying here i had not been immune to my fair share of dirty and underhanded tricks to reach my goals, but nothing compares to what he was describing. he continues still, "i asked everywhere, you hadn't seemed to tell a damn person you were chosen for the opportunity, let alone the best shot at winning." he ticks his head at me, "that was until i came across sooyung. she spotted me at the cafe and didn't waste a second. she's quite the talker, you know?"
you shake your head speechlessly, "you seriously went to all of these lengths just to be sure i missed that interview?"
he just smiles proudly, and you laugh, "how insecure of you, actually. i should thank you." you walk towards him on the chair, confused and dissident as you wrap yourself around him before bending down to his level, "you had a lot of praise for me last night, but the notion that you couldn't beat me on your own merit, knowledge, and skill has to be the largest one of all."
he does not like that. he angrily bites the corner of his mouth and offendedly laughs,
"say what you want, theres no way he'll give you that spot now."
you walk away from him with a shrug, collecting your things, "that may be, but i wouldn't say it's sured. i do hope for your sake though jungkook," you open his door and turn back around to look him in the eyes, "that this is the last time you see me."
that was everything that happened when you first met jungkook. all in less than 24 hours.
much to your demise, he had successfully blocked you from claiming that summer intern position with mr. kim, and managed to somehow convince him that he was the right choice.
you decided begging or bargaining for that spot was beneath you, although mr. kim did recommend you to another agency.
"this wasn't on the list of options they handed out at the beginning of the semester." you question, looking over the application he had just handed you.
he doesn't look up from his desk, "i know, because they don't usually hire students."
you chuckle even though it's not amusing, "then why are you telling me to apply there? do you think i need more disappointment?"
he chuckles at that, "no, not at all. i wouldn't recommend this if i didn't think you had a chance." he looks up at me, "let's just say, i heard through the grapevine that they were debating, allowing students to intern. if they'd make an exception for anyone, i think it'd be you."
you nod, and he adds, "and it's not like you have much other options, unless you want a less reputable company."
you shake your head quickly, "being accepted here would be insane for my resume." he nods and with that you part him with a thanks.
as if lady luck herself pities you, or perhaps by the grace of god himself, you find yourself getting a call on a Tuesday morning regarding your unprompted submission to intern at one of the country's largest and most reputable companies.
you were half expecting to be let down, and the other half was excepting to be berated for such an inappropriate action.
you were not expecting to be told you were expected at headquarters for a meeting with the current director over further plans.
and it went swimmingly.
some people just click, and for once you are more than glad, elated, even, that this man seemed to take quite a liking to your work and ambition, all made clear not only through your resume and portfolio submitted but by your very presence.
he leaned over to speak quietly, "you know, we don't take on students." your heart began to break a little, "but we've always entertained the idea. it surely has its benefits. not to mention, first grabs on the newest, and best talent."
you light up at his words, "of course i think it's a fantastic idea, but i am also biased."
he laughs and nods, "yes, well, of course. i'm unsure what exactly we'd have you do, but i don't doubt you'd be willing to do whatever we asked of you."
you nod, "correct." you don't care if its running errands, secretary work, writing, or even handing pens out, you would do it.
he purses his lips, "and we'll base your pay off of what we have you do. we'll reach that conclusion at about week 4. does this all sound agreeable to you?"
you nod quickly, "yes of course, i understand."
he grins widely, it was almost familiar, and stands with his hand extended out to you.
"i’ll have our lawyers draw up a contract for you, your term ends on the 29th correct?"
you shake his hand with a large smile, "yes, it does."
he nods, "perfect then, we'll be in touch. glad to have you, y/n."
working at mr. lee's company exceeded your expectations. you began to understand why this was everyone's top pick, and why they were never hiring.
your life had continued to follow the path you worked so hard to ensure. you responded to mr. lee (or his secretary, when he was too busy) for your task sheet every week and they even began to accept you as another coworker. even mr. lee took kindly to you, so much as to invite you to the company's charity event.
you spent most of your time there learning more about your coworkers, even meeting some of their partners or family.
mr. lee seemed very glad to see you and noticed you immediately while making his rounds. "ah y/n! i was really hoping you'd make it."
you laugh and bow to him, "of course, how could i not come? it's a fantastic event mr. lee, thank you for having me."
he shakes his head, "nonsense. you belong here." he doesn't seem to understand the weight of his words, and they fill you with hope. ever so carefully entertaining the idea that this could be your future. "i may have invited you for selfish reasons as well, y/n."
you look at him, both worried and confused, and he laughs, holding his gut, "oh heavens! not for me." he laughs heartily, "i-i have a son, i would really love you to meet."
the panic falls from your face and you laugh with him, "oh! gosh, of course. i'd be delighted."
he grins widely, "well then, let me introduce you to my family."
your heart pounds with excitement as you follow his lead around the decorated room and to a nearby table. "y/n, this is my wife."
you smile and introduce yourself to her, gosh she's gorgeous. if he has half the looks his mother does, you're sold.
"nice to meet you y/n! how are you enjoying the party?" she asks before gesturing to sit at the seat in front of her.
"it's fantastic! i especially love how the centerpieces are the colors of the foundation you're honoring tonight." you comment, having done your research last night.
her eyes glow in admiration, "yes!" she gawks, touching your hand for a moment,
"you are just as intelligent as my husband said you were." she grins and leans forward,
"and you seem to be just his son's type, but don't tell him i told you that." you both laugh,
"he gets embarrassed so easily." she covers her laugh, "there was this one time where he-"
"i would rather you not tell this story again, please." a figure from behind you speaks, placing a drink in front of her and another on the table beside you as he sits down.
and when you lock eyes, a million things all at once rush to your head.
jeon jungkook, again.
"jungkook."
he looks equally bewildered, "y/n?" you don't respond, still too much in shocked anger and fumbling to find the correct gameplay. "what are you doing here?" he asks.
his mother scoffs and reaches over to slap his arm, "jeon jungkook, be kind. this was the girl your father wanted you to meet, y/n, this is my son!"
your eyes race between her and jungkook. how could you not have noticed? he is literally the spitting image of his mother. it was right in front of you.
"yeah, we've met." he tells her. you raise an eyebrow, not anticipating that he would admit that, knowing what door it would open.
"oh, really? all the better!" she rises from her seat and walks over to jungkook, wrapping her arms around his shoulders and leaning down to tell him, "your father picked this one, perhaps take it seriously, and he may actually begin to take you, seriously."
her words sound loving and sweet, but the meaning was much deeper and darker in insinuation than on surface level. jungkook looks troubled but doesn't reply. "alright! well, have fun you two!" she places a hand on your shoulder as she walks past me and into the crowd to socialize beside her husband.
jungkook is silent. you find it extremely amusing. you cross your arms and look at him with the cocky grin he was sporting the last time you saw him.
he avoids your stare until it becomes unavoidable and uncomfortable. you wait for him to speak up. he scoffs and shakes his head, "what's with the grin? shouldn't you be begging right about now?"
you furrow your brows, "why on earth would i be begging?"
he chuckles, "i could tell my dad how we met. he doesn't exactly approve of my lifestyle. says i'm spoiled and lack a clear ambition all because i enjoy the money he gives me, and women." he leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "if he knew you were anything like me, i doubt you'd remain in the current high regards he holds for you."
you laugh, "from the sounds of it, you're in no position to make such a gamble with your father." he looks at you testingly, and you match his stance by resting your elbows on your knees, but let your chin rest in your hands as you stare at him. "sounds like you need to appease your father. I'll be sure to tell him how you took advantage of me in a vulnerable stage, after breaking up with my boyfriend, and never spoke to me afterwards. maybe even include why you sought me out in the first place-"
"wait, what are you talking about? that first part isn't true at all-"
"oh, but isn't it?" you ask, your expression going from innocent confusion to a grin,
"because that's how i'll tell it. and i'll have you know, my acting skills are quite great." you render him silent, "who would he believe, jungkook?"
he lets out a heavy sigh, leaning back against his seat. he toys with his fingers and checks the time on his watch, before pursing his lips and looking at you. "okay."
"okay?"
he nods, "okay." he picks up his chair and scoots it close enough our knees are touching. "what will it take for you to not do that."
you chuckle once, and then several more times, "oh gosh jungkook. i almost forgot how funny you were." he is not amused in the slightest. "i'm a woman of my word. what i say and what i live by is law, that's what's gotten me this far. not, people like you, who are simply handed it."
"i’m clearly not being handed it, that's the whole fucking issue." he grumbles.
you hum, "so thats it?" you giggle, "he hasn't agreed to let you take over, has he?" he shakes his head, you've clearly hit a nerve, "oh boy i knew he was smart, but this is, wow-”
"would you please stop with your pretentious babbling and get to it?"
you pout, "you're absolutely no fun jungkook."
he crosses his arms across his chest, "i just want to know as soon as possible if you plan on throwing more fuel under the fire that is my future burning away, so i can at least run collateral. or, by your own graces, what you'd like in exchange to not, do that."
you simply smile to him, "i told you jungkook, if you ever met me again you'd live to regret it."
he nods, "yes i do recall your threatening spiel as you left my house."
you shrug, "perfect. so you'll understand how kind i am about to be." his eyes move from the floor to meet yours. "the idea of negotiating with you sounds horrendous, and there are very few things i'd put above watching you wither from something i caused.”
"but…”
"but, there is one thing i can think of, you may actually be useful for." he nods, "yeah, which is?"
your head falls to the side, letting your hand reach out to his on the table as you run your fingers against his, "i want a guaranteed spot at this company." his eyes follow your fingers, "and you want to someday run it."
he nods slowly, still entranced. "so here's my plan, now, it's still a rough draft with little thought, but this is what i think could work: we date for a while. Unsure how long, but long enough to make sure your father likes us both, and when we deem it enough, we break up mutually on good terms."
he sits stilled, his eyes meeting mine after a few moments, "that sounds great, but i think you've left something unaccounted for."
"and that is?"
he grins, "that i, will be working there, even running it, at some point. are you really comfortable with working there and loathing your boss?"
you laugh, "if it comes to that point, which even with my genius plan, is still an if, I'll decide if i can stay, or we'll agree on where to transfer or recommend me. does this sound acceptable to you?"
he stirs in his seat for a moment, then picks up your hand, as if to shake it but he simply holds it, "i accept it."
you nod, "how about we discuss further plans on our first date? where do you want to go?"
he hums, "letting me pick?" you nod. "well, fighting the urge to say i'd like to do what we did when we first met," you scoff, "i guess i'll settle on dinner?"
you agree, "okay, dinner it is. friday?"
"that works.”
"great!" you stand from your seat, "dinner, on you"
he purses his lips and nods, "figures." you turn to walk away and he stops you, latching onto your wrist, "wait."
you simply look down at him, and he says,
"need your number, gorgeous." you shake your head, grabbing his phone from his hand and typing in your information before handing it back to him. "y/n with a heart?" he chuckles, "that's not something i would write in."
you shrug, "if you want to convince your parents it's real, you can't treat me like every other girl you've fucked around with."
he nods, seemingly understanding the depths of what i'm telling him, "i guess so.”
"yes, exactly. now, i'll grab drinks for both of us and tell your parents how much i like you already, what do you want?"
your date with jungkook was as exhausting as you’d anticipated it would be. It was a free meal though, and with an extremely attractive man, so you couldn't wholeheartedly complain. There was definitely worse ways to spend your friday night.
“so i get my family and your coworkers and such have to believe this, but it's alright to tell our friends, yeah?”
you’re slouched and swishing the wine around in your glass as you hum, “mhm. i’d think of it this way, only tell who you absolutely have to tell. for me? that'll only be sooyung. everyone else around me, friends or not, will think i am dating you.”
he nods, “so you're only telling your closest friend, and everyone else is off-limits from the truth? don't you think that's a bit much? i mean, that's going to completely tank our actual dating lives.”
you shake your head, not caring to look him in the eyes as you speak, “the people around us all have connections to something or someone. the last thing we need is someone finding out and either telling your parents, or blackmailing us. it's the safest way to ensure nothing goes wrong.” he chews on his food and indicates he understands and you interject, “and about your last comment, frankly i wouldn't be that concerned for your dating life if your parents were literally setting you up with women.”
he scowls, “that has nothing to do with what i was talking about.”
you nod and smile, “oh! you mean, how will this affect your sex life?” you laugh, “silly me, i thought by “dating lives” you meant actual, meaningful, relationships.”
he scoffs, “whatever you call it, i may not be labeled ‘boyfriend material' by many women, but the last thing i want to be labeled as is a cheater, fake relationship or not.”
you’re surprised by his statement. “why? it's not like it would really ruin your chances of future relationships. you'd be surprised what women are willing to forget for a mildly hot guy with money.”
“that's only half of the concern. i just, don't want to be that guy.”
you shrug, not really understanding what he's trying to say and not caring much to decipher his odd morals. “okay, so you don't want to see or sleep with other people, is that right?”
he opens his mouth then closes it, before sighing, “i guess that's how it has to be.”
you think it over, it makes sense. being with other people would increase the number of people you'd have to tell your secret to. or if you don't explain, you’d have to face their judgment. “that sounds good to me.”
he looks up, mildly surprised, “you’re agreeing?” he shakes his head, “i wasn't asking you to do that. i was just telling you i wasn't going to-”
“no need, it's actually kind of smart of you. not that you were trying to be, but if we don't see other people it makes it plenty more believable.”
he shakes his head, “you're really committed to this, you know.”
you grin at him, “this is how i normally am. your dad knows this too, even said he hopes some of my drive and ambition rubs off on you.”
he chuckles, “he did not say that.”
you continue to bicker with each other for most of the remainder of the date, even debating who had the better music taste when jungkook didn't offer you the aux cord in his car.
despite all of it, you found yourself feeling rather content once you stepped inside your building. you weren't annoyed, stressed, nor angry.
you found yourself falling asleep imagining the future you were so committed to building for yourself. there are worst things i could do.
you and jungkook plan every date strategically, and they all unfold without a hinge. on your third date, you went strolling downtown. you grabbed hot chocolate and window shopped, admiring the hard work these people have put into the things they're so passionate about. jungkook wasn't interested in things like this. you knew that, but you also knew fall was coming quickly and your wardrobe needed some updating.
“that's ugly.” he comments, walking past you in the store.
you huff, re-folding the sweater and placing it down on the table before turning to face him, “when did i ask for your opinion on women's clothing?” you laugh, “not to mention, your wardrobe has all of maybe 2 colors, so any advice you give is unwarranted.”
he’s leaning against a different display table with his arms crossed over his wide chest, “if i have to be seen with you in public, it won't be in clothes that you don't look good in. that's all im saying.” he puts his hands up in surrender and continues walking through the store.
“okay then,” you follow behind him, “if you're such a fashionnova, pick out an outfit for me.”
he furrows his brows, “why would i do that.”
“if how i look is such a big deal to you, you shouldn't have a problem picking out an outfit for me.”
“no.”
“then stop talking!”
“ok.” he shrugs and wanders off. you figured he wanted to pout alone so you let him be, picking out a few new items and heading towards the check out.
with a bag in your hand you turn to see jungkook looking out the shop windows. “see a pretty girl?”
he furrows his brows and shakes his head. he does not match your amusement, and actually stays completely silent and solemn.
he takes your hand and leads you out of the store. the form of affection takes you by surprise for a second, but you already discussed ‘acting’ like a couple and told yourself this was just another part of the deal.
“where are you leading me?”
silence. “jungkook?” nothing. you sigh, “you're walking kinda fast can you slow down please?”
he leads you into a brewery on the corner of the street. this was ‘the spot’ on that road and you knew that, hence why you were saving it for last. “jungkook,” you whine, “you knew i wanted to go here last-”
“would you please stop bitching for a second?” he tells you, looking around the special liquor store with an indoor/outdoor bar.
“what are you looking for? do you want something?”
he drops your hand and looks at you, “first of all, i stopped talking because you told me to shut up.” you roll your eyes at his immaturity. “and second of all, i dragged you out of their because that guy in the brown coat?” he points to a guy at the end of the bar, helping what looks to be his date or girlfriend take a seat. “that’s kim taehyung. his dad is a major shareholder and on the board.”
you hum, “so you dragged me here for him?”
he looks at you confused, “did you… forget we’re literally dating to make good impressions on people like him?”
“well not him, per-say-”
“and he’s aiming to take over his father as well, just like me. last time i talked to him, he and his dad invited me to some tennis game but i totally forgot about it and haven't made a fantastic impression since.”
“did you ever apologize?”
he shakes his head, “no, i figured if i didn't then they might think i just forgot.”
“you did-”
“i forgot as in partying was more important.” he tells me. that makes more sense. “but that doesn't matter! because you and i are about to blow him away.”
jungkook grabs you by the waist and leads you around the store, “let's see how good your acting skills are.” he grins.
you smile as well, amused at the situation and you lean into him, “you as well.”
you walk around the store exactly like that until you’re close enough that taehyung notices you. he calls out to jungkook, who pretends to be surprised when he sees the both of them and greets them.
“this is my girlfriend, y/n.” you and taehyung shake hands and he looks to jungkook almost surprised.
“girlfriend? really?”
he nods, “i am just as surprised as you are.”
taehyung just grins widely, “it had to happen one of these days.” he looks to you, “goodluck to you.” you hold back a laugh, he doesn't have a clue.
taehyung then apologizes for not being able to invite you both to join him, “this date should be for us two, but we should totally do a double sometime!”
you’re weary of the offer and it shows on your face as you look to jungkook but he doesn't pay attention to you as he excitedly agrees. “do you still have my number?”
he nods, “i think, but last time i texted you you never replied so maybe i have the wrong one.”
jungkook chuckles and scratches the back of his neck, “yeah that sounds like me, how about you give me your number.”
they agree and exchange. this entire time you notice his date’s been staring at you so you finally look over to notice. you began to smile, hoping to have a small but pleasant interaction but she continues to stare hard and your smile drops when you recognize her.
not that you had any personal issue with her (yet) but this girl was as bad as they come. bad in your opinion, that was. you knew her because of what she did to sooyung, your best friend. minji was similar to jungkook, just minus the genuine charisma and kindness if you really looked. she had all those things sure but it was surface level and fake. whatever minji couldn't have she took. this included school, personal, and business life (cheating, swapping tests, buying and/or sleeping her way), anything besides actually working. her family was rich and you believed she never struggled to have anything. that was until her boyfriend broke up with her and found sooyung. to say that caused issues would be an understatement.
it's good to know she's moved on now, despite going to the lengths she did to break them up. you almost laugh at it all. why go through all that trouble just to break up with him again? you concluded it was a childish power move and never spent another second thinking of the pitiful girl.
until now. you also knew minji hated you for meddling in her and sooyung’s beef, but otherwise had no reason to dislike you.
so why she was ass-eyeing you right now? you're unsure.
the boys say goodbye and share a quick hug before jungkook is pulling you away from the scene.
“you are free next saturday right?” he asks.
“huh? what?” you ask, plenty out of earshot but still in the store where they could see you. “yeah, saturday works. what are we doing?”
he laughs, “were you even listening?” you shake your head, “taehyung invited us to go bowling.”
“bowling?”
“yeah.” he grins, checking out the liquor that lines the wall of the store, “i'll have you know i'm actually really good at it, otherwise i would've suggested something else.” he looks over, as if examining the couple, then turns to you and places a kiss on your head. out of habit you widen your eyes and fight the urge to hit him, “god y/n, they’re looking and you just ruined it.”
“you can’t just jumpscare me like that, god.” you grumble.
he sighs, “just kiss me.”
you sneak a glance at the couple and they’re looking lovingly at each other, “why? they’re not even looking over here.”
“just do it, and make it good to make up for what you did.” he says, determined. you decide to follow along with his request, he’s known what to do up until now, you have no reason to question him. you smile up at him as if he’s just given you the greatest compliment in the world and wrap both of your arms around his neck and pull him in for a kiss.
you keep smiling even when you pull away, despite the slight hatred you still feel for him. he looks at you speechlessly, “smile, jungkook.” you grit. he nods and takes your advice.
“of course, yeah.”
you raise your brows and chuckle, continuing your admiration of the alcohol you know you can’t afford, “i know i’m a good kisser but you don’t have to stand there in awe.”
he looks at you offended and you laugh again. “yeah, sure.”
you continue looking around the store and can’t shake the feeling of someones eyes on you. you look to jungkook who’s occupied examining something else, and then to the couple at the other end of the store. sure enough, minji was still staring.
“that girl makes me uneasy.”
he looks at you with furrowed brows, “who? minji? i wouldn’t worry about her.”
“you know minji?”
he pauses, letting the arm that was reaching for a bottle fall to his side but he doesn't look at you. “i dated her for a few weeks. don't even think it was a month.”
you feel surprised but you really shouldn't be. “how long ago?”
he looks at you annoyed, “like a year ago, it's not that big of a deal. to say i dated her would be a loose term. maybe took her on two dates. we really only did one thing and then got bored.”
you connect the dots without him having to really say it. “she’s been staring daggers at me since we walked in here. and she’s got issues with sooyung, and now with you, she could be a problem, jungkook.”
he shrugs, taking a bottle he picked and examining it, “i really wouldn't worry about her. if she’s with taehyung she's got enough on her hands.” he says. “you ever had honey whiskey?”
“no, jungkook.” you sigh. upset he doesn't seem to care about the present issue.
he grins, “perfect. you want anything?”
you hum and look around. “the cherry one looked interesting.”
he spins around to find the one you’re talking about and grins, “cherry tequila? knew i pegged you right.”
you chuckle, “what are you talking about.”
he shrugs and grins with a cocky smile, “nothing, just knew you were a tequila person. it was obvious.”
“you're talking nonsense.”
“am i wrong? is that not your preferred alcohol?”
“and yours is whiskey i presume?”
he grins, “oh, i'm an everything man.”
you act sarcastically, “oh of course! i should have known.”
“but you didn't! that's how you know i know and you don't.”
he continues to babble as he pays and walks out of the store. “what exactly are you going to do with that? just add it to your little collection?”
he looks down at you for a moment, “drink it, obviously.” you follow him just as confused as before. “did you know i'm actually pretty good at making drinks?”
you hum, “no i guess not, but that wouldn't surprise me.”
“it's not hard to do but it does take some level of commitment, it's actually the perfect practice for someone like me.”
“whatever your hobbies are.” you chuckle.
he scoffs, “yeah? what are your hobbies? studying and being a bitch?”
you laugh, “yeah, actually. but also art and video games.”
he looks at you in a way you couldn't describe. “no shit?” you nod. “perfect then. you didn't have any plans for the rest of the night did you?”
you frown, “i mean i needed to study but-”
“studying waits, i have a better idea.” he looks at you excited and puts the bags you both bought in the backseat of his car, “me vs you video game tournament. you can pick the games, and i’ll supply the drinks.”
“i pick the games? don't you think that's a little unfair?”
he shakes his head, “absolutely not, you'll lose even if you picked terraria.”
“how would terraria-”
“you’d lose.”
jungkook was correct, no matter what you'd pick he would win. and it really fucking annoyed you.
“god is this what you've spent your life doing?”
he laughs, shoving popcorn in his mouth by the handful, “yeah.”
you shake your head, beyond annoyed. you were definitely a sore loser. “no wonder.”
he looks at you and grins, “what? sad that you suck? it's okay y/n you can't be good at everything.” he fakes a sympathetic pout and leans in close to you, “i told you i would win.”
by this point in the day, it’s about 8pm and jungkook has served you six different drinks. not that you finished all of them, but you’ve been served roughly that many. on top of all the ones he made for himself that he insisted you try.
you’re both sat in his living room with a controller in your hands and a drink in his. he stops whatever mocking sentence he was beginning to say to instead look at you with a smirk, “you’re blushing.”
you scowl, “my face turns red when i drink sometimes.”
he shakes his head, “your face wasn’t red until i scooted closer to you.” he leans in further and you try to back away, “you want me to kiss you y/n?” he smirks and you push his chest back.
“that is not why i’m red jungkook, get away from me.”
he sits back where he was before, albeit still much closer in proximity. “you’re lying to yourself. i get it, being as attractive as i am and us not being able to see other people.” he looks to you, “it’s bound to happen at some point.”
you shake your head, “maybe you feel that way, but i don’t need constant attention and entertainment.”
he scowls, “i do not.”
you laugh, “clearly, you do. It’s only been three weeks jungkook.”
“four.” he corrects.
you stare at him confused, “we’ve been ‘dating’ for three.” you put air quotes around the word ‘dating’.
he shakes his head, “no, like, four weeks since i’ve seen a woman other than you.”
you nod, “ah, must really be killing you.”
he sighs, “yeah, really must be hard on me if i just hit on you.”
you frown, “yeah, like you’re not attracted to me.”
he eyes you, “i make no comment on that.”
you laugh, “you don’t have to say it for me to know its true.” he scowls at you but you don’t allow him to continue the bickering. “okay, i should head home.”
he continues sitting on his couch, “its hardly even 9.”
you slip your shoes and jacket on, “yeah? i told you i had to study.” he whines childishly, “fine, whatever, be lame.”
you grin, “awe, miss me already?”
he looks at you then back towards the tv, “you’re really not as amusing as you think you are.”
“you clearly find me interesting enough to ask me to hang out when it's unrelated to our plan.”
he teases, “because you’re easy, what were you going to do? say no?”
jungkook clearly finds this amusing but you realize not only did that last comment hurt, but it was also obvious he had no idea how petty it was.
“okay then, if that’s how you see me.” you grab your stuff and open the door when he shouts out at you.
“god, wait up.” he groans, lifting himself off the couch. you tell him not to bother with taking you home. “what? why?” you try to close the door after telling him bye but he’s as stubborn as ever, “don’t close my own door on me, what's your problem?”
you sigh and just begin to walk away from his apartment, still chasing after you, being a dick. “seriously y/n, let me take you home.” he grabs onto your arm and you’re ready to punch him. jungkook pisses you off in many ways and has wronged you. for the benefit of you both, you looked past it all. in order for this plan to really work, jungkook still had to change. you knew he was a flawed man, but you didn’t think he would be this ignorant and immature.
“stop following me creep!”
he takes a step back and looks at you like you cussed him out in a different language, “what the hell are you talking about.”
“i said i was leaving, you clearly pissed me off, now you’re chasing after me? seriously jungkook get a fucking clue and leave me alone!”
he scoffs, “what am i supposed to do? just leave you to roam around at night because you can’t take a joke?”
“yes! i’m not your problem.”
“you literally are my problem.”
you look at him confused, then chuckle, “no, as it happens you are my problem. you are also your own problem. hilarious isn't it?” he begins to tell you off but your patience for his bs has thinned, “what’s even more funny jungkook? is that you know your flaws and have done absolutely nothing to work past them. you could have anything in the world, it’s all practically handed to you! all you’d have to do is put the slightest effort in to impress your dad and it's yours!” you’ve effectively silenced him as he stands before you, “and yet you still pick a route of mistrust and manipulation. i’m doing this because i have to, you're doing this because it's easier than genuinely trying."
you have so much more to say about him. he’s once never apologized for what he did to you and how he’s treated you in the past, and all the passive-aggressive taunts and jokes in between. and you never asked him to. because you knew he wouldn’t be sorry. that was just the way he was. and it sickened you to know this. you figured you could look past it, because he has some redeeming qualities, and in order for this to work you had to find them. trying to pretend to date someone you truly couldn’t stand wouldn’t work well for you, so you really did try. and yet, he continued to disappoint you with his entitlement and arrogance.
“you still think of me like that?” he chuckles, “you sound like you can’t even stand me, so why come up with this stupid plan?!” you open your mouth and he interrupts you, “you’re stupid too, you know. not only do you totally not have to do this to have a successful career, you also can’t see how hypocritical you are.”
you scoff, “don’t act like i’ve done things as desperate and terrible as you have.”
he laughs, “you haven’t? really? miss ‘will stop at nothing to get what i want’? i don’t believe you for a fucking second, y/n.”
“well i haven’t! this,” you say, pointing between the two of you, “this the worst thing i’ve ever done.”
he shakes his head, “you're a hypocrite either way. if this is the worst you've done then you clearly haven’t done everything in your power, yeah? nothing but a pretentious wannabe.”
your face is bright red and your body is aching as if you’re going to cry. you knew that was the last thing you wanted to do in front of jungkook. “just fuck-off jungkook. you clearly will never understand how you could be in the wrong, let alone apologize and be a better person. god help the miserable woman that actually falls in love with you.”
he bites his lip ring, “bet you still wish it was you, for real.”
you stare at him dumbfounded, “you really are just an ass and nothing more. what a miserable life.” he tries to talk back, no doubt something even meaner than what he’s already said, “goodbye, jungkook.” you walk away from him, only getting a few steps before shouting out, hoping he could still hear you, “can’t wait to tell your dad about this.”
weeks past and you neither heard of nor saw anything from jungkook. in the beginning, you couldn’t stop thinking about him. not like that, you tell yourself. anyone who had just been through what you had would also obsessively think over it for at least a few weeks. it wasn’t all bad though, no more jungkook meant no more plan, which also meant all the time in the world to focus on preparing for your last year in school and your new internship. which would all be good! had it not been for your obvious avoidance of your boss.
you were terrified of talking to him above all else. you were stuck in this stand-off with jungkook, and his dad, in the middle of it all. you couldn’t be sure what jungkook had told him, if anything, and if he hadn’t, you didn’t know if you were still ‘together’ or not. you simply didn’t have the answers and you were sure as hell not going to be the one that asks first.
as fate would have it, jungkook was actually having a worse time than you were.
it had been three weeks since you walked out his door and he felt an array of emotions. many of which, he had no words for. “who shat in your cheerios?”
his brother looks at him with a fake pout on his face. jungkook looks at him annoyed and unamused, and ignores him. dinner at his parents house every tuesday night was a requirement with few reasonable exceptions. tonight was no different. “you’ve had such a shitty attitude lately.” he tells him, leaning over the table. “i mean, you’re normally unpleasant, but this is new even for you.”
jungkook’s patience is wearing extremely thin and this is not helping. “is that your convoluted way of worrying about me.” he teases. “don’t worry big bro.” he reaches out to ruffle his hair, “i feel fantastic!”
his brother swats his hand away and they both lean back in their seats as their mother joins them at the table. jungkook would blow this off if he could, but he figures it's the least he could do considering the days he has to make his father proud are slowly ticking away.
he thinks you’re teasing him. and not in the sexy way. he figured he was done for in more ways than one after you left his house that night. and he also knew he couldn’t count all the things he’d done wrong to you on both of his hands. maybe even his toes. he doesn’t know for sure, he knows he’s blind to all the stupid and mean things he does due to the way he was raised. he tells himself he can’t help it and he shouldn’t have to. people will either like and accept him for him, or they won’t. that's not his problem. but he knew the difference between the hurtful things he said and you said, were that your words were true. and now he was paying the price.
you seemingly haven’t told his dad. he wasn’t sure why, exactly. you told him you would. he thought you’d sealed his fate after that night and come monday morning you would be singing the story to his father. but days passed and he still hadn’t heard anything from you or his father. he hated this.
“jungkook,” his father calls to him, his heart skips a beat each time he does, knowing one of these days will be his end, “have you heard from y/n? you are still seeing her, right?” jungkook wasn’t sure what to say. the last thing he wanted to do was both be a terrible, unfit person to run the company but also a liar if he said something that was different to what you’d tell him.
“uhm, yeah.” he says simply, indirectly causing all eyes to raise to him.
“yeah? you mean yes.” he corrects. “so, you are still seeing her?”
jungkook’s brother hops into conversation first. “oh, yeah you’re seeing that girl, must not be going well.” he shoves another spoonful of food in his mouth afterwards, nothing more needed to be said after his comment sent the rest of them into a frenzy.
“oh no jungkook, what did you do-”
“seriously son?”
“god!” he slams his fists on the table. “why do you all assume the worst of me?” the table was silent. “i didn’t even say we weren’t together, so why did you take this idiot’s joke as truth and blame me for something that didn’t even happen?” they stare at him as he finishes his outburst, “do you comprehend how unfair that is?”
his dad is the first to speak after a moment of uncomfortable silence. “that is unfair, but every time i’ve given you the benefit of the doubt, you’ve proven me wrong.”
jungkook looks up at his father. “thats not fair-”
“then what is fair?”
jungkook didn’t know how to respond. he knew what he wanted to say. fuck, he wanted to scream it. he wanted to throw a tantrum and yell at his dad for leaving his mother, for remarrying too quickly, for never caring the way a parent should. any piece of his past that he had no control over. he wanted to berate them for neglecting to fix him the same way they berate him for neglecting to fix himself. that is what he wanted to do. he wanted someone to blame. he was angry at a past he could not change. it was a hopeless venture he was doomed to lose. and in those infuriating moments at dinner, that is when it all came to light.
there was absolutely nothing he could do. he had two options: live a life of hatred and entitlement, or try to change. it sounds simple, but jungkook knew he was comfortable in the first option. that's the life he’d been living the past 10 years, and up until now, it’s worked for him. he also knew the only chance he’d have at letting go of this terrible anger and shaking the reputation he’d put upon himself, was to take a shot at number two.
he didn’t want to. but the defining reason became: if i fail, i just go back.
jungkook left dinner early that night. his family didn’t contact him. he called off from his internship. he lounged around his house doing virtually nothing for about three days before the first epiphany happened. it was listening to mr.kim’s voicemail, “hello, jungkook. hope you’re feeling well. if you could let me know asap when we can expect you back in, that would be very helpful. please, call me back.”
his first reaction: “fuck this.” followed by lazily turning onto his back, rolling around in his messy bed with a large sigh. his second thought: they’re counting on me, i have to show up. and with more motivation than necessary, he sits up, and dials the number.
jungkook found working tiring, but extremely rewarding. he had low expectations for himself. he felt like shit, felt like the work he did was shit, and like he was holding them back. when the project he was working on was not only picked up by a chief editor, but highly praised, he was beyond surprised.
“i have to say jungkook, i thought you were just following in your fathers footsteps. i was worried you didn’t have any of his talent.” the older man said, “but i have to say, i may like this even more than the work i’ve seen of your fathers.” he grins at him, “it’s a shame you’re not just another uni kid we can sign with, otherwise, you’d be hired.”
jungkook was speechless. he was sure he was red in the face and bowed much further than was necessary, but he didn't care. the old jungkook would have thought they were just saying that to get on his good side, to put them in good-standing with his family. but he knew now that wasn’t the case. he has actual talent. what he viewed as “sucking up” this whole time could very-well have been people simply trying to compliment his work.
and had he not been such a dick, he would have seen it.
jungkook spent the rest of that week and the next making a genuine effort to change the way he acts and thinks. it was hard, and exhausting, and he wasn’t sure the payoff was worth it, but he knew there was still something nagging at him.
so he thought to do the things he’d seen on tv and in movies.
he showed up to your door with flowers and chocolate.
you wanted to punch him.
“what… the hell are you doing.”
he stares at you stunned, this was not the reaction he was banking on. “t-they’re for you.”
you blink. once. twice. “why.”
he furrows his brows, “aren’t you gonna let me in?”
you match his expression, “no.”
he looks offended and you scoff. “i’m here because i’m sorry.”
you look surprised, “sorry?” you laugh, “sorry for what?”
he nods, “well, everything, really. i haven’t been nice to you if it wasn’t to serve another purpose. i-i’ve manipulated you, lied to you, raised my voice, said really mean things.” you nod to all of this, arms crossed over your chest as you stand in your doorway, still in your silk pjs because you had the day off and you weren’t banking on this.
come to think of it, how did he know you’d be home?
“and most of all, i’m sorry for not treating you like a friend, when that’s all you tried to be.”
his words interest you. “well, for starters, i appreciate the gesture.” he shakes his head quickly.
“you deserve more.”
you nod wearily, suspiciously, “and thanks for apologizing.” he looks up to you with a hopeful grin, which you crush, “but apology not accepted.”
he looks at you with wide, puppy dog eyes. you’re surprised his lip doesn’t start quivering. “y-you don’t accept it?” you shake your head. “h-how can i get you to forgive me, then?”
you laugh, “i don’t think there is a way.”
he looks like a deflated balloon, you almost feel bad. but you don’t. “so what, are we just done with this whole plan?”
you chuckle, your tongue poking the inside of your cheek as you point at him, “see? i knew you were only here for that reason-”
“no! that’s really not it! please y/n-”
“just fuck off jungkook!” you open your door and he shouts as you’re closing it.
“i’m leaving these here!” you don’t reply, but for some reason you stand on the other side of the door, listening. hoping that wasn’t it. “and i’m going to keep trying.”
you don’t notice the smallest, tiniest, smile that grows.
but you insist, you still hate jeon jungkook.
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