#i always fall asleep thinking of them

[master-xochimilli]

Falling peacefully asleep thinking of their face, their voice, their heart, their brain, the way they breath, the way their eyes glow, and that smile they give me, and how I'll get to wake up and see and talk and be with them all over again tomorrow like I always do

#xochimilli writes #xochimilli comfort #🫀puppy #i always fall asleep thinking of them #soft #comfort #queer #lgbt yearning #trans yearning #my sweetheart #my puppy #my puppy sweetheart #t4t puppy #ftm t4t #trans t4t #t4t mlm #t4t #t4t mlnb #t4t wlm #t4t yearning #genderqueer #genderfluid #puppyboy #puppy #kitty boy #kitty #t4t sfw #sfw mlm #i love you #my boyfriend

[anakirui]

hot take ??

the only reason people say that "mafuyu and tsukasa have nothing in common" when presented with mafukasa parallels is because they equate mafuyu and tsukasa being similar to "tsukasa has depression" because the fandom equates mafuyu's personality to being depressed and nothing else.

it doesn't help that people (primarily younger people in the fandom) who DO believe in mafukasa parallels end up making the mistake of portraying tsukasa as depressed because as of right now he is not (although it's possible he was in past because of his Very Unclear Middle School Backstory but that's irrelevant)

anyways, mafuyu and tsukasa are narrative foils because their core personalities are built off of the concept of wanting to make the people around them— especially their families— happy.

they both developed personalities at a young age based on someone they looked up to. for tsukasa, it was seiichi amami's performance that inspired him to be a star— a hero that could cheer anyone up. for mafuyu, it was her mother taking care of her that inspired her to be a nurse— and you can see the similarities from there.

for mafuyu, her identity would first come into conflict when her mother expressed her want for mafuyu to be a doctor— suddenly, "everyone's" happiness didn't match what she wanted to do, leaving her in a state of disorder and eventual depression.

for tsukasa, his identity was something he nearly forgot in its entirety at the start of the main story— becoming arrogant and fully absorbed in a hero persona, forgetting the kind person he truly is. furthermore, his current character arc seems to be foreshadowing that what "being a star" to him is going to be called into question— maybe it is something more than just being the main character that saves everyone.

their insecurities are incredibly similar.

in mafuyu's first mixed, mafuyu feels insecure towards ichika because unlike ichika, she feels as if her lyrics have no genuine meaning to be expressed to other people— despite them being her very real feelings. this is brought up again in her second mixed as well.

in tsukasa's third focus event, something similar happens. when watching seiichi's performance, he thinks that his acting is "real" and feels inferior towards him, which is ironic because tsukasa has been method acting this whole time. when tsukasa is acting out rio or bartlett or really anyone at this point in the story, it's not just those characters— it's a reflection of his traumas.

just like mafuyu, tsukasa undermines his passions he's poured his feelings into because someone else's work is more genuine in his eyes.

now, then, foils have many similarities and parallels (and i could honestly list a lot more), but how i define them is that they usually have some kind of major branching difference that MAKES them foils.

for mafuyu and tsukasa it's pretty straightforward.

mafuyu's people pleasing behavior comes from external expectations and pressures— her mother's demands.

tsukasa's people pleasing behavior comes internally, from himself— if he can't meet his own standards, if he can't be the perfect big brother or the perfect star, then he is nothing.

and even then, there's some overlap.

tsukasa's behavior was indirectly encouraged by his mother praising him for being a "good big brother" over the phone instead of asking him if he was okay while home alone.

mafuyu's terrified to be herself around other people because she doesn't want to worry or bother them— she doesn't want to be a burden— and projects her mother's expectations onto them, not realizing that they would prefer the real mafuyu if they knew the truth.

and the concept of mafukasa being foils is most perfectly and blatantly portrayed in these two cards.

mafuyu, the marionette, sitting limp on the floor— puppeteered by her mother's demands and donning a mask to hide her true self.

tsukasa, the jester, standing above everything else— puppeteering silenced plushies— his feelings. he's not being completely honest with himself, and he doesn't even realize it.

mafuyu has cut her strings and ripped her mask in half. she has acknowledged her true feelings and expressed them to her mother, even if she had to run away in the end.

tsukasa has not yet cut his.

#project sekai #colorful stage #prsk #tsukasa tenma #mafuyu asahina #mafukasa #theres also obvious ones im sure you all know. like how theyre the sole sekai creators #or their designs paralleling eachother (color schemes of their eyes and hair) #or how theyre both connected to the moon and bunnies #and how theyre connected by a piano with a moon design thats only shown up in mafuyus 2nd mixed and tsukasas 2nd mixed... where they had #their first mixed events together #or how they both easily overwork theirselves #or how theyre almost always projecting onto other people as if their experiences are the norm #ex: tsukasa with rui in wonder halloween and mafuyu with niigo in main story #I CAN GO ON ABOUT THIS FOR HOURS AS YOU CAN SEE . #EDIT: HERES SOME MORE THAT I DIDNT REMEMBER AT 12 AM LAST NIGHT #theyre both connected to apples! points at tsukasa in fixer 2dmv and points at mafuyu2 #literally all of their vocaloids parallel eachother. #wxs and n25 miku have a childlike sense of curiosity #wxs and n25 rin are based off someone that isnt them for the most part (saki and ena) #wxs and n25 len are both anxious and pessimistic (in island panic... wxs len has a conflicting pov from meiko and wants wxs to just stay in #the sekai instead of being stuck out on an island... which is kinda escapist as hell) #wxs and n25 meiluka have conflicts that are very similar. n25 meiluka represents mafuyus inner conflict between isolating herself and #helping everyone because she didnt know what would be better #and wxs meiluka is the conflict between tsukasas ambition and his fatigue #which is why wxs meiko always acts like wxs luka is a burden whenever she falls asleep— tsukasa himself wont rest #not when he thinks it will burden other people #and wxs and n25 kaito are both driving forces in tsukasa and mafuyu accepting their true feelings #(although tsukasa is kinda not where mafuyu is yet i think you get what i mean) #EDIT: 5/22/24 I CANT ADD ANYMORE TAGS FUCK

[cozylittleartblog]

had a(nother) nightmare

#deltarune #rouxls kaard #lancer #queen #art #lancer had a bad dream. rouxls comes in to fall asleep in the floor like he always does. queen followed because she needs to #Familiarize Herself with The Rituals and also hey her boy is sad #and then they ALL fell asleep in the floor literally right next to his bed #-- i had tire marks on the bedsheets but they vanished somewhere. damn it #this one isnt old btw i just drew this This Morning HEHEHEHE #its kinda scrungy but thats ok #ok 2 tag ship but not explicitly ship either if ur not into it #i love that half my 'qk' art can very easily be read platonically #i think thats an important aspect of their relationship is that they are good friends and coparents. and THEN they're kissing sometimes #this is hardly the first family cuddle and or sleep pile ive drawn. i never posted my favorite i dont think #i am just all about sleep and cuddle piles. did u know swatchlings love to sleep in piles (headcanon) #if one bird falls asleep in the cafe the odds are very good that one or two more will join them #theres a pile of birds in booth 4 all shoved in there haphazardly and eeping. swatch is coming with pots and pans.

[bbonbonss]

⁺✦ boys on pointe ✦⁺ (one of my pieces for @cerebrusdean 's ballet au)

#i draw stolas t4t always #stolitz #blitzo #stolas #stolas goetia #helluva fanart #helluva boss #seriously so obsessed over this au... blitz bein the star of the show and how can he not be lbr #ill be here happy sighing over 'if love was a dance it would be you' #thinking of them practicing together makes me melt the hardest #siiigh falling asleep on each other on the subway or grabbing meals or snacks at the bodegas #a

[presidentheartbeat6]

cuties (:

#I actually really like how this turned out............. #my art #temeraire #john granby #william laurence #tenzing tharkay #this picture is after a few drinks btw #I think Laurence secretly likes being touched but yk he's very stoic and he REFUSES to ask for it so everyone kind of assumes he doesn't?? #but it. comes out a lil when he's drunk. #Tharkay is very unused to it but he's definitely not. opposed. to being touched. especially if its by Laurence... #Granby meanwhile does this all the time. #hes always falling asleep on people and clapping them on the shoulders and nudging them with his hip to get their attention #but it takes him like a bajillion years to hug Laurence for the first time cuz yk. Laurence is. Laurence. #and Laurence is also hesitant to initiate things like that bc he doesn't want to be weird (ITS NOT WEIRD TO HUG YOUR BEST FRIEND LAURENCE.) #tharkay meanwhile has never had very much desire to get close to someone physically or paid very much attention to it #and then he meets Laurence. who barely ever touches anyone. and suddenly whenever their hands brush tharkay is hyperaware of it #I have no idea what I'm saying #I've got a big fat cold and I deadass almost took my ADHD meds on accident instead of ibuprofen... it's 11pm. #that is to say. I'm a touch delirious #so I apologize sincerely if I completely mischaracterized them

[liquidstar]

a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops. #and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can! #and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here: #barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time. #barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done. #and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies. #and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them) #and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances'' #from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

[random0lover]

Tf141 members x single mom!reader makes me want to roll around on the floor crying.

#another one of my favorite tropes #mmc becoming all soft for the kid 🥹 #okay but they’d all be so sweet #and there’s so many ways they could meet reader and their kid! I want to scream #and now all I can imagine is Price squatting down so that he’s eye level with the kid and his knees popping 💀 #Johnny is all about making the kid laugh and totally drains them of all their energy so by the time it’s bedtime they’re already falling #asleep lol. Imagine though the kid is more of the quiet observant type and it absolutely throws Simon off cause h th it’s usually his gig #and now there’s some 8 year old reading him like a book and he hates it 🤣 kid over here like you like my mom don’t you? and Simon goes #absolutely rigid wondering how tf they could tell. Then with Kyle imagine the kids favorite toy is helicopters and the kid always makes #Kyle’s figurine fall out and thinks it’s so fucking funny while Gaz is over here actively remembering what it’s like to hang out of one 💀 #as you can tell I’ve thought about this a lot #cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #call of duty #mw2 #random0lover rambling ♡ #captain John price #John price #kyle gaz garrick #kyle garrick #gaz #johnny soap mactavish #john soap mactavish #soap mactavish #cod fluff #cod x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #price x reader #gaz x reader #soap x reader

[roseworth]

crying and throwing up thinking about the moment in arkham knight where bruce finds out jason is tracking him after scarecrow kidnaps him and says “i knew he would come” because !!!!!!!!! oh my god! literally bruce has less than 0 reason to believe jason would follow him at all, let alone save his life but he still believes in him anyways :(!!! he knew that jason would come to save him because he knew jason!!!! and knew that everything that made him robin was still inside him!!!! fuck! after everything that happened bruce still knew jason would come to save him based on literally ONE encounter with him and he was fuxking RIGHT!!!!!! oh my god

#i don’t overuse exclamation points i think i need to use them more!!!!!!!!! #my most intense arkham knight thoughts always come in the middle of the night when i’m trying to fall asleep #fucked up. #jason todd #arkham knight #dc #what if you 🫵 wanted to sleep 😴 #but brain said 🧠 arkham knight thoughts only‼️

[youareinacomawakeup]

I don’t care what you fuckers say. Good Omens 2 was the best thing I’ve seen in years and there needs to be a season 3.

#spoilers: good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #first off i know fuckers always say queerbaiting but there was zero queerbaiting #everything was set up and paid off beautifully #like if you're mad about the final conflict then you weren't paying attention during the whole job subplot #like what did you think that was there for but to show that aziraphale still had growing to do #that he had the capacity for growth but he wasn't THERE yet like crowley was #one's asleep and one's awake just like that last shot of nina and maggie #glorious parallel by the way #also the plot twist with gabriel and beelzebub was beautifully set up too #ANOTHER parallel by the way #like wow an angel and a demon falling in love #wonder what that represents #but i spent the whole damn show like 'WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THE FLIES. IS BEELZEBUB SPYING ON THEM?' #but no. much more betterer. that is a love fly. #and then like at the end #when aziraphale cut crowley off and spoke first i was like #'okay so they're not going to say it explicitly #but there's no fucking way to take nina and maggie's intervention besides crowley being in love #so I accept it as confirmed if questionably canon a la the kiss we both did and didn't see in yuri on ice' #'plausible deniability right' #but then NO #no crowley steered the conversation right back around and MADE IT HAPPEN #SUBVERT THAT TROPE #have him get cut off by absolutely heartbreaking news and SAY IT ANYWAY #EMOTIONAL MATURITY THY NAME IS CROWLEY #Aziraphale just needs to wake up #but yeah i was happy stimming the whole damn show #i kept needing to pause and step away because i was overwhelmed with how much i was enjoying myself #which was an experience i didn't have with the first season

[dailyeca]

at what point could you fall asleep to hushed giggles and quiet conversations instead of the usual silence?

(was it when you began to trust them?)

#eca orichird #daily eca #and vaguely #scarlet rose #stickers calvin #i always draw eca awake while the other two are asleep but i dont usually do it the other way around #its nice to think about when eca first accidentally falls asleep around them. hes so used to not trusting others and keeping his guard up #he's always used to waking up in an instant if something makes a sudden sound. he needs to stay alert because hes only got himself. #and at some point subconsciously his brain goes ''oh; chill; that's just stickers and scarlet. you can sleep. you're safe with them.'' #he wakes up and berates himself silently. ''idiot. these two are making you go soft. forgetting all your survival instincts.'' #but scarlet and stickers smile like the morning sun and tell him hello and oh did you have a good nap and he sighs. #it'll inevitably happen again. (is that so bad?)

[a-dope-fiend]

I love giving medic and heavy grandpa mannerisms. Like yes, they absolutely knit in their spare time and would squint if you showed them a meme.

#also i think medic carries those old man candies in his pocket at all times. he just always has them for some reason. #heavy falls asleep with his arms crossed on the couch while watching tv #tf2 #medic #heavy

[saturnaous]

looouuuuuuu wjat tje hell do i do. it's 2am and i have to sleep but i'm not tired cause i accidentally took a nap earlier. and the worms are in my brain. and my pillow ain't pillowing

okay well first off do you have anythign to do tomorrow. secondly. uhhh do you have easy access to melatonin. and third. I think you should follow the brainworms and catch up on sleep later. imo. I am playing devils advocate.

#asks #or just think about them until you fall asleep idk. #also if your pillow is fucked. if oyu have a big bed then turn yourself kinda horazontial #it works for me. I always end up diagonal when I don't sleep well

[lovelycureaestetic]

Ansem and Riku, kissing *dies*

#shitposting before falling asleep after a tiring day at work #just to remind everyone I'm the risem ceo #i always aaaaalways think about ✨them✨ #risem

[whatyoutaughtwasfear]

Started population 11 tonight! It's a show loosely based on a guy that went missing in the northern Territory, Australia, and its got the main dude from superstore :) Mostly enjoying it so far. Just finished I think episode 4 - where you find out who bugged his phone and BRUHHHH! was NOT expecting that

#THERE WAS EVEN A HINT!!! and i was like oh thats fun foreshadowing for when someone breaks into his room later :) #not that it had ALREADY HAPPENED. #im not a fan of them making the fat woman super sexual. always feels like a joke and makes me uncomfortable. #it is what it is though. #also BRING BACK THE DOG!! THERE WAS A DOG IN THE FIRST EPISODE AND IT HAS NOT BEEN SEEN AGAIN!!! #ima set an alarm for fit stream but o dont think its gonna happen bc i am Tiord #and i already had a nap so i wont fall asleep properly for AGES >:( #goodnight anyways #lauratexts2024

[todayisafridaynight]

harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there

#snap chats #hi everyone. #i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun.. #love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies... #oh right. the post. //screams// #I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW #AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM #BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️ #scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester #BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:) #and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3 #honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those #tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️ #anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night #yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that... #if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment #tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not #im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL

[brightyearning]

why did no one tell me Arrival is a better movie than Interstellar?

#like i'm sobbing #it's so beautiful and sad and engaging #a sci-fi movie about language and communication #gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous #arrival 2016 #interstellar #like i love both of them but something happens when i watch any christopher nolan film #like i get sleepy and bored by the end of the 3rd act #same with batman #i think its the way he uses sound but i'm not sure #i always fall asleep #but Arrival was so delicate and intuitive #it had me on the edge of my seat