#i feel: DISEASED

[sergle]

There’s no shame greater than that of adding a mutual on discord, and then blowing it at establishing regular convos in the early stages. and then it’s been too long. and their name simply sits there....

#why do I do that bro. it's a sickness. a disease #sergle.txt #feel a lil too late now perhaps so i'm just gonna jump in front of this semi truck and see what happen

[fence-time]

You really can’t take him anywhere

#fence posts #zedaph #impulsesv #tangotek #skizzleman #team zits #hermitcraft #hermitblr #I accidentally introduced twitter to freaking it nothing style and they love it #I feel like I introduced a disease to some sort of fragile ecosystem #(because of thsi post)

[piss-bong]

#jam #1k #curious bc i feel like the most american thing abt me is how much i enjoy cheeseburgers #i've had a burger and a rootbeer for dinner every day this week #ik i'm probably giving myself heart disease but it's worth it

[ruushes]

not dead not alive but a secret third thing

#dragon age #dao #my ocs #ailill mahariel #my special little guy who is dead #iirc the Lore says the blight as a disease varies wrt effects #so i think it's feasible my weak and sickly victorian orphan of a man could have begun ghoulification in like a week #anyway. wardens can have a little tapetum lucidum as a treat #also shoutout to the person who tagged my last post w them ‘GOTH ELF GOTH ELF GOTH ELF’ u understand my vision #like this feels very Edgy OC TM but you know what I’m leaning into it I’m embracing it #my art

[gabbagepatch]

Listen guys, you don't need to look nice to go outside. Your health is more important than appearances.

I just went on a walk in my pajamas, greasy hair in a shitty bun, acne, and a pair of new balance sneakers. Cars passed by and I said hi to everyone who passed. Did I feel self-conscious? Of course, but it was worth it.

Now I feel a lot better, because I didn't A. Overextend by forcing myself to shower/get dressed/put on concealer beforehand or B. Avoid doing anything because I felt like a mess.

Go outside and be however you are. It's not your job to look good to random strangers, you deserve to go outside.

#someone get me a cookie for walking with a migraine #i feel very brave #disability #disabled #hearing impaired #meniere's disease #chronic illness #hard of hearing #chronic disability #chronic pain #chronic migraine #chronically ill #invisible illness #illness mention #invisible disability #disability pride #blurb #exercise #accessibility

[heartorbit]

so when's the wxs phantom of the opera set

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #ruis hair continues to piss me off forever. and ever #Yes i stole their phantom outfits from the revue gacha game. Whos gonna stop me. I WAS SO MAD THAT PHANTOM NANA IS AN OBSOLETE CARD OK #the discerning revsta + pjsekai fan can see i gave emu nanas outfit and rui michirus. Becaude i am crazy. Edel de/light was crazy. #polysho #proseka #why are there so many fuckfign tags. Why so tagging. -the tumbler #Ok sorry #Watch me go insane. Phantom is such a fucking rui role inknow ok i know i know. thats why i gave it to him. but also. I have emu disease #INSTEAD OF THE BRAINTHEREIS EMUUUUUU!!!!!! #Trying to figure out if i should render these and how sucked. cause the first one was drawn on paper and scanned . i shoildve just left itA #Its ifne idekc. I did another emu phantom drawing but i dont feel like posting it alone so ill have to draw more of this. bye #i dont even like the phantom. and i want to kill andrew llyoyid webber with a hammer. And so should you

[geezmarty]

early game first impressions ft my durge & karlach

#baldur's gate 3 #karlach #bg3 brigha #this one is silly but I just got to moonrise towers and thumbed another comic about them I feel diseased #f

[assfamine]

DONNIE & MIKEY Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Mutant Mayhem (2023) | dir. Jeff Rowe, Kyle Spears

#mutant mayhem #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt mm #tmnt mutant mayhem #i might do this for every duo #who knows #i feel diseased #posting

[almond-gallery]

zzz

#orv #omniscient reader #yoohankim #yoo joonghyuk #kim dokja #han sooyoung #i think i'm diseased. #fun fact i posted more on here in january than i did for all of last year #and now i'm posting again? insane. #it kind of makes zero sense considering i have more going on in my life than pretty much ever #2 jobs. full load of classes. grad school applications. mental illness #but i guess all that jazz fuels the need to fixate on stuff even harder #anyway what if i stick to gradient maps forever #looking at this makes me want to take a nap #fanart #kdj's arm is so asleep btw. it's going to take five minutes for him to be able to feel it again in the morning

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[knifebaby3000]

eleven years / when the thorn bush turns white, that's when i'll come home

#artists on tumblr #illustration #art #oc #digital art #my art #girl of all time #[ mitski voice ] my baby my baby................ #just wanted to do sth for her bday bc i always miss it!!! eleven years to miss sylvie. mom luvs u forever #i've been suffering from major Can't Finish Anything disease so it feels rly good getting this done.................... #when i say i did this Super Fast i mean i did this today after work. still took several hours for whatever rzn

[miaiminnis]

give me something pretty to wear beneath my bloodstained clothes

darling, the devil knows my name 🥀🗝️🦩🗡️💃

#one piece #princess viola #violet one piece #dressrosa #riku viola #when I tell yall dressrosa is my favorite arc and it’s because viola is my second favorite op character #I’m being so fr #also complete honesty I painted this for my own fic #which is The Empty Seat on ao3 #because I’ve been obsessed with her for 8 years and I finally let it out lol #I hate fanon viola sm. let her be the messy and flawed character she is #stop erasing the drama #she is a gothic heroine to me #my femme fatale attic wife my beloved queen #there’s so much hidden in this that you won’t catch unless you have my brain disease but feel free to play I spy

[ziptie-bouquet]

Capillaries. Myelin sheathing. Microglia.

I love how the game seems to take inspiration from those simplified cell drawings with bright colors and exaggerated shapes.

I love how the devs seem to have used microscopic images as a reference to make their alien world feel more alien.

I love the way the myelin sheathing is on the cables because it makes electric signals travel at a faster speed in real life... Those designs work and don't feel limited by what they took inspiration from.

#rain world #five pebbles #i love my little man and his incurable disease #no but seriously rain world has been living rent free in my mind for years #im not a biology expert im a humble uni student #but its fascinating and beautiful and wonderful #incredible art and i love purposed organisms and just everything the game does feels so beautiful and wonderful #rw

[astronite13]

vivid bad squad who i only know crazy:Bad squad

#part of me wants to make this a proper drawing instead of a silly doodle but unfortunately i have a disease called being lazy #kohaku oukawa #niki shiina #rinne amagi #himeru #enstars #ensemble stars #kohane azusawa #an shiraishi #shinonome akito #aoyagi toya #why did i put akitoyas surnames first ion know it feels better #pjsk #project sekai #vivid bad squad #crazy:b #was that too many tags i think that was too many ta- #art pile

[anna-scribbles]

remember in the titan's curse when you first meet nico di angelo and he's this sweet excitable and sort of awkward kid. and then he finds out so many awful things about his life and his family in such a short period of time that it sort of breaks him and then he's not that sweet little kid anymore. okay now think about adrien agreste

#this one goes out to people with two different kinds of brain disease at the same time #I just. the longer adrien goes not knowing anything the more im just cringing waiting for the other shoe to drop #I feel like im living eternally in the first half of the titans curse #ml #pjo #anna rambles #adrien agreste #I just.......can you tell im thinking about adult adrien who is privy to the horrors. can you tell im working on thirteen #thirteen

[rockatanskette]

Semi-related to my post on how human conservation practices, but I have a cold today, and it's got me thinking about biological altruism—the biological imperative to put other creatures ahead of yourself, to benefit the group.

When talking about possible interactions with other species, we talk a lot about humans being crazy and thrill-seeking and impossible to kill. Never use a warning shot as an incentive to keep humans out of a fight; it'll just make them angry. And that's true. But a valid criticism I've seen in the "Earth is a death world" community is that according to our understanding of evolution, every planet must be some form of death world. Competition fosters evolution—the wolf with sharper claws survives when its litter mates die. You can't reach space travel without some casualties along the way.

But the dog survives because it makes friends with the strange ape carrying a sharp stick. And the strange ape survives because it befriends the wolf. Underneath the death world is an inextricable and undeniable layer of the bond world; the love world; the world, together.

I imagine some worlds are not death worlds. They're peaceful and tranquil. I suspect there are worlds far more deadly than Earth, where the skies rain diamonds, harder than any substance we know with the species to match. And I imagine that they are united in their confusion at the duality of humankind.

Today is a great example: I have a cold, and I want someone to take care of me, but the people who would are immunocompromised, also sick, or live 8 hours away, respectfully. I also want no one within the walls of my apartment or I will eat them. I feel gross, I feel tired, and I don't want a single human being anywhere near me, even if they did bring soup.

In my constant scrolling through my phone today, I decided to look up why the hell I feel so bad—why everyone feels so bad when they're ill. And the answer surprised me. I always thought it was because your immune system is active, so it's using a lot of your energy. That is part of it. Another part is that your brain and body are communicating across the blood-brain barrier to fight the infection, which is rare and energetically expensive.

But that doesn't explain everything, and according to more current research, it could also be what's called the Eyam Hypothesis: that we feel so gross, so we instinctively isolate from other people. We're too tired to deal with others, and so we don't infect them. Misanthropy for the good of the species. Of course, it can also backfire: one of the criticisms of the Eyam Hypothesis is that humans also instinctively care for each other. If my brother has a headache, I drive to the store for Advil.

Personally, I think it's a little bit of both: biological altruism. Either way, the majority live on. The first thought I had this morning when I woke up wasn't "I feel gross" it was "there's no way I'm going to work today." And while that might not be everyone's first thought, you don't even have to be a particularly altruistic person to not want to leave your home or your bed when you're sick. It's inborn.

And so when the human named Ismail comes down with a case of the interstellar common cold, his alien friend Dyos grows very concerned. Ismail is usually intensely social, almost off-puttingly so. Some crew members joke about how his quarters are for sleeping and prayer only; if he's home alone? You should be worried. But when Dyos demands an answer to the severity of Ismail's malady, the other humans just nod knowingly.

"Nah, he's okay, the medics already cleared him. It's not a severe infection."

"But there are so many...fluids. And his body has changed color."

There is a moment of confusion there until they remember that Dyos's species can see in the infrared color spectrum.

"Nah, that's just a low-grade fever. It should break in the next couple days."

"But he doesn’t want to play chess today," Dyos insists.

"Ohhhh," says human Claudia, finally understanding. "No, that's normal. Humans don't like being around other people when they're sick, it's supposed to be one of the major evolutionary advantages. Protect your community from your illness and the genes live on."

"So we're just going to leave him alone?" Dyos is troubled by this. He can go for weeks without speaking to another life form, but he has seen Ismail grow despondent when unable to participate in social gathering.

"Oh, no," human Claudia says, laughing. "We're going to employ one of the other most longstanding human evolutionary advantages."

There are many to choose from and Dyos settles on, "middle age?"

"Sort of," human Claudia opens up a small shipping container and holds up a brown paper bag tied with a colorful ribbon. It glows brightly in Dyos's vision, almost as brightly as human Claudia's smile. "His nanni's hot soup, express delivery."

#i feel like this is the one that's going to get discourse and to that i say: #stop it i no feel good #we can talk about other human responses to disease when my skull goes back to being the right temperature #send good feelings the us postal service won't let my babushka send me soup #anyway #humans are human #humans are space orcs #humans are space australians #earth is space australia #earth is a death world #earth is a bond world #lemme know if i forgot any of the main ones