#i just watch people from a distance

[blazernot]

I have yet to finish the first part of spy x family.

#i do want to watch precure at some point #but idk #i started tma on a whim and on im here #the magnus archives #i am in eskew #my art #i just watch people from a distance #i keep getting videos about the new idol thriller one but im like #youtube this looks neat and all but im not going to watch it #also what is trigun even about

[rhymaes]

The Untamed, Ep. 11 // The Untamed, Ep. 48

#you can’t cross the distance to your brother but you can build a doorway to watch the loss through!!! #INSANE SHIT. GOD. HIS FACE. THE TRAGEDY OF LOSING SOMETHING AS YOU HOLD IT #AND MERLIN BADE FAREWELL TO THE KING HE HAD CREATED!!! #THIS HAPPENED LONG AGO NOTHING CAN BE DONE TO CHANGE IT!! FUCK. FUCK!! #Wei wuxian saying the cruelest thing he possibly could to his brother thinking it’s the kindest & just. #the way it world destroy both of them to know that. good. god. #the best part abt rewatching this series is 1.) I can understand what’s actually happening & the foreshadowing SLAYS & 2.) their relationsh #ip & seeing just how badly Wei wuxian backed himself in thta corner & Jiang cheng should have known to help him but he didn’t know how to lo #ok yet. because that came wijt time and experience and not having to build your home back up from the ground where evil people killed your p #arents & tortured your brother & now neither of you can really speak correctly to each other because there’s a gap #you don’t know how to cross because you don’t know yet who put it there #& then 16 years later in a temple you see what it is and why it’s there and that your brother will never #try to cross it because he thinks it’s a kindness #when all you’ve ever wanted was for him to stay. #ANYWAY. CRAZY HUH #the untamed #mdzs #jiang cheng #jiang wanyin #wei wuxian #wei wuxain #I don’t know the right spelling now these tags r making me doubt SO #wei ying

[apamates]

Maybe he found something more important to him than karuta. Is there such a thing? Like what? Nothing comes to mind, give me an example. Like a girlfriend. Arata?! Having a girlfriend? No way! We're already highschoolers, we won't be playing karuta forever. Things are different... compared to then.

#chihayafuru #chihayafuru kami no ku #wataya arata #ayase chihaya #mashima taichi #taichihayarata #chihayafuru live action #yuki suetsugu #suzu hirose #shuhei nomura #mackenyu #arata mackenyu #i'm just not normal about the scene before this where taichi brings up arata just to be cynical about his distance #and directly after gets hit in the face by nostalgia: truly cinematic gold #he's so forlorn lmao #that hallway scene was two people talking about their shared crush and you cannot convince me otherwise #i just heard today it was arata's birthday so i had to rush and make this #first time adding subtitles to gifs and boy it was a whole thing #i started watching the live actions without expectations but i was surprised to really love them #the way the key events change from who's the central character makes the retelling really interesting #i love how here it's arata who gets picked up from the snow #my gifs #my stuff #drama edit

[secondscion]

I have so many thoughts about Joshua and his father and the way his father died but the problem is whenever I try to put them into writing I explode

#ffxvi #joshua rosfield #joshua's obsession with protecting the people he cares about but insistance on keeping some distance from them #the way his father's last words were Elwin trying to protect him #just like. how traumatizing it would be to witness your dad suddenly get Ned Stark'd right in front of you at the age of ten #the way he clearly cares deeply about jote but sends her away #away to safety and happiness (he hopes) but also away from him #because he's playing games with a god and he can't stand her getting caught in the crossfire #he stays away from clive for five years presumably to protect clive #i think he projects a confidence he doesn't actually really feel tbh #i think part of him is still the ten year old who was buckling under the knowledge that everyone will look to him for hope and protection #and i think he's really really scared to watch anyone else he cares about die #anyway. rotating him in my mind #what i'm saying is i think he still has blood in his eyes

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know multiple of these are likely important to people, but I'm asking in terms of like - which of these do you tend to focus on the MOST, enjoy the most, that is most essential for you to actually care about the media, etc.?

(For example: someone finding "Relatability" most important would likely not enjoy a show much if they have trouble empathizing with the characters/relating to it, even if it were good otherwise. Or, someone might be able to overlook bad acting and ugly costumes, as long as the Character Dynamics are fun to them, because they value that more than Aesthetics- while for others, bad costumes would be a dealbreaker.)

Also feel free to reblog and explain your answer or more information in the tags- I've always been curious about people's relationships to media, how they conceptualize it/what they get out of it, how some people value some parts more than others, how that informs their overall taste and genres they may be more inclined towards, etc. :0c

#I was having a conversation with a friend about our favorite type of media and they said the reason they DON'T like historical or fantasy #media or etc. is because they can't imagine themselves being in those situations like it's too detached from anything that they can relate #to personally. they put themselves in the shoes of the characters and apparently like feel emotions while watching stuff and actually #get into the way the characters are feeling so they kind of judge how 'good' or 'bad' a show's writing/setting/etc. are by how it makes #them feel and if they think the characters reacted realistically based on what they were feeling in the moment/what in their head they #would be feeling if they were in the postion of the character. SO apparently the distance of it being in an unrelatable setting or too #detached from our reality makes it harder for them to relate to and less able to really engage with it on that level. WHEREAS I watch #things exclusively in a very like.. detached way?? I'm INTERESTED.. it's like im intellectually analyzing everyhting that's happening and #can be intrigued by events but it's not in an emotional way? More of like a distant 'intellectual curiosity'. Maybe the premise or the #aesthetics or something about it has piqued an interest for me to observe it. to see what it's like or how it plays out. how the idea #is executed or etc. But like.. I cannot remember EVER really relating to any character or situation or projecting onto a character #or having those sorts of feelings or investment in it. That is just not a central part of why/how I watch things or what I care about #BUT after this I was thinking maybe this is my disconnect? I do not seem to conceptualize media the way some other people do and I often #walk away with an entirely different take on things. etc. So I wonder if maybe it's part of how everyone values different things probably? #maybe I literally just watch stuff and percieve it from a different frame of mind that others. More of a like detached curiosity #vaguely bemused analysis mode. Instead of a 'I am deeply emotionally invested in this and am feeling for all the characters' mode #And also I bet people who care more about plot/story are also the people who mind spoilers. Whereas for me I literally seek out spoilers #intentionally because that element of 'suprise ooh what will happen next!' is not central at all to my enjoyment. I could know literally #everything that will happen and still can find it interesting to observe - since for me #that's not the point. I'd rather know the ending so I can determine whether I want to invest the time in it in the first place. etc. #ANYWAY!! If I had to choose - I would say I'm usually heavily focused on world details and aesthetics. With only a slight preference #towards characters individually being interesting. Group dynamics can sometimes be okay but I get tired of everything being about relations #hips and romance - especially when sometimes it seems to be like. people who could not stand on their own as a character/are fundamentally #boring otherwise lol. I would watch a series of just one guy locked in a closet talking to himself as long as he was interesting and saying #things that were amusing or notable for some reason lol. I actually tend to dislike plot because most 'plot heavy' things like action focus #ed shows ALWAYS feel to me like they're moving so fast just to get from one thing to another that I'm not getting enough details. Part of #why I tend to not like movies. the time limit makes them too quick. I need a 95 hour expostion dump of the history of the entire world #and a series of 17 episodes straight where a guy is trapped in a room & the audience is just psychoanalyzing him. hghj.. Maybe I find all #characters annoying/unrelatable bc people w my personality type make bad characters/are not often represented (or are done BADLY). so then #I'm just picking 'who is the LEAST insufferable? who could i study like a lab rat?' whilst my main focus is the worldbuilding&costumes lol

[ahollowgrave]

What sorts of things do you think Odette has stolen from Yein? Does she change what she steals or does she consistently prefer certain items?

From strangers, Odette tends to steal things that are clearly lover’s tokens -- cufflinks, rings, bracelets and necklaces, handkerchiefs, watches - pocket and wrist. Anything with sentimental value that a lover touched just sort of… calls to her.

From friends, it’s different. She likes to take things they’ve handled a lot but won’t miss. At least not right away. She has pocketed many a roe-sized handkerchief from her friend, Yellow Rose, for instance, and she takes special delight in pulling one out when someone needs one.

From Yein specifically? Their spoons. The wooden ones they have brought to their lips time and time again, the ones oiled and worn by their fingers, the ones they have gestured with as they sit with Odette at the table in their home; talking and laughing and enjoying the silence together. Certainly, Yein will run out of spoons and when they do I’m not sure what she’ll switch to. Not more cutlery, that would be rude.

#Answered #Thank you for the ask my friend <3 #apologies I don't have a screen to accompany it lmao #Is it fucked up to steal the watch a late wife gave her partner? or anything like that? #for sure #odette does a lot of things that are weird and messed up #and I think people give her a pass because she's cute and too short to take seriously #she steals lover tokens because she struggles with romantic love and -- until very very recently -- #assumed romantic love was just not in the picture for her (and still doesn't think it will stick/last) #and it's envy is the main motivation #wanting to process something given in love that she might never get #from friends it's more a game for her #and also she's a pretty solitary creature who hates touching so pinching something her friends have handled #is like holding their hand long distance and without the fear of them being weirded out by how cold she is #a second answer in the tags just for you

[yellowloid]

only way i'm accepting the apology video that's no doubt going to come from watcher in the next few days is if ryan and shane decide to throw steven out altogether

#this is a joke but it also isn't #i do believe the paywall was mainly his idea as a ceo + he was most definitely behind the decision to hire andrew and that other guy #if you're already having budget problems you don't just go around hiring new people just bc they were your buzzfeed buddies #and you want to go to fancy restaurants eating gold-covered truffle with them #that being said i'm not babyfying ryan and shane either bc even if it was his idea (big if there) they still agreed to it and > #that's just so yikes. i'm so disappointed in them #i've been watching them from the beginning. i've loved them from the buzzfeed days in 2015 and then from the very first episode of unsolved #(i even wrote fics of them they were That Big of a hyperfixation) #i've followed them from day one when they moved to watcher too #as time passed i distanced myself from their content a bit just bc 1) it became a bit too professional and lost that genuine cozy feeling : #and 2) they started pushing steven into most of the content and i always ALWAYS got such a bad vibe from him i literally couldn't watch any #> content he was in. i thought people liked him so i was convinced it was a me problem but now i see people agreeing #and i can finally live my truth. don't be shy throw him out #they'd still have to regain the trust of their fanbase after such a slap in the face but at least part of the trash would be taken out #watcher #ramblings

[itspileofgoodthings]

all the lyrics across Taylor’s past 5 albums about how she hopes she doesn’t lose him (hopes he doesn’t leave, hopes it never ends) only to arrive at her saying “you’re losing me.”

#the moment where it shifts in any relationship #where it goes from this fear of losing something to realizing that the loss is inevitable beCAUSE a person doesn’t want you #like. in a way her fears didn’t come true. because she didn’t do the losing. #it’s not like she had perfect happiness and it was just suddenly ripped away. it can’t be that no matter what people say #which was the fear #the absolute strangled fear in Cornelia street #because the coldness was there first and the distance and the apathy. and then it’s not about being left and feeling rejected #it’s about seeing the truth and saying oh. you’re losing ME. Because you don’t WANT this #idk if this makes sense but it is such a real life distinction to me #the difference between fears and reality #and of course that doesn’t mean it isn’t also a loss and a blow (a huge one) for her too #but it’s still not I wake up screaming from dreaming one day I’ll watch as you’re leaving #cause you got tired of my scheming #where the burden rests on her for the loss. as in the failure was innately in her #because you’re losing me still has ‘don’t read the last page cause I stay’ written on all over it #but then it’s seeing clearly too—you don’t want this enough to stay #this Probably makes no sense #it’s just exactly how heartbreak happens in real times which is. Yeah exactly what’s happening #the whole thing makes me so sad

[cookiecomics]

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#its probably because i got a double dose of antidepressants but i need to vent #i'm tired of feeling tired #i don't even know concretely what i want to talk about #but the latest reblogs have been on my mind alot #i don't think the past year would have affected me as much as it had if it wasn't for the shunning and silence that #that comes with talking about microaggressions and racism in fandoms #its one thing to have a bad experience with a few people #its another when most of the people you knew just watched it happened #i know people dont believe ne #its easier to say im the 'aggressive one' #its just sad because i don't even have to be black online #im sad i feel like i have to choose #but the fandom was the first time i had so many nonblack friends at once #and i regret it so much #funny enough my dad always warns me every year about that kind of stuff #about the importance of keeping your distance from non-black folks #because of how quickly they turn on u when you're labelled difficult #he told me that again yesterday and he has no idea any of this stuff happened #that im on antidepressants now because i didn't listen to him #needless to say the second i finish my fic i don't want anything to do with p5 again #the only reason ive even continued is cause i love my story so much #i dont see the point in putting so much of my heart out in a fandom not safe for black folks #then again what fandom even is #delete later

[amethystina]

Hellooo, I have a question! it's not related to TDJ, I was just curious if you are from any fandom (a singer/band/group fandom). You don't need to answer if you do not want!

I guess that depends on how you define "being from a fandom"? I'm a fan of a lot of singers/bands/groups, but I don't engage with the fandoms. Well, aside from the occasional reblogs from MVs and such, I guess? Nor do I take part in or consume the usual fandom content. I don't even watch interviews unless I have a really good reason to xD

So, based on that, I don't think I am from any fandoms?

Which I know sounds weird to some, but it's what works best for me. I prefer to just focus on the music itself because I have very little interest in getting to know the performers as people. Which some might argue limits my understanding of the music — since there might be deep, personal reasons for it — but it's just how I feel the most comfortable. I prefer to keep a certain distance between me and singers/idols/actors/authors etc. because I, personally, don't feel a need to know what goes on in the lives of these very real people. I just like the stuff they make :)

The only fandoms I'm in are those related to fictional media like movies, dramas, books etc., because that feels safer for me. I can obsess about a fictional character like it's my job, but I feel no such desire when it comes to real people. That's not to say I think it's wrong or weird for other people to do so — knock yourself out! I hope you have a lovely time! :D It's just not something I enjoy.

(Tbh, I'm often told that I'm the weird one? Like, a lot of people have questioned why I don't like to know more about the talented people whose content I consume because that seems to be the norm. But I guess I'm the exception that proves the rule ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

But, as mentioned, I'm a fan of a lot of things! Especially music! I've got a pretty hefty K-pop album collection at this point and have around 30 GB of music on my computer. But, even then, my focus is on the actual media itself and I rarely venture outside of that.

... well, this was a rather disappointing answer, wasn't it? Sorry about that x'D

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Honestly #My main reason for keeping a distance from celebrities is because I don't like how easy it is for me to read people #That's not to say that I'm always right #But the reason why I write characters so well is because I observe so well #And can analyse what I see and write it down #And I don't want to accidentally do that to real people #It feels invasive to me #So I just avoid watching them as much as I can outside of the intended media xD #It's bad enough that I can't keep myself from doing it to the people in my surrounding #I don't need to add complete strangers too #Unless they're fictional I suppose #Then they're free game xD #And also keep me so preoccupied that I have less time to overanalyse my friends and family #Or myself #My brain is a curse as much as it's a gift sometimes

[earlgreybocchan]

#seriously seriously one of the most beautiful pieces of music i have ever heard #i feel so conflicted thinking about this but i was always afraid to get more into shinee because of jonghyun #i remember the exact day he died when i was in high school and i remember feeling slammed with the news even though he was just guy from... #...clue + note to me and as i have gotten more into kpop in the past few years i have been there for all of shinee's comebacks from don't... #...call me on and i always kept them at a distance bc even though i thought they seemed so cool i was worried to get into them and always... #...feel like someone was missing. and now that my little sister has gotten so into them i have too #and it does feel like someone is missing all of the time and we watch so much content of jonghyun together that sometimes it hits me all... #...over again how unreal and bad it is that he isn't in the world with us anymore #i am so sad too thinking about how i almost didn't hear some of the most beautiful music out of the fear of grieving him #one of the most beautiful voices and i click with his words so so much #like he's my friend and i almost never got to know him :( and that thought it so much worse than the worry of having to miss him :( #it also makes me sick bc if it would have changed anything for him at all. he's still making so many people happy. he's still there for me. #i don't get this emotional every time i listen to him but sometimes it all hits me #music #Spotify

[prinprime]

I am very tired

The moon is very full,

I think I will sit in the light for a while.

The night is very quiet

I am very far away,

Everything seems to make me cry today.

I took a picture

I said my peace

No reply comes from the night.

#really capturing the essence of my username rn #i love the moon #this is about feeling distant from the people around you that love you #about watching a beauty you feel you cant quite touch #cant quite participate in #appreciating that beauty while being heartbroken you can't be a part of it #and its about my fatal attraction to tragic stories and poignant words #it is about feeling like i am the one creating the distance between me and others and simultaneously feeling i have no control over it #or to be more clear over myself and the decisions that grow that distance #like watching my body and mind tun on instinct and self preservation and being powerless to stop those mechanisms despite a desire to act #i know that was a lot to say about like 9 short sinple lines #but it just kind of has all been floating around in my guts until it amalgamated into this condensed poem

[lyriumsings]

idk why everyone acts like lifeweaver is such a bad team pick like idk maybe you’re just bad at supporting DJSJSJ

#listen i’m no overwatch god or anything #i’m roughing it out in silver bronze lmaooo #bUT lifeweaver does insane healing?? and decent damage esp from a distance?? #but if your dps doesng dps you gotta switch obvs to fill that void #with zen or moira #but you could say the same of like mercy #i think he would be better if his ult was more useful bc that burst healing is for shit #it’s should be continuous as long as you’re standing it in and #tbh i think his healing distance should be increased #and i think the petal should be infinite in the sky tbh #bc i mean you’re already forced to move often no one is just gonna let you #hover in the sky and damage the team you have to be mobile no matter what #but if people DO overlook you then that’s their issue that’s the punishment side of the petal #just like how yeah you can sit up there but you’re also easy pickings for any decent sniper #lyriumsings txt #overwatch #don’t look at me i’m watching world cup #and they won’t stop shitting on lifeweaver lmaoooo #that’s my boi leave him alone

[maybebi47]

sometime i sit there and think, will anyone ever love this body of mine? will anyone touch this body of mine before it rots away? will anyone ever look at it with love? desire? and see what i do not see in it? will i never be this lucky?

#im thinking about this lately its killing me #i have only ever loved and been loved by long distance people #there is this particular couple online #i have been watching the guys content lately and he is absolutely perfect #he's kind and compassionate and literally just a Perfcet Guy™️ #he has a wife that he adores more than the whole world #his instagram is literally just her pictures from his pov #perhaps the most loved woman on earth #and there is this odd pang in my chest this heaviness every time i see their love which is soooo strange to me #as im not the kind of person to parasocially fall in love with someone i dont even have celebrity crushes #but then i realized why #she has my body type she's fat like me she's an ordinary girl #i thought no one fell in love with girls like us #so yes eventually i realized im not jealous of her im jealous of how lucky she is to be loved by someone good #how lucky it is to find someone that looks at your body and desires it more than anything #but to also look at your soul and want you even more #i wish that for me more than anything #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk #personal

[wilsons-journey]

Little Sketch I made during work (and thinking how to fix that damn bug on the website,...)

Sadly it was created on this quad paper. But I sill liked the sketch a lot! Maybe I’ll draw it clean - maybe don’t. Not sure yet, but still I wanted to share ;v;

(The Face in the smoke was just another doodle I started... and this CCC lang, was a note for myself... something work related)

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Do you know that feeling? You start drawing in your sketch book with your fine clean paper... and it turnes like crap. But then you start sketching on ugly paper and TADA pretty sketch?! I hate it!It happens all the time! But I’ll put this sketch in my sketch book... 

(The Face in the smoke was just another doodle I started... and this CCC lang, was a note for myself... something work related)

#gw2 #guildwars2 #guild wars 2 #charr #myArt #myOC #Valefor #he is zoned out #thinking about punching people #or just... should i drink coffee or go right to the hard stuff #did I turned out the stove? #why is this dude running from left to right #why does it smell like fish here? #who is screaming in the distance? #and why the heck does this charr staring at me #he never gets rest #always thinking always watching

[sylvaridreams]

Editing screenshots trying to get enough good ones to make a mains/alts list in my pinned. -_- I had to edit his bow string a buuunch because it clips through his gloves but... He does look good.

#auruim #gw2 #sylvari #I looked crazy trying to get good dynamic shots. i just know people were watching me like what ARE you doing to that ambient creature. #well. i'm shooting at it from a great distance <3 hate and war on planet tyria