#i like watching him suffer too much

[eli-like-a-lie]

Of course I love him, he's wet and pathetic

#nrb #no rolls barred #sullivan beau brown #hes hot #wet and pathetic #somebody needs to help him escape #its not going to be me #i like watching him suffer too much #who said that #house rules

[sysig]

Wuh oh (Patreon)

Bonus:

The novel experience of being crushed by a giant rock, a visual metaphor

#Doodles #ISaT #Siffrin #Loop #Yaaaay suffering <3 <3 <3 #Lol #Starting with a cute practice Sif to get used to drawing them a bit more they're so cute what the heck #He's so shaped I love that for him and about him #Crisp design very nice #Sif really is the embodiment of ''Ignorance is bliss'' and being so maladjusted about it :'D #His memory issues make the me a sad #Ironically I try not to think about it too hard or else I'll get Really sad lol #Memory is the foundation of individual personhood! It's such a tragedy weh #Him brushing things off by falling back into his issues is just so agh Sif no you deserve better! #Some sillies lol I never know if I should give content warnings for these kinds of jokes - I don't make them often! #Loop's line in the Jello streams is So good I couldn't not lol #Happy Wednesday fr btw lol yes I did do that on purpose #The last one agh the red and like - can we talk about Sif (and Loop's and Odile's) specific portraits where their hands do the spark thing?? #I always forget how art can be Whatever and that overlapping/removing lineart to imply shapes and movement and just jfdslafd #It's so cool I love it so much it's very inspiring #The bonus is mostly a joke lol - again while watching the Jello streams Lenti was talking about how much she relates to Sif #And I was privately like ''Haha thank goodness I don't relate to him! Couldn't be me!'' And Then #It's fine lol I'm aware of my overlapping issues - I fall more on the Isa side of ''Sounds fake but okay'' but yeah.....yeahhhh lol #As long as I don't get trapped in a time loop about it! Poor Sif haha

[trans-xianxian]

one thing about the core reveal scene is that it's one of the only times someone defends wei wuxian just out of like. anger and contempt. there's the desperate way that jiang cheng protects wei wuxian from his mother and the wens, and the gentle quiet way that lan wangji stands up for wei wuxian against the world, but it is So endlessly refreshing to see someone just be fucking mad that wei wuxian is being mistreated. wen nings fearsome, righteous anger is so good especially considering that wen ning is a character who so rarely ever let's himself show any anger at all, even when he has so much to be angry about

and he doesn't even get angry in a reserved, polite way either he literally tells jiang cheng to his face that he will never be as good as wei wuxian. saying that serves absolutely no purpose other than to hurt him. it doesn't reveal anything more about the core, its not a cold truth that jiang cheng needs to learn, it's not even really something that strictly Defends wei wuxian against anything. he literally just says it because he Knows it's exactly the thing that will hurt the most, and in that moment what wen ning wants to do is to hurt jiang cheng. and it's delicious

#sorry bestie just watched this ep so I am thinking about it Yet Again #the only other time I can think of another character getting angry like that for wwx is jyl on phoenix mountain #and we Know how much that scene fucks #idk like lwjs persistent tragic way of standing up for wwx is great obviously #but its so good to see another character get just plain mad #just fuckin snap #I think part of it is like. as a viewer I spend so much time angry on wei wuxians behalf #so to see a Character finally be angry too is very satisfying #and lwj defends wwx a lot but anger is almost never the emotion at the forefront of that #which is fine #but anger Is a very satisfying emotion #and arguably wen ning is the one who was closest to wwxs suffering #all the time #through nearly all of it #he saw so closely how the core transfer affected him #knew the truth the whole time #and you just know that that anger had been building for a long. Long time #ghost posts #text #wwx #jc #lwj #wn #yunmeng bros #wangxian

[glacialswordsman]

decided to draw a ref for how i view my yaya since i have bunches of headcanons for him

i'll put it in the headcanon masterpost but i'll give him an individual post too

pls DO NOT rb bc i dont want it getting out further than my circle aslkdjaslfj thank yewww <3

#(ooc. ✧) #(my art. ✧) #if you SOMEHOW recognize my style/handwriting no you dont #it's why i used this blog's handle as a signature instead of my normal one so shh. #also he does wear his jacket/coat and fur collar but i didnt draw it this time so i can show off his physique more #also fuck fur... i dont want to make myself suffer thru that right now!!! #like cmon. he's a knight. he has beef!!! #and he wears corsets!! of course his waist is snatched tf up!!! #also he's darker than canon yaya bc he deserves to have more melanin #i tried to make sure i stayed true to the “painted-on pants” look for him too #and give him a GOOD CHEST!!! MUSCULAR AND SQUISHY!!! #he also has abs beneath his clothes but yknow #aint nobody know how strong he actually is #also i love the thought of him wearing higher heels... may not be practical #but whenever i watch the video of the lady sprinting in stilettos im like “kaeya would know how to do that” #anyway excuse my brainrot i just love him very much #oh my god i forgot to lighten his palms. FUCK!!! #ok fixed... added his burn scars and other scars and the lightness to his palms #also shoutout to my boyfie and bestie for going rabid over how i drew him #theyre the real ones who support me and my "muscular yet curvy men” agenda

[itspileofgoodthings]

I know I’m talking to an empty theater here but the writing on that episode of Lark Rise to Candleford where Robert loses his tools (and so the means to feed his family) and is facing destitution and then runs into the young guy who’s in love with his daughter and then uses the moment not to take out all his angst and anger on Fisher but to ask him if he’s ready for all that marriage and staying and giving up his life on the road actually means thus forcing Fisher to admit that he isn’t ready for it—-

!!!!!!!!

#and it’s just so brilliant because we’ve watched Robert suffer so deeply the entire episode #because of how crushing the weight of parental responsibility and poverty can be!!! #and he sees this guy that loves his daughter but has no understanding of the life that that love could and should and will lead him to #if he chooses to stay. this guy who’s just living in the moment and in the feelings of the moment but whose love is not strong enough #to endure the sacrifice that would be required of. well. ordinary married life in a small town! #and Robert uses all his wisdom to force him to admit that he’s not ready for it and doesn’t want it #and then it gets even more brilliant! because after Fisher leaves and Laura is heartbroken and angry #he presents her with the same reality/question but from HER side #her being like ‘how dare you make him not stay’ and Robert being like ‘and did I force you not to go with him?’ #‘were YOU ready to give up your whole life and world for him? to make it work? or did you want your life AND him’ #it’s the have your cake and eat it too truth in this case. their lives didn’t fit together and their love was real in a way #but not real enough to weld their different lives together without both of them hating each other in the end #idk it’s just BRILLIANT and I love it so much #because it unfolds so truthfully and all of the pieces of the story fold into each other so that it a) hits exactly as hard as it should #and b) reveals the truths of things so clearly and so accurately #Robert is so annoying so much of the time but he was a fatherly icon in this ep #lark rise to candleford

[gildedmuse]

As horrible as it is my main thought during this scene was just, God...

I can't believe Law missed all this.

[I did love them getting weaker as the physical representation of just SAYING NIN burned away, as if it is honestly centeral to ninja magic. It's so over dramatic and meaningful and utterly ridiculous and freaking dark as hell the more you think about it... Oh my god.... You guys, this is just Law turned into a ninja scene.....]

The boy only has like two areas of his life where you can still see traces of the innocent joy of childhood: Sora and Ninjas. Now, two of them are facing off by trying to out badass pose one another, ninjutsu vs ninjutsu. But Raizo stood his place and watched as a man he'd once worked beside burned, burned, burned until the pain was too great and he wanted the fire to take him.

Law would have LOVED it.

Aaaaand the maniacal magic of childhood is over.

Nope, they're all with Mugiwara-ya, he doesn't know any of these idiots. He only even showed up to stab an old lady through the chest, okay!?

#Basically I love Law partly for being such a dramatic character with this dark past who is also tots a dork #like how Zoro is an unstoppable force and also an idiot boy #this contain two things Law loves: ninjas and watching people suffer for their past mistakes #there's actually so much ninja shit going down in Wano #Law is there for NONE OF IT #Its amazing #like if an arc was 50% history and Robin was like actually I'm booked that week #nin nin #ninjutsu is the only magic Law belives in anymore #he's seen too much DEATH #and he JUST MISSED the death WITH NINJITSU! #trafalgar law #one piece #trafalgar d. water law #wano arc #raizo of the mist #maybe could have brought more mist with him #raizo #episode 1069 #reaction post #ninja fight!

[brittlebutch]

The 'Enjoying watch you suffer' line in Broadcast has always been hard to pin down; Tim's leg getting broken is the biggest incident in Entry #35, so it's natural to want to tie the two together, but it seems to fit so indelicately into what we know about the timeline of totheark's internal relationship that it almost causes more problems than it resolves. However, even though it's very blink and miss it, Tim does actually manage to stab Alex in the arm before he gets knocked down -- we hear Alex cry out in pain, can see blood on the blade when Jay picks it up, and then in the recovered corrupted footage from that tape that Jay posts as Entry #36 Alex says "I did what I had to... he'd just stabbed me" -- and that injury being what totheark was trying to call attention to, to me, reads a lot more clear and consistent than anything else does

#N posts stuff #marble hornets #it's so hard to figure out lol bc Tim's leg is The Thing so it feels like they should be linked but like it just doesn't seem to flow #and the timeline of s2 is so mangled by the mix mash and retreading ground of all the tapes #ie; Present!Jay uploading Past!Jay's (and Past!Alex's) tapes and commenting on them while Present!TTA responds to both #that it's hard to figure out if TTA is still working together in that Present!Time or if it's Only in the old tapes and they fell out like #Immediately after Jay got the code for the safe from them - which is Possible? We do know that Tim and Brian separated #like Right after they'd managed to separate Jay and Jess but IDK if that separation would account for the kind of anger implied in #the sentiment 'enjoying watching you suffer' you know? And Jay doesn't get Tim's medical records until s3 - which we KNOW #is the Final Death Knell in TTA's relationship and i don't think Brian would have sat on those for so long so i feel like he hadn't #found them by this point in s2 - that must have come later. so That makes this line feel so out of place in their relationship #BUT if Brian is paying more attention to Alex than Tim at this point then it makes A Lot more sense if it's directed at him #and since the creators Specifically included that corrupted footage that makes Sure to get 'he stabbed me' clear in audio AND #in Jay's subtitles - I wonder if that's an attempt to draw attention to that injury and maybe clarify the TTA upload a little bit? #OR you know maybe I'm reading into it all too much but hey. with this series that's actually a pretty solid living so #mh lb #i'm rewatching bc i'm about to start giving the Bleed More fic another attempt at getting finished and finalized so. keep an eye out :3c

[sewercentipede]

it’s crazy how the studio that made nightbreed also condemned it to fail because it ignored the main message of the movie

#when head of marketing literally won’t watch ur movie because it disgusts him too much. it is doomed #like personally I love nightbreed but imagining the movie it was supposed to be if not for suffering fools makes me sad #it’s Clive barker’s ‘legend’ by Ridley scott. to me

[inniave]

after surgery i'm buying myself pentiment goddamnit

#reasons to live #also new doctor who episodes #i've been wanting to play for soooo long but haven't really had the money to spend #so i'm using this as an excuse #trying to focus on all the fun/good/cool things that i can do after #seeing hozier later in the summer #watching the wild flowers come up in the backyard #this is hell but i will get through it and there WILL be an other side i will make sure of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #there's a chance we can get it done tomorrow if the doctor thinks it won't be super complicated #i hope we can cause the longer this goes the more we suffer #i just want it to be over #once i'm all healed i am going to smoke a cigarette and savor every fucking puff i haven't been able to smoke for over a k month now :/ #another thing to look forward too #and i think i have a vinyl preordered???? am can never remember what other parts have bought #oh and i'm going to binge rewatch the hunger games (all of them) after surgery #been meaning to do that & im using this as an excuse to do nothing but watch movies all day #got some audiobooks downloaded that hopefully they'll let me listen to during (unless it's going to be loud (??) then i have music) #i'm taking my puppy stuffie husband got me when we had to live apart for a summer before we got married #puppy is so special to me #he goes everywhere with me #i love him so much #i would just hold him and cry and cry and cry when husband had to leave :(((( #i am so scared #there's so many young parts too who are just i mean they are the ones holding a lot of this shit like i cant imagine what it's like for the #the little bit that leaks through to me is horrific and makes me want to fucking vomit #i'm worried for them #they're splitting bad :((( and i don't have any way to help #we're doing our tapping and tre and everything but idk how much that helps on the inside #idk man #it's all so much

[impossible-rat-babies]

haha what if ahah the final days messed up charon even more—that the sorrow and loss and carrying all those dead left an impression on her soul that lasts all the way to eyrie

#I think about elidbus becoming the heart of zodiark and I get sick in the head thinking about charon #how the man she loved became part of the salvation of the world and YET AND YET—! #why weren’t they selfish? #like!! I’m thinking about eyrie too and this unnamed suffering they hold in the deepest parts of their chest #my brain is soup but I’m thinking so much about eyrie’s connection to Elidibus and how many times are they going to say goodbye? #im so. ogugugjghjf over eldibus he’s my specialist guy #me watching my friend get to parts w him like THERE HE IS THE MAN WHO POISONED MY BRAIN #I do that w zenos too but also. yeah #the brainrot is a on cycle between cringe 14 men #owen talks

[palaceoftears]

Ooooh does this mean my ship has some hope??

#I think it doesn't anyways lol. but come on this is one of the first cases in an harem drama #where an eunuch is more than a comic relief #so please please please don't turn him to a tragic character that can only suffer because the woman he loves likes another guy #and doesn't regard him as more than a friend. especially because of the 'less than a man' implications #that I'm so tired of #maybe I'm hoping too much and no one really cares sksjls #ruyi's royal love in the palace #watching ruyi

[daisiesonafield-blog]

A

#anon about the article about Louis and AOTV #I don’t agree with your interpretation of it at all #it reads to me like a poorly written and slightly judgmental article #the author put a TON of #his own personal judgements and biased into it #not to mention a bunch of current gossip too #other than that it has Louis’ current image to a T #hits all of his public persona #just an English lad he was insecure the band breakup devastes him he smokes a lot #he can’t speak ill of Simon he suffered unimaginable tragedies he’s a dad he dated Eleanor for 10 years #he gets asked about a 1D reunion he changed his sound for LT2 he has a thick accent #oh and the author makes sure to mention the latest media fodder speculation about him dating Sofie #🥴 #Louis doesn’t talk about those #in regards to Harry very little is from his quotes #and what is from him is literally him trying to not say much and change the subject #which is standard PR and equals nothing #and the bit about him being bitter when 1D split is not new he’s mentioned it a bunch before #it’s part of his struggles when the band ended #not to mention he suffered so much being held back and sabotaged while losing his mom and watching h ascend w hs1 then touring w him for #a bit #that must’ve certainly been hard when he couldn’t catch a break #it is what it is #it’s a bad article and the author shows no to little care about the subject #or interest in Louis to begin with #but it’s also the same image push they’ve been going with for all of lt2 #so Louis is saying #this is me #I’m not the lad from 1D anymore #this is who i am

[void-botanist]

🌻 🌻 🌻 fuck me up

From this ask game.

It was a toss-up between a discussion of the Semilsstroms' insect eating preferences and Leon's vague angsty family drama. However you said "fuck me up" so it's drama time.

In Drowning in the Stars Christina ends up leaving Kat with Horatio, so Kat can take advantage of the safehouse plan Horatio had originally put together for Christina. No one realizes at this point that Kat and Horatio are related, but then the pieces come together: Leon's estranged brother (originally called Ed but that name now belongs to Uncle Ed so for now I'm just gonna call him Nate) is Kat's grandfather. Leon and Nate are estranged in the first place because of Kat's grandmother, Nate's wife Shirley, who is the worst. It happened through a combination of Nate being sick of Leon bitching about Shirley and Leon being sick of Nate always siding with her, when it was obvious to him that she was gaslighting the hell out of Nate. They had a fight so bad that Leon just gave up. Just moved localities and didn't tell Nate where he was going. But he left his contact information with Shirley's brother Jedediah so he would know if he was needed.

Fast forward to now, some forty years later, and I know there's some complicated shit going on in that family. Leon has heard basically nothing from Jedediah, and when he left, Nate and Shirley's eldest, Kat's mom, was a baby. I considered having Nate be dead and Leon being one million percent ready to murder Shirley with his bare hands upon finding this out, but then I didn't want Nate to be dead, and when I realized Leon would have had contact with someone, it wasn't so straightforward just to have Kat surprise him with this news. So he's probably not dead. But maybe in a coma? Or some other situation where he's neither Dead TM nor Alive And Ready To Have A Chat (my Sunless Sea brain: he's a Drownie obviously). And I think that whatever put him in that situation is what Kat's parents are busy being vigilantes about. Kat, meanwhile, has mostly associated with the other half of the family, Jedediah's kids, who are all involved in running the Murian Library & Archives. She hasn't hard sided with them because that would make things way more complicated, but really Shirley is just ignoring that Kat clearly thinks her cousin Meredith is the true matriarch of the family (#justonlygrandkidthings). But Shirley and Nate have another kid, Barnaby, who is ostensibly devoted to the point of obsequiousness but is really essentially a spy for the other half of the family, and maybe for others. There's a lot of ??? in this setup actually lol. I suspect there's some twisted webs being woven here that are about more than just Shirley being shitty but they haven't come to me yet.

Anyway I'm still thinking about Leon, the world's chillest seventy-something, absolutely losing his shit because he thinks Shirley has to be responsible for what happened to Nate (she probably is on some level, though I don't think she wanted this to happen).

Kat: aw man it's so good to finally meet the part of my family that has no drama Leon: yeah, yup, no drama here. brb literally stabbing your grandmother with a knife

#I will still talk about the insect thing if anyone's curious #it's extra fun bc most of them have partners/partners in crime who are not nswl and may or may not normally eat insects #Avis watching this go down: I mean I guess I wanted him to suffer too for being a bitch but like...this is a little much tbh #Sorian: Horatio how much more family do you have????? #Celia [satisfied and amused]: I always suspected he was capable of violence #I kinda love how dramatic this family still is. a true holdover from Old Canon #wip: dits #wip: aom #c: Leon #c: Nate #c: the Murians

[candiliam328]

that aggressive tonal shift 25 minutes into the alchemy of souls pilot episode, tho.

jang uk my beloved, thank you so much for that. truly

#i understand those first 25 minutes are important for exposition/background etc etx #but like #consider #✨no✨ #its cheesy and boring and takes itself a little too seriously #also horrible lack of jang uk #i suffer through it each time i watch it #this show needs a healthy dose of jang uk being an insufferable little shit to work properly #every time when he finally makes his first appearance i just be like: ✨ wow ✨ 🥺🙌 #look at him being a nuisance! i love him! #this is really his show!! thank you so much for gracing us with your presence #alchemy of souls #jang uk #my ramblings

[rosesradio]

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#i don't mean to vent when i just got back on here but like #so i haven't had a midnight snack in months--just didn't feel the need-- #but the night before last & last night i got a sleeve of saltines each--these were short sleeves of like 10-15 #i got the box for my dad when he was sick because he asked me & it had been sitting there for maybe 3 months since & no one wanted them #but then tonight we had soup & my parents asked about the saltines & basically found out #& my dad kinda chewed me out--not about eating the last of them because there was another box they used-- #but that that was way too much to eat & i eat too much & will get diabetes #which i feel just isn't true ? #without divulging too much i eat two meals a day (i don't like breakfast)--like a sandwich at lunch & then whatever me and/or my mom-- #makes at dinner #maybe a snack in between but not often #& then some (like a serving size) of ice cream for dessert #like a get a lot of cravings but it's not often i act on it because food is expensive #anyways i felt so bad about what my dad was saying i started crying & he said i was being overdramatic. but i didn't finish my dinner #& now i don't even want to eat around him #i should probably just ignore him--i love him but he's one of those dads that gets so involved at work that he just wants to watch tv when-- #he's off. & he thinks i'm basically the same person i was when i was eight years old--like i love mac n cheese & my favorite color is orange #but honestly i did suffer some disordered eating/body image issues in hs & i'm sure my relationship with food isn't completely healed #but it still hurts to see people think things about me that aren't that accurate #tw vent #tw disordered eating #rose.txt #To be deleted

[leatherbookmark]

actually yknow what, yeah jgy’s relationship to the Atrocities he committed IS interesting! it’s just that people are so fucking annoying about them,

#like the tingshan he sect extermination? so fucking unnecessary #and like. 'i warned you over and over again' maybe that's exactly what he wanted to avoid! knowing that jgs would have no scruples ordering #a whole sect thrown to become xy's enrichment #he su was right! jgs Was after becoming wrh 2.0! but in such a situation literally nothing could have been done #even if jgy nobly and heroically refused... he'd die. jgs wouldn't even kick him out of the sect -- despite how powerful the jin sect is; #jgy with his knowledge of jgs's plans would be simply put a threat. he'd die and then he'd be dead and jgy really Really doesn't want to #be dead. therefore: gestures. #like... the sheer Difference between jzx -- beloved best dad and a wife guy but above all a human equivalent of a soggy french fry #what are his political opinions? what kind of a sect leader would he be? what does he think about his father's policies? WE JUST DON'T KNOW #he's perhaps the blandest of the great sects' young masters. he was born blindingly rich and privileged -- all that built on other sects #suffering in whatever meaning of this word; because i don't believe jgs was a benevolent ruler who gave to the poor with a generous hand #-- and he. either is unaware of dgaf. and then you have jgy who has/stands by and watches as people are fiercecorpsified alive #For Nothing. as in i assume there was Something with a jin cultivator -- from what he su says there Was something -- but it was obviously #just a situation artificially engineered for this exact purpose. it's actually fascinatin; the way it all works #because it's... almost 1:1 what the wen/wlj do. fabricate an excuse (wwx being mean to wc/one of the jiang shidis playing with a kite #that looks like the wen symbol) -> intervene -> extreme retaliation in case the offending sect doesn't agree with the intervention #though llj have perfected it because they didn't even 'intervene' as much as 'captured the whole fucking sect' #~60-70 people. this also makes the question of jrs's death so interesting because if you look at the steps above it all checks out! #except it feels a/ needlessly cruel and b/ too... smart? calculating? for someone who's decided to keep sisi alive out of sentiment #on top of that... the timing... it just Doesn't Fit for me! #but if you don't approach it from this angle it just really creates a whole neat vortex of 'hhhhhhholy fuck llj is SO unnecessarily cruel #and horrible and for what! for what!!!' #good luck a-ling!! good luck buddy. #good luck. #shut up shrimp