#i pity you all i really do

[feelinglikemeat]

if kimi raikkonen was good at bowling his name would be. kimi straikkonen

#oh god #im so sorry #i pity you all i really do #please unfollow me

[chaotic-carnifex]

No hold on I'm gonna make an extra post about this:

I wouldn't choose to be alloromantic

If I were given the choice to either remain aro or become alloro again, I would choose aromanticism.

And I think a lot of people need to hear that.

#aro #aromantic #actually aromantic #safeforaro #alloromantics are encouraged to reblog this #aros aren't the only ones who need to hear that our orientation isn't a consolation prize #too many ppl - both aro-specs and alloros - think that being aro is okay only bc it's not something we choose #with the implicit belief that if we COULD choose then OF COURSE we'd choose to be alloro #bc it's clearly the 'superior' option #and honestly? it's not. #they're equally valid options and which one is 'superior' depends entirely on your own needs and preferences #and my preference is *being aro* #so if you're aro and you feel like yeah sure it's OKAY that you're aro bc you DIDN'T choose this #but if you could you WOULD choose to be alloro? #well maybe being alloro really would be better for you. or maybe it's just internalized amatonormativity. #and I cannot answer for you which one it is - the only one who can is you #all I can do is raise you the OPTION that it might be amatonormativity and then leave you to consider it #so this is for the aros who need to hear that option #and for the alloros who pity us for supposedly getting the short end of the stick #we are not a tragedy

[chirpsythismorning]

Some of the evidence supporting Mike not being in love with El is brutal. No, but seriously.

In s3, when El's leg is injured, instead of Mike putting his arm around her waist, allowing him to take some of the weight off her injured leg, he puts his arm around her shoulder, basically having the exact opposite affect of taking the weight off of her, instead just adding more weight for her to have to carry.

Now, I’m not coming at Mike here, I’m actually coming at the writers, because this choice here has everything to do with them using this gesture to signal Mike’s lack of feelings for El, even at the expense of realism.

I say this bc any person with common sense, including Finn and everyone around him and Millie filming these shots, would've known it looked unnatural for Mike to be adding more weight onto El as opposed to taking some off of her.

This means that what Mike did here, Finn was directed to do, and therefore it was for a specific reason.

And we know they could have easily made the opposite choice, because they show us Max AND Lucas doing it.

See how putting an arm around El's waist looks so much more natural? Because homegirl is injured and clearly needs help taking weight off her leg to qualm some of the pain she's experiencing there, which is why Max and Lucas are shown here doing it the correct way.

And so, why can't Mike do the same? Why are the writers making a point to show Mike being incapable of simply taking some weight off of El, instead doing the exact opposite?

I don't think it's as deep as Mike not being able to do something intimate, and that's bc, again we see Max and Lucas doing it.

I honestly think what they're trying to convey with this choice here, is that Mike thinks he's helping El, when he is in fact doing the opposite despite his best efforts. The implications of that and how that sort of aligns with their romantic relationship and what it leads to at the end of s3, going into s4, is pretty spot on.

I do think Mike thinks he's doing the right thing by being with El instead of voicing any doubts at the end of s3, because he is under the assumption that she is in love with him. I do think he believes he is indebted to her and that this is the least he can do after everything they've been through together, which has mostly been riddled with romantic pressures and so continuing that instead of disputing it seems like the only option anyways. Not to mention, he does care for her deeply, so it's not hard to imagine that he's a teenage boy confusing deep care for love (he literally tells us this is his problem when he can only say care and not love to El's face... but that's a whole other conversation).

Still, when it's all said and done, Mike's not actually doing El any favors by being with her romantically, if that is not what he truly wants.

Because that's the sad truth about all of this, which is that you would never want someone to be with you just because you want them. If you knew that they truly couldn't have those feelings for you, you'd want to know, right? You don't deserve someone just because you have deep feelings for them. And I think there's so many layers to this idea, bc many people are capable of not giving Byler a chance bc they truly believe Mike could never return Will's feelings. Will also feels this way atp, so though it hurts, he rips the band aid off, because he would never want Mike to be with him just out of pity or something. No one would want that. And so it all really comes down to who Mike truly loves romantically and wants to be with. And the right thing to do, even if it hurts someone, is to be honest, because being with them just bc you think that will make them happy is never going to be enough if you aren't truly feeling it, or worse, feel it for someone else.

We see how Mike's inability to be honest with El at the end of s3, leads to a season of Mike feeling deeply insecure and undeserving of the love El has to offer him, and even though he does try, he always comes up short. Despite Mike putting up this front that they are the perfect couple, the details are telling us something is off. And it gives him away.

Another example that I think is very similar to this loaded gesture from Mike to El in s3, is the scene in s4 when they hug in the airport.

Common sense ppl, picture this: You're reuniting with your long distance girlfriend. Then suddenly, she runs up to you, with her arms wide open, and instead of opening your arms wide to embrace her properly, you take the bouquet of flowers you brought her as a gift, and shove them against your chest just as she approaches to hug you, effectively squishing the present you got for her (a pretty delicate present at that) for no reason other than to... what exactly?

Like?? El isn't even squishing the present Mike, she's trying to hug you, dude! Your gf is trying to hug you properly and you threw the gift you got for her in between you so you could throw in a careful! x3??

Again, this has less to do with Mike's thoughts and reasoning behind this gesture in a literal sense, and more to do with the simple fact that this is a narrative choice! Mike is not a real person! There are real people sitting down and writing this and actors are having to do multiple takes to act it out. What feels natural for a situation is going to be what is often chosen 9 times out of 10, because of realism and wanting the audience to see stuff happening that is believable. That 1 time though, when it's not being done the way it would usually be, is usually because there's a specific reason for it.!

So the question really is, not why is Mike doing this, but why are the writers having Mike do this, and what message are they trying to convey about Mike's feelings based on his behavior, in these moments where he's just not capable of committing to El genuinely, one way or another?

#byler #no but most of the gay subtext is just so like... you really didn't have to do all that? #gay subtext at the expense of realism? check #mike thinks he's helping el by not breaking her heart and just being with her despite feelings for will he can't deny #very reminiscent of mike's 'maybe you thought you were helping but you weren't. you hurt me! what you did sucks!' #i do think it would be epic too see that moment come full circle but with el saying it to mike this time #bc i'm sure el would much rather have her heartbroken finding out that mike is incapable of loving her romantically #than to find out he was with her bc he didn't want to hurt her even at the expense of his own happiness #like no one wants to have someone be with them out of pity or obligation #we want someone to love us truly and deeply and genuinely! #we see how much el struggles in s4 bc of all the hints she's getting from mike that he doesn't genuinely love her #bc that's the most important part of a romantic relationship #it being equal #and it didn't feel that way #sure she's gonna be pissed #but she's gonna be more pissed he wasn't just honest #friends don't lie obvs

[pushing500]

Candlelight and Barghest are coping with their flu misadventures by discussing catastrophic disasters, and Kaz is just shouting across the hospital at Zonovo about weaponry.

Wookshys is making friends with Kawoo's dad, Brines, by the river (there's a bathing spot set up on the other side of the bridge from the fishing spot). I guess Brines must have missed the memo that we don't like Wookshys in this colony.

I'm grateful for the animals' help around my colony, I'm just saying I don't know if the murder-blade-dog-monster is a good candidate for carrying the baby around, is all.

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#rimworld #gracie plays #art #my art #traditional art #rimworld art #unpolished art #I'm going to blame the flu for Kaz being inconsiderate #I like to think he's a very polite person usually #Definitely not the type to yell about hatchets in a hospital where other people are trying to sleep #Good job Candlelight for just quietly whispering to the person next to you #Fun fact: Wookshys and Kawoo's dad (Brines) both have the fisherman trait #Maybe Wookshys has found an actual real-life friend after all #more's the pity #I do think that Bartholomew the ripper hound taking care of baby Andy is quite sweet really #It just made me do a double take the first time I saw it #Thought Bartholomew was gonna eat the baby #Baby Andy has gotten immunity from his flu in case anybody was concerned #Albina used her “word of immunity” psycast to speed it up #She's a very handy colonist to have around #The Animist Alliance

[autism-corner]

5guys

comments on em under the cut <3

quincy:

-Jagged scars bc he did it himself with. a big knife.

-no sixpack. just bc.

-many pubes. other bodyhair is a bit less bc he isnt on T (<- excuse bc i couldnt make it look good /hj)

eiden:

-pretty neat scars. got them done fairly early in his life.

-left his abs bc he really tries to keep em. dont particularly like it but :/ i feel like its part of him idk

-was on T a few years before getting isekai'd, aster helped him find a replacement.

dante:

-NEAT surgery scars. got them done, after his parents died, by top-level surgeons (+ didnt have big boobs to begin with)

-nips+snakebites+eyebrows pierced. hes a royal man he deserves it.

-left his pack bc i think he uses it as a coping mechanism....

-has been on proxy-T since a few months before his parents died.

rei:

-tiny boobs tiny scars. did them himself aswell.

-navel pierced bc hes a slut so ofc.

-no abs. this man does nothing to keep himself in shape.

-not on T but has found some remedy that has permanently lowerd his voice

-main reason for transition was so he could be in hiding better, he really doesnt care for much else.

balde:

-no nips.

-main control panel is in his abdomen bc its easily defendable. distinct connection of panels at the lines where they open bc i didnt want him to have abs and this works <3 + i couldnt figure out a reason behind topsurgery scars other than that <3

-no pubes bc hes a ken doll down there (i forgor)

#excuse the shitty quality i work with screenshots =w=bb sorry. #i also wanted to do aster and yakumo and karu/garu but i dont have good enough cards of em :/ #PLUS any aster cards (except his ssr i dont have that one =3=p) mysteriousely hide his underboobs. SO. he already has top-surgery scars <3 #augh yakumos or garu's cards just didnt work unfortunately Y-Y #“oh but why not olivine or morvay?” DO YOU THINK THEY WOULD GET TOPSURGERY? olivine genuinely makes me feel better about my own boobs. #and i just dont really like kuya <3 + i think he wouldnt need topsurgery bc that man has no tits. #anyway <33 #blade is so pretty in his ssr im so glad i wasted 130 vouchers on eiden and got blade as my pity <3 (and eiden after all mentioned vouchers #my wife <333 #augh this was fun =w=bb #trans people!!!!!! #please dismiss any bodyhair the guys may miss i couldnt be bothered <3 #my work #nu carnival #YIPPEEE

[bxtchyfukei]

At this point it’s literally just there for good publicity points, don’t fucking convince me otherwise.

#I understand the minor part but proship? Really? Fucking really?? #That is a goddamn comship right here whether you fucks like it or not #And I know for sure antis HATE Btd due to the intense nature of the game #But in the end it’s just some stupid computer program with pictographs of men that will never exist in real life #(Strade is an exception not counting a Ren in there) #None of these characters are fucking real none of these stories are real life is a fuck shit #These are all just silly stories made to entertain our morbid hearts from this god forsaken world #And I truly pity anyone who tries to mimic what they see on the screen #Sorry for this weird rant just been feeling eh #antis dni #antis are stupid #antis do not interact #proship safe #antis fuck off #discohorse 💢 #i hate antis #proshippers please interact #antis suck #darkfic #profiction #fuck antishippers #antis are hypocrites #antis are a cult #comship safe #comshippers please interact #Btw I don’t have Twitter so I can’t do much but look at a few posts they have #And they made shit for Ren too #And other games like John/Doe and Sunny/Day/Jack AND DACHABO #FCKING DACHABO WHERE A DIGITAL DOG BOY THIRSTS OVER YOU AND ITS MEGA SUS #I genuinely don’t get antis who consume sus media

[kingsis]

The innate feeling of love humans have for everything.. when they find out that something is unloved they go out of their way to love it unconditionally. Something so deep rooted in our genes it can't be removed. To find something broken and battered to love, because it satiates a need. Why do we do that? Why do you do that?

#melon talks #blurble ✒️ #how easy would it have been. for spamton to just say 'love me. please love me' #to reach into a crowd that knows not why they do it. but knows they Will. inevitably. care #was it pride? fear? an inability caused by an outside force? #or was he just not Broken enough? to be part of that inate feeling? #what do you think he clings to at night. to keep him from ending it all? #does he really deserve our pity now? after all he's done? #i think so

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[zscribez]

i do think a lot of people in the west, at least the young people, have no memory of what it's like to live under the threat of being criminalised for your queerness

like i still live in a country where it's illegal to be gay or trans. i do have a tendency to relate more so to literature from older gays who lived through the times when it was still criminalised. im incredibly lucky that i can just be myself with my family and friends, so im not closeted 24/7 and i have my safe spaces. but i do not get to be open about it in public. i have to hold my breath every time i do anything government related or have to present id in some way since im male-presenting while having female identification.

so to see westerners saying 'ohhh I'd be a criminal in these countries', you'll just be a tourist, you have fucking passport privilege, my government is not gonna go after a white queer like you. and also on top of that be racist about it, yeah fuck you

#zee.txt #also please don't feel pity for me #im in a remarkably good position all things considered #im not a muslim so im definitely not the priority of the religious police here #and im surrounded by family and friends who are accepting or friends who are also queer #and im able to transition with little issues and barriers #so i really do not need your sympathy #there are people who are way less fortunate than me in this country #this is also why i don't qualify for asylum #there's a weird tendency for some white queers to think asylum is easy to get #it's not #you have to prove that your life is in immediate danger #and that it is actively under threat #im perfectly fine #i don't have anything to prove that sort of thing #so i don't qualify for asylum

[girlfox]

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#𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 ⠀⠀(⠀ⅰ.⠀)⠀⠀𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑:⠀⠀ಇ⠀⠀oh-kae! #cw negative #tw negative #cw vent #tw vent #tagging this for people who don't want this kind of negative content on their feeds! #remember to protect urself first. #and i'll keep this super vague not to be like . . dramatic? but just because i only need to get this off my chest. #but i need to vent so badly because i'm reaching a breaking point. i can /feel/ the anxiety building up in my throat. #i've been 10000 % vibing on my own and really comfy here! i've been loud n' proud about that. #but ever since i've been active here it feels like old issues are rising up and it feels like borderline harrassment. #like. under the radar. #i know this isn't anything anyone is going to have noticed or seen or anything. #but talking with friends who do notice and stuff. i just hit a bad point all of a sudden. #i'm not going to openly talk about problems here on the dash of course. #but drags my hands down my face. i just want to do my own thing man. #i have more time to be here now that school is done for a couple months & i just wanna enjoy it to the fullest hah #i'm finally back into enjoying ahri the way i used to! #but. i dunno. i might bury my head into my inbox & retreat into some video games or something. #i don't really need reassurance or affirmations because this isn't a pity post or anything. #i feel validated by the amazing friends and interactions i get here as is! so thank you to all of you. seriously. ily #but good lord. #i dunno i just wanted to vent and i will delete this later.

[senselessalchemist]

finally have an actual job so maybe I can stop being a hermit and get officially divorced and feel sort of financially stable and possibly try dating again and get a cat ??? is that allowed? no I probably shouldn't unless I get a bigger place and can have two cats to be friends

downside is when the fuck am I supposed to draw dumb comics if I'm working for hours and hours a day? Hell and suffering on earth. maybe i should get an iPad or a whatthefuck ever and draw on the commute so I don't lose even more of my meager art skills

#personal bullshit #i have never had what is traditionally considered a Real Job #this is my first 8 to 4 type job #tbqh if i could have just done teaching assistant work without the whole grad student shit that would have been cool #but i just couldn't anymore #no one there helped me when i needed it #a super huge fuck you to all of the mandatory training i had to do re: intimate partner violence and abuse #well anyway it's fucking done and who cares if i wasted 8ish years of my only life (: #now i get to help people make babies #which is not at all what i thought i would do #but hey at least it feels meaningful #and i get to wear scrubs all the time which is nice because they're kind of shapeless and make me look slightly more masc esp with binding #wonder if i could donate oocytes #im sure as fuck not gonna use them #might be too old tho #give bad eggs #also might have too much testosterone in my system now #0 idea how that works except at some point they expect me to stop menstruating #but my dumb reproductive parts are too strong too powerful will not be stopped by some pitiful exogenous T #anyway i really need to try to sleep #and stfu #but yeah maybe i can think about moving and getting 2 cats

[konstantya]

Never thought I'd get to the point where I'm lying about my genealogy in order to sound like less of a weirdo, but here we are. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#look i've said it before and i'll say it again: #doing genealogy research on someone you aren't actually related to just makes you feel a really big stalker? #(and like their ACTUAL living relations aren't putting in the work so why shouldn't i???) #but yeah it's a lot easier to just say ''hi i'm distantly related to this person and am trying to find out more info about them! 🙂'' #as opposed to ''hi i randomly stumbled across this person's totally forgotten work and fell in love/hyperfixation #and am DESPERATE to find out all i can please please take pity on me and help me out with this 😭'' #personal #the pulp saga continues

[foofygoldfish]

hi this is idk me being vulnerable or whatever

but uh if anyone ever wants to chat or like… discord or whatever? I’d like that?

#mariahs rambles #I’m lonely as shit #I don’t want to talk about bg3 I think that game is shit for reasons I won’t get into lmao #but like. I’m still here. just at the “rewatch the entirety of greys anatomy” level of white girl depressdd #my contact stuff is all in my pinned post #I just can’t come back here it’s still the bad place #too many shitty toxic people #but idk how to make friends anymore so #idk #if someone wants to pity me #I know this will get ignored like always but #yeah #idk why I’m making this oh my god #fuck I’d even take a ‘here’s why everyone started ignoring you’ at this point #because I really do feel like I pissed someone off #…. this went for way longer than I thought it would apologies #tldr lonely as shit feel like I pissed someone off idk what’s going on

[navree]

#personal #house of the dragon #some of you guys are such fucking freaks oh my god #first of all this is exactly what i was talking about i feel jack shit for lucerys beyond detached pity #because there's been no attempt to develop him at all i cannot name more than maybe two character traits #and that's me being generous #(it's such a writing fail it really is emma better really sell rhaenyra's grief to make me feel literally anything) #but like literally also what the fuck #lucerys dies yes so sad #and the UNDERSTATED response apparently #is to force helaena to choose which one of her sons has to be murdered #or else her literal eight year old will be raped in front of her eyes #and then when she does make the choice they instead murder the kid she DIDN'T choose right in front of her #so that not only does she have to watch her son die and live with the trauma of being in that situation #but also live out her life knowing that the son she has left knows that she chose him to be butchered #like the blood and cheese story is so awful because helaena literally didn't do anything #she isn't responsible for the dance at all #she's not responsible for what happens to lucerys #and you're telling me that this isn't a proportionate response because it's too nice???? #there's some serious greens derangement syndrome going on here there really is and i'm team blacks #like what in the fuck

[estrogenism]

people outside of america and western europe will ask for americans and west european people to have the same empathy for our issues that you ask that we have for yours, and americans and west european people will throw an absolute FIT at being told the us and west european countries are not the only important countries and they're not the only places with human rights issues

#lelei speaks ★ #people in third world countries: hey can you maybe care about us too if you expect us to care about you all the time #americans and west europeans: ummm i really don't like your passive aggressive guilt trippy tone here?? stop hurting MY feelings :( #like sorry but i don't care if i'm hurting your poor wittle feewings when i ask you to at least PRETEND to give a shit about us #you want us to pat you on the backs and pity you for everything you're going through but you don't wanna do the same for us

[dayurno]

i need my kevjean freaky and weird and obsessive and worrying to the general public

abso-fucking-lutely i need it to be oppressive to be around them. i need it to be a breathing living thing you can feel if you step into their orbit. like it HAS to be bad and it HAS to be awkward and you HAVE to feel like you're intruding on something even if you've known them for years. i need kevjean to be something the trojans do a wellness check on jean for. i need kevjean to feel like a karmic debt they will have to keep paying for the rest of their lives. you know? it has to be weird. it HAS to be weird

anyway to me they are like this and they wouldnt even have to have fucked to know it

#you know what my ideal kevjean situation is? ill tell you what my ideal kevjean situation is #they have not fucked in the nest. it didnt even cross their minds. it was so strictly forbidden it couldnt be anything but a fantasy. But. #but. they have several moments. where they are alone. or close to it. and they are standing there #and they might even get really close. and it might be just like they roughhoused as kids. or played together in court #but there is a very Real Conscience that they both would like to ruin this very much #i think they wouldve had maybe a peck along the run or a single kiss thats poised out of pity / because jean is desperate to be seen as a #person #and it might even start small and frigid and for a single purpose only. But. #and that but i think really fucks them up for a lifetime #its like accidentally stumbling onto the best thing in the world and not getting to keep it #kevjean physical chemistry goes CRAZY kevjean intellectual chemistry goes CRAZY kevjean emotional chemistry ... !! <3 goes insane #alexa play good in bed by dua lipa #i dont care if its toxic im fine with it theyll grow out of it eventually #<- and i really do mean it. i think they will be much better and sober after the nest #and all those moments in it will feel like a guilty pleasure #but guilty pleasure is still pleasure. amen #asks #kevjean