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fire-fira · 7 months
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ANYBODY WANT TO SEE THE GIANT LIFE-SIZED FRUIT BAT I MADE?!
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This thing's 'wingspan' is wider than mine.
I REGRET NOTHING. 💚🦇🦇🦇
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loppiopio · 5 months
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i've been sitting on this post for a few days now and it's literally just, me making assumptions about kudos i've noticed on fics lately (particularly aci since i've been checking that fic every week for book club these past few months) and this'll make me seem more insane than i already come off but by this point. how much lower can i go?
just going from top to down as of today.
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[ShibaLee] i know you from your art on here!! tumblr user shibaleeart i'm happy to see more people in potentially enjoying the stories this fandom has to offer :>
[reiscm] shizuchansmilk?? what are youuu doing here? i didn't know you read shizaya fic tbh and i was surprised to see you here suddenly, relatively recently too. does that mean you just started the fic then?? after at least a year of being in the fandom right? maybe this wasn't from your first time reading it (same) but at the very least it shows you visited it not too long ago… i may be delusional in thinking i could be a contributing factor there because, why now? it's not like i'm the only aci advocate out there but i've probably been the most vocal about it around this time soo… well whatever it is, hope you had fun with it! i'm so curious what drrr comedian shizuchansmilk thinks about hit fanfiction a cheap imitation 👁️
i'm also recognising some of the other names around here like [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] even though i haven't the faintest idea who they might be. i've just been seeing them lately across different shizaya fics which probably means these are the people doing their shizaya fic dive around this time. i have nothing more to add there i just, think it's cool noticing the same names across fics like yeah, we all feasting on the shizaya tag rn.
[ya_boi_twink] it took me a second to recall where i'd recognised your name from and then it hit me. i knoooow you! tumblr user yaboitwink in my notifs… i appreciate you, and i'm glad you liked the things i made for it c:
[bun_o_ween] oh i know you're here because of mr crapo. i hope you guys had fun with it! i wanna take the chance to also admit that like. the moment i found out you were that sebastian writer i experienced the wildest sense of deja vu. because. i had seen your name on ao3 before. but when i checked your fics there was no way i'd read a fic from you?? so then i realised i must have recognised you... through other kudos on other fics??? dude. i must sound crazy, i have no way of proving this because i actually don't remember what fics these were i just vaguely remember it was either bsd or tgcf? that i was looking at fics for, trying to find something to sate my hunger at the time. and i just remember, noticing your name across like a few of these fics in a row and thinking "heh someone else has been going down the same rabbit hole" AND NOW I SEE YOU AND CRAPO OF SHIZAYA FANDOM HITTING IT OFF it was surreal. like. my awareness of you had zero to do with black butler, i could not have predicted that you would have been the random ao3 user i'd seen apparently enjoying some of the same fics i was not too long ago. wow.
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there are like two separate flamingo related names around here [niceflamingo] and [flamingoo] which doesn't mean anything but for some reason they are standing out enough for me to want to mention them. i feel like i've seen ao3 user flamingoo in the kudos of some other fic before but idk.
[Luzki] omg hey!! twitter artist vi_138_ woah hiii funny seeing you here :0 especially like. not so long ago? since i'd imagined you would've been aware of the fandom for a while since you seem more invested in the alts than shizuo and izaya in particular? well it was cool seeing that you'd read this one, i hope ya had fun!
[frogsarefriends] right under that is artist hallucxnating >:O i know they've read the fic already but it was cool to actually recognise their kudo down here, especially since it's like. not recognisable just from the name alone, but you've shared links to this ao3 as your writing so now i know it's you. my impression is that you came into the fandom through slavhew since, i'd connected the dots at some point that you two were friends which. made a lot of sense since i noticed you both started being active around here at the same time lol. but hey!! welcome to the club :D
[7FlyingPancakes7] this is one of the ones i'd noticed earlier on during book club, i distinctly remember checking a chapter while walking home one night (because i do that i guess) then BAM what the hell?? i just see tumblr user mari-lair's ao3 appear down there, totally out of nowhere for me. for context this was a writer from the tpn fandom i recognise from like 4 years ago? idk it's been a while, i didn't talk to them much but they were active in the fandom at the time so i'm familiar with their name. i haven't been keeping up with them but last i'd seen they seemed to be into tbhk with no indication as far as i was aware that they'd shown any interest in shizaya. nothing wrong with that it was just unexpected, so i was just like woah!! how did you get here? i am so curious how they may have come across this fic, was it some rec from a friend? how familiar are they with shizaya? how invested were they in the story and characters? enough to go down more of shizaya's greatest hits? anyways, that was just a fun little small world moment for me.
[psych0tastic] hey isn't this…. axietoh? like, the artist who used to draw shizaya like 5 years ago? what are they doing here so high up the list? 🤔 i have no clue lol i still follow them because i really like their art style but i hadn't noticed their interest in shizaya resurfacing... i suppose they just haven't been too active on these socials in general. anyways their name stood out to me and i was like, wait….. well it's a shocker seeing their name so high up here, were they reading this fic for the first time there or were they revisiting it and happened to have not kudo'd it until then? well anyways, it's nice to see they've revisted the fic within the last two years at least :0 that's cool to me.
[MiyukiWynter] dude i was feeling crazy just now trying to figure out where i'd recognised this name from because i'd swwooooorn i'd seen it from somewhere like as someone on twitter?? i think i was mixing them up in my mind with unrelated (as far as i'm aware) twitter user miiyankhr but turns out they're someone who's fics i've seen in the tags before. i haven't read them myself but apparently they just posted a new one two days ago so that's crazy.
[Dodomka] heyyy it's dodo from twitter, hellooo 👋 they've been the biggest supporter for my deep in the sauce fic tweets and for that i appreciate them very much :3 didn't expect to see them here tbh i wasn't aware of when they'd first read the fic but as i was expanding the list a few times to write up this post i noticed their name here and just thought that was neat. shout-out to them!
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[mochi010] there's a user named mochi that has shown up in my twitter notifs somewhat regularly and they have nothing on their account so i have zero clue what they might be like outside from that they've been liking my shizuo and izaya retweets. their handle isn't even mochi so i have very little reason to believe this could be them but idk, maybe? no conclusion has been made here. well i already spent time writing and cleaning up the paragraph, guess i'm leaving it in.
shout-out to [ouiouipussay] and [ramenflavorpacketsnorter420] just for having some names that stand out lol. i don't recognise you from anywhere but, i guess now i will if i ever come across those names again.
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[Stupidusernamepolicy] i struggled to find you amidst all these names for the writing of this post 💀 had to ctrl+f that shit. but i remember seeing your name here while i was going through the list some days before and being like "oh hey!! it's slavhew :)" but okay there's actually a tangent i've been wanting to go on from here.
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outside of aci i've actually been noticing you and hallucxnating double duo'ing under some fics together, like after the story era which i'd reread after hallu reminded me of its existence in a reply, and also sacramental which i had reread because of your reply, lol. i find this quite funny, just like. this visual representation of you two reading and recommending fics with each other. then you talk about it on twitter and more people like me are visiting this fic too. chain reaction of sharing stories :)
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ALSO [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] spotted down here in some of these kudos too!! that's craazy. wow. i tell you guys i'm recognising these names i'm not just crazy 😭
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[NotElectricT] this took me a second to dig up again since it's quite buried down that list at this point but the plan i'd had in mind for this post was to end on this one since i saw them kudo it right in front of me (through the vc stream) and i didn't think this post would get as long as it did but... well i already wrote it 😬 but yeah, this is my good friend note! check out this art they made for, still one of their favourite chapters, sharks fly. it's sandwiched in between some squid game au they made for a gift exchange for me..... it's a long story i don't wanna talk about it (embarrassing......)
but what i do wanna talk about!! is how note (referred to as "patient zero" regarding aci book club by the only other patient lol) just decided to read this fic completely of their own volition?? i didn't tell them to do that and for sure didn't expect them of all people to try reading it, ever (they're not really a fic reader) but they just did that, two years ago. and that was like, insane to me at the time because it's seriously so out of their depth guys they don't do enemies to lovers.... they still don't lol. but i was insane about this fic back then with no one to really be insane about it to so i just yelled about it to these friends out of context and i guess???? that was convincing enough to get this one to start the longest fic they'd ever read 💀
i had much fun having someone experience the fic i'd been insane over..... like i'm smiling about it rn thinking about the time i did a live reading of the chainsaw man (as i like to call him) chapter which was so fun i kinda forgot i had a hamilton musical i was supposed to watch that evening... that was awkward. and other chats we exchanged regarding the fic (they were reading chapters whenever they felt like it which i enjoyed because i like pacing these things out) but for some reason (i think things just happened around the time that disrupted the momentum) they never made it past chapter 26 😔 which was tragic to me but oh well....
well i'm am even more insane about this fic now because of this convoluted chain of events that gradually built and cascaded me towards whatever the fuck i'm doing now!! god. i've never made so much, anything, like ever. until now. because both note and rosa (who has not kudo'd this fic as far as i'm aware lol) made the decision beyond my expectations to commit to, a book club. which i organised. and i've been having a lot of fun! so much fun, there's all this wild "marketing" stuff i've been churning out in record fucking time by my standards. i've never felt so creatively fulfilled dude, never finished a thing in my life until these past few months. so that's awesome, and it's in large part because of note having committed to this fic again. so that's some of the story behind that one kudo haha.
and now we're at chapter 49, we're supposed to be talking about it tomorrow, which is today by now since it's 1 am but uhhhhhhh writing is so hard. i was supposed to just be cleaning up this draft i'd written like 5 days ago? i am now very hungry. there's actually more i'd drafted up from here just from more names i recognised as i kept expanding the kudo list that day buuuut i'm fuckeeeen cutting this off right here. i need to stop. the end.
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gammija · 5 months
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i keep constructing elaborate political speeches in my mind. as if somehow if i could just talk to pvv-voters compellingly enough, explain to all of em why this is moronic on every level, they'd all suddenly find out that they're actually leftists at heart who just heard a few facts wrong
#as if the racism is an accident instead of the driving force#i spent too long looking at twitter replies and there are a lot of people who voted for wilders so obviously a lot of different types too#theres the naive ones who genuinely seem to regard politics as kind of a game thats being played to the sidelines#you cheer for your team but it doesn't ACTUALLY have an effect on reality. So stop complaining! cheer up!#theres the dumb ones who 'just wanted something different' and who thought 'well the Left screwed things up'#- weve had a centrist/right government for over a decade -#'so lets try the right ¯\_(ツ)_/¯'#and then theres just the unapologetically islamophobic who DEFINITELY are NOT racist~#they júst want all brown people to go back to 'their own' country#and if you call thát racist! well then! you are protecting the fundamental rights of muslims right to religion so obviously you also suppor#extremist governments in the middle east! and those are also discriminatory! which somehow makes the pvv nót discriminatory even though#they're drawing a direct comparison between themselves and these extremist governments! so there!#... anyways#very very very minor point but this also once again strengthens my resolve to not reblog or dive into every terrible news story from#usamerican politics despite how guilt-trippy posts about them get;#cause the only people on tumblr ive seen reblog aaanything at all about these results are dutch themselves#ik its not like we have a similar influence to the entire usa at all. but neither does random kentucky county elected official number 9 and#i still hear about them all the time#it makes sense for the circles im in dont get me wrong. just annoying.#joos yaps#delete later
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nelyoslegalteam · 1 month
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I don’t know murdoc but I still want to know!! hit us with #7: what do they smell like?
black tea. bergamot. lavender. vanilla. maybe just a little bit of orange blossom.
... it's london fog. murdoc smells like london fog to me. specifically london fog made with lavender earl grey. i imagine he wouldn't use perfumes or scented oils or anything like that on himself - that's far too much sensory input - but he creates and blends brews of tea. so i imagine he smells like his craft, as one tends to do.
it helps not only that he likes the smell of tea, but that he always has tea on him, or at least in arm's reach. tea is comforting to him. tea scents are comforting, good sensory input. and you never know when you might need to brew up a nice, warm cup for someone who needs it.
so yeah lmao boy's got tea leaves in his pockets. at least he smells good kjdhfdskjsm.
and thank you so much for indulging me!!! since you've said you don't know him - murdoc is my hobbit bard player character in @potatoobsessed999's tolkienverse d&d campaign, the mirkwood campaign!! i've uh. talked about him quite a bit, if you want to check this out. or this. or this. x3
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goldiipond · 1 year
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hi im having emotions about don again
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a-lonely-tatertot · 2 years
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finally made my councilblr oc :D welcome Xena to the crew he is so blind someone get her glasses
(also ik my handwriting is a mess so i typed it up under the cut)
Top: Xena (he/she), Selkie, Paladin Rogue, Navigator (but can only see underwater)
Arrow pointing to face: Moon tattoo because she's got an oath to the moon goddess
Arrow pointing to coat: Seal skin
Arrow pointing to gray bits: Seal skin patches
Arrow pointing to sword: Cool Sword
Arrow pointing to seal: Seal form
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guinevereslancelot · 1 year
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the problem with completing tasks for money is not the task. it's dealing with the person who needs you to do the task in the first place
#never make a webbed site for an old person#i did it for free for my moms friend bc i made on for myself and it was easy#but that was when i was the customer#i just spent way too long on the phone trying to get an old person to provide basic information abt her email#she doesn't know her email address or password#i ended up making her a new one to use for the website#she hasn't tried to log in yet but i can only hope she can manage that and take over the website from here#but i doubt it#if she cant get a grip on this im going to be running this woman's entire business for her i hate it here#she spent the whole time complaining and acting like i was being unreasonable#she didn't even want a website she thinks her customers are dumb for wanting one#ma'am it is 2023 people want to do things online#nobody is ordering your food via telegram#when my mom volunteered me i was like ok i will do it for free bc its this particular friend of yours#but if u offer my services to anyone else they better be paying me#and then when i was done i was like ok even for money i would not do that again#she was sooo difficult i lowkey don't like her now lol#like ma'am i am doing this for u and your struggling business for free you could at least be nice lol#anyway#the stress of trying to help an old person with an email. for free 😞🔫#the task is easy but the customer is difficult#do not be lured in by the promise of an easy task#ask yourself: why can't this person complete the easy task by themselves#anyway google is evil but google sites is very easy to use#but at what cost#this has been a shitpost#she's not even that old#my mom could have done this sp i assumed she could#i wrongly thought if she can handle running a business she can run the website if i make it for her she's smart 🤡#now i see why none of her five kids volunteered to do this
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hestiashand · 1 year
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these are still all WIPs but i wanted to share these anywayyyyys. i made my main characters family in the sims4 hehe. i’m also gonna give a teeny tiny wee bit of info about the each of them while i’m at ittt :3 you can check it out under the cut if you want!
btw the order of outfits is: everyday, formal, athletic, sleep, party, swimwear, hot weather and cold weather for all of them!
mother:
áurea, 44 y/o, banker
she/her, cis, bi
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father:
mateus, 43 y/o, mailman
he/him, cis, straight
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eldest sister:
clara, 25, carpenter. not in school but would like to go back
she/her, cis, bi
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twin brother [MC]:
paulinho, 24, biochemistry major
he/him, cis, straight
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twin brother:
carlito, 24, fine arts & graphic design major
he/him, trans, gay
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middle sibling [adopted]:
salome/simones, 16, dropped out of school
she/him, genderqueer, polyam bi
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youngest sister:
márcia, 11, elementary
she/her, cis
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youngest brother:
murilo, 6, elementary
he/him, cis
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Hello World.
It's an old story. Or, not old, but retold. Computer gains sentience. AI decides it can run the world better, takes over and tries to build anew. Robot turns human. Man-made machine becomes man.
Let’s tell it in reverse.
Girl turns around, keeps being surprised to find veins and sinew under her skin instead of wires and steel. 
It’s a funny thing, to be human and not feel it.
But False feels True and True feels False, like someone passed self.humanity through not().
Not that it makes all that much difference, when you break it down. I mean, sentience, natural or otherwise, is all electricity anyway. The flickering and sparking of neurons and wires alike, nothing more than sequenced pulses of bright energy. 
An AI learns to write. Okay, zoom in. What is it doing? It’s predicting the next letter, maybe the next word, from what has come before. It’s a calculation of probability, the algorithm at the heart of what appears to be creativity. Dissect it another step and it’s ones and zeroes, one step further and it’s just that—a well-timed current.
Nothing exists as a pure abstract.
Human consciousness is not exempt. Each thought is a series of reactions across axons, chemicals transmitted across from terminal to dendrite. Refine the level of observation once more, and it is all a product of the same forces that govern the rest of the world, a chain effect driven by crackling electricity. Remove the molecules and the cognition stops.
It’s the synergistic effect. Things become more than the sum of their parts—bits and bytes wake up, atoms form life—the microscopically inanimate performs macroscopic sentience. The miracle of thought is an illusion of simpler, more predictable parts and that much more wondrous for its explicability.
And so, when every semblance of sentience can be teased apart to atoms and electricity, particles and energy bound by the same forces that govern the rest of the observable universe, the distinction between organic and mechanical fades. Both create conclusions from past patterns; both follow prescribed routes at a small enough scale. Perhaps, then, to say that my own brain was programmed, some artificial, indistinguishable form of intelligence, would not be so wrong. And anyway, that’s the trope, isn’t it? Code wakes up and has an identity crisis?
And it would make sense.
The mimicry’s not quite right. Too many days there are things that don’t quite line up, small glitches, bugs in the program, patches someone meant to roll out and never quite got around to.
Like, I told someone at age 12 that I wished people gave off error messages and they laughed and I was only half-joking.
Like, I failed Captchas because the edge of an object was technically in the square, or because I wasn’t quite sure what did and didn’t constitute a tractor, or because 9 and g look about the same in some fonts.
Like, I could probably fail a Turing test. I stammer my way through social graces with a charmless—some might call it robotic—monotone, falling back on awkward smiles and pre-rehearsed niceties.
You see, programmed doesn’t mean perfect, only rigid.
And maybe I noticed something was off! Noticed and went looking for the source code, started parsing backwards through nested loops, trying to find the root of the irregularities. Maybe all I got was Permission denied.
So then, if the source cannot be found, an attempt at reconstruction, how I think my synapse-circuitry must have been hard-wired:
if self.understands(code){  feel(“strange kinship”);} else{  feel(“lost”);} //not that humanity is *wrong* for what I feel, but the computer always made more sense.
Hello World, a human tradition.
Hello World.
Every programmer’s first words.
Hello World //the program’s first words too?
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taketwoinink · 1 year
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Fic Announcement!
Now More Than Ever
Updates Every Friday! Snip & Major Tags Below! (warning for parental death/funeral in the snip)
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Main Relationship(s): Chloe & Felix, Felix & Adrien
Other Relationships: Chloe & Adrien, Felix & Alix, Ivan & Felix, Ivan & Mylene, Felix & Original Characters (there's four of them), Adrien & Nino
Tags: Canon Divergent - Gabriel Agreste & Felix (the episodes), Good Felix, Nonbinary Felix, Aroace Felix, Aroace Alix, Queerplatonic Relationships, Bad Parent Gabriel, Angst, Bad Parent Audrey, Bad Parent Andre, Travelling, Long Distance Friendships, Akuma Attacks, Original Akuma, Good Parent Amelie, Journals, Hurt & Comfort, Original Characters
Fic Warnings: Parental death, themes of loneliness, child abuse, suicidal thoughts, strangling, self hate, non-canon-typical violence
Rating: Teen (T)
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They’d chosen not to embalm the body.
Tiny whispers played like static at the edges of Felix’s ears. It felt wrong to stare at the closed casket, listening to the sounds of people shuffling around the room. The mournful crowd was made mostly of business partners and close friends; of all Colt’s relatives, only his sister had attended.
They could still envision the face they knew to be laying under mahogany wood. Two versions of it floated up through their mind. One was lively and full of laughter; the other was weary and broken down.
That face should still be beaming down at them.
Six months.
Six months was all it had taken for their world to turn upside down. They’d gone from travelling the world side by side to sitting at a bedside table, holding on to a weak hand and waiting for the moment its struggling heartbeat would give out under the skin.
They reached out a hand, letting it fall onto the cold wood of the casket. No one else would dare touch it out of respect for the deceased.
Felix couldn’t respect their father. He’d died.
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Summary: It's been over a year since Felix's life flipped upside down. A year since their father passed away. And a year since the hunt for his missing journal collection began. The search sends Amelie and Felix to Paris, to confront their only suspect: Gabriel Agreste.
On the trip, Felix becomes concerned about Adrien's depression and makes the decision to move to Paris to be with him, leaving their mother and friends behind. This has the added advantage of giving them time to recover what’s rightfully theirs. It's a perfect plan. Expose Gabriel as a liar and a thief, get Adrien away from him, and return home before the school year is out.
…they just forgot to account for the local terrorist, a team of dysfunctional superheroes, their traumatized childhood best friend, and their own fears that they've been running from.
It’s a good thing they’re flexible, right?
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orcelito · 9 months
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Sometimes. Impulse purchases. Can be so personal.
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famewolf · 9 months
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got back from the lake last night
it was a ton of fun and we spent most of it zooted out of our minds. but it also really hit me how much has changed in the last 8+ years. seeing a bunch of people that I hadnt seen since my teens or early 20s. it strangely put a lot of things into perspective for me, especially considering I feel like I lost time due to the pandemic.
all in all, a lot of relaxing and chatting and eating good food!
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inaris-mage-of-storms · 10 months
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Evening plans: lay on the floor and have Feelings about a Discord server apparently
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hey genloss is bad.
#sorry. i deserve to be a little bit of a hater.#ranboo 'i didnt cut any corners' beloved#girl you could have used all that money you spent on a production team to hire game devs.#why are you basing the entire thing on video game tropes and aesthetics when you could have just made a fucking game#and it wojld bave been decent#instead its just two guys awkwardly standing around in rooms for way too long#like. my guy. just make a fucking video game. youre not a good enough actor to pull this off#'i didnt cut corners' 'there will be little to no filler' BULLSHITTTTTTT. im calling bullshit#'i dont want this to just be put on a shelf with other horror short films' BROTHER YOURE NOT EVEN IN THE SAME GENRE#to reiterate something i said to aster earlier:#i would have genuinely liked this better if i had not seen any promotional material.#which is. the exact opposite of what promotional material is supposed to do#shrug emoji. my stance stays the same. genloss is bad and does not deserve the hype its getting.#go pay attention to horror creators that are actually good.#turning off reblogs becayse i know how the mcyt fandom is (ESPECIALLY on ranboos side of it) and i dont want to get death threats <3#but i genuinely have not made a hater post in so long so i think i deserve this#also this is something im passionate about.#and i feel like its being mocked and that makes me mad <3 sorry. i really wanted to like it#obligatory tag to say if you like genloss good for you youre allowed to i genuinely do not care#this is just my opinion as someone who has been rlly passionate about horror media for a long time#reaction time
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m-aximumjoy · 1 year
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in celebration of my/our love Angel being introduced this past week I’ve been working on a re-paint of the Handkerchief Moment and not to toot my own horn, but I’m really proud of how the background came out and particularly of these two
Ignore the big ol’ hole it’s for Aki (heh)
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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#u kno what i dont like? when i talk abt doing something completely bananas that i would absolutely do if i was even a little less socially#conscious and then whoever im talking to is like lol do it#idk maybe im just slightly distorted abt it but i have a compulsive need to do what ppl tell me to and i kno ppl would think i was real#weirf for doing the things so im just like. r u making fun of me? bc truely i cannot tell#like i dont have a good grasp on how well i read ppl. sometimes i think im ok at it. like i can deduce things from context clues#but if someone is not being clean then its fucking way over my head but idk sometimes i cant tell if im being made fun of#like u kno when u make someone laugh and ur like well i wasnt really trying to b funny. i was just saying whats in my head#so was that nervous laughter bc i said something kinda off the walls or was it laughter at my expense#again im probably just distortion bc my sister used to publicly call it out whenever i was being weird but idk#i just wish ppl said what they thought more. like dont say one thing to my face and then later text me something that indicates u were#thinking something entirely different in the moment. bc that's disorienting and it makes me think i can't trust my reading of ppl#i mean. it doesnt help that i dont look ppl in the face lol but whatever#i should sleep. i have jury duty tomorrow and i pray that i am not selected. tho it would force me to have a day off#bc im fucked up like that. no fun allowed. only work. and not enough sleep :-P#idk why im even thinking this?#i guess bc i was helping one of my lab mates with coding stuff and like idk ive spent way too long around him and i still dont#kno whats going on in his head. like idk hes not too bad but he also is very quick to jump on it when i do something wrong#like when i make a lil mistake i mean. and i think its in a teasing way but idk it feels weird. like he thinks hes caught me fucking up#and im like ...yea? i mean yea that was a dumb thing i did. or like yeah i cant spell or remember plant codes? idk maybe he just thinks#its funny. it doesnt upset me or anything. i just think its kinda weird and i dont get it so it puts me on edge#idk he says things sometimes and im like... ok ur star war5 options make me nervous abt the general opinions u hold but i dont kno how to#manipulate u into a revealing conversation. idk his not that bad just puts me on edge a lil and i have to b around him a lot so i sit here#man wtf is his deal? let me psychoanalyze u#unrelated
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