#if I ever publish a book

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan xichen #jin guangyao #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #qin su #EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts. #Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation. #qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her. #Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared. #I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly. #MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot. #That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory! #To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible. #Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot #and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD). #MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white #JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character. #What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image) #and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard. #but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug. #There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!

[hayden-christensen]

Obi-Wan reached out, then hesitated. He felt a strong urge not to wake the boy, to let him sleep like this forever, to forever anticipate a great adventure, forever dream of personal triumph and joy. This feeling held too much sentiment and weakness to be allowed, but he allowed it nevertheless. This must be how a father feels, looking down on his son, worried about an uncertain future, Obi-Wan thought. I would hate to see him fail. But I would hate far more to lose this boy. I would almost rather freeze time here, and freeze myself with it, than face that. — Greg Bear. Rogue Planet.

#swedit #starwarsedit #star wars #anakin skywalker #anakinskywalkeredit #obi wan kenobi #obiwankenobiedit #anakin & obi wan #aniobiedit #starwarsblr #usergif #*mine #*2023 #*gifs #[complex] #[quotes] #1k #I finished the book the other day (it was ok) but it was the most dad-obiwan and son-anakin (published) story I've ever read #like this paragraph!!!!!!!!! the father & son ism of it all!!!! #anyway this edit is kinda experimental it's sooooo much harder to make an edit like this when the background is white or really light

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst

When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.

It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.

“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.

“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.

“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.

“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.

“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.

“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.

“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.

“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.

#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this #and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj #but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!! #I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written #there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone #and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost #and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again #but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same?? #they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem #not them* heck #it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself #where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’ #and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories #but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you #and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time #you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them #so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT #sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in #okay bai #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[the-plantman-is-queer]

I’m going insane rn

Doing one of my never-ending rereads and... even when Neil hated Andrew and fully believed all the worst rumors, he still expected someone to be in Andrew’s corner... and then in book three we see him decide to be that person:

something about the way Neil, a perfect stranger to the concepts of friendship and teamwork, still expected better from Andrew’s team and family... I know that’s the entire core of their relationship but it still knocks a hole in my chest to see it laid out so baldly

#the continuity of these fucking books fucking astounds me sometimes #a throwaway line on page 42 of book one being referenced explicitly on page 170 of book three #say what you want about Nora that is still absolutely insane #edit: because i accidentally posted this to my main blog #this is a 978 page self-published book series about a made up sport and the mafia #It has no business having some of the best fucking continuity I've ever read outside of agatha christie or tolkien okay?

[razberrypuck]

holding finn tidestrider in my hands. why are you SUCH a whore.

#i mean i know why (born and raised in a society that enforces strictly monogamous relationships by punishment of death -- #--and coming to the surface was really the first opportunity hes ever had to openly explore himself and his sexual/romantic preferences) #but also why have you written and published more than one book on this. what possessed you to do so. #jrwi riptide #jrwi #just roll with it #finn tidestrider #jrwi finn #i love shitposting about finn and then putting my actual character analysis in the tags. its a fun treat for me.

[onlinecasualty]

in the most normal way possible i wanna hold noras raw brain in my hands and just stare at it

#i have so many questions #shes as real to me as neil is to andrew when andrew calls him a hallucination #this woman has changed my brain chemistry and left me reeling #AND THEN SHE COMES BACK FROM THE DEAD AND PUBLISHES ANOTHER BOOK 10 YEARS LATER #YOU SEE WHY IM SPIRALING RIGHT #anyway im totally fine but uhh heyyy nora it u ever wanna lend me ur brain for a lil bit #simp emoji #nora sakavic #the sunshine court #all for the game #neil josten #jean moreau #andrew minyard #jeremy knox #kevin day #aftg #tsc

[michaeljoncarter]

ok finally found the batsuit diagram i was talking about, so here's the full versions of both of them together! robin suit page from The Batman Files & batsuit pages from The Batman Handbook by Scott Beatty 💕

#bruce wayne #and uhh it's just kind of a general robin suit & doesnt say whose it was but.. considering where this was in the book i'm just gonna say #tim drake #god ok for real though scott beatty is THAT bitch to me like ejnvefkjn #the batman handbook is the single best piece of supplementary material ever published point blank period #and i don't even know if it technically counts as supplementary material because i don't think it's actually something dc published but W/E #the level of detail is absolutely insane #im pretty sure ive made a post about it before but seriously #it's criminally underrated !! like i'd never even heard of it until i stumbled onto it by accident while looking for something else #if you're someone who loves pointless details and getting down into the needlessly nitty gritty about fictional things you NEED this book #and it's on archive dot org if you wanna read it !! #and he wrote one for superman called the superman handbook that's also really good AND also on the archive !!!

[layla-carstairs]

I feel like one thing we can take away from this kickstarter is that Cassandra Clare will never be done with the Shadowhunters universe. like literally all these new short stories come from the fact she took a six month "break" from writing shadowhunters lmao

#I do think she might move away from larger series announced years ahead of time #because I think the expectations she created for tlh was something she struggled with #like it was announced nearly a decade before it was published that's insane!! midnight heir came out in 2013 and chain of thorns in 2023!! #but I don't think we'll ever be free from her just randomly writing new books and releasing them #the eldest curses. secrets of blackthorn hall. seasons of shadowhunters. #all three short story collections #like I'm sure in a couple years there will be something new she wrote for funnies #although I imagine she'll write non shadowhunter stuff too (like sword catcher) #bella talks #the shadowhunter chronicles #tsc #cassandra clare

[demigod-of-the-agni]

This is what happens when you complete the "Remembering the Past" quests immediately after you're accused of murder

#they published their first book!!! look how happy he is!!!! #OKAY I KNOW. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT METEOR DOES NOT GET THIS PALADIN FIT IN ARR. BUT FORGIVE ME #i cannot see meteor in any other clothing lmfao he is The paladin of critically acclaimed ffxiv #also I AM SO SORRY THE PALADIN OUTFIT PROBABLY HAS THE MOST INNACURATE COLOURING EVER #it's so fucking busy and i was short on time like i did this in one hour and just left it #i wanted to draw my own wol but frankly i was getting impatient and drawing dragoon armour immediately after paladin armour- #-was not doing wonders for my monkey brain #also happily going to kick teledji in his miniscule balls #you get gay colouring on top of the art #ffxiv #ff14 #ff14 art #hyur midlander #ffxiv wol #meteor survivor #teledji adeledji #lalafell #artoftheagni

[wenellyb]

You can like or dislike fanfiction, but I don't understand people who come to Tumblr to constantly complain about fanfiction...it's like going to someone's house to call their decoration ugly.

It doesn't matter if it's true or not ...why would you do it?

And the complaints are always weird like: "blablabla why do people think in tropes now?" "Why would you want to know what happens in the story, what's even the point of reading it then?"

You want to know why??? Because that's the whole point of the Romance genre!!! The predictability, the promise that no matter what they go through, in the end, there will be a Happy Ending for the protagonists.

I don't read a lot of fanfics but I do read a lot of books and e-books (as in unfortunately I have to pay for those😂). And you know what a lot of authors use to describe their books? Tropes!

An enemies to lovers story with a slow burn, a fake relationship story, a mariage of convinience, a best friends to lovers story etc... And this is coming from published Books.

Maybe it's because the market is saturated and it's the only way to stand out, maybe it makes it easier for their readers to find specific books, I don't know. But I do know that they use tropes to describe their books.

Why sh*t on fanfiction, fanfic readers, fanfic writers when actual published authors do the same??? What is the point exactly ?

And can someone explain to me what's so wrong about using tropes? What's wrong with looking for stuff to read by searching specific tropes? It makes it easier when you're looking for a specific story you want to read and helps you know what you will like or not. Which is great, especially when you're going to pay for the book.

Maybe you don't have a problem with fanfics but with the Romance industry in general? But then why target fanfics as if they were the problem?

#sometimes Tumblr users are elitist pompous *sses who won't let anybody have fun #you act as if someone liking a specific trope or something is the worst thing a Human Being has ever done but why don't you take it to #publishing companies who do this instead of taking it out on a random user who just likes fanfiction #fanfiction #fanfics #I know we tumblr people like to complain about literally anything but the hate towards fanfiction seems unjustified. #kind reminder that they do all of this for free! #also usually people who try to write fictional stories without using tropes end up making bad or confusing stories but this is just my own #opinion☺️ #all books use tropes #at least the fictional ones #what's this new trend of hating tropes?

[blood-teeth]

on the real, im trying to throw myself back into the IF/writing space because it really was the singular thing that had helped me heal the first time around.

im playing with the idea of another IF, and really just taking my time with it and letting myself not be so pressured by forcing myself to update or churn out chapter a ton - that’s where a lot of my angst came from with FTMB and when TMITAWH was an IF

also! I’ve been absent from the space long enough that im not sure im reading everything from my friends or if there’s been some really good stuff coming out lately.

If you have any recs, I’d love to read them!

#idk idk just thoughts #I get a lot of anxiety about traditionally publishing TMITAWH because it’s such a #it’s such a book #publishing is hell and that’s even if I get an agent and even then the book still may not EVER be published #so like what do I do with the story then #do I come back to IF with it and just make it literally you click through the story because it’s not gonna change #or do I self pub #OR do I just throw it up somewhere online #I care about this story SO much it’s like a piece of me #so idk #but also coming back to creating IF is different too because I’m scared about immediate feedback like that and what if people don’t like it #yada yada yada #but it may be like a fun thing for me to get my mind off things #momma (me) (derogatory) cannot go back to therapy #anyway #let me know some recs please love you bunches ♥️♥️♥️ #twine #IF #interactive fiction

[tepli-mravenci]

The genderfluid representation I personally really want to see one day is a reoccurring background/supporting character in a movie/series that just sometimes presents feminine for a few days but then that same character presents masculine next few days, then one feminine day again then you can't even tell

and everyone just uses whatever pronouns for them and noone says anything about the changing presentation the character just exists there and we know it's still the same character and noone calls them genderfluid it's just commonly understood this character is fluid and it's no big deal no profound struggle no "true" sex or gender reveal it's just Sam from the coffee shop he makes the best lattes and she gives a discount to the main character for protagonist reasons

Alternatively every character that knows them thinks they're a different gender Stacy thinks Sam's a girl and has a crush on her, Billy is convinced Sam's a guy and does a handshake with him and they call each other bro, Max is too embarrassed to ask so they just always use they/them pronouns for Sam

It's never "revealed" which pronoun is right because they all are sometimes

#genderfluid #genderfluid things #genderfluid representation #gender things #gender stuff #nonbinary representation #non binary representation #nonbinary #non binary #genderqueer #genderqueer representation #lgbt #lgbtqiap #lgbt representation #lgbtq+ #queer #queer representation #this is very important to me #god save me if I ever end up writing and publishing any book I'd put it in there somewhere #gnc

[aerithisms]

lately i have been thinking about code name verity once again. what if we met on a world war 2 airfield and our friendship was forged in the fire of bombs and blood and death you invited me into your world in a whimsical scottish castle and i invited you into my world in the sky and you were an interrogator and you were almost chocked to death by a prisoner and i held you while you cried and in those fleeting moments in each other's arms everything was beautiful in spite of the horrors but then we crash landed in france and you got captured by the nazis and you thought i was dead and you told the story of our friendship to keep me alive in your head while you committed one final act of heroic self sacrifice and then you asked me to kill you via homoerotic code so you didn't have to get tortured to death and after i shot you the story you wrote about us was the only thing keeping you alive to me. and we were both girls.

#blahs #code name verity #craziest most insane book ever published. desperately need to reread for the umpteenth time i need a good cry #ALSO just realising this book literally said we're all stories in the end so make it a good one #and it said stories are where memories go when they're forgotten AND it said every story ever told really happened!!!! #rip julie beaufort stuart you would've loved doctor who

[incogneat-oh]

Hey anon, thanks for the well-intentioned ask but I literally cannot express how against pirating I am. Please support authors.

#no one cares neatoh #literally please do not ever pirate books #writing is so time-intensive and difficult #something something our late stage capitalist consumer culture things people are entitled to other people’s labour #support the arts! support authors and publishers and booksellers #I am an aspiring author with a writing degree and a post grad in editing #I WILL climb up on this soapbox if I have to

[oifaaa]

So are all American paperback books just terrible quality or is it just the ones I keep accidentally buying

#genuine question #bc if so how do you all live like this #or is it just a which ever publishing company made them #but yeah #a book i brought finally arrived today #and its just #who made this #and then i realized #it reminded me of my heroes of olympus books #which i accident brought from America #theyre like disney publishing #while all my other pjo books are penguin gb publishing #but the quality difference is just night and day #and now im just wondering if it is an American thing??

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sometimes i like to imagine a future where i write that (y/a or adult targeted) dragon book series i desperately want to, but i know that i wouldn't be able to do it without including art in the book. every time a new important character is introduced the next page would have to be a reference / art of them to Show What They Look Like

#i dont think id be able to handle like. publishing or whatever Without that #maybe that stems from my control issues maybe im just an artist at heart #but i would also need there to be a glossary and a detailed map and maybe footnotes or a basic bestiary- #but then sometimes i wonder if i'd want it to be like... a comic instead #manga style in a way??? i wouldnt color it. it'd be in b&w with only the occasional colored spread or somethin #but all of that If Possible or plausible is a very long way off which is okay its okay #ill get there ill get there #unless something changes and i want to do something Else but its been a goal for many years already #its only recently that ive buckled down on the worldbuilding and character crafting and genuinely considering the plot and themes #its a hot mess! but theres something in there! im determined to find it #its definitely a couple years yet of changing things and switchin stuff around and Thinking.... #who knows if ill ever get there! i hope i will! #but yeah it'd be a book with a bunch of art shoved in it httyd style (kinda) #bc if im gonna Make something im gonna combine my favorite hobbies as best i can #absolutely unprompted #its an exciting but daunting prospect. writing an actual Thing #mostly the plot part of it #i can craft characters i can do worldbuilding #but the plot? oof #there's this other one ive been working on since 8th grade #and its still... barely anything lmao #its for my favorite personal characters - my very first real oc my special boy light of my life but Man. #plot has hands!!! #and then ofc there's my beloved idiot squad... i want to do something for them some day maybe.... #so many ambitions so little energy... i will strive to make future me healthy enough to achieve Something we so desperately want!