There's something I would like to point out, to make the "fight" at the end even worse. Sorry, but I rewatched it too many times.
This isn't a face of the man, who's scared of what Crowly is telling. Nope, this says: "Why are you bringing this up now?" He already decided to go to Heaven.
Sure he was a little confused at the beginning, because Crowley changed the topic 180 degrees, but he's not afraid.
If you think about this, Azi had been giving these little hints throughout the whole season, that they're more, and that he wants more, but Crowley never picked them up.
Like when he corrected Crowley that he thought they crafted life for themself, when Crowly mentions only himself. When he referred to Bentley “our car", when he called a bookshop basically their home, with the dance, and all the loving glances he's been giving him.
That's why I believe he wanted to make a move and finally told how he felt after the ball, but never got a chance.
He shakes his head when Crowly mentions running away, because that would never work up with them.
Then Crowly mentioned that Azi could never leave the bookshop, and he says that nothing lasts forever, meaning that he would gladly leave everything he holds dear on Earth, to spend eternity with Crowly in Heaven. Look how hopeful he looks. That Crowley will understand.
He doesn't thought. He shuts himself from conversations, by putting, his glasses on.
He looks so confused and heartbroken, but he still stops Crowley from leaving. He's still trying to change his mind somehow, to fight for their future together.
But you can see that Crowley doesn't listen to him anymore, not really. Eventually Aziraphale realizes it too.
He did what he could, there's no point trying any more, if Crowly doesn't want to listen. So he soldiers on, like he did all his existence.
Then Crowly kisses him. Do I like it? Yes and no, because it's not the first kiss either of them, but especially Azi deserved. It was kind of like last resort's action on the Crowly’s part.
And yet, if you pay attention, you can see clearly that he starts to say "I love you" but he changes his mind and with all the anger says "I forgive you". There's no point in telling Crowley that he loves him now, if he doesn't want to listen anymore, besides it wouldn't make a difference.
Anyway, Michael Sheen should pay for my therapy after this.
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