#last year was a pain

[zoueriemandzijnopmars]

I’m pleased to announce my stream did not once crash or even just stop to buffer

#now that it’s over it’s safe to say it #now I’m going to bed #i made an original post #Eurovision #last year was a pain

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The Dungeon Meshi crew 'leap' into action!

#dungeon meshi #marcille donato #laios touden #senshi #chilchuk tims #Full confession time: I originally planned to post this last thursday so I could caption it “Hoppy Leap year everyone!” #But as I was sketching I realized that the tentacles and Tansu party stuff came first #So devastated to have the frog episode and leap year be a week off. Almost a beautiful coincidence. #I love how they play on Marcille's vanity to get her to wear the outfit AND repair the situation #It is true her ears make the suit look very cute. #And shout out to our girl for having her priorities straight (heh) and not wanting to rescue her crush in a frog skin suit. #Though we all know Falin would be so into the idea. The painful thing that dungeon meshi never lets us forget is her absence #Falin would love to dress as a frog...She is meant to be there so much that it is painful. Beautiful tragedy beautiful writing. #The red dragon arc starts next week and I'm clawing at the walls. To those who are anime only: Get ready.

[writeouswriter]

No, I didn't forget about those WIPs, time just moves differently for me. For you, it's been years; for me, it's just been a few seconds, maybe a minute

#writing #writeblr #having a crisis over the fact i introduced one wip in 2020 when i could almost swear it was last year #writer things #writing humour #writing humor #but painful you know #time isn't real #all the days have blended together #it is eternally 2012 #aaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

[turrondeluxe]

#ive been dealing with a lot of body pain that has been killing me lately so i decided to project onto mikey #pats him . this old turtle can hold so much chronic pain #hes just like me fr. #the kids call it quiet days when mikeys headache is absolutely killing him and they just want to help and make him feel better #by not making much noise those days #peepaw and babies au #tmnt the last ronin #tlr lost years #tmnt mikey #tmnt michelangelo #tmnt donnatello #tmnt donnie #tmnt uno #my art #doodles

[amariram]

#i can see merlin finally telling his story after 1500 years #the last sentence is so painful #but it is also very true #he doesn’t have a picture of arthur #and after a thousand centuries he doesn’t remember him as he would #and oh arthur gave him a purpose and someone to love unconditionally #so yes be saved him in any possible way too #merthur #merlin #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #titanic #merlin fandom #bradley james #colin morgan

[notbecauseofvictories]

any advice for someone who's very bad at keeping friendships? people just up and vanish despite my best efforts, and I don't really know how to meet anyone else (dating apps are the worst/the pandemic ate my education/I work remote). late 20s are basically for feeling unlovable and ruined, I suppose.

Maintaining friendships---maintaining all relationships, particularly with people inconveniently not in the same apartment or office building---is hard. It just is. I've also found there's a steady attrition of freely-available friendship in your late twenties, as people move out of their crowded apartments, shack up, start having children and/or climbing the ladder into jobs that demand more of their attention and energy.

It is tough to be in your late 20s. You realize that you've taken for granted how full the world felt, with people and potential. You're not quite prepared for when you find yourself alone, and someone starts locking doors that you thought would be open forever.

Unfortunately, there is no easy fix to this. The only fix is: you are going to have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and do it all again. And again. And again.

"It" can take a lot of different forms. I know "join a group" is the most trite, annoying advice I can give but---do it. Find a group that you think you might be interested in joining, and join. Book club, running club, esoteric interest of your choice club; go on MeetUp and see what's in your area, volunteer for stuff. Ignore (for weeks, if not months) the fact that you feel awkward and out of place, and make it a commitment.

And then, when you've been part of a group---well, it's not so weird to ask if Lisa wants to go to a street festival with you. Not if you've packed lunches for the homeless with Lisa or laughed about a particular book with Lisa or been running alongside Lisa as you train for the upcoming 5k.

(Maybe Lisa will politely decline. Maybe Lisa will come to the street festival, but then has excuses for the next thing, and the next; she's too busy to make a good friend right now. And so---you will pick yourself up. You will do it all again.)

Or you can reach out to those people you've fallen out of touch with. "Hey, James, if you're in town let's grab lunch!" sounds very fake but it's not if you genuinely want to grab lunch with James. Ask Aiden if they're doing anything on Thursday, and would they like to come to bar trivia with you? If they're not in the same city, find some time for calls, or zoom---or hell, go old-fashioned and write letters.

If those ideas sound labor- and time-intensive, hard in the way that making yourself vulnerable always is......yes.

As I said, there's no easy route to this. Relationships take effort and someone has to go first; someone has to toss the ball and hope another human catches it. You cannot guarantee the catch, that's out of your power, so the only way to find people is to keep lobbing balls at everybody's heads and hope they have good reflexes.

#I think one of the lessons imprinted on my soul in the last few years #is how much effort everything takes. #if you want a good life you have to build it; it will take so much work. #more work than you thought possible. more work than you think appropriate. the work of a lifetime in fact. #at any point you can decide that you are not interested in building that life! you can stop. you can always stop. #your only punishment will be.....no one else will build it for you. you'll have to live out your days in a half-built life. #and there's another kind of pain in that. #sarah gives advice

[luxshua]

The winners of the life series all had their own ways of winning:

1. Grian loyalty, playing into every one of Scar's schemes no matter how stupid they seemed. His win came from blood and tears, a descion made surronded by sand and cacti.

2. Scott defiance, he was never going to play the game the way it was designed. Why would he take life needlessly, no his win came from the refusal to do the watchers bidding.

3. Pearl alone, discarded by her soulmate, discarded by the one who pulled her into the nether in the first place. She won with her ties cut, she won not of her own descion but of the one who decided for her.

4. Martyn scavenger, taking time where most convient, stealing kills from right under peoples noses. His win came when even his trusted ally had his guard down, feral and desperate for just a drop more time, even if it left him frenzied and alone.

#the life series #trafficblr #limited life #grian #pearlescentmoon #inthelittlewood #scott smajor #life series spoilers #limited life episode 8 #just a little thought i had in my head watching martyn's last episode #they all had their own unique ways of winning their games #god the theories the angst the pain you can pull from this series its magnificent #i live this series so much #i dont think their series would hit the same if it was all scripted #something about coincidences and pattersn reameraging organically hits so different #it leads into some of the most impactful moments #some of the best reactions #because no one knows it will happen till it does #2 years of one of the best minecraft series ever #till the next one o7 #and martyn if you end up reading this nice win i was rooting for you from the start #might actually put together a martyn cosplay finally been planning to for 2 years now 😭

[thefirstpotatoe]

I have a theory So i keep seeing fanfiction writers say people commenting on their works gives them such a dopamine rush that it spurs them to keep writing.

By that logic, if i were to comment on a fanfic that hasn’t been updated in over a decade, could i commit a feat of real life necromancy and revive a fic back from the dead or am i just delirious on copium?

#fanfic #fanfiction #writing #writer problems #fanfiction writing #writing fanfic #fanfic authors #archive of our own #please come back #i need to know how it ends #The pain of seeing that last updated date #It gets worse with each passing year

[ladyofthelake]

Most fandoms have major disagreements but I love how mostly the Merlin fandom is chill, we see the heart of it and we quietly believe that deleted scenes are canon and that Merlin will magically look young when Arthur returns and I love that

#dont get me wrong old merlin makes me bawl and I think its so painful and poignant we got him as the last shot #but cmon Merlin is gonna look young #even if his soul is aged beyond anything #wow do not make this random 3am post sad I can't take it #not after that sigil post I reblogged which altered my brain and added 300000 years to my life #merlin #merthur

[multifandombullshitbabes]

have we ever thought abt the fact that zuko is literally azula's older brother. like she's his little sister. that's his little sister. throughout a big, big part of atla plot, he was actively running away, scared of his little sister killing him because he KNEW she would/could. can you imagine that? your little sibling, wanting more your father's approval than your companionship to the point of death? every time they fought, zuko was fighting his baby sister. azula was fighting her big brother. this is making me so sick. they were 16 and 14 years old.

#avatar the last airbender #atla #atla zuko #atla azula #zuko #azula #hey look i posted a thing #the absolute maddening grief of it all. like what do u mean??? thats his lil baby sister!!! what the fuck!!! #when she was a bby he was probably so protective and they were so small n they must have loved each other then #before the responsibilities ozai put on them. before all that. they were siblings. they loved each other. #until they were taught that did not matter. zuko learned that it did again #despite all the pain of it #azula actively ran away from learning it from feeling that pain #because she would rather be hated and feared and powerful than to ever be weak ever #this is so heartbreaking #i think this hits especially hard cuz me n my sis are like 2/3 years apart in age. like. i could not imagine having to fight her to the dea #i just couldnt. i rly rly couldnt

[varilien]

he is so unicorncoded. to me.

#trigun #trigun anime #trigun fanart #vash #vash the stampede #i realize the chiton is the wrong vibe for unicorns but it was just compulsory i've been playing a lot of hades and dragon's dogma #and it was just the first thing that popped into my head to dress him in lmao #this was fun he is so pretty <3 i miss him <3 #anyways i've been thinking about drawing this since my rewatch of the last unicorn a couple years ago #thinking about that thing with amalthea being the only one of her kind to be so close to human #that she can feel pain and love like humans do...... (gestures broadly)

[theheirofthesharingan]

“Tell me, father, which to ask forgiveness for: what I am, or what I’m not?

Tell me, mother, which should I regret: what I became, or what I didn’t?”

- source

#i realized i almost never do anything with itachi and his parents so this one post is dedicated to them #the regret of killing them would have killed him before his actual death #what kind of child he was to raise a sword against his own parents? #his parents weren't even angry that he'd betrayed them at last #all the nightmares that would have followed him in which they hated him for everything and he would have no defense #who held him when he cried thinking of his mom? who comforted him when he choked on his tears thinking of his father's last words? #who was there for him when memories of his family became too much to handle and he would just collapse unable to breathe #maybe just maybe when the first symptoms of his illness showed he thought #that it was just one of his regular coughing fits that came with the onslaught of the memories of his parents #did he ever want to crawl back to sasuke and tell him how miserable he was and how much he missed their parents #where did the strength to be entirely indifferent and inhuman composure come to him #how much practice did it take? how many days? months? years? #did people around him ever suspect how much he was suffering? #all from thinking about his dead parents whom he killed #whose blood never left his tiny fingers and soaked into his flesh and blended into his own #how much misery was encapsulated into those expressionless features that never gave away even the slightest hint of pain #itachi uchiha #uchiha itachi #itachi #mikoto #mikoto uchiha #fugaku uchiha #fugaku

[marcsnuffy]

#idk what to put in the caption #my art #i was looking through my archives & found this #i drew so much blue lock stuff last year it's genuinely crazy #however this is the only time i drew barou seriously bc his hair is a pain in the ass to draw #i could draw him w his hair down tho but i haven't..... i feel like a fake ubers fan💔💔💔💔....... #barosagi #? #i guess

[masteraqua]

real question

are y'all actually going to play khml if it turns out to be

laggy

a massive storage/battery drain

gacha hell

microtransaction hell

generally designed to promote insidiously addictive behavior

#i found a lot to like about khux in spite of its flaws #but khdr was a hard pass for me on the basis of it being less a game a more a shortcut to a dead phone battery #i am. shall we say. skeptical that this will be much different #even if it's clearly being developed with more intentionality #i haven't forgotten that gross statement that square's CEO released last year #about wanting players to ''play to contribute'' instead of for fun #if NFTs hadn't died a painful death already i would fully expect those statue things in the game to be crypto garbage

[kyouka-supremacy]

Finally gotten around scanning the September Animage issue. Please enjoy!!

#Finding a scanner I could use was such such a pain ;;;;;; #No way to scan the poster though it's way too big and I can't reach the center... #Unless by folding it‚ but I'd rather refrain from doing that #Anyways I'm in the process of scanning the whole magazine so hopefully I'll be posting the j/jk and g w/itch sections too #Then I'll probably upload a folder with the whole thing #atsushi nakajima #ryūnosuke akutagawa #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd s5 #bsd season 5 #mine #Edit: This is another thing I've been trying to do for months and I just spent the last three hours fixing up the pictures #Felt like it was worth mentioning ｡:ﾟ(;´∩`;)ﾟ:｡ #New year's resolution is definitelly to spend less time with my computer

[luck-of-the-drawings]

POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #cw gore #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi suckening #jrwi gabriel #jrwi gabriel montez #LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY #IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags #U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!! #ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down #would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch... #BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made #its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD #perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year #back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker. #like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO #not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine. #i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE #I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony #at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast. #OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE #WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS? #WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U #OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY #TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH. #WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR #UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ #HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS #WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?