#like ive known this ever since

[ppeuppeuppeu]

these mackenyu zoro pics from set!

credits to mackenyu_miee.1116 on ig 💚

(mackenyu is a sleepy boy he is truly zoro hahaha)

#one piece #one piece live action #opla #one piece netflix #mackenyu #zoro #roronoa zoro #opla zoro #mygosh he's beautiful #like ive known this ever since #but mygosh isnt he just pretty #our zoro #i think these were staff pics #im like I GET IT #i too would take multiple pictures of him #with his consent #💚💚💚

[stuckinapril]

the neurologist i shadow is so funny bc she has a valley girl accent and yet she's the smartest person in the room. this woman was casually doing case consenus ab a man w frontotemporal dementia in the highest girliest voice imaginable. i want to be her i think

#case consensus is basically where several neurologists/doctors meet to decide what the patient's case actually is #im genuinely not sure why this medical center does it this way but they write down data on paper THEN input it into the digital system #which i have qualms w bc i feel like it wastes so much time #but literally my whole role at this internship is inputting this data into the system so i should probably be grateful they do it this way #but in that one meeting everyone was all over the place so this at the ending of the meeting this woman goes #“that... was frantic.” #in the most valley girl accent known to man #and ever since ive integrated this as my response to everything #youre right. that WAS frantic #she also was like “sorry im unfocused. need lunch rly bad” at one point during the meeting #this neurologist is just like the rest of us fr

[dlzdrz]

#amazing phil #phil lester #dan and phil #dnp #you ever been deeply unmotivated but then a funny image hets stucked on your head #also im new here hii #ive known this man for like two months and he hasn't left my brain ever since #digital art #artists on tumblr #illustration #art

[liquidstar]

and now for something stupid

#but really i also just wanted to play around w this sort of coloring style bc its been FOREVER since ive used it #and i think i can make it look better now #AND i think i can make more sillay stuff like this and not have it take as long w cleaning up lines #anyway now you all understand the terrible dynamic between these three #phobo's infodump text is just copypasted from the wikipedia page for knives. #julliet ALSO uses knives is the thing so hes actually mansplaining < JOKE #he just wants to share. even if it gives her a headache. but he wouldnt mansplain he doesnt have it in him. hes ok with felonies tho #but julis life hasnt known peace since she was told to take care of the newbies #and shes ALSO a newbie (just slightly less so) so really this is probably just tartarus hazing her #theyd take one look at the two disorganized unserious overeager newbies and think ''you know what would be fucking hilarious'' #and pass them onto the neurotic slightly-less-newbie who takes everything as seriously as possible. disaster combination. #i cannot stress enough that this is a group of bandits and murderers theyre NOT above hazing. #deimos actually is doing the best job at it since he is stealing as we speak #i mean hes not supposed to do it to his teammates but still. on the right track #as for the dynamic between deimos and phobos themselves its like. theyre just bros. theyre both pretty similar in personality #except deimos is kinda more mean and cynical while phobos can be kinda. dense and naive despite literally where hes at in life #but most of the time theyre basically beavis and butthead #i would also like to stress that juli is not being homophobic she just already cannot stand these guys and cant believe the audacity #but. complete misunderstanding. karma for stealing wallets ig #this will never be cleared up by anyone ever #but again thats not their dynamic they are just beavis and butthead. and i guess that makes juli daria LOL #finn's ocs #finn's art

[bfdifan26]

i can help you!!

#ever since rewatching bfdia ive adopted the belief that leafy and evil leafy are 2 seperate people #mostly because i realised throughout the season theyre actually both like. in DRASTICALLY different places #and evil leafy is a whole other recommended character #the way i see it is evil leafy is a poser fan who really likes leafy #sort of like b/racelety and icy but less gay and more fucked up #and i think they maybe like made a deal where evil leafy keeps leafys fellow contestants off his back #….by trying to kill them whenever they get too close to who they think is leafy. he doesn’t know about the killing part but if he did he- #wouldn’t care considering leafy himself has tried to kill his friends both before and during bfdia #if your favourite character asked you to pretend to be them during the worst time in their life to help them would you? i sure would i know #that for a fact #and that’s what the guy known as evil leafy said and that’s what’s goin on #battle for dream island #bfdi #bfdia #bfb #tpot #bfdi leafy #bfdia leafy #bfb leafy #evil leafy #bfdi evil leafy #bfdia evil leafy #odieart

[walnutcookie]

ive had an. Intersting relationship with my aromanticism honestly.

#like i have KNOWN im asexual ever since 5th grade #literally i learned what the term meant and went Oh yeah thats me #i deadass didnt even know what the word lesbian meant at the time #i just knew that described me #but also. i thought at the time that it meant romantic attraction #i was young and didnt rlly understand what the difference was (and i know its very nuanced and hard to distinguish to begin with) #but ever since then i havent even questioned my asexuality. Im sure about that #but ive been soo back and forth on being aro #even to this day i question if i like people platonically or romantically #i start to doubt myself a lot and feel like im faking it and then i hear an allo person talk about what crushes feel like and i realize im #aro again though LOLL #i dont know. My stepmom doesnt think aroace people are real so i am very proud of myself out of spite #especially not aros #im just yapping here. I love being aro and the older i get the more i love it #i am in a romantic relationship with another aroace person and both of us are so confused and i think thats awesome actually #i dont care that i dont feel what people always described as romantic feelings toward others because i can love people in so many other way #if any other confused aros are reading this i love you. we are so cool :)

[justladders]

are you okay with suggestive art of your springtrap design?? like not vulgar i just wanted to draw a joke.

Not saying I do or don't have any already but yeah suggestive stuff is fine.

#answered ask #anon ask #since we're talking about it already honestly idk how much of that that ive done i want to share bc i have this one good friend that would- #recognize my art if they saw it and i dont want it to bother them if they ever find it ._. #basically ive known them for quite a while and theyre a va and one of the characters they do is springtrap and i dont want them to think- #that i think of *them* that way. like i have other stuff on here they could see as incriminating but im just hesitant to put certain things #theyre not on tumblr but i always have this feeling that theyll find it somehow and be freaked out and not want to be friends bc they get- #people being creepy to them about that stuff all the time which sucks. im just worried theyll think im “secretly like that” about them too #justtalks

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[tarpitbell]

12:01

[👾 - - - i was all ⚡over ⚡(them)🔥]🐍

I hate how some of the kids are at school. Asking stupid questions of "why are we doing this?". And then saying "they won't need this".

My history teacher.. I feel bad for her.

She has to deal with them so much. But I am also dealing with them as well.

They annoy me.

I hate them.

They ask about why we need to learn History if we are not gonna use it in our lives.

But we are.

We need to know.

"Or else we are doomed to restart it".

Gaza, Palestine.

Other countries that are on the hit-list.

We have already restarted our history.

We restarted the Holocaust.

And you ask why we need to learn History?

Stupid.

All of you are stupid!

Full of cockroaches in your STUPID BRAINS!

Your brains are just becoming smaller and smaller.

Attention span waning and waning.

Your feelings declining.

Your smarts disappearing.

Your care for your body leaving you.

Your lives are going to become SO MISERABLE ONCE I EVEN LET MY FEELINGS TAKE CONTROL!

YOU ALL WILL DIE BEFORE YOU EVEN HIT YOUR 20S!

YOU ALL WILL BE KILLED BEFORE YOUR 20S!

YOU ALL WILL BE THE FUCKING FOOD THAT I WILL SEND TO HUNGRY HUMAN BEINGS!!

Because you all are, such HORRIBLE beings I've ever had to meet. That I've ever had to encounter.

I know....

That might've been.. unnecessary...

Because,

You all can change.

You all are 'good people'.

But for me...

You already left a mark, a whole new reason for my Wrath.

You left a lasting impression.

It's never leaving me.

All of your comments. All of your questions.

All of what you are in classes!

Never leaving me.

It's never going to leave me.

I do forget.

Feelings don't.

My mind truly doesn't forget.

Because all of YOU ARE SO STUPID AND DISGUSTING!

BECAUSE I AM A FOOL FOR EVER GOING BACK TO THAT CLASS!

I KNOW.

I know, I need to be in there.

But you all are pulling on my straws, and letting go.

Before you do it again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again.

I won't be the one killing you all.

I won't.

But you all will die before you're 20.

My friend? She's never going to make it due to her health and whatever she's been doing to herself.

She's not living til she's 17.

Or something else.

My wrath will only grow the more I have to hear you all.

It will be clawing at my throat. Wanting to snap.

I wish I had claws.

But I'll always be clawing at my eyes. (I WANT TO CLAW MY EYES OUT.)

Pulling my hair. (I WANT TO PUNCH MY GUTS OUT.)

But,

I'll always stay quiet.

Like a dog.

#audrey/kellie's rambles #⚡🔥🐍👾 #🐕‍🦺🐕⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐🌕 #anger #rage vent #PƏTA.sonic #sonic.peta #<- tagging him because of how i released my anger #i hate school #palestine #gaza #free palestine #free gaza #tw death threats #tw cannibalism #sorry for the death threats. my wrath is like that #it has evolved from wanting my family's innocence back. to getting revenge/making murder plans #ive looked at gorey images to get the ideas running. ive seen bodies of the dead. ive seen mutilations. ive seen brains #ive seen so much. ive always felt like this ever since i was young. 7? #i dont know. maybe that makes it worst? all ive known is wrath

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Just found out my two siblings are in my mom's will, but not me. Also my grandpa has told the entire family about his engagement. Except for me. Also my dad told my siblings that he and my mom bought a plot of land. Can you guess who they haven't told?

#these tags are about to be a massive trauma dump tbh so avoid if you want #when i was fifteen i came out as trans. and my mom was terrible about it. and my dad was up for a promotion so we were considering moving #and i found a list of my moms pros and cons for moving. on the pros was 'people there dont know about (deadname)' #so that was ideal for a suicidal fifteen year old to find. and tonight i just learned that im not in her will #both of my siblings are. but im not. and its just always been like this #im treated like im not part of the family anymore. and it's been that way since i was fifteen #i heard from my brother that my grandpa is engaged. and he told both my siblings about it directly. he never told me #i reach out to my parents. i never hear back. my aprents text my sibling to check on me (sib and i live together) #everything is kind of shit rn. one of my rats is dying. my family doesnt love me. im broke. my best friend and i arent really talking #because he fucked my ex gf and now things arent really the same anymore. strangely enough. he doesnt reach out anymore #so i have no one to talk to about any of this shit #last night i was crying about my rat and i guess my roommate heard it cuz this morning they said #'are you okay? if you ever need someone to talk to who will never bring it up again you can talk to me' #and thats the most loving thing ive heard from someone in months. from a woman ive known since august #im. just. at a loss. since i found out tonight. that im not in my mom's will #its not about money. or assets. its about the fact that im her fucking child and both of her other children are in it but im not #after she dies shes willing to help them out but i can get fucked ig #i wonder if im gonna be invited to my grandpas wedding. i wonder if any of them would want me at their funeral #i wonder if any of them would come to mine

[sleeepydraws]

.... just gonna put this here without context...

kthxbi

#ok context here lol #so Thom (purple background) left his duties as older brother to study magic #as mages are kinda known to do #and as the other kid #Alan (green) was forced to pick up the slack #including TAXES #because even fantasy manor lords have to do taxes #sigh #its april in the us im not happy with this every other fucking country does the taxes for folks #why the fuck cant we #its legit the stupidest lobbying bullshit ive ever heard #demolish these institutions it makes life HELL for so many millions of people #rant over #anyways back to OCs #I thought this would be a fun expression practice since that's not something that I've been focusing on #but like #something i wanna improve on #anyways #had a ton of fun. the main bulk took me like an hour and then refining it a bit took another 30 to an hour so not bad honestly!

[barstoolblues]

i grew up pretty genderless in that my family let me do/wear what i wanted without gender expectations about girlhood (the most i can think of were a few “do you really want to cut your hair” comments and one or two dresses they bought me), and while it was extremely beneficial to grow up with no shame or expectations about my body or my self, especially as a baby butch, the social side of it was kind of… id say probably the majority of my deep insecurities as an adult still stem from when i hit middle and high school and was ostracized for being masculine and just like. generally clueless on femininity and the social world of girls. like say what you will about “not like other girls” but i genuinely wasnt given the consideration as another girl. i was locked out of the major social circles but i was also alienated from like. the nerdy shy girls the bookish girls etc for being loud and boyish. like i had some friends but they were hang ons from early childhood or they would drop me after a year or two when we lost common ground.

#it was bad enough that i still am uncomfortable and dont know how to carry myself in large groups of women #i made close girl friends for the first time like. ever this spring #irl i mean. like in terms of girl friendships other than that its people ive known since we were infants so like. #idk if this makes sense. im posting through the amphetamine insomnia

[kozzax]

I don't understand why anyone would be upset about that finale because it really is just. I mean. It's genuinely so good for the characters. I haven't watched the dsmp in ages and I probably won't again but I watched the wilbur stream and it was a perfect bookend to his story.

Yeah, sure, the Utah stuff is cursed, but from an emotional standpoint? This was always how it was going to end.

I have some notes I wrote down back in 2021, in a discord server with some friends, where I spoke about how the end of the dsmp would inevitably be melancholic. Where I talked about how the story, as it stands, was made for a happy ending. The story was always going to end on a hopeful note, and for c!Wilbur in particular, I've always felt that to be true.

This ending? This? This is exactly how it needed to go.

Tommy and Wilbur have always been tied together. They are each other's right hand man. We see this time and time again. They are brothers; not by blood, but by the time and love and work they have put into forging their bond. Wilbur relies on Tommy, and Tommy relies on Wilbur.

So of course Wilbur cannot leave without Tommy being there to see him off. And of course Wilbur cannot bear to think that Tommy might hate him, so he can never apologize, because-- what if he doesn't accept? Sure, he probably would, but how can Wilbur take that risk? But Tommy has to be there, when he leaves. It has to be just him and Tommy. He has to say goodbye in person.

And of course Tommy is worried about Wilbur. With everything he's been through, everything both of them have been through, Tommy would be nothing but terrified for what his brother is about to do. Wilbur's always been cagey, and he has a history of trying to smooth over anything going wrong with big, grand statements. So of course, when Wilbur starts talking about going away and leaving and goodbyes, Tommy calls him the fuck out. He has to protect his brother- he can't let his brother die, not again, so- he does everything he can to stop it.

This is where we get to the Utah bit. And I- I love the Utah bit. I think the Utah bit is perfect. I think, in retrospect, it suits him. His focus on the falsity of Las Nevadas's desert, because it reminds him of his home. His denial of America, in L'Manburg-- because he's left, and he never wants to go back, because he was going through his rebellious years. The fact that it means, for him to go home, he has to go a long ways away.

I love that he's from Utah. And I fucking love that it means his last direct statement to Tommy was "Don't trust those Americans!" in a jovial tone.

Because even though this is a goodbye. He doesn't want his brother to think badly of him. So he leaves with an inside joke, a tease, brings a teary-eyed laugh out of Tommy before he goes home. And this isn't a goodbye forever, but it is a goodbye for now.

And so the last Tommy sees of Wilbur is a smile, and a laugh, and joy. And the last Wilbur sees of Tommy is the same. And neither of them wants to leave the other, but this is how it has to be. Wilbur has to go home to continue his healing process, and Tommy cannot come with him if he is to continue his own.

They are separated. And you can hear the grief in Tommy's cry, at the end there. You can hear how heartbroken he is. But that heartbreak is softened, and that was on purpose, because Wilbur cannot break his little brother's heart. Not again. Never again.

They are brothers.

And though they may have to part, now, they will always be brothers.

"And I heard you say / Right when you left that day / 'Does everything go away?' / Yeah everything goes away / But I'm gonna be here till forever / So just call when you're around" - Always Gold, Radical Face

#my analysis #dsmp #tommyinnit #wilbur soot #dream smp analysis #genuinely this is i think maybe my favorite dsmp lore stream ever #it's so genuinely. like its not perfect but it is . everything i wanted #ive been saying for as long as ive known about the dsmp that c!wilbur especially Will Get A Happy Ending #and that it will be melancholic in that happiness but. that it will be distinctly happy and hopeful #and i was right. #and this finale. did everything i could have asked for #yeah it was goofy #but since when has the dsmp been anything BUT goofy #yeah theres angst and lore but. this is the server with an i heart penis sign for like 50% of its runtime #this is the server where the initial plot started because potions were banned and tommy and wilbur wanted to start problems #and this is the server where c!wilbur is from utah. #where he goes home to continue healing. where he says goodbye to his little brother in the best way he knows how. #where he's not perfect. and he fucked up. and he has to be called out on it. #and where he refuses to say goodbye without bringing a smile to his brothers face #that's what gets me i think. #the line dont trust those americans as a goodbye in the wake of this reveal #the fact that you can hear the stupid fucking grin in tommy's sobs as he realizes that double meaning #the fact that wilbur gave tommy the gift of his last memory of his brother being a happy one #as stupid and goofy as it is. its still a happy one #and that hit me.

[stinkrascal]

oh btw we leave TOMORROW which means i can be home to make story posts n see my kitties finally!!!!!

#i miss them soooo much #this has been the least relaxing vacation ever #thank god nobody planned anything today bc i am not leaving this airbnb til we have to leave tmrw #im grateful we even have the chance to go on this vacation bc it has been a lot of fun too #but soooo stressful and ive gotten sick every day since we got here #bc we’re in the car driving down mnts all day ;-; #i just miss being at home #oh and now my bf is talking about getting transferred to CO office for work so we can live here instead lmaooooo #which tbh i would NOT be mad at all if we moved to colorado! but i would probably be bedridden for a few weeks 😭 #but hey thats what the legal weed is here for #either way i did have fun! im just so exhausted now and i miss my house. but im happy i got 2 experience life here #it is soooooo so so so different to louisiana like i cannot express this enough. im shocked this state exists #when all ive known my whole life is bumfuck LA. it is just so cool to see how much more the usa can offer!!! #makes me feel like less of a doomer aha

[caffeinatedopossum]

Events of last night:

Me: *crying*

My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(

Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful

My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.

#we then very heavily related over having the same intrusive thoughts and now I'm suspicious #thinking about when i told her i might have ocd and she said i didnt #and starting to feel like thats because... what if we both have ocd #it seems like she was basing her entire knowledge of conditions on people shes known with those conditions. which makes sense #but the person/ people with ocd had severe cleaning compulsions and the like #where as me and her obsess much more over morality #like its very clear we think about it so much. and idk what to do with that information #we both feel like the intrusive thoughts and obsessive ruminating are the only things that keep is from being bad people #or that prevent us from being bad people i guess. idk why that wording is just slightly more accurate #like people who dont think about these things (apparently all 'normal' people since this could be *an actual disorder*) #they're not constantly analyzing. trying to be aware. asking themselves questions about their true nature. judging those answers #theyre not really doing that with other people either. of course i could be wrong since im very clearly not a normal person. #but this is what i mean! im speculating about other people and acknowledging the ways i could be wrong and just trying to figure it all out #but it seems like no one does that and it doesnt *make them* bad people. it just doesn't prevent them from that happening either #like theyre just as likely to hurt people as the 'bad' person thats thinking the same way they are #and i cant ever be comfortable with me living that reality even when *this reality* is a waking nightmare #sure im tearing my skin off (good ole skin picking disorder) when im thinking about these things. sure im crying. sure i can't sleep. #sure it makes me feel like im constantly a horrible person and need to attone for everything ive done and havent done #sure. but then i turn around and say its helping me. because why else would my brain torture me? isnt it always about protecting me? #i don't know. all i know is who i dont want to be and what i dont want. so that exactly what my brain convinces me is real #i guess what it kinda comes to do is #would you rather live a reality where everything around you is superficial. your thoughts behaviors and thoughts. your reactions #all of them are things youre never aware of. you could be hurting people or you could be helping themm #you could even be hurting yourself. but you would never know. its a comfortable reality that youre never really aware of #OR would you rather live a reality aware of all those things. seeking answers and sometimes finding them. #trying your hardest to help others and better yourself and fix the broken things in this world #your reality is one where you recognize every threat that no one else does and it kills you inside because they wont always listen #theyre comfortable and you're stuck in a reality where you try and try and try but even when you succeed #your brain forms its own reality. a metaphorical jail. where you never get to experience the reality you fought so hard for #instead you exist in this sort of purgatory where you live out your own worst fears and the worst ways you could have failed

[roaringheat]

fuck man I'm playing rdr2 and Arthur just got diagnosed I can't do this

#vark posts #v live blogging #its so hard for me to cry like ever but im tearing up this shit is so painful #ive known he dies since before i played the game so its not a surprise #but ive gotten way more attached to him than i thought i would #the sad music and the wheezing and the DEER #fuck man im gonna crumble #edit: i just realized they changed Arthur's appearance to make him look sick too GOD