#no fooling myself this time around

[feelingsofficial]

Sza and crying in bed 😚✌️ karma had a kiss for me

#I must have fucked up last life fr #life has humbled me greatly this time around #no ego #no fooling myself this time around

[gncrezan]

happy three years to @chrysanthemumgames !!!! as always i'm a little biased towards drawing hermes, but i love the entire cast and at least wanted to draw all of them :') and ofc, thank you jess for a game i always love and keep coming back to!!!

#do not be fooled with no speechbubbles in reply to the cast #hermes is yelling hello's and sorry's as he speeds away i promise #asphodelgame #fields of asphodel #foa #my art #hermes #persephone #pyri #alekto #charon #hekate #hades #makaria #have a bunch of doodles and thoughts for foa that i never got around to properly drawing so . perhaps soon!!!!! #also re the new hozier album. first time-hades (i shouldnt have to explain myself it was like it was written FOR him) #who we are- charon and esp with his backstory my knuckles go white with how desperate i am to know more about them #de selby pt1 and 2 for hermes just cause i like the imagery of the songs about descent for the deity that splits his time #unknown is for alekto . lord i love her and again i would like sweet sweet backstory #first light pyri . i enjoy the light-river of fire idea and also its one of the more hopeful songs off the album #and i am struggling with hekate but i do enjoy all things end :) #but particularly 'if there way anyone to ever get through this life with their heart still intact they didn't do it right' #and ofc 'we didn't it right but love we did our best' and that constant forward motion for a deity that has lived so long #seph/pc gets to someone from a warm climate. the adjustment of being in a new place and the love that can come from that new place #and in the end its as easy . natural as another leg around you in the bed frame. ANYONE ELSE A BIT SICK RN? #other songs on the album (FRANCESCA. ICARIAN. DAMAGE GETSDONE!!!!) can be applied to the entire cast #damage gets done has such SUCH a fun beat that makes me think of hermes but that is like. 90% bias #anyways sorry for the hozier-foa tedtalk in the notes. quite deranged about both lately #and as always sorry to the pagans on this site. best wishes <3

[aquanutart]

I made this because I didn’t know how to remove wearables from my pets

(Quiggler views all clothing with the same excitement as someone about to hold up two donuts over their eyes)

#neopets #neotag #neoart #quiggle #kiko #shoyru #aquanutart #finished it for the april fools neopian times hence the banana #(which stayed on longer than expected) #this is a comic about how I tried to change her hairbow but now this is her hairbow forever #(i still don't really think of pets as wearing clothes though) #i eventually was able to remove wearables again so i don't know if i just forgot how or if it was a glitch #she always wanted to be pink but at the time it was too expensive for me so she was painted striped as a compromise #because the stripes are pink #at the time a striped pb was around 200k #i think striped is a very nice color so i do miss it a little since her stripes matched quiggler's red ones #but i have old old ms paint art from when i was 11 of her as a pink kiko so now that i could i just had to make that real! #in fact i think one or two of her early beauty contest entries (when i was so young i couldn't advertise) depicted her as pink #which i was actually not supposed to do because you're not supposed to draw the pet as a different color from what they are whoops #wait no i correct myself on that. it's the species that is supposed to match but the color can be anything so it was okay apparently?? #she's actually the oldest (being the only one who's adopted) but acts like the youngest and tends to try to help in sort of naive ways #she is concerned for all living things but especially slorgs and especially her slorg

[rottengurlz]

"And then I get sick and throw up and there's another memory that gets stuck // inside the walls of my skull waiting for its turn to talk"

#torturing myself by listening to this album on repeat #smooches them smooches them smooches them smooches them smooches them smooches th #i realized while editing this i had no clue how to make smoke........... #i was thinking of this scene while i was at work #amari works a lot of odd jobs he is constantly distracting himself with something #he wants to be so exhausted by the time his day is over his mind is quiet and all he can do is pass out #because any quiet moment makes every horrifying memory come to the surface and crawl all over his skin #but this scene specially was amari staring at a drunk couple across the street giggling and fooling around #amari would feel disgusted with them and himself because he knows he should look away #but he'd also feel this overwhelming sadness and burning jealousy because he knows he will never have those tender moments #he is genuinely terrified of himself to ever get close to anyone #aljdskjfgjfdkjdfkj #im not sure this picture actually translates that he just looks kind of sexy #mysims #simblr #the sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4 edit #sims 4 screenshots

[ratjunk-imean-junkrat]

Best day of my Junkrat main life

#nicest junker queen main ive met so far #i love junker queen so much? #its insanity #i also get so nervous around junker queen mains #dont wanna look like a fool #its 10 times worse if the junker queen is on the enemys side #i stumble over myself so hard #junker queen #queen of junkertown #junkrat #junkrat main #overwatch #queer and terrified to disappoint #i was shaking because of how anxious i was #RatJunk Posts

[prussianmemes]

you should kill yourself if you spend 12 minutes sorting around your notes on your desk, making sure they look messy but also the prettiest ones are on top, posing your textbook open and having the most "academia" looking web page or lecture slides on your laptop screen before taking a picture and posting it on your social media story while quietly scrolling through songs to put with it.

#every time exam season comes around #people do this religiously #i hate it profusely it's so incredibly vain and pointless #you're like the people who go to the library for an epic study day and set up your big environment #only to sit on your phone for 5 hours #have the humility to be honest about your study habits and what works and what doesn't #i feel like its a form of cognitive dissonance this type of stuff and a form of lying to themselves #which is the one person you should always be brutally honest to #txt #i plan ahead and give myself so much extra time because i know my time efficiency is dogshit and i compensate for that #i try to avoid talking to other people about studying and i try to insulate myself when i am #of course for med school it's impossible not to talk about it as your classmates will bring it up in every third conversation #which opens the pandora's box of listening to other people talk about it which is atrocious as all people ever take away from it is #'oh my god everyone is doing so much more i'm so behind' #which isn't true everyone is in their own variation of hell just slightly different #i try to block it out completely when i can #med students have this annoying tendency to group themselves into these circles of self feeding despair and nervousness #i mean all of med insta is full of dogshit memes like this of the same 'le epic med stress' memes #kill yourselves you people are self fulfilling prophecies #josef lada ice these fools #to chce klid #as the man said #a taky trošku sebevědomí #and also not listening or giving a fuck what anyone else is doing #každý ma svůj systém a svůj styl #and have a life outside of this as well

[chilapis]

Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.

#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool. #i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had. #and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself #helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher. #but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic. #and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts? #i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just. #hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating #there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow. #i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life. #i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck. #they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points ​in common. #as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate. #it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such. #having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think. #and i’m glad i can be that person for so many. #and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries. #i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well. #but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest #<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help. #sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait #🥀🍷 — colloquy.

[holographings]

me coming alive to post something deeply embarrassing. u ever stop to think abt the fact that seonho and hwi are like. Young young at the beginning of mctna. bc i think about it constantly

#me passing around juiceboxes to the handful of mctna fans on here like a dad on a roadtrip except the juice is gay ppl. drink up #ha ha giving myself a three day break off the project from hell to think about my two special little guys #has it been two years since i first watched mctna??? i think it'll be two years in may! insane! please watch mctna and scream with me abt it #mctna #my country the new age #nam seonho #seo hwi #they are so YOUNG In the show i think seonho's like 30 at the end and there's a 5 year time skip in there anyway. like hello. #children. they should've been off fooling around behind a gross alley not fighting in a war #my art #fanart

[itspileofgoodthings]

I JUST LISTENED TO HITS DIFFERENT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE—-

#speechless at her ability to take a feeling bottle it and recreate it in song/verse form #the tightness of the structure (and literally I don’t think there’s another songwriter in the world who has song architecture on lock #the way she does) #Somehow the perfect outlet for the explosion of emotion #like this is what the people don’t understand. Taylor Swift is the HEIGHT of craftsmanship and discipline #combined with the most uninhibited emotion #she’s the fusion point between structure so strict it’s almost cold and emotion so unbridled it’s almost embarrassing #but she holds both at the same time #it creates something that’s so hard to look away from #I sometimes think people only hear the one or the other #but it’s the meeting point that matters #Sorry but Taylor Alison Swift is a little more Johann Sebastian Bach than any of us realize #anyway. Like sometimes I fool even myself into thinking she’s normal #and then I wake up and remember she’s a genius #Anyway anyway I am sooooo scared of tortured poets department #because Taylor albums scare me before they come out #where is she going to drop kick me to next time #what preconceived ideas of her is she going to blast into pieces #like I just. She is astonishing. no other way around it #and it takes all my breath and energy away

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Ugghhhhh I didn't bring a craft hobby with me aside from my sketchbook and I'm too headachey for writing so now I wanna eat my own hands

#maaaaay have to venture out into london tomorrow to hunt down some yarn and a crochet hook or something #in theory having some time to myself to watch loads of stuff i wanna catch up on is great #but my hands are unnoccupied and I'm Struggling with that #and like i fool i brought only quite cerebral/involved hobbies (writing/art/music/reading) to do assuming I'd have the brain power #fucking oops #i guess i could use it as incentive to go out and explore more but maybe i am tired and don't wanna you ever consider that huh?? #anyway. #my head goes whoooooosh when i stand rn so decisions on the backburner til I've eaten food maybe sgahshdbd #mr. bees speaks #this is the worst part about staying with non crafty friends too #if i was staying with ande i could be like hey any scraps of fabric lying around you're cool with me messing with? #these guys? nary a sewing needle in sight.... how do they live

[star-mum]

Finished playing Bully for the first time ever since tricking my mom into getting it for me 11 years ago

My entire life seems meaningless now

#i HATE finishing story games #makes me feel like I lost a little part of myself #a little bit of my soul has died #cause I can’t shove people into trashcans or destroy fools at bmx races around town #I have half a mind to play it again #but some of those missions are SO FUCKING DIFFICULT #and I was HUMBLED the whole time by having to use the wii controllers #cause i only have it on wii #anyways hey rockstar 👉👈 baby 🥰 Bully 2 when ? #Im itching to check the price of it on steam and play it again with a ps2 controller #OH MY GOD AND GETTING THE ACHIEVEMENTS???? #someone stop me #please #either stop me or hype me up

[lotsumy]

Another GOTG is coming!

#i fooled around and fell in love #mine #myself #idk what else to put in the tags #who cares #guardians of the galaxy #star lord #pictures of me #selfie time #send asks im bored #send asks #my ask is open #random asks

[vulpixelates]

just had the realization that i did in fact actually see the solo movie. in theaters. but do not remember ANYTHING about it lmao

I brought it up to my wife and she was like "oh yeah I remember you texting me after you came out of the movie and being like 'yeah I don't remember anything that happened, that was so forgettable'" LDJSLDKDHA

#this is next on the marathon order and then i might fuck around and squeeze in the kenobi miniseries before rogue one? idk tho #i am already like. severely lagging bc of the prequels lfkfkejd i used to really like at least ep 2 and 3 but like. #this time around i could only really see flaws and couldn't get myself to give a fuck about any of the characters glrifjfjdks #i used to at least like padme but i can't do it!!! she's a fool! and played by a zionist so I can't even really find her pretty anymore lmao #dykewatching sw #dykewatching solo #(tho ig technically i will be starting after lunch)

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 11

"It's Still Rock and Roll to Me" by Billy Joel

#song of the day #so late today. the sun'll be up pretty soon #I was very busy watching Duncan play Spyro and letting my brain thump around on spin cycle #I haven't written anything worth looking twice at since i was so sick in December and it's been worrying me a bit #but if my full day's preoccupation is anything to judge by I will be writing again quite soon #just in time too I did see Del tagged me in a WIP Wednesday. maybe by next Wednesday I will have progressed a work to share #anyway this is today's song because I'm trying to make sure I remember to get a copy of it #it played on the radio and Duncan and Lily and I all got to sing along (always so good to sing with my siblings) #and there were plenty of songs we sang all together (lots of Adele. good shit) but this one I don't have and I really enjoy singing #and every now and then (especially around the family) it plays and I think 'oh shit! I still need to get a copy of that onto my computer!' #and so far I've forgotten every time #but this time I'm making a particular note! I will remember it! if not this weekend then at the very very latest at the end of this year #when I make a big playlist of all the Songs of the Day and I hit Jan 11th and my search pulls up empty and I curse myself for a fool again #dear future-Alexis: you are welcome for the reminder!

[tails-is-pretty-cool]

TAILS I’M SORRY I GAVE GREEBS A GAMBLING ADDICTION

#the murder of sonic the hedgehog #mosth spoilers #mosth #I love that we were just following tails around the whole time #i felt like crying. april fools on me because i cannot handle that train's story for more than two seconds without distracting myself

[mewtwo24]

You know reading vol 5 of mdzs before all the rest (don't ask me why I'm a clown and there were Circumstances) has to be the craziest experience of my life. Because it took all of ten minutes of wwx talking to literally hit me so hard in the gut I had to sit down and listen to really loud music for a while to calm down.

Who needs therapy when mxtx is alive and writing, I guess????? 🤡

Can't wait to get to the actual tragic parts I just know I'm gonna be that "help" frog phone meme

#mdzs #i was really out here thinking svsss would be my fave bc of lbh #and then i finally get around to reading mdzs and it blows my expectations out of the fucking water holy actual shit #and i just had this feeling the first time i read parts of it like 'oh. this series is going to kill me. im not coming back from this.' #and here i am booboo the fool getting my clown ass make-up on #idk how to explain it like i just fucking LOVE mxtx's takes on arrogance #that wwx is constantly being perceived as a show off and an incorrigible flirt and a know it all #how wwx cant always help the ways he acts out the desperation that has embedded itself into his very bones #how wwx only ever wanted to do the right thing and that having been so much of his downfall #how his worth and talent would always be eclipsed by virtue of his circumstances #how he's above needing recognition at his core but at the same time longs for an ounce of good will and positive recognition -> #how human he is despite his brilliance. how he never gets it no matter how hard he tries to be worthy. #like to me wwx is emblematic of what it means to be poor/an immigrant in high places #always villified always alien always wrong always unwelcome #no matter how clever or capable or kind youll always be an eyesore because you don't 'act right'. not 'one of them.' you never will be. #i just...the way he just wanted it all to be over by the end. the way he didnt even want to come back to life. that he was sick of it all. #im rattling the bars of my cage i love him I LOVE HIM i love him #i understand you lan wangji (and i love lwj too) #and even lan wangji too like. the way so many of their issues in the beginning stems from that self-same problem #how lwj couldn't live with his out of control feelings how he too couldn't quite lay down his pride #how lwj was also trapped by the expectations of his clan in his own way how so much of their separation was a form of penance #that the calamity of wwx's loss forced him to reconsider everything he thought he knew about himself and his life #how he was left with nothing but regret. how when wwx returns--lwj refuses to leave anything to chance this time #he refuses to let wwx be alone anymore--refuses to let him hurt himself for the sake of others refuses to just let it all happen #even if it means overstepping a boundary or propriety it doesn't matter--as long as wwx stays with him. pride be damned #god i just can't i just can't do it im biting im ripping things apart GOD #will also say the jokes about lwj being like. 'strict moral compass or BUST.' and then wwx literally committing like 17 felonies in the bg #while lwj is like 'crimes? what crimes. nothing to see here.' NEVER stops being funny. like i was pissing myself laughing #i know its a known trope but by god are they hilarious about it #also. lan qiren how many times do your nephews have to go catatonic for you to stop with the catholic guilt and repression