#or maybe not??? maybe its just a bpd thing??

[genericpuff]

hey gen p! i was reading a post of yours where you mentioned LO's age rating and briefly mentioned that minthe was verbally abusive during sex which surprised me bc i didnt really remember her being accused of doing so outside of the slap/havent come across any other accusation since, so i've been defending her against abuse allegations, maybe mistakenly, bc i stopped reading the comic at some point. is it too much to ask for some instances where she *was* abusive so i can correct my outlook?? thx! :3

oh so it's really just one scene and it's waaay back in Episode 8-

like i'm gonna assume this isn't a consensual kink play thing LOL but also like. I wanna make it clear also that people don't necessarily defend Minthe as not being abusive, many people who defend her are well aware that she's done abusive shit. They defend Minthe because 1.) she has a lot more potential for well-written character development than Hades and Persephone (as she's actually genuinely flawed as per the narrative vs. Hades and Persephone who are flawed but we're still expected to believe they're perfect, so unlike H x P Minthe actually has potential to do better and grow like characters should!) and 2.) a lot of Minthe's abuse towards Hades isn't necessarily justified but is a lot more understandable when you really analyze Hades and realize that he is, in fact, a piece of shit LOL

like don't get me wrong, I don't think Minthe was in the right by treating Hades like shit and escalating it to the slap, there are FAR better things she should have done... but I and many others defend her on the basis that she doesn't have the self-respect or resources necessary to look out for herself in a more productive way, much of which was facilitated by Hades trapping her in a financially abusive relationship. When you're worried not only about losing your partner, but also your house and your job with it, that's gonna turn into some unhealthy coping mechanisms and responses like physical and verbal abuse as we see in Minthe. She's someone who's not in control of her situation but is trying to maintain her control through unhealthy means.

Hades, on the flipside, has no excuse when he assaults people or acts like an asshole - he's just able to get away with it through the narrative, its characters, and the readers, because he's the rich and powerful main protagonist.

Minthe is an incredibly flawed person who was self-aware enough to understand what she was doing wasn't right but not equipped enough to do better. She's lower class (according to Rachel, all the nymphs are considered lower class compared to the gods) and was originally written as someone with untreated BPD, which Rachel later retconned (note: the episode where Minthe slaps Hades is literally called Splitting, which is a symptom of BPD, like it's not some assumption or misinterpretation, Rachel literally wrote BPD into the script and then tried to quietly backpedal on it later through Discord.) Hades is an incredibly flawed person who is self-aware of what he's doing, but doesn't see it as wrong and therefore doesn't see any reason to do better. But we're expected to root against the former as an irredeemable villain who can't do better and root for the latter who is an actual monster whose actions are justified and excused by the narrative and its creator.

So yeah, that's why a lot of us defend Minthe. She's not perfect, she's done abusive shit, but unlike Hades and Persephone, she has the capacity to grow and change for the better.

#ask me anything #ama #anon ama #anon ask me anything #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

[vacant2007]

#sorry the weevils in my brain have decided that if we stop making shitty art today we explode #weirdcore #traumacore #traumacore edit #tw traumacore #ventcore #vent edit #actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #actually traumatized #hesitant to use this vocabulary but this is meant to represent what im......increasingly certain is the experience of splitting #in a bpd context #i keep trying to run from the bpd thing so hard like its been a long cycle of that and me scrambling for other answers but #its getting harder and harder to deny and im in hour 25 of this current splitting 'episode' or whatever #and im like okay fuck you maybe. maybe i should look into that #makes too many things make sense im just terrified of the hatred ppl hold for cluster b folks its so vile #vent #my stuff #my edits #OH shit right um #cw animal death

[chronicschmonic]

i have 2 wolves inside me 1 is autistic n cant understand ppls intentions and motives from their tone and the other one has bpd n is constantly questioning everyones motives and in "THEYRE GONNA GET U THEYRE GONNA GET U THEYRE GONNA G" mode

#chronic.txt #autism #bpd #neurodivergent #actually autistic #actually bpd #actually neurodivergent #its a weird feeling sometimes #the wolves r either fighting or violently making out w eachother (comorbid symptoms) #comorbidity is a BITCH sometimes it has me questioning if i have both bc like.. erm thats a symptom of that one thing mayb i just have that

[v-anrouge]

i am not beating the bpd allegations

#I am still gonna be on break #i talked to my friend who has bpd and like urfh its hard to process i may have it #my mom and brother have it so it shouldn't be a surprise but it is and it's really fucking me up #i idk im still hoping this is like just a moment thing maybe it's hormones or whatever #maybe it's just college stress??? #idfk #I am tired #Im sorry for everyone ive mistreated i need to be put down desperately

[ittybittybumblebee]

Not trying to armchair psychology you, just speaking from personal experience- it's really, really common to have autism, especially autism that is coupled with ADHD and OCD, be misdiagnosed as BPD for young people. This is most common with verbal autistic people who also suffer from abuse as a minor. The constant mental pressure often manifests as erratic thought and behavior, "strange" patterns of belief and groupings, and just a general feeling of feeling like you are Not The Same and don't know what's wrong but that Something is Wrong. Extreme stress for all of those problems can easily be exasperated into psychosis unfortunately, so a good approach involves being able to ground yourself with knowing how your mind is different, and that it is not broken. Whatever you find out, best of luck man.

thnx means a lot that u typed this out to me anon <3 i think ur def on the right track on what i could b dealing with but at the same time there has been a point where i was quite sure i must be autistic but felt i never had or experienced the same wide or specific and unique variety of stimming/stimulation issues like most autistics do and kindof let that thought slide a bit. because what sources i read had all listed those as being one of the important diagnostic criteria so that is what i understand.

having said that it could be my perception of how stimulation issues present themselves Personally has me feeling like i dont suffer them when i could still be affected in different ways that im not registering as possibly being That

#i did... i.. god i do remeber taking that online autism assesment test a long time ago and i was in the high range but i was like Hm #but its so very hard when theres all these comorbititys and similar symptoms to other things to truelly tell sometimes... #it can feel pretty confusing ! #one thing i know with clear certanty is i have absolutly have anxiety wether removed or caused by comorbitities or not #alsogoing back to the online autism assesment test i know online tests arent reliable but how far in th hole of denial due to uncertainty o #myself do i want to dig before i just start doing things to help myself for Something #basically tldr: i take everything with a grain of salt and dont jump in untill i feel quite sure #its hard to feel quite sure when ur brain and behavior is confusing #and i feel like i dont stim.. maybe i do ! but if its anything it might be so subtle that even i dont realize what it is... #i will always still keep my mind open to it because of the individual uniqueness of any thing like that.. #but the mood swings oh my god do they fit bpd #But . autism could #i Need to stop ranting on in the tags. #man #ill just let this rest for tonight and mull it over later more #lol #i could definitly go on more i always havea lot to say about my brainworks. my own analyzing . but itd go on forever #need to stop somewhere

[hpdgirlfriend]

girl who probably has avoidant personality disorder it's fine

#I SAID I WASN'T GOING TO THINK ABT IT BUT LIKE. WELL #something that stuck in my brain whenever i heard it was like #social anxiety gets better the closer u are to people and avpd gets worse? or something? #aaaaaand i guess the latter is true for me recently. whatever!! #it's just like bigger stakes if we're closer and i fuck up and they don't like me anymore so it's scarier #buuut it could also be a bpd thing Maybe? #bpd being like a silly little mix of symptoms from so many things bcuz its literally Emotionally Unstable PD n wtv #but i dont rmbr enough at this point since bpds so obvious i havent needed to ruminate over having it in at least a year -w- #this makes me sound so fake. sorries. #diary

[entropy-sea-system]

God. Wow it's almost amusing to think about how much I needed things to have special meaning when I was like 13-17..

Now I'm just like yeah this makes me happy yeah Im burnt out from this other thing, I'm glad to exist, haha this thing is funny, etc. Without fussing over it having to mean something or be symbolic and it's kind of nice.

Doesn't mean I dislike my past self for needing to have things have deeper meaning, I appreciate the way I saw the world and my life then. It's how I experienced things then and it's nice to look back on that. I've become a lot more self aware since then and maybe that has something to do with it, maybe if you're more secure in who you are you're less likely to need to assign meaning externally or something.

#Rift's rambles #entropy positivity #positive #ok so this post and my last one #Are both inspired by a schrodingers cat joke on a post #And how it reminded me of an old art I made in ballpoint pen when I was like 16 maybe of a half cat half cat skeleton w a vial of poison #That was inspired by the thought experiment #I was so.. scientific and logic-y and sometimes it was to the extent that I ignored emotions or didnt realise when I was hurting people #And I feel.. More free now and less inconsiderate and more likely to handle emotions better #And maybe part of it was trying some stuff I saw abt dbt #Simple things like stepping away if I felt I was going to snap at someone when really angry and dealing w conflicts better #And knowing when its not worth it to explain or debate #Its related to my bpd #And also just.. I worry less abt how ppl see me now. I worry less about loneliness. I worry less about abandoment than I used to. #I understand myself and my behavior and emotions more and I appreciate the people who are important to me and it feels like growth if I #Look back on my past

[biolums]

4am. i cant sleep. stuck in my damn head with my own thoughts.. this calls for drastic measures (crying myself to sleep)

#not that i can ever cry if i want to. but ideally nownwould be the time #i just. god i just cant stop thinking about ***** and now im imagining scenarios and im just. god its just too much #its so hard like. caring ahout someone so much and not havinf an outlet. #i feel so helpless all the time because im just. literally at the mercy of my love. #one second im splitting the next im having anxiety attack. or maybe i uave a breakdown. #which all lead to me fucking lashing out. and making things worse. and i just. i dont know what to do #i have zero coping mechanisms for this. and i keep being weird about it. i just. god i feel so. helpless #before i accepted i had bpd i literally didnt let my self ljke. think thoughts like #i was obsessed and in love with this guy in high school and i just wouldnt let myself think about him. at all #because if i started thinking about him it would be too much. #he had a girlfriend at the time and i dont think ive ever hated someone so blindly. like she was a bitch and i know that now #but i hoped and prayed for them to break up. this guy wouldnt have dated me but i was So Jealous #hhhhhhhhh #lets hope i have the coursge to bring up bpd with my psychiatrist. on the 10th? whenever my appointment is #i cannot keep living like this. #jace.txt

[moomeecore]

Lol why do you defend bpd Seek help fr

bpd?? like. like borderline personality disorder? like, the mental disorder? that people have??? "defend bpd"???? DEFEND it?? from what??? abelism??? misinformation?? this ask is kinda mind boggling dude. like wow.

just so u know i am getting help for my multiple mental disorders :) that i have. ik that's not what u meant by "seeking help" but what does that rlly reflect other than ur lack of knowledge on mental health issues? wow i definetly trust you to be super educated on mental disorders considering you used "seek help" as an insult. ur rlly winning me over here.

here's a genuine question for you: have you tried seeking... i don't know... a reputable source on bpd? information on what it actually is, what it actually means to have bpd? or is ur only source of information that's led you to this conclusion.. reddit posts, listsicles abt "how to spot a borderline/narcissist/sociopath uwu" & ur own personal conclusions made from meeting one person w bpd one time ever.

#god i hate ppl like this #and the nerve to swnd an ask abt it. thats so PATHETIC LMAO #u care that much??? u r THAT dedicated to actively hating ppl w a certain mental disorder?? #..and u think IM the one who should 'seek help'?? #pls try reflecting a little bit. what got u to the point where u #(and ik u did this bc i dont think ive ever said anything else abt bpd) #u saw my comment sympathising w someone w bpd who got a rlly horrible disrespectful ask talking abt how 'evil' ppl w bpd are #CLICKED on my profile. and sent me this ask #ur short sentences and use of lol dont fool me. you are WAY TOO invested and u need to find something else to do w ur life #smthn that dosent hurt ppl! that dossnt spread misinfo or make ppl feel bad or encourage stigma!! maybe try doing a little reaserch paper #on bpd where u make sure to check the credibility of ur sources rather than looking at listicles like 'top 10 signs u know a NARCISSIST!!! #or if that sounds like too much work 4 you ..u could try minding ur FUCKING buisness . log off tumblr & try like #knitting or smthn. idk man. pick up a hobby please. for ur own saks #and for the sake of all the ppl w bpd out there who ur mercilessly treating like shit in order to put urself on a moral pedestal #bc ud rather pick & choose to beleive the 'easy' perception of life where ppl can be diagnosed with Bad Person and u get to feel better #than them .... than educate urself on the real world & accept the reality that things r more nuanced & complexed than that #(this ask didnt actually piss me off as much as it may seem. its p tame. i just have been complaning abt this sort of thing latley #and jumped at the bit to ruthlessly tear apart someone w these sort of beleifs. like u came to me dude lol. thanks for the free invite to #go feral lmaoo) #text

[a-little-bit-poss]

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#i think sometimes i feel an overwhelming desire to be forgiven even if i havent done anything wrong #and that sucks cuz no one likes being on the receiving end of that all the time #like gods get some self confidence or self reassurance techniques #maybe im just seeking reassurance and going about it the wrong way #shits hard yknow? #where the lines yknow? #its part of whole bpd thing i think #so i want to be able to ask for comfort and reassurance but i dont want to fall back on doing it out of shame

[lettuce-seize-the-day]

mental illness is a rollercoaster and i want OFF

#shut up hanna #im like. im fine i actually am not mentally ill #i definitely dont have an eating disorder. i can have this *food i deem unsafe when deep in my ed* #and i eat it and im like see. i was faking #and then im panicking abt the fact that i can feel it in my body and i cant undo eating it #the fucking mental gymnastics im playing every god damn day #can it just be QUIET #and it sucks bc like. mental illness is becoming less stigmatized like depression/anxiety are taken very seriously as illnesses now #and its clear how prevalent they are in our generation #but no one relates to my degree of mental illness in my social circle. #like in my circle of supportive friends i have in person here. theres no one whos had an ed. theres no one with a mood disorder #theres no one with ptsd or cptsd. bpd. bipolar. none of it. and they care and theyre supportive. more than i deserve but #they dont Get It. like #dgmw theyve never been like. just eat its not hard. like they KNOW. but they dont understand why its as hard as it is for me #and like. this is a side thing but its kind of frustrating that every girl in the department (LITERALLY. all of them) #will say they have an ed like. im not gatekeeping or diagnosing its just. that's just not statistically possible yk #like. you can have severe body image issues. AND disordered eating. both of which are harmful and deserving of help #like when i told my roommate abt mine she was like. maybe i do too. and we talked for a looooong time abt it #and i knew she didnt but ill never invalidate someone. its just. its sometimes hard when ppl think they understand and they dont #(she also came to the conclusion she doesnt after talking w me abt mine and knowing im not even bad enough to be inpatient) #like i guess im glad in a way that what i deal with isnt the norm ? in the population yk. like #its good to know that what i deal with. bipolar and bpd and ptsd and my ed being the hardest to deal with. that they also #are like. not super duper common? like its kind of isolating but it is comforting to know that not everyone feels this shitty #all the time so stuff is way harder for me than other ppl lmao #anyway. i lost my train of thought

[n00dleb0yy]

yo bpd besties, how do u make urself ur fp?? I don't want mine anymore, I never want one again lmao so like,,,, any tips lol

#just bpd things #maybe hes born with it maybe its bpd #bpd shit #bpd memes #bpd mood #bpd favorite person #bpd tag #bpd problems #bpd #borderline tag #actually borderline #borderline life #borderline problems #borderline feels #borderline #cluster b #diagnosed borderline

[tellie-vision-art]

Wanting more Priyaxel content but also knowing if I want it that badly I will have to make it myself bc it feels like no one actively ships it/makes content for it anymore 😭

I feel like a loser here in my corner hyped up over something no one else cares about and I’m kinda embarrassed about it 😩 like I have thoroughly convinced myself now that I am dumb for shipping it bc no one sees it like I do and people are perceiving me as weird and overdramatic about it 😔

#top ten saddest moments in history number one #sorry if you followed exclusively for Priyaxel content this might be the end of the road tbh #I still really like the ship obviously but I feel like no one cares and my hype over it is cringe to see #honestly I’m almost finished with the thing I am writing but #I might not even post it bc there’s no audience for it so what’s the point /: #and I feel like people wouldn’t like it anyway tbh that’s always what happens #maybe the world is not ready for my Axel has BPD/Autism combo headcanon #but also idk maybe I should post it and get told it sucks before I give up on it #I guess the real con here is if I don’t post it then I can’t post/finish the PMV either #but I could also post that in its unfinished state? #anyway sorry if I never post any of this stuff I really am not sure if there’s a point #if there is someone out there in the void you’re free to try and convince me but idk /: #when I started writing this thing it was a different world where Priyaxel looked like the most popular ship #and now it seems like everyone dropped it for Ax*lle 💔 #see and Idek if I could just do a big text post with my thoughts on them either bc they’re so specific which was the point for writing 😭 #lmao I’m the meme of that ant packing up and leaving #ok but for real if I don’t finish the PMV I WILL post the unfinished version in the tag bc that took effort #sorry this is so gloomy I just feel kinda sad and demotivated #like it was so exciting when I first watched the season and discovered a ton of people shipped it and now… #alas I can always recycle my ideas for OCs that never fails me just fails everyone around me that wanted the canon characters #but damn it I am disappointed too when I go in the TD tag and all I see is Ax*lle #I have spoken too much you get the point by now I just feel /:

[xll]

opinion: having borderline doesnt mean youre not just fucken right sometimes.😭

#people just fucken love to discredit everything thats being said on an 'overreaction' or even toxic behavior! like yelling! #but sometimes like LOOK INWARD ! REFLECT ! what about you put the ego down for a sec and realize maybe shes right ! #like ok she yelled at you cos shes having the worst episode of her life and she feels no one fucken understands her for even a sec #(WHICH IS TRUE those other bitches have no empathy brother what the hell) #and yelling is toxic and unproductive bla bla #BUT SHE HAS IT FUCKEN WORSE THAN YOU AND BEING A SHITHEAD ABOUT IT ISNT GONNA WOOORRKKK #shes mad because you have no empathy with her. youre mad because she yelled at you for it. these things are fucking different. #note: the one with the ego is TWENTY THREE (the bpd woman im talking about's daughter) #id get if if she was 15 #but like Put The Ego Down #she LOVES! insisting like ''well she should go to a fucking doctor'' literally i think all you guys will get what i mean #wanting others to go see psychiatrists because youre mad that they dont pamper you? discrediting all reactions on ''being crazy''? #AND YOURE WONDERING WHY SHES SO DESPERATE #anyways. its hard to read the whole situation thru tags but theyre treating my aunt (bpd) like shes crazy and being all angwy cos theyre #not being pampered lol suck it up for a sec #LITERALLY WHERE IS THE EMPATHY THE COMPASSION IM SO MAD #they make everything about themmmmm #me.txt #disclaimer: ik whatever behavior is not exclusive or inherent to bpd i just think they relate in this specific situation #and thats ok... #its fuckin hard man #also by bpd i dont mean it like psychiatry-bootlickers would.

[sick-as-a-dog]

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#wanna know the funniest thing to come from this? #i just realized that during the first relationship i wasnt really in love #or maybe it stopped or it somehow became just traumabonding somewhere along the way idk #but the first breakup wasnt this painful it really wasnt like this at all #sad for sure but nowhere near this amount of agony #but my mate was different i think he was the first i really truly fell in love with #this hurts more than anything else ive been through #all the shit ive been through all the endless abuse i grew up with and was put through all of my life #all the bruises and trauma and scars are nothing compared to the agonizing devistating gaping pain spreading through me rn #i want my mate back i want this to fuckig end i desperately want to die just to escape all of this #the horrible realization that the anxiety and paranoia were fucking right and not just some bpd fuelled worries #that him calling himself aro maybe WAS a warning of this happening after all and i shouldnt have trusted when he said im his exception #the fear that hes going to slowly leave just like the first one did because tbh its unavoidable and understandable #this pain that just wont stop and will never stop because why the hell would it stop im losing my best friend and love of my life #we couldve worked through it if he just didnt give up why did he give up why didnt he want to try literally anything else before this why #he gave up so i probably should too but idk how idk why i cant just fucking give up like he did whats wrong with me #why did this one have to be so much more painful than the previous one even if hes swearing to stay? was everything just lies after all?why

[lovecrazedpup]

hm

#me trying to bait my friends into yelling at me n shit #its a strat actually #makes me feel like shit and helps them release their anger #like gaksvsalhdsk i fucking . i LOVE feeling sad and upset #idk why but its just how im meant to be ? im not rlly meant to be happy ? #i have never n will never deserve happiness #i am a Bad Person so ! #gOD such silly things trigger me into . these states but its impossible to get out of them #kinda wish he was more . comforting . even though i dont deserve that either #says he understands bpd but doesnt ask to help me #:/ its fine anywaysssss #not like this is serious and its fr just because . idk . he has nothing better to do probably #realistically i am just fun to poke fun at and get off to so 😭 #not that hes doing that but like . its just a pattern that people have done w/ me #idk maybe i attract it :/ the attention and feeling like im useful is addicting though #ngl i do actually want to kms rn but its such a like . pathetic reason to so i think people would just laugh #like i made a friend upset and then everyone was angry and he was disappointed and then we lost a game and now everyones upset again 🙀 #and it was like all my fault so as an apology i should kms or like cut 😭 #eeeeeugh just . literally some random guy come into my house and fr just fucking murder me #like punch me in the face . cut my tongue off and then slit my throat #sgkavdkavskavdjsvs #jamie.txt