#passive suicide

[honeypleasejustkillme]

suicidal people deserve a space to talk about their suicidal feelings without risking hospitalization/institutionalization or being accused of being manipulative or attention seeking

#world mental health day 2022 :) #remember you all are loved and appreciated :) #everyone with mental health issues are valid and deserve support so if you ever need it don’t hesitate to reach out <3 #actually bpd #bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd problems #actually borderline #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #bpd mood #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #tw sui mention #passive suicide #tw sui thoughts #tw sui vent

[pokeberry5]

red robin in his hot girl summer era

alts + closeup:

#dc #tim drake #sart #cw suicidal ideation #unfortunately: passively suicidal tim my beloved #*livia rodrigo core?? #but also inspired by dr*wfee karina's mixed media posters they were so cool #this is also loosely a redux of an older piece #also!!! ft. red robin kitty #to the lovely people who left me requests im so sorry my motivation to draw has been spotty recently

[cemeterything]

the thing about jontim for me is that it's such a "by all rights neither of us should even be alive when better people than us who deserved it more are gone, but if anything happened to you i would kill everyone in this room and then myself because you're all i have left" ship. survivor guilt codependency feedback loop.

#🐉 #i love not so passively suicidal people who anchor each other #jontim #tma

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

From the bottom of my worthless heart, I genuinely don’t know if I can survive another year.

#i really don’t #i’m terrified #tired #exhausted #deppressed #numb #mentally tired #lonliness #pathetic #worthless #sad thoughts #passively suicidal #suicidal ideation #suicidal #hurt #empty #tired of living

[nataliesscatorccio]

Alright I've rotated it in my mind for long enough now. I don't think Laura Lee dived into the shallow end of the pool on accident. I think she was trying to kill herself. Consider. This is an intelligent and athletic girl who teaches herself to fly a plane and qualifies for Nationals, yet walks right up to the "SHALLOW END" lettering and head-first plummets.

Before this we see her sitting all alone at the pool. Detached, dreamy, expressionless. The camera pans across the other VBS kids laughing and playing together. "The devil's after me / he's always throwing bricks" they chant. She is excluded from this. Then she stands up, walks to the clearly marked edge, and hits the bottom hard. Like Lottie's baptism, Laura Lee floats motionless in the water until she is yanked out, reborn. Girls in crisis, medicated with delusions. "No, Laura Lee. I didn't save you. He did." / "That's the Holy Spirit, you've been touched."

I don't think it's difficult to infer what her home life was like before the crash. I don't think it's difficult to imagine someone wanting to escape that. Someone feeling they can't live up to the expectations of their family, the church. Shamed and neglected in the name of God. This is not a new story. Her thoughts are policed to such an extent she legitimately worries thinking the word "cunt" caused them all to crash. Her teenage bedroom is comparatively bare save for a picture she kneels to pray to on the wall above her bed and the raggedy Leonard bear she's had forever. Even her sheets are plain and white, even her clothes are just an extension of the wallpaper. Suffocating. But we know when Laura Lee is trapped, she flies her way out. Even if it's a suicide mission.

She tries to kill herself and they tell her God saved her. Now she has to believe. Now she has to trust he will protect her. Now she knows he is listening. Now he has given her a sign. Now she learns to fly a plane to save her friends because she has faith God is watching and loves her and forgave her for her sin. Now her God fails her. He wasn't saving her he was only saving her for later. Now she is punished. Now she is dead. This time, she drowns in fire.

#also I think the Laura Lee and Jackie parallels are so so so strong and Jackie's passive suicidality before her actual death #feels like a mirror of Laura Lee to me #jackie passively suicidal jackie passively dying #laura lee actively suicidal laura lee actively taking the risk of death #am I right am I wrong who knows but gosh if I don't love a theory #yellowjackets #suicide mention #laura lee #lottie matthews

[moonlit-dreamers]

hot take but i dont think sun is suicidal

i dont think hes the one with the worst mental health in this show either

besides eclipse (bc thats obvious), id say solar has the worst mental health

hes already killed 2 ppl (didnt want to kill either of them and one was on accident), is insecure about his own identity (asked computer if hes like the other eclipses, and i also bet montys... "teasing" didnt help), has no hobbies of his own, refuses to actually acknowledge his own issues, doesnt communicate to ppl and tries to "not be a bother" to others, never does anything for himself and only ever does when someone tells him to, and probably more.

but i'll analyze solar and his shit mental health later; i wanna ramble about sun

i dont think sun has ever been actively suicidal, mainly passive. in case ur wondering wut the difference is:

being passively suicidal is having thoughts and "wishes" but never actually planning to do anything. a lot of ppl will think "i wish i was dead" when in reality wut they need is a break and they have no real desire to die (this is a common thought process to have when ur burnt out or generally in a mental rut)

being actively suicidal is actually planning to do something and seeking out ways to harm urself with the intent of being severely injured or dying. this is an immediate emergency

sun never went out in search of ways to die. he never planned out ways he could kill himself. the time we heard him say "i wish i was dead" was right after he hallucinated bloodmoon and old moon taunting him. he was tired and he needed a fucking break, so he expressed that through saying "i wish i was dead". now u might be thinking "but birdcage, he did go out and do risky things knowing he might die" yes, that is true. but that does not mean that dying was his intention. he went out and did dangerous things bc he wanted to help, not die.

but if we return to the current moment; he is absolutely not suicidal. his mental health is deteriorating, yes. but from wut i can tell he hasnt shown any signs of suicidal ideation. for a while sun said he had pretty stable mental health. it was only until eclipse came back did his health really start to deteriorate again. then if u add on to how hes constantly being pushed to the side and ignored by his own family (im more than mildly frustrated by that) that is absolutely a disaster brewing under the surface. but does that mean hes currently, at the very least passively, suicidal? no. probably not. at least, from wut we can tell there isnt much to back up the idea that he is.

wut sun needs is to be acknowledged and let in on the happenings of the family instead of being ignored. he also needs to learn how to communicate better bc the severe lack of it is wuts going to cause the downfall of everyone in the show

#birdcage rambles #suicide #suicidal thoughts #i really felt like explaining the difference between passive and active suicidal thoughts is VERY important for this conversation #bc. from wut i could tell. sun was never actively suicidal #unless im missing something #it was always passive #sun and moon show #sams #tsams #the sun and moon show #sams sun #tsams sun #sun sams #sun tsams #sams solar #tsams solar #i think he still counts to be added in here since i talked about him briefly

[zeb-z]

There’s something so important about Gillion - who never heals himself, who rushes into danger, who hides his wounds- facing death and realizing he isn’t unafraid as he was raised to be. He uses his magic on himself to help with the exhaustion, to keep his life intact. And still he tries to comfort Jay and Chip while he’s coherent, being realistic about his chances but refusing to make it painful. Wanting their possible last moments to be light, to be about seemingly inconsequential things, small favorites that still mean the world to him purely because they’re Chip and Jay’s favorites. And then when all is said and done, he makes a raccoon for Jay. He talks about raspberries for Chip. He uses his last saved up arcane energy to try desperately to stay awake, and it works, and it saves him in the final hour.

It’s just. There’s something about how he hasn’t had a chance to rest since the Feywild, really, truly rest. How this whole time he’s been down on himself and taking extreme risks. And now, at what might be the end of it all, he realizes he doesn’t want to die. He wants to live. And not to be able to save others, not to fulfill his destiny, not out of obligation to anyone else - but purely for himself. For all the little things. And though it’s not quite healing in the literal term, his nearly final act was spent trying to save himself - and it worked.

#tw again for tags I’ll say and let me know if I gotta tag any more #but the past 30 episodes have been gillion tidestrider gets the shit beat out of him by the narrative #gillion tidestrider faces passive suicidality and faces old trauma and fresh new trauma #he goes through a shift of his foundation as a person he loses his sister the whole filipe thing and then this Curse #and he goes through with a mindset of ‘these problems exist because I do’ with some heavy implications behind that #it’s been getting easier and easier to choose his own destiny and break from expectations but it’s still not easy #but facing real death. slow and creeping and painful. he realizes he wants to live #not live because destiny demands it but because his friends do. because he does. because he wants to know more and share more of himself #I just. there’s something about all of it yknow #jrwi riptide 98 #jrwi 98 #jrwi #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #z speaks #at what point should I start tagging spoilers like. 100 maybe?

[allovesthings]

#Maybe screaming at Dick that he 'won't excuse him for losing sight of the value of his life' #isn't the greatest thing to say to his passively suicidal son....just saying #dc comics #bruce wayne #batman #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #cassandra cain

[honeypleasejustkillme]

therapy isnt enough for me i need to go back in time and be aborted

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #actually mentally ill #actually borderline #bpd fp #bpd mood #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #tw sui thoughts #tw sui ideation #passive suicide

[2uet]

#this post is so real #am i in my friends’ galleries? am i in my own gallery? the answer is no #passive suicidality

[phatcatphergus]

Tubbo would rather be dead then alive right now, but he couldn’t imagine leaving sunny and failing her yet again. He’s already failed her in so many ways, he can’t leave her like so many people left him. He can’t let her feel how he does, she deserves so much more then that. But if he were to fall just a bit too high, get stuck under the water for a bit too long, or just be a bit too far for someone to res him. Tubbo can’t find it in himself to care about what happens next

#he’s so passively suicidal but would never leave sunny #if something else kills him then it’s not his fault #right? #qsmp tubbo #qsmp #tubbo #qsmp sunny

[neptunes-saddest-alien]

I feel so detached from everything and everyone it’s nauseating

#tired #exhausted #deppressed #numb #mentally tired #lonliness #pathetic #worthless #dissociation #disconnected #passively suicidal #empty

[terezicaptor]

"I actually have good mental health you guys are weak" -qtubbo, who has tried to kill himself multiple times and is passively suicidal in canon

#txt #qsmp #liveblogging #passive suicidality #Tw suicide

[fairfowl]

on the subject of Stede Bonnet™

my favorite motivation for him becoming a pirate is I’m passively suicidal and I’m about to make this everyone else’s problem

We know that Ed is passively suicidal but hear me out--Stede is too, in his own special way

he doesn’t love pain or the actual idea of dying, but he’s not dumb. He chose an extremely dangerous thing to do, and then proceeds to rush in headfirst without learning any seafaring skills at all 

He would literally rather be in mortal danger than continue to live the life of a gentleman in Barbados, and then he does very little to preserve his life unless his mortality is extremely immanent 

#tw: #passively suicidal behavior #suicide #stede bonnet #ofmd #ofmd meta #our flag means death #our flag means death 2022 #our flag means death meta #blackbonnet #i contributed #original

[thefiresofpompeii]

i hope ruby gets a well-that’s-alright-then-style notdeath. on the one hand it will make haters mad because oh no not another companion with an impermanent end (and i like to see haters mad) on the other it would require creativity to depict this in a new way + i love all the implications i love the dark fairytale quality of these companion exits i love my un-undead schrodinger’s women

with the way the legend of ruby sunday is titled… legends aren’t usually told about living people. legends are stories of the bygone past, of an age long since over, fictionalised and overgrown with folklore like barnacles sticking to an abandoned shell. there is such a thing as a living legend, but they’re exceedingly rare. the unmistakeable raven’s call in the 73 yards teaser, the trailer’s cut to fifteen crying alone after promising to cherry he’d protect her daughter… the foreshadowing is clear as day…

and yet. there’s one massive HOWEVER. ruby appears in s15: millie’s been spotted on set filming it. which leads me to believe — the doctor isn’t one to take the time travel route and revisit companions that in his future are genuinely dead. that would hurt too much, it would cause unnecessary trauma and could break the timeline. that must mean ruby stays alive in some way. ish. she’s alive and a legend and a mystery. girl-ballad girl-song girl-paradox

here she is, fading out.

p.s.: thesis statement on moffatgirls from the tags i left on somebody else’s post about charley pollard.. well it belongs here since it’s basically the semiotic hurricane swirling around ruby at the moment :)

#on a personal level what interests me about these characters is precisely what gets them labeled as being subject to #misogynistic writing by pop-feminist video-essayists. as an autistic girl* (*ish) however; i find female characters that #aren’t quite ‘normal people’; women who represent an idea or concept or are a puzzle to be solved or a manic pixie dream girl to be #more and in a way far more interesting than a girl-next-door-type universally relatable protagonist #they make for more nuanced stories with more symbolism and more layers of interpretation usually. why should there be realism in a #fantastical narrative? similarly i like characters that are haunting the narrative or dead before it began (big locked tomb fan if you #didn’t know) and like. not to be tvtropes but the lost lenore archetype. dead woman who spurs the hero on to recklessness or revenge. #i identify with that dead girl. the laura palmers of the world. set the story in motion without #necessarily having agency. maybe it’s something to do with my #constant background radiation of passive suicidality. in a fun whimsical way :) i would never kill myself but i don’t want to be a real #person. i want to be objectified but not necessarily in a k*nky s*xual way (that too) in a princess in a tower way #the ultimate femme fantasy innit? there’s something about it. hashtag problematic hashtag conforming to gender roles #10000 tags be upon ye #ruby sunday #millie gibson #doctor who #dw #steven moffat #clara oswald #fifteen #fifteenth doctor #twelveclara #amy pond #charley pollard #river song #donna noble #ncuti gatwa #doctor who meta #jamie.txt #haunting