#please for the love of god i can't do this anymore

[twinkletfout]

Rude boy — part.4

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You saw his eyes swell, the red tint came into view as tears started pooling in his eyes. He looked away for a moment to play it off. You wanted to calm him, cheer him up. Be there for him. But you knew it was not your place. But before you could say anything he stood up and made himself out of the bar.

You guessed that the girl didn't see him, too busy with having so much fun with her new man. Despite the pain that slightly eased, you got up and went outside. It looked like he was calming himself down, you were glad that he was actually keeping his cool. Just like the way you are, you really can't hold back your tongue.

“Calm down, big guy. Not a big of a deal, hm? Lets go—”

You should really think before you talk, only if you thought about this before you said it anyway.

“What if it is?” it was a whisper, a mumble before his voice raised, he shouted.

“What if it is!?—” his voice cracked, holding back the tears for a minute before he continued

“She can do whatever the hell she wants? Fuck around with random guys, like its nothing?— I didn't date her for her to do that, and I, I just wanted to win her back I.. I loved her.”

you stood your ground as his voice slightly lowered, if he finally came to realise the fact that she doesn't want him anymore by taking out his anger on you. You didn't mind actually, just the way your heart aches for him right now, something also healed at the same time. And you felt guilty for feeling like this.

He was so wasted, too drunk to speak or talk that now he is spewing some random things as he kept on drinking. You told the bartender to not give him anymore, but when he realised. He gave you one pouty face like he was a goddamn toddler. And oh my god was that cute. You never saw this side of him before, it's like you unlocked something new about him and you loved this side a lot more than his usual self. You smiled to yourself before you said that it was enough and helped him stand up. Putting his hand over your shoulders as you supported his weight so he could walk easier.

Getting in the taxi was such a pain in the ass, as you finally entered the hotel and booked a room for one, the prince was literally dozing off and you had to carry him to his room. Because of this one guy, you lost your entire freaking day. You dropped him on the couch as soon as you entered the room. “God you are too heavy” you mumbled to yourself, but you knew he wasn't listening, it was like he was waiting to lay somewhere to finally sleep. But at least a good night's sleep will get everything off of his mind.

“You better call me the next morning, im leavin’ “ you said as you opened the door. You weren't expecting him to get on his feet or for his hand to wrap around your waist as he closed the door with his other with a sound. “Don't leave” his breath graced your ear as it sent a shiver down your spine. “Stay the night” he said as you turned around to face him. His whiskey eyes are getting you the one drunk now and you couldn't deny it as you looked up at him. “With me”

He leaned in, his lips almost touching yours as he waited for your consent. “We shouldn't—” you whispered. “One kiss won't hurt, hm?” His lips grew into a smirk as he said. “you are drunk, you nee—” you protested trying to push him back. “Please” he practically pleaded with those cerulean eyes, that was too hard for you to resist. And the hand that you used to push him back slightly lost strength and that was the sign he was looking for his lips to meet yours. Pulling your body towards him as your back hits the door that's now closed. One of his hands undid the few buttons of his own shirt before pushing your skirt upwards. He gave random kisses down your neck, your collarbone, your cheek before he started to grow more and more impatient.

“Luna…” he mumbled against your neck, that's what it all took for you to react.

Luna? Who is that?

You brought your hand to push him away as you put your skirt down.”Luna?..” you questioned, more likely to yourself. It didn't take you much time for the picture of his blondie lover to pop in your mind. You felt a strong pang in your chest as you figured things out. “Get some rest rude boy, i should get going now” you opened the door as he suprisingly retrieved you. “Dont call me that” he said before you leave. “Its Gojo.” he told you before turning his back as he flopped onto the couch.

Everything else was a blur, you got on a taxi and went to your own appartment. Maybe it was because your were holding yourself back from overflowing with tears.

A day passed with no contact of Gojo, but he did send the money more than that you said you wanted, you spent most of your time drawing and designing your new dress, it was your dream to make a dress of your own that will satisfy your thoughts about how good it needs to turn out. Even though you never spent much time with him or new him for a long time. Gojo always had to occupy in your mind and you hated him for that.

#gojo satoru x reader #gojo #gojo satoru #gojo satoru x y/n #gojou satoru x reader #jjk gojo #gojo x reader #jjk #jjk x reader #satoru gojo #jujutsu gojo #satorugojo #jjk satoru #jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru x you #jjk fanfic

[hoseokism]

fucking miss taemin so much i don’t know how much longer i can do this

#tp #taemin #he's coming back in april??? APRIL????? #he has served enough!!!!!!!!!! they dont need him there but i need him here!!!!!!!!!! #please for the love of god i can't do this anymore #i miss him more than anything #trashmouth

[cremanata]

chris pratt really said “...........let’s-a-go....” in the most generic, boring voice ever help

#mario movie #please for the love of god HIRE VOICE ACTORS FOR VOICE ACTING ROLES #please girlies... help me i can't keep doing this anymore... #i also want to clarify that jack black is 100% killing it and i love him

[theraggedygirl11]

I will remember this day, February 7th 2024, as the day everyone decided to kill me, because

New Bojan photo from the Damon Baker photoshoot

New Jan photo from Damon Baker photoshoot

An avalanche of Jure photos by Damon Baker (finally!)

New The Sims video from Dan&Phil

Teaser of Everybody's Waiting by Joker Out

The birthday of a youtuber I've been following for like 8 years or so (the only planned thing of the day)

Please, give me some rest, I'm mentally exhausted and I can't English anymore

#annies ranting #please for the love of god stop this #i can't do this anymore #why everything today?! #joker out #dan and phil #damon baker #jacksepticeye #yes putting all this in the main tags too i don't care who's gonna read this

[stopblowingholesinmyships]

#please for the love of god stop making us relive it i cannot do this anymore #told you once again i can't do this again do this again.... #star wars #order 66 #tales of the jedi #revange of the sith #clone wars #the clone wars #star wars the clone wars #star wars tales of the jedi #obi wan kenobi #kenobi series #rots #totj #the mandolarian #book of boba fett

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.

I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!

I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.

#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying. #like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD #and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful #maybe I should try drugs #probably. #maybe I should start drinking again #that made it bearable #but no that's. stupid #but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row #I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to #not really care anymore after a couple months #what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again?? #I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me. #and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die. #anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth #someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please #and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be #I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not #watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :) #I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it. #I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it #feels! I'm not real. #so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please #I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming. #maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :) #haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person #guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap. #personal

[beskad]

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#oh. it's because i got cocky and had 2 drinks. FOUR DAYS AGO. #jesus christttt the reaction is SO DELAYED. Have 1-2 drinks. Fine for 2-3 days. Massive depressive dip on day 3 or 4. #this fuckin sucks i LOVE alcohol and i drink SO RARELY and i can't even have the occasional 1-2 drinks once a week anymore #because of this stupid fucking medication that isn't doing anything for me anyway #because shocker - I'm just traumatized. my issues are because of trauma #20+ years of constant fear of bodily harm will fuck you up for life #and antidepressants won't fix me because it's not that I'm Just Depressed TM #I'm TRAUMATIZED. constant threats of violence. religious brainwashing. parentification. ripping my siblings (who I RAISED) from me #so please god don't make me try a 7th antidepressant that will just land me in the ER again. they only ever disrupt me and make me Way Wors #but i can't afford the type of therapy i need #so #god #at least let me have my fuckin wine I'm begging #but I guess at least I realized why I've been doing so badly yesterday and today. smh. #it's hidden in the tags bc I'm just venting but just in case #have a trauma tw for filters I guess #TBD

[artypjmlbss]

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#why can I never please you? #I am trying my best to be who you want me to be #YOU have ruined my life #I have pushed MY dreams and wishes for you #you want me to pursue my dreams and wishes #but when I do you detest it #pick a side for the love of god #I don't want to deal with your shit anymore #I shouldn't be #yet I still am here #I can't keep excusing it it's time I stop #I'm sorry... #vent #erika rambles

[dominoblues]

the Kaiba brotherhood in a nutshell.

credits to @maskofbun on twitter. OG here

#i have this scene in my head after seto comes back from the quantum reality #and he is like almost dead in a coma on a hospital bed with a brain injury #and mokuba is a mess he's been a mess for 300 days #and he tried to survive as best as he could #and the pain that both of them have to deal with #please just stop tryìng killing yourself big brother #don't leave me anymore please #i can't #now i'm crying #i have to write this fic asap #so much drama #oh my god why do i love them so much #seto kaiba #mokuba kaiba #domino blues #kaiba bros

[shippy-from-apocalypse]

Y'all why isn't there a video essay about Min Ryan and The Queer Reading of infinity train book 4 i feel like this is something that should exist like

#god i wish i could organize my thoughts about them hh #there are MANY #and i know they make a point i know it #season 4 is not only enjoyable like that it works without the queer narrative #but it's just BETTER if you read it as queer im sorry #also i do notice how some people make super in dept analysis about season 1 and 3 #but suddenly forget they can read beyond whats explicitly on the screen for seasons 2 and 4 #sorry i just really don't love the whole ''can't male friends be just Friends anymore?'' talk #please if anyone has any video essays or posts analyzing book 4 through a queer lense please send me the link #shippy says stuff #infinity train #infinity train book 4 #infinity train duet #ryan akagi #min gi park

[yeslordmyking]

I want to be a crazy fashionista fangirl again 💔

#not that i'm like not anymore. i just feel guilty for enjoying worldly things so i stopped watching tv and listening to music #it's been months. it's torture. i want to watch lightyear and thor and listen to harry's latest album and be an ahgase again and- #but i'm satisfied by things other than God. i'm unholy. so i can't enjoy life anymore #just bible study and praise and prayer and service and holy suffering #i can't believe i'm sitting here not knowing what wonho's facade album sounds like and i won't ever get to watch jackson's cruel mv cuz 😈 #i know the song is about »fighting« your demons and i think he wins but Jackson baby boo imma christian i can't be seen streaming that mv😅 #it looks risky y'know. i know you've been through some dark times tho. that's the story you're telling #just don't know if God will be pleased with my support of it because i'm second guessing everything 🙄 #like i didn't see multiverse because... and it kinda kills me cuz i think that's a pivotal film for following the mcu story #will i ever watch mcu and disney films again? will i listen to music again? will i like clothes without being attacked by anxiety? #all these things of the world. is it ok with God to care about them and enjoy them? everything feels evil now. and most things are 🤷🏽‍♀️ #forgive me Lord for the people i love and the things i enjoy. i didn't guard my heart i suppose. i know i can't avoid absolutely everything #but how will i ever enjoy life if i psychoanalyze and scrutinize everything for unholiness? i'll find bad in everything and everyone #i'll have to hate everything.... #i'm so tired.... i can't do this... Lord why am i on this earth only to have to hate everything my heart wants? #and to reduce the people i care about to wicked sinners i mustn't support anymore? #what.... what do i do???

[shebrakesforrainbows]

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#i was so in love with you. so blind that i never realized you were never really here #you never loved me the way i loved you. if you loved me you wouldn't have left me to rot #left me to rot like a garbage bag of organs and tears #how could you do this to me #why would you choose my abuser over me #you saw the way i was afraid of her. you listened to me have a breakdown. #but it was entertainment to you. because of all the times you left me to suffer alone while i was screamed at and bullied #i don't want to wake up anymore #i don't want to live like this anymore #there's no point to anything #i wish my parents loved me #i wish i had friends #i wish you chose me #i wish this was all just a bad dream #please god. just make it all go away #i can't breathe.

[d-e-w-p]

Vent

I ccan't keep doing this. I can't keep caring about this. About being enough. About being smart enough to be useful, witty enough to be entertaining, talented enough to praise.

8 can't keep trying to prove I'm good enough to be included. I can't keep trying to speak up and be ignored.

8 wish I were told to go away. To leave. 8 wish I had the certainty of dislike or apathy. If 8 knew there wasn't a reason to keep trying.

Because trying to be good enough when I Never will be? Keeping the toxic sickening hope alive?

It's hollowing me out. It's killing the parts of me that make me myself. I'm becoming less and less of a person just for the hope 8 will be wanted and included.

But I know I won't. But hope won't let me stop trying.

And 8 feel sick and nauseated and exhausted and too fucking tired to cry about it all.

Just. Someone tell me. Tell me whether there's a point to this anymore. Please I am begging you. Please just. Tell me one way or the other.

Don't let hope be what kills me. Please. Let me have an option.

Please

#Nausea #Not enough #sad hours #vent #Hope #Is killing me #8 can't keep doing this #Please #Just tell me if anything I'm doing is worth it #If 8 will ever matter #One way or another #At least I'll know. At least I can do something #8 don't want to die like this #Don't want to die hoping #please for the love of god #Just tell me #8 can't do it anymore #Unwanted #Ostracised

[384302]

I love love love the moment in Gideon the Ninth where the Third challenges the Sixth in a clearly unfair move, and Gideon, half-on-instinct, still faking a vow of silence, simply unsheathes her sword, at which Harrow doesn't miss a beat and says her "The Ninth House will represent the Sixth House" line, while Gideon just smiles.

In Gideon's head this is "I am not standing for this shit anymore. For the love of God, Harrow, please understand what I'm doing and back me up here. Oh thank fuck you've got it. I'm so happy I could kiss you."

In Harrow's head this appears to be "For fuck's sakes, Nav, what do you think you're doing. Ok, think. Can't give anything away. Have to project unity, but fuck you, Griddle, for making me do this."

But for everyone else this is the legendary, mysterious, terrifying, bone magicians of the Ninth House, with no warning, stepping between the Sixth and the Third. The skull-faced cavalier who hasn't said a single word simply drawing her sword. The shockingly powerful and inscrutable necromancer matter-of-factly declaring an alliance that no-one, even the supposed allies, knew about. The sinister smirk on the cavalier's face. And the line from Harrowhark: "Death first to vultures and scavengers."

I love it so much and I love additionally the moment that this sets up in the climax, which is essentially the same emotional beat, the key changes being 1) both Harrow and Gideon have become open and vocal with each other; 2) both Harrow and Gideon are working together consciously as well as instinctively; 3) their opponents don't back down so they follow through. "Nav, show them what the Ninth House does." "We do bones, motherfucker."

#the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #griddlehark #tlt

[lxnarphase]

come and put your name on it ๋࣭ ⭑

special treatment : lap edition

☾₊‧⁺...ft. : gojo satoru + geto suguru + nanami kento + fushiguro toji + hakari kinji

☾₊‧⁺...cw : cockwarming, somnophilia, dirty talk, grinding + dry humping, fingerfucking, overstimulation, praise kink, edging, oral fixation, satoru's silly pet names, suguru being smug, kento being a desperate man, toji being toji, kinji being a bully

✧ g. satoru : sometimes gojo knows he fucks you too good to the point you can't think after, something he brags about to you all the time. but when you snuggle up to him, still stuffed with his cock and warm with his cum, he can't help but run his hands all over you. and when he realizes you fell asleep on his dick, his heart squeezes and his cock throbs hard.

"pretty angel, did you fall asleep? oh, that's just precious...you're making my heart squeeze, i wish i had my phone, you look so cute like this." "did you say my name? dreaming about me? god, you're so precious, i could just fuck you like this...shit, don't fuckin' squeeze on me like that, are you having a wet dream right now? god, i love you so fucking much." "aww, my little mochi is so cute! look at youuu, you're gushin' all over the place. messy fucking pussy too small to keep my cock and all my cum inside you." "mm, fuck, pretty thing. you wakin' up? hi pretty girl...oooh, fuck, d-did you just cum? holy fuck, c'mon, baby, on your back, lemme fuck you, princess, let 'toru make you cum again, yeah?”

✧ g. suguru : suguru's softly cooing at you when you sleepily walk into the living room, whining to him that you had a dream and you wanted him to 'fix the problem he caused.' all he can do is just chuckle at how childish and bratty you can be as his hands are moving up and down your sides while he grinds up into you.

"you're such a brat, you know that right? always blaming me for your dreams. it's not my fault you can't stop thinking about how good i fuck you." "hmm? ooh, i see...you keep having dreams of me cumming inside you, hm? are you trying to say something, princess? d'you want me to start breeding you?" "i didn't say stop moving, did i? or do you need me to do all the work? heh, so spoiled, i've spoiled you absolutely rotten." "i know, but just cum once like this, won't you? if you do, i promise i'll fill your cute pussy with my cum, okay? mhm, promise, princess, i'll give you what you need."

✧ n. kento : nanami loves having you close to him, especially when you sit in his lap. it lets him nuzzle his nose into your neck, pressing little kisses where he can while your legs are spread over his strong thighs, his thick fingers leisurely pumping in and out of your needy hole, chuckling against your skin whenever you jolt.

"honey, have i mentioned how gorgeous you are? you look so beautiful like this...spread open and wanting, just for me." "you're sucking my fingers in so well. look at that...do you think you can take a third?" "it's so messy. look at what you've done to my fingers, honey, they're soaked. clean them off for me, i want you to taste yourself before i put them back in. maybe tonight we can make you squirt, hm? do you wanna try, darling?" "you think you're going to cum again? poor thing, your little cunt is so greedy, she just wants to cum over and over again on my fingers...is my cock not good enough for you, mm? aww, don't pout, i'm just teasing you, darling." "i know, i know, it's too much, but you can take it. be my good girl, just take it and keep cumming until you can't anymore."

✧ f. toji : sitting on toji's lap is, in his mind, an invitation for him to run his hands all over you. his cock is already hard in his sweats, but he's subdued the second you get comfortable and slowly grind against him, groaning when you press sweet kisses into his neck.

"tch, are you gonna let me fuck your thighs t'night? pretty please? yeah, that's right, i'm askin' nicely. why? don't play stupid, doll, you know what they do to me." "shit...keep moving those hips, sweetheart, you feel so fuckin' good like this." "god, i can feel that pretty pussy leaking through my sweats. big bad toji make you that fuckin' wet, mama? y'like grinding that clit on my dick through my pants? dirty fucking girl." "mmh, you keep tugging my hair like that and I'm not even gonna take you to the bedroom, i will fuck you into this damn couch, woman.” "listen here, wifey, I'll wreck your cunt until you can't think about anything but me inside you. hell, I'll ruin this stupid couch in the process, i don't give a fuck about stainin' it."

✧ h. kinji : when you sit on kinji's lap, it's when he's watching a fight on tv. you can tell it's not going how he wants it to go, the toothpick between his teeth being gnawed on. when you make eye contact with him, he just raises an eyebrow, one of his hands squeezing your hip.

"cupcake, do me a favor and get on my dick before i get up and give us a reason to get a new tv." "hey, hey, don't move yet, let me see if he lands this punch...don't whine like that before i put my fingers in that pretty little mouth t' shut you up." "you always squeeze so tight when i press down on your tongue like this...pretty thing likes that shit, doesn't she? go on, fuck yourself on my dick while you drool all on my fingers like a slut." "mm, shit, baby, i can't focus on that bullshit fight, lemme help you. yeah, thaaaat's it, let your boy fuck you nice and deep, make ya cream, juuuust like this."

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#gojo smut #geto smut #nanami smut #toji smut #hakari smut #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #gojo x reader #nanami x reader #geto x reader #toji x reader #hakari x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo satoru smut #toji fushiguro smut #nanami kento smut #geto suguru smut #hakari kinji smut #𖤐 ── lxnarworks. #💎 ── satoru. #🔮 ── suguru. #🥂 ── kento. #🔪 ── toji. #🥃 ── kinji.

[real-life-cloud]

i love palia but the way account syncing works is dogshit

#the sky speaks #like its sooooo fun im playing rn #i love helping ppl too everyone ive talked to is so nice #but oh my god so okay its kind iv my own fault right? but i get the game on my switch thinking: #oh ill try it but theres no way itll stick. new games never rly stick with me anymore i swear. ←abput to be so wrong #so bc of that when it told me in big letters IF YOU WANT A SYNCED ACCOUNT DO IT NOW OR U JUST CANT LOL! #i was like eh whatever i dont FEEEEL like it #and i play the game. i adore it. i would like a synced account please tho bc playing kn switch isnt actually a great experience #pc is so much better #looks better runs better easier to type in chat #i can actually aim with keyboard and mouse when i hunt #but i had to make a new account 💔 #which like fine. i wasnt auper far in anyways #but now! im like ah! ill just forget abt my og account. and link my new one. start fresh :) easy peasy :) #EXCEPT U CAN'T LOG OUT ON SWITCH???? #EVEN IF I DELETE SAVE DATA. OR DELETE AND REDOWNLOAD APP ALTOGETHER #OLD ACCOUNT FOREVER THERE HAUNTING ME #HELL HELL HELL #anyways if anybody on here plays drop ur username so can find u :) at least pc and switch ppl can play together.. #or if its easier to find me w my username its just reallifecloud all one word ! #anyone feel free ta add meeee :P