#smiling through my tears

[longvacation]

Thank you seb for the highest of highs, and the lowest of lows. I’ve loved every bit of it too. ❤️

#sebastian vettel #smiling through my tears #I’m gonna miss him so much #there will never be anyone like him

[milflewis]

valtteri was like. hold my beer babe i got you

#as a valewis girlie i am always winning #smiling through my tears #niamh.lb #dutch gp 2022 #f1

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

[stedesbonnets]

I am not afraid to keep on living Nothing you can say can stop me going home

#[smiling through tears] thanks mcr for my daily breakdown !!! #our flag means death #ofmdedit #ofmdaily #stede bonnet #stedebonnetedit #gifs* #mine* #i really am crying bc of this band

[tiniinbookland]

i'm foaming at the mouth I MISSED HIS RAMBLING SO BAD

like. i'm always just so in awe how passionate, how determined, how excited Dream is, it's so damn admirable and i love that for him.

and it's so sweet (and relatable ngl) that he wants to share this excitement with us even if it's prematurely and oughhh :(((

#i may have teared up a tiny bit on the way home #and then walked through my neighbourhood smiling like a moron #BUT MAN #dreamwastaken #dreamblr

[andsomedaykindness]

i won't lie i think it's very funny (in. in a sad way) if most of the chain are having a good time during lu. like, they're hanging out with these other guys who actually GET them in a way almost no one else can, and they don't have to do all the fighting by themselves for once, and they're eating great food all the time and so on. sure, some of them miss their families or homes or whatever, and obviously they sometimes get hurt and have bad experiences, but for the most part they're all chilling.

...and then there's sky. sky, who during the entire thing is absolutely haunted by the fact that all of these people have suffered so much because of him. pretty much all of them began their quests as children, and it was his fault. sky, who doesn't say a word about the curse to anyone, who keeps all his guilt and horror and self-loathing locked up tight inside his chest. every time someone alludes to a traumatic event-even when they're just making a joke-sky has to look away for a moment to compose himself. because that trauma was his fault, too. it only happened because he failed.

he loves the other links just as much as any of them do. he also sees them as his family. but he can only forget himself and actually have a good time briefly, because he'll see time's eye or wild's scars and suddenly remember that he was the one who doomed them all.

(and you would never guess how he's feeling, how he's constantly being crushed under the massive weight of his guilt. he's always sleeping or talking about sun or carving or playing his harp. he seems so peaceful, so happy. he suffers so much, but he suffers in silence. after all, he doesn't deserve to tell anyone how he feels. not when it's all his fault.)

#linked universe #i cry over him #i just think it's fun to put him through the Horrors #never enough sky angst #to be clear i absolutely don't blame sky for the curse #dude killed a god! there had to be consequences #but i do think he would absolutely blame himself for it #and i think it would tear him up inside #this was inspired by that chain smile compilation #everyone thought sky would be one of the members of the chain who smiled the most; in fact he was one of those who smiled the least #and so many of those smiles were small and tight-lipped and strained #he suffers so much but he suffers in silence!!! #god i love him. so much. #i'm going to make myself cry #my posts

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Pokémon said bisexual rights 🫵✨✨✨

#fluff binges !!! #treating myself to more Horizons eps since I had a pretty awful past week mentally and need a pick-me-up #I keep smiling so wide while watching this series it's just so lighthearted and sweet #and can get unexpectedly resonant at times (I'd honest to god tear up from Liko's moments early on because right now identity's something-- #--I'm deeply struggling with - so seeing her always want to try and find out more about the kind of trainer she wants to be hits close) #this series is comforting to me and I get to enjoy it at my own time and pace 💖💕✨ #(that may seem like a superficial thing but I've been through a lot lately aight I'm taking the little joys I can) #(and frankly I've been............... hiding out from other places because I just. need time away from things) #(so let me be silly on my lil blog here this is like a safe space heehaw 💃💃💃) #but anyways Horizons is for the queers amen #I'm not going insane right like . y'all see the queer-coding in other episodes tooSDKJFSJNDFNS #I also say bisexual Orio because of her talking about Friede earlier on there were sparks aiiiight they're cute #pokemon horizons #anipoke #pokeani #orio pokemon

[lilja4ever]

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#smiling through the tears cant believe this is my life

[hillsfool]

scrolling through my personal mclennon tag as prep for now and then (i am still definitely going to be a mess)

#scroll through my john&paul tag for free smiles and tears #the beatles #mclennon #.speaking

[catharusustulatus]

Steve and Robin go to Vegas for Steve’s 25th birthday. They say fuck it, let’s get married for fun and so they do, with an Elvis impersonator as their officiant. After beautiful vows that make even Elvis cry, Steve shocks everyone by turning to kiss not his “bride” but his “best man,” who has been Eddie tagging along on the trip the whole time. After Elvis kicks them out, they eat pancakes as newlyweds.

#stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #steddie #st headcanons #just a thought #a happy little thought I had #you know Steve and Robin are soulmates so they have actually beautiful heartbreaking vows #even Eddie is crying #even the piano player is crying #Steve looks at Robin with stars in his eyes and says #you saved me your friendship saved me just by having you in my life you saved me #and Robin says through tears you’re my best friend and no matter where we end up I’ll be there #and then Steve and Eddie kiss #laughing and smiling as they do #and confuse the hell out of everyone before they’re kicked out #Robin gives Eddie her ring from across the booth in the pancake place #and he fiddles with it before sliding it on #and then they all laugh and laugh over their pancake breakfast #it’s nothing official #but it’s everything to all of them

[matchandelure]

binge read all of kaiju no 8 a couple days ago :::) and im all caught up w the anime now too i am hooked holy

#haha i start my internship in a couple days so im feeling really shitty and anxious and need to bury my feelings w new media #I LOVE THIS SERIES??!!! A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i didnt do research before starting the anime like i usually do..so i had zero idea who the voice actors were #BUT THEN I HEARD HOSHINA SAY ONE LINE AND WAS IMMEDIATELY LIKE. ASAGIRI GEN IS THAT YOU?!?!??!?@??@?@!?!!?!?!!! #IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND OOOOOOOH THE ACCENT IS PERFECT!!!!! #hoshina is my favourite.....silly guy who wields his sword for fun... i also caught up with b side bc i heard he was the main #and i cried lol... #also cried a couple more times during my run through the manga haha #kafka... ohhhhh kafka as a protag!!!!!! HES SO SO AMAZING #guy in his 30s fueld by a promise w his childhood friend to stand next to her and eliminate all the monsters #THE WAY HE CARES SO MUCH ;O; THE IMPACT HES HAD ON BOTH RENO AND KIKORU #KIKORU MY DAUGHTER ;O; SHES DONE SO MUCH SHES DONE SO WELL SHES AMAZING SHE DESERVES SO MUCH PRAISE AND LOVE #yea....i like these guys i think they are very very cool I CANNOT WAIT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THEM #honestly kn8 episodes are gonna be what gets me through the weeks now... #both these eps and ALSO THE NEW TOURABU ANIME BUT IM SO SAD ITS ENDING IN 3 MROE EPS :((( #literally either teared up cried or screamed or all 3 a ton as i watched each episode tkrb will always cheer me up #i am gods most predictable pathetically weak soldier i saw hoshina who smiles like ranpo and laughs and jokes around constantly and yet als #has this huge sense of like... what is my purpose. what is my proof of existence. how can i be asked to just drop the one thing that ive #kept at all my life. thats all i have out here thats the only way for me to save people and prove i existed #that keeps me this role in this force in this organization and this is all i ahve to live for #HES SO URUHRHTUGHGSDFKJFK #GUY WHO ON THE SURFACE SEEMS SO HAPPY GO LUCKY AND SIMPLE WHO SHOUDLERS AND KEEPS SO MUCH TO HIMSELF WHO IS SO PASSIONATE ABOUT ONE THING #THAT HAS SHAPED HIS ENTIRE LIFE WHO CARES SO SO MUCH AND JUST WANTS TO DO WHATEVER HE CAN BECAUSE ITS ALL HE CAN DO #i discovered bsd when i was 14 years old discovered ranpo bsd and was never the same #comfort character fr actually..so comfort character that it transcends just the one series #lol enough rambling i shall go back to playing hades watching one piece with kn8 manga tab open split screen style and listening to p3r #soundtrack so that i can stop thinking and forget that i am actually somehow a person #willows rambling branch

[kkst0904]

#i’m too sad to put my effort into something #i can’t smile and say thank you and goodbye yet #i just wanna bury myself deep in my aus and not think about the future yet #but i know as he goes on his own journey without me it’s time for me to go on my own too #next year is going to be a big change in my life and even though i’m so heartbroken about this #something about satoshi leaving is comforting in a way? #it just inspires me to do my best #sorry for getting sappy #i know i mostly just draw my ship but satoshi means the world to me #he got me through so so much the past few years #so give me some time and i’ll be able to make a proper goodbye drawing for him #i hope i can end the final mini series with a smile (as well as all my tears haha) #satoshi #my sunshine #fr just been crying playing mezase pkmn master on replay LOL help #but i’ll get there ❤️

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

im just thinking about rainy days in Liyue, foul legacy has his head buried in your neck while you're cooking dinner and purr because you feel warm and safe when the sky is dark and the rain is loud </3 with time he will learn to love these rainy days because it mean cozy time in his blankets nest with you and he falls in love even harder when you're sleepily hugging him while falling asleep to the sound of rain against the window and him loudly purring. Sometimes he see you smile in your sleep, if he knew it was due to him being in your dream mothman would probably cry happy tears!

i cant remember if you already wrote something like that but i got this nightly thought and it helped me fall asleep so i wanted to share with u <3 i hope you're doing well!

as someone who lives in a place that's almost ALWAYS rainy i approve of this SO much

if you had work that day, you come home with a wet coat and shoes, shaking droplets of water from your hair as Foul Legacy bounds downstairs to greet you. no matter how difficult or annoying the endless documents and questions were, a wide smile would always grow on your face when Legacy scooped you into a hug, chirping and trilling with delight. he's been waiting for you all day!! waiting for the moment he could curl around you and rest his head in your lap, protected from the thunderous rain outside

it's strange- when you're with him, everything seems a bit brighter. where before he saw only windows being beaten by the storm outside, now he sees every droplet of water glimmering like a crystal, slowly sliding down the glass as you sigh happily and nestle closer. even when you're asleep you desire to be as close as possible, gently curling your hands into Foul Legacy's lilac fluff. it's so warm and cozy next to him, and even in slumber you have a small, familiar smile on your face as he bumps his forehead against yours, purring soothingly so you sleep even better. perhaps he'll even meet you in your dreams tonight- although this moment seems to be a very lovely dream already <33

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #chit chat #anon #someone (me) has listened to the Nahida and Ruhkka cutscene too much #A Dream of Falling Branches my love....... #aaa when you wake up you have a smile and you tell him that you dreamed of him #and he gets sooooo overwhelmed with happiness just squeaking and cheeping through happy tears #short scenario #other's stuff

[evilromero]

not quite here and not quite there

#smile and nod and scroll on if you'd like team i'm just getting a feeling out here #she's using breakup songs to explain her relationship with feeling disconnected from places shes called home !! someone stop her #um to be clear. i think i'm mostly through it. and i'm latching onto i know the end for other reasons at the minute #but we move #in order: #buzzcut season lorde #i know the end phoebe bridgers #summer night 1890 winslow homer #my tears ricochet taylor swift #two slow dancers mitski #a bar at the flies-bergere manet #i've wanted you first aid kit #(shocker) #writer in the dark lorde #the day i first saw a web weaving post the timeline shifted to a darker place

[leadersguilt]

CAN WE JUST? CAN WE JUST?

#out of. #not to go insane but. first picture (sans connie) is picture of my brain every day. jean and reiner have been my main boys since 2018 and #honestly? seeing it all animated. seeing whats happened im so (woman who knew what was coming still finds herself crying #i literally watched the last 45 mins of tht with tears in my eyes so migght have to rewatch it #anyway much love to jean the man with the LOOKS #the fact that reiner is now smiling despite everything hes been through #them all managing to joke despite their lives on the line #the ending seeing it again rlly hasnt hit me rn but all i can do is just (weeps) #theres a lot to discuss but lord am i still processing it #jean looks so good. he even looked good as a titan ITS NOT FAIR #spoilers /

[void-botanist]

Thade Adventures: Parkour

OCs: Thade Orech-Pabat, Caladea Ores-Pabat, and Pirianus Orech-Pabat

Words: 500

Content warnings: heights, getting kinda made fun of in front of your crush

Taglist: @vacantgodling

“Do you think it’s possible to parkour all the way down to the ground floor from here?” Thade said, leaning against the railing at the edge of the open space that cut all the way down to said ground floor.

“Maybe,” Caladea said, barely looking up from her phone.

He grinned.  “You think I should try?”

She looked up for real.  “No, you can’t parkour.”

“I can totally parkour,” he said, pushing himself up on his arms so that his hips rested against the top of the railing.  He brought one sandaled foot up between his hands—he wasn’t going to go further than crouching on the rail, because he couldn’t parkour, but his foot slipped out from under him and his arms betrayed him and he found himself bent double over the railing, clinging to the slats, his feet barely skimming the carpet.  The fourth floor suddenly looked very high up.  

“Okay, I take it back,” he said.  “Can you help me?”  If he’d been with anyone but Caladea, they probably would have left him there to think about his actions for a while, but she came over right away to haul him back up by his pants waistband.  Which would have worked if he hadn’t chosen this moment to be wearing sweatpants.  Instead of helping, she just pulled down his pants, and he suspected also his boxer briefs.

“Oh no, I’m sorry,” she said like it was an accident, but she was also giggling.  

“Callie, you better not be filming this.”

“I’m not.”  Giggle giggle.  She must be, because she certainly wasn’t helping him.  He kicked his legs a little bit and felt a cold rush of fear as he shifted forward on the rail.  Well, this was fine.  He could just work his way back up the slats with his hands, and he would eventually slide back onto the floor.  It wouldn’t be easy, but it would be faster.  He’d hardly started when he felt familiar rough-edged hands on his hips and he was ungraciously pulled back upright.  As his blood stopped pooling in his head, he beheld Pirianus standing there, frowning as always.  That is, until Caladea showed him something on her phone, and he cracked a tiny blue-edged smile.

“Thanks,” Thade said with zero gratitude, pulling up his stupid sweatpants.  Before he could escape these two chucklefucks, though, Caladea turned her phone on him, and he was met with a photo of himself stranded over the rail, his panicked face looking through the slats, and his hairy asscrack surrounded by ironic hearts and sparkles.  Across the top was the word PARKOUR flanked with party poppers and flames.

“Great, thank you,” he said with a fake smile.  It should have been funny.  He should have been laughing—he could take a joke at his expense any day of the week—but instead he felt his cheeks burning.  “I’ll get that put on my calling cards.”  

He didn’t look at her or Pirianus as he walked away.

#it WAS an accident however. this did not stop her from taking the opportunity #this one actually made me feel kinda bad for him. because yeah normally he would laugh it off and be fine #in fact if Caladea had managed to get him back up onto the floor he would have been howling about that picture #“no put a clown emoji on my face. yes I promise not to fake parkour again” (this is a lie but it will be less dangerous next time) #that's really what she intended. Caladea is not a mean-spirited person #and shouldn't he have been able to see Pirianus's little smile and be fine anyway? but he knows Pirianus doesn't actually like him #and this otherwise hilarious situation is pouring piles of salt in that wound #so anyway I think Thade has spent most of the last thirteen years pining after someone who will not let him in in the slightest #so he laughs it off and is “fine” with it but this is going to be an absolute powder keg when Kiatcarmen dies #(on that note do you think their theme song is Total Eclipse of the Heart) #Marcus's polycule: tearful heartfelt reunion #Minaya's polycule: trying to hold it together through the funeral and coronation #Kiatcarmen's polycule: just two guys. fighting in the hallway. their husband and wife are ignoring them #(Marcus's polycule is betting on whether they're going to wrestle each other in the hallway tbh) #c: Thade #c: Caladea #c: Pirianus #wip: iecunem #rose writ #thade adventures #rose brambles