#so depressed right now

[littlemisscollateraldamage]

life is not fun right now

#so depressed right now #need a fucking break so bad #*

[that-irishman-fan]

POST GOOD OMENS SEASON TWO AND NO SPOILERS BUT I AM IN WITHDRAWAL, DEPRESSION, HEARTBREAK, AND UTTER AGONY AT THIS MOMENT

#that irishman fan #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season two #aziraphael and Crowley #crowley good omens #aziraphale good omens #good omens season two conclusions #so depressed right now #is it possible to be missing something even though it’s not real? #my list of priorities the love lives of fictional characters

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction- #is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy) #I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head- #the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right? #being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing) #bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

[zialinart]

My submission for the fan book for Black sails tenth yeah anniversary

Thank you so much @tobys-walrus-crew for organising this ! Can't wait to see the book !! Also thank you @myfavoritespotonthecitadel for doing the text

#black sails #toby stephens #captain flint #james flint #captain james flint #black sails fanart #no but seriously i'm so glad to have done this because i'm so behind at art right now #i've done two things in 6 months #depression is shit #but maybe it'll get me to draw again #a little #things

[trappednyourheart]

The wrong DNA test

( what if, Sheila wasn't really Jason's mother? The system is already corrupted, then what about the test?).

A huge brawl containing every rogue had started at the time of Halloween, causing the people from downtown to fled there home's as joker had clownized the whole neighborhood with his goon's.

Every bats had taken to groups to take out the three parts of Gotham's as the rogue's had started to make alliances, some had lasted quite long while had conflicts, and causing a big damage to Arkham asylum,

It didn't take long before they captured all of them, none of the bats questions as they observed Jason glowing green eyes starting to flick, they thought it was the pit again, growing wary of the cooperation, but Crime alley was involved and that mean business to Red hood's turf.

Catherine todd love her son as her own even if not biological, Jason knew that. But her thing with drugs couldn't make her stop.

Sometimes after that, they could hear Jason humming a tune,a nice melody from Damian's statement saying that Jason muttered to him “ lullaby” as Jason continued to read his book, maybe it could be from Catherine,

they knew how Jason's past with Catherine todd, his mom even if not related, Catherine loves her son like her own kid but her doing drugs and... overdosing couldn't be stop.

Maybe Jason just remembered his mother maybe reminiscing atleast something familiar...even if it was a bad time.

Jason had constantly have been hearing a woman's? Man's? Voice, singing him a lullaby...it soothing, like as if he known and loved this melody...and that's where the dreams kept coming, there was a person, giving him kisses, Talkin to him stories, singing him lullabies and soothing him, he could dream that he was actually a baby, a baby from a normal couple, well don't count the luxurious baby room.

Jason had took out a conspiracies why he was getting this dreams, ( he swears he's not becoming Tim) and voices, maybe like a misshapen memories from the pits of victims? No it's to peaceful for that, maybe magic? He already contacted Constantine but surely hang up after knowing who it was-

Just how is he getting this dreams? Unless it wasn't.... So he proved again his point, he started a DNA test, again but none had records...of Sheila being his biological mother...that was weird, last time he had a test was from the time as robin..and before his-

So he went to that hospital who had said where Sheila had given birth to him, and most of shock is that no one knows a mother giving birth named Sheila haywood but had a document of a baby, of one Jason jay nightingale, the most believing part was that it's the same day he was born in.

His mother, Daniel F. Nightingale was said to be trans as the doctor who help his mother safely delivered him, And saying that his mother loved him,

one Sheila Haywood had the constant trick to get him and taken him as his own, because his mother's family was a wealthy one they practically sold him to her.

Jason had thought that maybe his mother's family never wanted him to have a son with a man from Gotham's crime alley.

Meanwhile Danny had just been YEETED to the DC universe before the start of Batman's justice thing and had been adopted by a very wealthy fruit loops couple as there kid, so he stayed as the couples daughter even pretending, because he owed ghost writer a favor for the last time, and as DC universe exist so it's story, and one thing for sure the child he had to give birth in this universe has a very complicated fate,

he did the one night stand from his supposed friend Willis Todd? He had to befriend him as Dalia F. nightingale the supposed Wealthy daughter who fell in love with a peasant trope, and gotten pregnant making it a scandal, and reaching to his ‘parents’ circle and getting that drama.

But he never thought he would care for his child, his little jay, his ghost side would purr in delight when they held Jason, he was a very hard sucker especially from his pacifier or his breast, it's so weird being in a women body,

but the way his ‘parents’ sold his son to the women who was supposed to get his son killed and being revived by cheap parody ass of ectoplasm.

He went feral, he had an argument to his ‘parents’ but all fell deaf ears, he couldn't find his son in one of the hotels nearby where that BXtch was.

And that time was where his part of the script was fulfilled, ghost writer already took him, both sides of his, were angry.

He. will. get. his. baby. back.

#dcxdp #Danny phantom #dcxdp crossover #Mom!Danny #Batfam #Jason todd #portraits #When the bats find this they decided to help find Jason's Mom only to find out she went missing #his Jay Nightingale now #yes- im getting of topic #so lets just say that clockwork has also has some things involved with his #dcdp #batfam #and ghostwriter #so if this doesn't go to your timeline aus or smth or cannon idk what to say #when the bats found out about Jason's investigation to find his mother #they gladly help but after finding where jason's grandparents who sold him to Haywood #they meet with them #and the whole revealed was much more depressing because His mother died/missing/suicide #Ghost writer was the one who plan the...The death scene. #so jason is sad #and very much wants his momma #because thats how ghost parents shit is right? #yeah i dont think im educated enough #So the grandparents are like grieving for there son (yes they accepted his trans btw). #and let jason and the rest of the batfam in there manor/castle ( cause there seriously old money) and introduce jason to his mom's things #portraits of danny #telling stories of danny in his youth. #but they avoided the way he ‘died’ for ghost writers plot conveniences but they mention #green...like ectoplasm but they just called it green liquid.

[ineed-to-sleep]

THEY BROUGHT BABY TO THE BATTLE?? THEY ARMOURED BABY??? THEY EXPECT ME TO SEND BABY TO FIGHT?????

^ my face when I discover they expect me to send baby to fight

#NO. NO #YOU SEND BABY BACK TO CAMP RIGHT NOW #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #I understand he's all grown up and he's an owlbear and wants to fight and kill and maim etc I'm very proud of him #but in the middle of all the MIND FLAYERS?? with the NETHERBRAIN???? no. just no #he'll lose health and die so so fast and I will simply enter into a bottomless pit of depression. we can't have that #oc.nawen #sleep.txt

[cc-kote]

My girlfriend is the absolute love of my life and I am REELING right now. She met Dee Bradley Baker today and got him to sign a picture of Dogma she drew for me and I'm going to fucking CRY y'all look at this shit.

"Dogma deserves forgiveness!" BRO I AM CLUTCHING MY CHEST AND WAILING RIGHT NOW.

#MY BABY BOY GOT SOME LOVE 😭😭 #ohh i needed this #ty to my beautiful girlfriend and mr baker for curing my depression im so normal right now #clone trooper dogma my beloved #tcw fan art #ct-6922 #Dee Bradley Baker #also look at my girl's ART she doesn't believe shes good at drawing but her brain is LYING to her this is adorable

[onboardsorasora]

I went to the dentist today for my post op and there’s something about going to the dentist and having your praise kink stroked when they’re working on you.

So naturally Max is a new patient at the dentist in his new city. Everything is great and fine, the sign up was easy, they took his insurance (an important reason for why he chose them of course) and the wait to get in an exam room was negligible. 

Everything changes however, when his new hygienist walks in all sunshine and bright honey eyes. Max can’t see all of his face because he’s already wearing his mask but his eyes are beautiful and crinkly when he smiles. And Max knows he's smiling because the edges of his mask lifts with his cheeks. 

His name is Daniel and his voice is lovely, happy and his accent is taking Max for a ride. His dark hair is curly and a little messy, as if he runs his fingers through it often and Max could see a few tattoos peeking out from the sleeve of his bright blue scrubs.

It's lovely, he details everything he’ll be doing for Max today. It's just an intro appointment to get a lay of the land so they can plan his dental journey with them.

“We’re not gonna get into anything too intense today, just a few x-rays, and pictures of your pearly whites and then the doctor will be in to go through his recommendations. And then you’ll be outta here in no time.”

Max can’t help but smile because he can hear the smile in Daniel’s words. Daniel claps and does some finger guns before starting to set up. He puts the radiation vest on Max’s chest, Max does not catalogue the feeling of his gloved fingers when they cup the back of his neck to make sure the vest wasn't digging into his skin.

Daniel tells him how they're going to x-ray and he puts the little device in Max’s mouth. 

“You have beautiful teeth, Max.” Daniel says offhandedly, he was looking behind him at a screen. Max clenched his fingers underneath the heavy vest. 

“That's it, perfect. I’m gonna move this to your left upper…bite down for me? Beautiful love.” Daniel murmured under breath as he worked. Max dug his fingers in the meat of his thigh.

The torture continued, punctuated with the beep of the x-ray machine when it went off and the fresh smell of Daniel’s cologne mixed with his own natural scent. 

“There we go, I just need you to– good boy.” 

Max clenched his toes in his sneakers. 

“You’re doing so well for me Sweetheart.” 

Max wondered what the maximum pressure the little x-ray device could take before the stem snapped in half.

“Perfect baby, just perfect.” Daniel breathed, typing on the computer off to the side with one hand and stroking Max’s cheek unconsciously with the other. Max inhaled sharply.

Daniel looked back at him quickly, worriedly. 

“Let me get that out for you, your jaw must be a little sore.” Daniel sounded a little sheepish as he pulled the device away, Max watched the line of spit that still connected them thin away to nothing. He wondered if Daniel saw it too, if he maybe wanted to taste it. Taste what Max tasted like.

He was hard in his shorts.

Thankfully, Daniel took his time with putting back the x-ray extensions and taking off the radiation vest, Max was able to calm down a little. He was further able to refocus when his dentist came in, an older gentleman with shrewd eyes.

They discussed treatment plans and Max heard Daniel making notes whenever the doctor called out certain things. Daniel eventually left the room and his dentist continued to speak to Max about short term and long term goals. 

He was out front in the waiting room when he heard a loud honking laugh. While the office assistant scheduled his next appointment, Max’s eyes strayed to a lithe man in bright blue scrubs that turned the corner. He eyed him appreciatively, hearing his voice as he teased another hygienist and they laughed together.

“Alright Max, your next appointment is–” Max doesn’t know when his next appointment is because at that same moment Daniel turns around and sees him and smiles. Max has never really been bowled over by a smile before, by a face. But Daniel’s is gorgeous. Max wanted to kiss him, feel his nose bump his.

If Max was an artist then Daniel would be his muse. As it was, he was simply struck dumb by the man walking over to the desk.

“Georgie, are you treating Max here nicely?” Daniel teased, Max saw George roll his eyes fondly.

“Of course I am Daniel. He’s your favourite patient after all.” George grinned teasingly and Max saw Daniel’s eyes widen a fraction before he settled into a grin of his own.

“That’s right.” Daniel murmured and Max watched the way his lips formed his words. He wished he hadn’t worn his mask earlier so he could have seen how beautiful, sweetheart, and good boy had looked coming from those lips.

Max couldn’t help it. He blushed.

#thought about saving this for Max Fest but I'm really excited to write something not depressing right now so I wanted to share #maxiel #max/daniel #my ficlet

[romidoes]

‘stop eating your weight in fruit loops, go get dressed!’

#i need a mickey in my life #like right now thank you #depression is kicking my ass #and i barely get out of bed these days #other than reading gallavich fics all day whilst my books star at me #🫡 #i want to draw but the moment i try to do anything i just sigh #and call it a day #so all i could get out of me was this.. thing? #i don’t know how to draw cute but i suppose … it’s a thing? #very relatable scene at the moment so here #beautiful depressed ian for you all #ian gallagher #gallavich #shameless #shameless us #cameron monaghan

[bigcatbulges]

Hey, real talk for a second, I'm considering not uploading anymore and only turning this is to a reblog only account because of the AI choices from Tumblr. I truthfully feel incredibly guilty that, even though I was crediting the artists and linking everything, I was still submitting their work to be used for AI thru Tumblr and that is not fair to the artists that worked incredibly hard on their art. I'm gonna try and do a bit more research before I make a final choice in the matter but I want to thank everyone for thier kindness the past couple of years and im grateful a small community spawned on discord!

I'll update this post when I think I've figured everything out and any artist out there please give me any advice on how you would handle this situation please! My options right now are to delete all the pictures I've uploaded or maybe nuke the blog entirely? I'm not sure but again, I'm grateful for everyone's kindness and I hope we can keep being kind together.

#im going thru a massive depressive episode so im gonna try and think rationally but right now my brain just says delete everything #i already quit the discord a few days ago when i was having an episode but now i really feel ive done more harm than good here #idk its not my art and that's always been the rule so im gonna go thru a bunch of artists pages and see if they have any advice

[wikitpowers]

kitty and merthur parallels bc i'm sad pt.1 (beware of spoilers!)

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#guys fear not although merthur will (like kitty) spend a long time apart #they will meet again and declare their love as true #but yeah this was hella long and i still have a part 2 coming (not even kidding right now) i'm sorry if that's annoying :( #but also there were just SO many amazing parallels and i really wanted to make a master post and include as many as i could #i hope this first part was pretty fun to read (and not too depressing although we know it probably was) #this actually took me ages to make so i hope u enjoyed it at least somewhat... *shy* #part 2 will be coming tomorrow bc i dont want my blog to just be one big thread rn :')) #BUT if u (like me) miss kitty like mad then PLEASE watch bbc's merlin and bask in all the similarities between these two iconic couples #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #arthur pendragon #merlin #arthur x merlin #merthur #the dark artifices #the wicked powers #merlin bbc #tda #twp #tsc

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!! #sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :( #ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/ #anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

[borderlinebelle]

If mental health has you or someone you love by the NECK my haphazard garbage content might be for you.

video is like 1 min long, don’t panic.

ALSO… if you’re broke af .. this content might uh… might also be for you … if it helps I’m crazy and poor too. I’m crazy poor if I’m ffr. 🤣

come away with me … in the night… link beneath👇🏽

DOING MY WACK TAXES EP 2 IS UP NOW…

also I fight a bug I guess?

SUBSCRIBE! I can only really post when my brain allows so it’s sporadic. Sorry.

#we’re all mad here #BorderlineBelle #recovery #mental health #relapse #mental illness #symptoms #interpersonal relationships #don’t do it #stay safe #stay the night #mental health relapse #depression relapse #i wanna relapse so bad #i want to relapse #actually mentally ill #personality disorder #personal growth #personal #be ffr #be so fucking for real #be so fr #be so serious #be so for real right now #be so fucking fr #DID YOU DO YOUR TAXES??? #tax day #taxes #us taxes #us taxpayers

[wimsiecal]

I sorta need help again and this time I don't know if I'll be able to offer anything in return.

My phone bill was due a few days ago but I just had to make an almost $400 car payment so I only have $6 to my name right now. I should have more money yes. But it's been tough at this new amazon I work at. The building is a complete disaster. It's not safe to operate ops/pits because the building doesn't follow proper safety precautions.

These boxes aren't supposed to be sticking out with nothing to keep them in the bins. Some of them are very heavy and could fall and hurt someone.

And unfortunately for me, since this is a crosstrained site they told me that I cannot come to work if I don't operate those because saying "I don't want to, it's unsafe" is not a "good enough of an excuse and I need accommodations" only after that to be told "usually when people use safety as a reason to get accommodations they get denied"

So with all that batshittery I've either been taking vto and not going to work at all or going but only staying for a few hours and then dipping out. I applied for a transfer to another facility but I'm still waiting for it to be approved. So until then I feel kinda screwed.

My account was just suspended today. If anyone is willing and able to help me I would appreciate it immensely.

My PayPal is [email protected]

My venmo is @ onyxtruth

#help me out #help #please and thank you #im so sorry i wont have anything to give in return #I'm still kinda depressed and it's been really hard to draw consistently #the only thing I've been able to work on is my ask blog #i have so much more i need to do but it's almost impossible right now

[kottkrig]

doonit

#character: zala #character: cletus #kottart #they are both colossaly depressed right now in rp so I drew them being silly #'no I don't like coffee I'll take the massive sugar bomb ice cream abomination thank you'

[seasicksilver]

rwby animatic: oscar is experiencing the horrors of merging souls

me: magic eyeballs go brrr

#rwby #rwby fanart #oscar pine #fan art #artists on tumblr #digital art #sketch #doodle #my art #me being insane #sorry about your depression but you look sick as fuck oscar #i would say work in progress but lineart is not my friend right now so who knows when this gets finished