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meownotgood · 11 months

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aki cries in secret, he cries for every rookie who died under his supervision, he blames himself for every death he couldn't prevent and would do anything to protect someone if it meant not having to watch them die. he cries where no-one can hear him so they'll never know

#this morning I feel like exploding #he purposefully cries by himself.#he cries for everyone who's died regardless of how long he's known them #he's too soft hearted for a job like this. too weak #he's probably never been comforted or held or told everything will be okay like he so desperately needs #he's so kind and gentle towards others despite never receiving that sort of kindness himself #'aki can cry.' oooooooh how those three words tear me up inside #HE'S MORE THAN JUST THE COLD DARK HAIRED ANIME BOY OF THE WEEK #HE IS THE KINDEST AND THE SOFTEST #I will hug that man #so so tight and never let go #aki <3

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razs-archetype · 4 months

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Warmth

#pov ur teammate went missing idk #pov you enter the facility and see this wyd?#pov it’s cold outside:( pov all these hands are good for are clinging as tight as they can #clenching down and never letting go #pov COMEDY AND TRAGEDY #pov I’m joining them #masked lethal company #lethal company masked #cw suggestive #tw suggestive #i suppose it counts so I tag it accordingly #YAY #tw blood #clover draws

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imthursdaysyme · 11 months

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It’ll pass series 1/5: ronance

#drawing #art #stranger things #robin buckley #nancy wheeler #ronance #look I’m sorry for this series #it’s all sad #and I’m sad #bc I don’t have a funny story to put in the tags ☹️#but I like to think they were like together #enjoying each other and the closeness of being around someone simply but never going too far #I think that Robin would say it first bc she loves so easily and so much that how can she not let Nancy know that she loves her?#how is robin supposed to keep her feelings to herself when she always felt so unloved as a child? how could she refuse to let someone know #that they were loved?#and sweet Nancy with her walks built up high and tight with guards stationed round who grew up with people yelling her they loved her #and never meaning it #so she sees beautiful Robin and her nervous smile and easy confidence in her declaration of love and thinks that she’s either lying #or soon Robin will see Nancy with her walls down and see her unguarded and think oh #this isn’t what I expected behind the walls you built up #and leave #so robin loves too much and Nancy is scared that she’ll not be enough for that love so she stops her heartbreak sooner than it can start #even though telling Robin it’ll pass is a heartbreak in itself bc Nancy fell and didn’t even know it #robin has already seen glimpses behind Nancy’s wallls and thinks it’s the lovely #but alas no communication happens #and so they part and Nancy always wonders if rob would have still lived her with her walls down #and Robin will always wonder why her love wasn’t enough #anyway #digital art

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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 7 months

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Oh we are so BACK

When I tell you I saw this and died. HELLO?????

I keep hiding my face lahshjsdhjgfsaf HE HAS NO RIGHT. NO RIGHT AT ALL BEING THAT SEXILY INTENSE AAAAAAAAAAA

Anyway, I should probably try to make some attempt at describing the event since. If I don't I'll just be barking/crying/hiding my face for the next twelve hours.

Basically--and I'm not sure this is going to be across the board, but it held true for Napoleon and Sebastian at least--each suitor has a birthday event this year instead of a separate story. Comte's won't be released until tomorrow, but they have posted a preview.

From what I gather, he talks a little bit about himself and reveals parts of his past that haven't come to light in the game yet. There wasn't really enough to convey a coherent narrative beyond attending a party, but the line displayed here does get across the larger theme:

Comte: (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.)

He talks about how the aristocracy have thrown parties and extravagant celebrations for his birthday for most of his life. But none of it has ever really made him happy, largely because he knows that they are attempts to strengthen and broadcast power relations within high society. While I don't think he means it's entirely devoid of well wishes, I do think he sees it as a nexus of influence--and thus, by nature, impersonal. And honestly, I don't think he's wrong about that; the higher the echelon in social standing, the more it requires performance to maintain the position.

That being said, there is a fascinating flashback where he remembers a pureblood telling him about how falling in love with a human is an experience of another caliber entirely. My understanding is that Comte was still a fairly young vampire at the time, so he didn't really understand what the person was getting at. It seems like the other pureblood was trying to convey the difference in feeling, perhaps the fact that humans are more grounded in accordance with how they live--the reality and necessity of change.

After reading this--and the recent 5th bday story--I can absolutely see how change is something Comte has a complicated relationship with. He's known a certain way of life for so long, has constructed a sensibility of distant, rational maturity. After all the heartbreak of his youth, and two very acute traumatic events in his life, I can see why he'd be so afraid of broaching any kind of proximity with another person. Because on some level it's so much easier not to put your feelings on the line, to never have to fear devastating loss. And that's to say nothing of the worry of being unable to measure up on behalf of another person, of letting them down.

I'm so excited to see the rest of the contents, but something about the preview made me equal parts giddy and enamored (all I do is kick my feet with excitement LOL). I think what gets to me with Comte is that he truly does love companionship as a place to rest, a place where he can be honest about himself and his feelings without fear of ridicule (and the same goes for MC). In a world increasingly obsessed with surface level performances of power, status, and emotion, it's hard not to feel his exhaustion to the core.

Also, because these lines at the end more or less destroyed me in the best possible way:

MC: ...The you who had nowhere to belong no longer exists. In much the same way...Abel, I belong to you. Comte: ... Comte: I wish I could say to myself all those years ago, the me who kept indulging in such paltry things. Comte: Until you meet MC, you will never know love... The warmth of MC in my arms filled me with such joy I was near tears. (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.) The moment my lips found hers, the sweetness lit a fire deep in my body. Comte: These cute lips that melt against mine, the heat of your skin, the love that envelops me in your embrace--always leaves me so deeply in love with you.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp spoilers #LETS GO ABEL UNPACKING ALL THOSE COPING MECHANISMS #**pats the couch next to me** CONFIDE IN ME #but in all seriousness i really do love how raw his relief and happiness feels #to have spent all of those years trying to subsist on emotional crumbs and numbing himself #and mc is so real for just gathering him in her arms and holding him tight QUEEN MOOD!!!!#i really really really love that general recurrence in his stories too #of how he always feels so isolated and out of place even when he's surrounded by people #yet all it takes is mc saying 'you belong to me--just as I belong to you. you're never truly alone :>'#to make him both overjoyed but also unhinged with so much love for her--to feel alive #also man........MAN.....#him looking back at who he used to be vs who he is now #im so caught between memeing like 'you know what that is? growth!'#but also lowkey weeping from the fact that he feels loved enough to look back and fully admit it wasn't quite happiness #that he was just surviving the only way he knew how--not really living #ABEL THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME #CMERE LOVER BOY #comte propaganda #fangdad propaganda #baguettosaurus #literally october was always my favorite month but its even better now that it just becomes a comte-loving festival for me #truly all the joys of monsterfking all tg

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musicoftheheart · 16 days

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i love writing regulus trying to figure out muggle things because i imagine him picking up a kettle or something and just staring at it. examining it from all angles. giving it a little shake. its fun

#spoiler but yes hes trying to make a coffee in the next chapter and he cannot #fic: hold me tight (and never let me go)#hes just a lil guy #hes so clueless #i love him though #regulus black #marauders era #marauders #jegulus

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illegiblehandwriting1 · 10 months

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ok ok i just read Martyr by @gemglyph and HOLY SHIT i think it killed me. i might be dead. is this the afterlife? /POSITIVE IT WAS SO SO SO SO GOOD IT MADE ME STAND UP AND TAKE A WALK SO GO READ IT RNRNRNRNRN IT MAKES MY BRAINWAVES GO BRRRRRRR GO READ IT.

and while you're at it, go read Elastic Heart by @skyloftian-nutcase CUZ IT IS ALSO AMAZING AND SUPERB AND FANTASTIC.

GORGEOUS heart-wrenching angst for BOTH OF THESE FICS and i NEED TO SCREAM ABOUT IT. SUCH GOOD SKY ANGST THESE FICS ARE LOVELY AND TOUCHING AND SO PAINFUL BUT ALTOGETHER GOREGOUS

BUT ALSO HEED ALL TAGS

so i made a meme (spoilers below)

(not us all writing angst fics about the curse and also sky has ✨problems✨ and he leaves thinking everyone's gonna hate him LMAO)

#lu sky #linked universe #lu fanfiction #chicken scratch #im going feral over these fics rn #they're too good you guys #go share the love cuz i just wanna wrap you guys up in a giant hug and squeeze real tight and never let go #martyr #elastic heart #smoke & ashes #fic rec #jvbtgisrkdjshugjieawfdhuejiruhfdjso go enjoy some reading and pain #ENJOY IT CUZ IT'S SO GOOD!

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imminent-danger-came · 9 months

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continue being a little mean to toh fans please it is really irritating how some act like its got the best writing of any modern cartoon

Daawwwww I don't have it in me. TOH fans love it for a reason, and there are legitimately good moments! It's just not the most complex or well-written show out there—which it doesn't need to be—but I also totally get your exhaustion. It gets tiring seeing people praise it so highly over and over again when it's just like...fine. It didn't do nothing but it also didn't do something, you know? It's main couple is cute and queer, but that's pretty much all there is to them. It has a fun cast of characters, but they all tend to fall into archetypes. Luz is a sweet main character, but she doesn't have any real flaws and kinda takes a back seat to Hunter and Eda (the white people lol). Her foil with Philip was interesting...but then they kinda backed off and went the "you and Belos are nothing alike" direction.

((I'm also going to answer this anon with another: ))

And It's not that an unsympathetic villian is bad, or that Belos would even be sympathetic with added backstory, it's just that...there were a lot of interesting things to explore with his character that were left hanging.

Like, while he's definitely not at all a good person, it's intriguing that he would bother to recreate his brother over and over again knowing that each time the grimwalker was going to betray him. It's intriguing that he was even willing to kill his brother to begin with (though Caleb was super underutilized in general). Like, you can give a villain depth without justifying or victimizing them (hi Finnegran from tdp, I'll also add Spider Queen & LBD here). So it just feels like a missed opportunity all across the board. It's still surprising to me that we got a confirmation on the Wittebane backstory through an unrelated background character, rather than Philip himself (who had literally possessed a main character, and mindscapes had already been well-established....the pieces were all there me thinks).

And obviously it's like, people can love something despite it's flaws, and they can cherish it for the good it has, but they still don't need to praise it as an ultimate form of media, you know? We don't need to pretend toh was this dark and complex story—it was just a story a lot of people liked and resonated with. Which I'm glad it's there for those people, and I'm glad there are options when it comes to queer pieces of media!

That said the show with the best writing of any modern cartoon is The Dragon Prince (streaming on Netflix).

#Monkie Kid while very good is still not that good. I'm sorry lmk. I give you 2nd place. In my heart <3 #Though we'll see. If s5 (or beyond) brings back some stuff from s1 the writing might just be that tight #(aka the skeleton key being given to MK in 1x08 & also the 1x01 seal)#Anyways I feel like I've been too much of a hater recently #but gahhh. toh just did not get that deep. it's like fake deep #Let me explain my thoughts:#Lilith cursed Eda. Spent years trying to force Eda into the coven system to undo her own mistake.#Only to then learn that Belos was never going to heal her sister. And does this impact Eda and Lilith's relationship in any way? Not really #Like yeah sure their relationship improves after Lilith leaves the Emperor's coven.#But I can't help but feel like that situation got boiled down to ''Lilith had a good reason for it so we forgive her :p'' and I'm like NO #WHERE'S THE DRAMA #THAT WAS KINDA SUPER FUCKED UP OF LILITH. A LIFE LONG CURSE THAT SHE GAVE HER SISTER. AND WE'RE GONNA LIKE #GLOSS OVER THAT????#tis not story telling for me. At least not any more at this stage in my life.#asks #toh critical

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taemmin · 11 months

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