#squandered away

[mothmanavenue]

what’s a god to a nonbeliever?

#voltron #voltron legendary defender #voltron fanart #vld #vld fanart #romelle vld fanart #romelle voltron legendary defender #romelle vld #romelle fanart #romelle voltron fanart #romelle i love you #romelle voltron #romelle #song: no church in the wild by Jay Z #bamf romelle #love her #so much potential #squandered away #thanks voltron! #trans romelle #by the way #just #to mention it

[wingsofhcpe]

people who are like "the ballad of songbirds and snakes sucks/was unnecessary because Snow is EEEEEVIL" are missing the point so bad it's hilarious

#likely the same ppl who view thg as a typical romance YA story tbh #but it's exactly bc romance was never the point that snow's story works so well #it shows you how the system fucked him up. keeps fucking him up but brainwashes him into thinking it's Good Actually #and then he squanders his multiple chances to break away from the system. he becomes part of it. and eventually BECOMES THE SYSTEM #that's why it's so important. bc snow could be any one of us. and i think some ppl aren't ready to hear that! #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #tbosas #the hunger games

[penaltyboxboxbox]

man fuck that sauber and fuck that haas slow ass cars doing fuck all in q3 im so bitter and MAD !!!!! GO AWAY

#FUCK YOU AND YA MAMA. GO AWAY. AT LEAST MY DRIVER WOULDVE TRIED TO DO SOMETHING #and fuck carlos for that red flag that also fuckednup my driver #im full of anger and hatred tonight my baby doing well and you fools want to squander it. get out of my sight

[mymarifae]

i don't want to post here today can you guys just watch aventurine bidding farewell to his past self

#look at the child you used to be. tattered and worn but so full of love and hope for a better tomorrow #you decided your luck is a curse because it's kept you alive and you stopped valuing life when you lost your sister #you keep trying to gamble it away. and you win every bet every time #and yet... your hands shake and you secretly fear you'll lose with every new gamble #riddle me that kakavasha. #you were never as ready to give up as you convinced yourself you were #your family gave up everything... so You could live. and try as you might you never actually wanted to squander those sacrifices #set down your cards and throw away all your bargaining chips #pay no mind to the black hole at the end of everything. it's time you learned to value your life again #this world is precious. the emanator of nihility said so herself. hold her words close to your heart #and when you come out on the other side of it all... free of the IPC's chains. i hope you learn to see it all anew #my stomach hurts

[firewoodfigs]

Next chapter of a study in reformation probably won’t be up till sometime in August (aka the month of salt air and rust on the door) because past me was dumb enough to sign up for an exam in July on top of working full-time, BUT I’ve created a monstrous playlist which you can listen to here for good vibes :) enjoy!!! I’ll see you guys very soon in the next chapter 💕💕

Feel free to let me know as well if you have a specific song in mind 🥰

#college au #royai #royai fic #royai fanfic #music #spotify #fic playlist #past me really was a dumbass omg I am seriously at risk of failing this exam and squandering £2000 #BUT I HAVE BEEN SO FOCUSED ON SECURING TAYLOR TICKETS LMAO #honestly if I fail my exam but snag tickets to the eras tour it will still be a massive win #not to mention this exam has like close to zero bearings on my life except for a potential move to the UK lol #I used to be so motivated in college (see: I was desperate af) and could literally study for 10-12hours around exam period #on top of tutoring 10 kids and doing moots and pro bono #now I just wither away after flipping through my notes cursorily for 30min lol #my theory is that I was v v desperate to secure scholarships and stuff but now that I have a full time job I just can’t be assed LMAO #also I was rereading what I wrote and I spotted so many typos SCREAMS #if you spot any pls do not hesitate to flag them out LMAO #I promise I won’t be offended it’s literally what I do at my job 😂 #might rewrite this a little before uploading the next chapter <3

[songs2aiart]

Muse - City of Delusion “Stay away from me Build a fortress and shield your beliefs”

“Destroy this city of delusion Break these walls down”

“You'll not rest, settle for less Until you guzzle and squander what's left” https://youtu.be/o5oyIJV5LnM

#ai art #muse #muse band #stay away #build #fortress #shield #beliefs #destroy #city #delusion #break down #walls #rest #settle #guzzle #squander

[gayestbinnie]

why is rob so insecure about his eyebrows like?? has no one ever told him that his droopy eyebrows are cute?? 😭

#the way he’s constantly tensing them so they don’t droop downwards on the ends #babe stop it 😭😭 #literally one of ur best features and ur SQUANDERING IT #watching the podcast and seeing him forget about keeping them flexed up #and they droop for a little bit until he remembers again 💀 #either that or it’s muscle memory and he only sometimes relaxes enough to drop them at this point #idk what it is but it makes me sad #i know he has a fake/forced massive ego like a fake it til you make it ego or whatever #but if i was his irl id make it much worse by calling him cute constantly #friends look away from these tags i’m being a gross rob lover #rob mcelhenney #the way he would HATE ME if he read this #idc rob maybe fuck me about it then

[vercna]

i am smart enough i can dedicate myself to a craft i can learn i can get better i can do hard things complex is not synonym with unfeasible the ideas i have are intertwined with the sum of my feelings and experiences if not me who else i am smart enough i can learn i can get better i can do hard things

#diary entries #BIG theme lately being me having to accept i pushed away anything & everything that didnt come easily to me in matters of work craft passion #but somehow was willing to put in herculean levels of efforts and compromises and work into relationshios that fed NOTHING into my life #because loving comes easy and it's worth the ache #but the potential of squandered hopes when faced with people's perception of my work is more disheartening & lonesome than any breakup #so it's safer to never fully lean into it #ANYWAYYYYY

[pepprs]

hi im gonna say goodbye to her in like 5 mins im waiting for her to wrap up another meeting rn. and i burst into tears in front of my colleagues and VERY visibly just cried 😁👍👍👍👍👍👍

#purrs #i am so INSANELY triggered rn and don’t know how to keep my emotions in check. i don’t want to cry or be messy. oh god. this is the worst #thing that has ever happened to me LMFAOOOOOOOOO actually it’s not. but it’s up there. this is so bad. i feel like im going to die or #explode or both. it’s literally not thst deep bc we’ll keep in touch and she’s not moving away or anything she’s just retiring. but it’s #making me CRAZYYYYYY how i am reliving the same horrors from last year. THE SAME HORRORS. before even having a chance to heal from the FIRST #horrors!!!!!!!! LIKE WHAT THE HELL. i can only take so much. i can’t withstand it all. i couldn’t suppress the tears anymore i just exploded #LOLLLL. the way i ugly cried and might do it again IN FRONT OF HER…. HELP. lol ♥️ and we will only have 10 mins to talk bc she has another t #thing at 12:45 and i squandered so much time crying and having to clean my face off that now i burned our last precious moments. AWESOMEEEEE #delete later

[brella-boi]

God the more i watch the blue eyed samurai the more i find parallels to DJs life and AUGHHHH to find your purpose by channelling hatred is to push away kindness you dont think you deserve is a cycle of be hated and hate and be hated and hate and the fire of hatred never burns away im so fucking feral for this

#octag #dj #my special blorbo maybe thats what theyve been missing all these years #GOD #god #to fucking #finally find kindness only to throw it all away because you cant understand it you cant accept it you cant you cant #and then thar hauntung loneliness is stronger than any hatred you could ever procure #to be given a chance and SQUANDER it #to be given a million chances and SQUANDER THEM ALL

[thursdayg1rl]

lets kill ourselves

#its not faiirrr why did i have to choose fucking maths #i could have gone anywhere with english i have squandered my life away #my english teacher literally told me i could go to oxbridge for literature and i had to go choose the polar opposite degree 😐 #and trust i would have been predicted all a*s #ugh whatever #i havent even eaten dinner yet

[magicalgirlagency]

Y'know, despite the beef that I have with the Madoka Magica and Steven Universe fandoms, I gotta give credit where credit is due: At least none of the stans from aformentioned fandoms has ever called me a "victim-blaming, internalized-misogyny idiot".

You folks have successfully managed to be MORE toxic than those two fandoms combined! Bravo! Bravo! I am SO proud of you!

You stans have your heads way too far up on your own asses to comprehend that your favourite show might be severely flawed.

Y'know what? That's IT. I won't talk about RWBY ever again. Not just because the stans will target me as if I have committed a war crime every single time I point out a flaw here or a plothole there, but also because of That Scene; it was shamelessly disrespectful and needlessly cruel to those who struggle with suicidal thoughts.

I will still stick by my critique of Ruby's suicide being glorified. I mean, has any of the other girls ever apologized for not acknowledging Ruby's pain and not comforting her when she needed the most? Will Ruby and Co. ever atone for letting thousands of civilians to die during AND after evacuation? Will Ruby ever find out that Jaune was the one who killed Penny? Do they even remember that Salem still exists and still has a powerful item that allows her to create any sort of catastrophe and unleash it upon Remnant at any moment?

No. Those things will never happen. They'll never face the consequences for their rash decisions, their leader has reset into her default spunky and energetic leader persona. And right after we've witnessed her be driven to off herself. And you guys ate that shit up and thought it was the greatest thing ever.

You guys need urgent help.

I hate this show, but most of all: I hate its stans who cannot take any criticism and proceed to demonize anyone who points out the show's questionable narrative choices. You guys are unsufferable.

That's fuckin' it; I won't do any requests related to RWBY anymore.

Want WBMRs for squandered/deceased allies? Want WIFs for villains/problematic characters that got away scot free? You guys can do it yourselves from now on if you like, because I'm not working on them anymore, for the sake of my mental health.

RWBY is off-limits. Congratulations, you fucks. Your overly religious worshipping of this bargain bin shounen show has ruined my night. I hope you're all happy.

Goodbye.

Also, the previous post was put under Read More; why did you even bothered to click it anyways? You could've just ignored it and moved on with your life!

#magical girl #non-japanese #this is the last time you'll hear me criticize about rwby. i swear it. #y'alls can write your own wbmrs for any rwby character that has ever been squandered. i'm not doing it anymore. #y'alls can write about your own wifs for villains that got away scot free from karma. i'm not doing it anymore. #rwby is off-limits now. #i hope you all are satisfied. you've ruined my night and i hate you.

[doebt]

Tbh my WORST nightmares arent like being chased or anything its always weird and existential  like I wake up and decades passed without me realising it. Or my grandma died or i have an animal and i put itsomewhere and forgot about it and its all emaciated and skeletal by the time i remember

#Last night i dreamt there was this new thing called deep sleep or the deep slumber and I was like ok #ill go into deep sleep for 1 or 2 yrs and maybe things will be better by then #But i accidentally slept for 40yrs #And i was just so full of the deepest regret you can imagine that i had squandered my human life the greatest gift ever #Just totally threw it away so stupidly #I was 62 when i woke up and i didnt look much different but i could feel it inside of me that my life was over #and everyone I knew was gone #I fr feel like im about to cry just remembering how this felt in the dream LMAOOOO #And i was desperately searching for any way to reverse this horrible thing i had done #And it turned out they discovered an ancient book of real magic spells one of which could reverse deep sleep #but the last remaining native speaker of that language had JUST died before i woke up #so they couldnt translate the spells anymore #And it was like devasatating hopelessness all over again as i found this out #I cant even describe the intensity of the regret and self hatred and deep deep sadness #So that was my dream...i cant stop thinking about it mann #Sorry peachuals but i needed this here in my tumblr dream journal too. LOL #dreams

[mrs-kelly]

Also in fun news James and I watched a movie together today 🥰 it was funny tho. So we watched 13 Go.ing On 30 and I realized it came out before Lost did. So in universe James could have seen it already or at least saw movie posters or something ahdjfl

#even funnier. so funny that I was literally crying about it shfkfl #so when I was in high school I almost accidentally led a group dance at the Sadie Hawkins dance #I was chaperoning my brother and he was with his date so I was alone on the dancefloor #and save a horse ride a cowboy came on #and I was in the height of my just dance era. I was playing that game every day #so I started coming up with dance moves and sheepishly doing them in the back #and a couple people saw me and started copying my moves #and more people came over and I started panicking #so I stopped dancing and told everyone the show was over and walked away adgjkl #anyway there was a group dance scene in the movie #and I remembered my experience and started telling James about it #so I looked up when that song came out to see if he’d know it #and it came out. six days after the movie. crazy afhkl #anyway yeah he’d DEFINITELY know it then cuz #you can’t tell me this man didn’t listen to country music. he definitely knew that song #so I was telling him all about it and laughing crying thinking about his tickled he’d be at that story afhjl #‘that’s so you!’ he’d say #and then he’d tell me that he’s sure I wish I would’ve just kept dancing #and honestly yeah I do wish I had. it’s a nice reminder that I shouldn’t squander those movie moments #but I’ll have James around from now on to help me keep that in mind 🥰 #ren speaks #lost in your eyes

[little-klng]

Contradicting identities absolutely bangs btw. Sexual, romantic, and gender identities all bang in every combination even when they're contradicting. I think it's supremely cool when someone has a sexual and romantic identity that are opposites and a gender that doesn't match and then different pronouns on top of that. Shout out to conflicting queers and queers using their own slurs as identities

#you do not under any circumstances 'gotta hand it to queerphobes' for coming up with cool words to use as slurs #but god damn those slurs absolutely bang as a way to identify that isnt gonna get marketed at you #and a way to identify people who are *actually safe* to hang around with #because like it or not if you police the way other queer people identify because its not sanitized or comfy enough #youre doing the work of phobic losers for them in your own community #people that have contradictory identities are not going to police you and you should take being friends with them #as a very unique opportunity to be able to try new things out for your own identity #while you can be sure it will be respected and understood by someone who cares #squandering it and pushing them away because someone on the idiot who is a quarter step removed #from someone who watches god damn tucker carlson and steven crowder #is really only going to push you further into a little fence the right want you to be in where you can be easily identified #and squeezed for money and then sent for slaughter the second theyre done with you #and no #the queerphobes are not on your side. the second you discover something about yourself that they deem a little too weird #or the second they find out youre not exactly as pretty/handsome as they want. especially if youre not white. #theyll attack you too #and theyll be really vicious. because to them you were just some freak invading their space the entire time

[probablygayattorneys]

Well, my friends, I’ve done it.

I do have to finish the Asinine Attorney cases at a later date, but I just finished the DLC of Spirit of Justice, meaning that I have officially completed all of the canon Ace Attorney games. I queue my posts in advance so my commentary on the end will post over the next month or so, but I wanted to post this one in real time.

10 games, in total. Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Phoenix Wright: Justice for All, Phoenix Wright: Trials and Tribulations, The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles: Adventure, The Great Ace Attorney Chronicles: Resolve, Ace Attorney Investigations, Ace Attorney Investigations 2: Prosecutor’s Path, Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney, Ace Attorney: Dual Destines, and Ace Attorney: Spirit of Justice.

50 cases, across all ten games

645 days since I first started replaying the first Ace Attorney game

And, in-universe, from Ryu’s first trial to the Sprocket’s wedding, I’ve spent over a century with the Naruhodos. I’ve walked all the way down to the end and back with them.

I have lots of people I could thank, from the people who put up with me, to even Lunchables, for giving me a free switch that gave me the console to replay it on.

But I think that right now… I’m just tired. I would like to go to sleep now.

#personal #housekeeping #it’s been… quite the journey #hasn’t it? #my followers have watched me run the full gauntlet of emotions on this one #*taylor swift voice* ask me what I learned from all those years #ask me what I’ve earned from all those tears #actually… don’t #I didn’t want to put it in the post itself #cause I wanted it to feel more positive but #I’ve earned nothing #I am walking away from this empty handed #all I’ve learned is how to squander four games of goodwill in half that time #I’ve learned what happens when you keep beating a dead horse until it stops spitting out money #I’ve learned how it feels when your childhood heroes turn into enemies #I’ve learned how much it hurts to watch something you used to love become a chore #I’ve learned how to go from playing something you love #to feeling like the only reason to keep going is because you owe it to your childhood to go all the way to the end #that’s what I’ve learned from all those years. #twenty two months of my life and that’s all I have to show for it #I guess I shouldn’t be so bitter… #it also gave me friends #a calendar for the new year #the courage to post my writing publicly for the first time in 15 years #I guess… seasons change and I do too #and that’s not a bad thing