#there's no loyalty but also there IS do you feel me?

[mooncrestedwaters]

Been thinking about Rafayel and how he shows his love (especially after his newest card trailer).

On the surface, Rafayel seems like he's an open book. He's witty, affectionate, chatty ect ect

But once you dig deeper you realise that he's that way...but only with the person he loves. He's actually quite reserved and doesn't enjoy being the center of attention, even going so far to say his job is a thing of self expression rather than something he actively strives to make money off of.

With the upcoming new 5* card of Rafayel's, I wasn't shocked that we didn't have a kiss or one where he tried to kiss us (and tbh his sweeter form of affection in wanting to cuddle us and snuggle into our neck made my tummy do flips and had me having a near breakdown from how much it made me gooey)

I feel like Rafayel is a yearner to his core, even his interviewer noted as much that he gave an air of 'romance' to him.

The best way I can describe it is; His love is like his profession and his EVOL.

Art takes time, it takes an observant eye and mind. I've grown up with artists my entire life and to make a painting is much more than slapping some acrylics onto a board and calling it a day. It takes tempering, to prepare the board, to build up layers upon the canvas to correct any mistakes without an eraser or undo button.

It's gentle, tending to the whims of the canvas to make a happy compromise of your own.

Onto his EVOL, Rafayel treats a relationship like a firepit. He wants it to have longevity, keeping himself and the fire alight. So instead of chucking a log onto the firepit he nourishes it with kindling, giving it a poke here and here to check on its status while being warmed by the flames.

Rafayel is also horrifically traumatised from previous encounters with love.

Think of it this way;

He was a Prince. Set to be throned as a King and live with his beloved forever.

He set out to find a devout follower to sacrifice their heart to him in turn found himself giving them his own heart and betraying everything because he wouldn't let a pre-destined prophecy rule himself or his beloved.

When he got his love back, in another timeline they were brainwashed and ended up killing him. The absolute agony you must go through, to be maliciously murdered and know that it's by the person you love but not their intention to do so and in your last breath you grant them mercy to die alongside you by singing them to death.

Moving onto Abysswalker Rafayel, the weight of being told you have to kill your love to resurrect your hometown, taking the love of your life on a wondrous journey to know you have to kill them in the end and instead erasing their memories of you permanently to protect them and keep them alive, rewriting a tome for their sake and thus dooming his beloved kingdom and people to be tormented for eternity of his peoples damned screams of death and agony.

Do you ever wonder if he has sat with himself and laminated over this horrifying fall from grace?

Yet he still does it, for them.

After ruminating over this; I wouldn't be as forward as the other LI either.

I think Rafayel is immaculately brave and loyal for even trying again, for still searching for his beloved over years and years.

He has his insecurities, they show when he gets bratty or needy. Quipping at his beloved for not having their sole attention on him, he's meant to be worshipped after all, doted on, praised for having put in so much effort.

Alas, his love doesn't remember, doesn't see the accumulation of sacrifices and things hes done for them.

So he hints, he prods and pokes gently and he starts having them warm up to him again. Braving a tender word here, a lovingly gentle touch there and moving up and forward until he can see that his beloved has fallen in love with him again.

Rafayel is a love that doesn't burn bright, it burns with stability, it burns with loyalty, it burns with truth and gentle care. He would never want to scorch his love.

Rafayel makes accommodations for them, weaving them into his life in any way, if that may be employing them to inviting them on little excursions. Even keeping a watchful eye over them, noticing when they're in need, hurt or just simply making his presence known as a comfortable 'You can come to me'.

He's a gentleman, a romantic...with a little edge (Rafayel audios I'm looking at you, hard)

Anyways, I should not drink copious amounts of caffeine within a short allotment of time. I hope my ramblings have been enjoyable 🤍🪽

#love and deepspace #rafayel #love and deepspace rafayel #rafayel love and deepspace #love & deepspace #rafayel girlie #lads rafayel #mc love and deepspace #mc x rafayel #rafayel x mc

[sirludox]

please tell me all about your zosan pony verse i love them!

Oh my god it would be an honour! I'll start off by mentioning that the reason I chose Sanji as a pegasus was I see his more flamboyant personality fitting that better and i just could not imagine a horse wielding 3 swords without some sort of help so I tinkered how unicorn magic works slightly with it being more closely related to mental and physical strength rather than just being a sort of cheat code haha! Also it was fun imagining a more brutish unicorn compared to the usual elegance of one! Zoro did in fact lose his horn with his first meeting of Mihawk! I was debating making him lose it when he lost his eye but I felt like him dedicating himself even more to training and meditation to make up for what he's lost fit better with it occurring much earlier on than randomly off screen like his eye. Sanji also witnessing him lose his horn yet still declare his loyalty and never losing a fight again would push Sanji to join the crew since he cant fly Sanji, like I said, can't fly mostly related to a) the deformed genes from the poison and b) his wings were bound down when he was a kid by Judge while he was imprisoned much like how he had the helmet on. While their growth wasn't affected, having no prior training on top of the messed up genes means as much as he can do with "flying" is gliding off of tall places or high up but even then that's limited. His "sky walk" is still done with his legs like in the original, so while he can technically "fly", he can't feel the wind between his wings like he normally should for having wings and so he often enjoys spreading his wings out on windy days to ease the desire of "freedom"! He uses his wings primarily as he would hands now, using them to carry food and dishes out and express emotions with them, and absolutely hates having them constricted (it begins to freak him out slightly). Sanji then learnt to use his legs (mostly his back ones) for fighting from Zeff (whom im still debating lost a leg or a wing) and the rest is history! These two still bicker and are the exact same as they are in the original, just with the bonus addition of them bonding over them missing their core "features" of their kind, a broken horn and useless wings. They never ever bring these aspects up in a way to offend/insult the other, as they know they're both rather sensitive topics, but they both use what they've lost to their advantage and dont let any of it hold them back Some more unique quirks they have now are:

Sanji preens/grooms his feathers a LOT and takes a lot of care with them. These days (20's), he's allowed Zoro to preen him when he can't from injuries, and Zoro is good with it/surprisingly gentle after learning from Kuina

Unicorns usually rub/touch horns gently in a comforting manner between family or extremely close (wink wink) others, and butting heads/clashing is more aggressive (which is why zosan often bump heads when arguing). As a trade off for the preening Sanji will often gently touch his head to Zoro's as thanks, or when he's in a particularly bad spot (be it physically or mentally) as a way to comfort him without words being needed to be said. Sanji doesn't know the more romantic connotations of it <3

Sanji tends to "fluff up" during preening as subconsciously finding it extremely relaxing and pleasing and Zoro pokes fun at him for it a little but not too much to avoid scaring him away

40 year old Zosan here has Sanji much more comfortable asking Zoro for a preen or "demanding for it" and Zoro finds it "so annoying" but does it anyway (theyre grossly in love)

Sanji will tease Zoro for being so "brute" as a unicorn, and Zoro teases Sanji for being a "dumb peacock"

Sorry for so much of a ramble haha they're just so much fun to work with, and included a couple sketches to kind of go along with things and explore other characters! If you (or anyone) has any other questions I'll be happy to answer ❤️ (sorry if some of this doesnt make sense haha)

#one piece #op #roronoa zoro #zoro #black leg sanji #sanji #zosan

[aki-bara]

What do you think the seven (plus Nico) would be the gods of if they ascended?

I've listed some of my ideas below, but I'd like to hear what other people think.

Nico - Shade

Both shadows and ghosts. People living on the edge of society, or on the run would fall in his domain as well. These living "ghosts" who don't have a place to belong are reminsecent of his own feelings of otherness. The literal ghosts who can't move on are reminscent of his own inability to move past Bianca's death.

Hazel - Sacrifice

Anyone who gives up something for another's gain. In a sense it could also be generosity, or even wealth. You may lose material wealth, but gain a richer life instead. People toiling for their family or someone taking taking pain on themselves to spare their friend would have Hazel's protection. She could have used her curse to her own benefit, but she took it onto herself to protect others. She could have saved her life, but chose to die instead. She could have gone to Elysium, but chose Asphodel to spare her mother. I think Hazel would want to protect people who are stuck in the same situations she was, who have to choose between justice and loss.

Jason - Duty

Jason's domain is anyone who is beholden to something other than their own desires. Lots of soldiers here, but also anyone in a position of leadership. The sacrifice of personal freedom and happiness for other's sake.

Frank - Will

Your will can change at anytime, but without resolve it lacks power. Frank is easily changed, but most empowered when he stands firm. No matter what happens to you or others you must have determination to succeed. Those who worry they may falter can pray to Frank for the strength to continue.

Percy - Devotion

Complete dedication to a cause or a person. Not just loyalty, but the desire to live for another or for an ideal. Includes the will to protect, to survive, and also to prove the value of what you fight for.

I couldn't think of things for Leo, Piper, Annabeth. Let me know what you think!

#pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #hoo #heros of olympus #riordanverse #percy jackson #jason grace #hazel levesque #frank zhang #nico di angelo #pjo headcanons

[dogs-have-fallen]

i am a coydog!!! infodump and kinfirm

a coydog is a mix between a male coyote and a female dog, with a dogote as the counter. for the most part, they’re not super common as in many cases a coyote would rather eat a dog than mate with one, however it does occur! in the wild, it often occurs when a yote is new to an area and cannot find a mate, and so will mate with a domesticated dog. the appearance of the hybrid will depend on the dog mate, but they typically all share an athletic build with the usual yote-like upright, triangular ears with a long snout. they typically have brown eyes and stick to the brown, dense coat of coyotes, though they can also be white or black as well. they have tails similar to coyotes, bushy and downwards. they bark like dogs and howl (scream) like coyotes.

unlike many hybrids, the coydog is capable of reproduction! due to their wild counterparts, while their temperament can be mild and docile, they very often exhibit the wild traits of their coyote parent. they are a very unpredictable breed. coydogs, like coyotes, are not the most sociable and often only form a strong bond with one person and their primary caretaker. however, there have been cases of early socialization and training that makes them loving parts of a family.

coydogs are typically very healthy and strong, and their typical issues only consist of joint problems. they have a lifespan of 5-15 years depending on where they live and how they are(or aren’t) taken care of.

kinfirm!!

i came across this hybrid last night on tiktok as someone had been discussing their dog that looks a lot like a coyote. a lot of people in the comments went in to describe coydogs in the comments which led me to my own exploration of the mix. after my own digging, mainly looking at photos (the fair and few actual coydog pics, not just dogs bred to look like yotes) and their temperament.

i found that this is is my kintype! i spent almost my whole life (since knowing about otherkinity) identifying myself as a mix between a retriever and a lab, and some unidentified wild candid like a coastal wolf or a coyote. now, surely i still feel very connected to retrievers, i do believe i am a mix between a coyote and a retriever. i share a shorter coat with my coyote side. most of my traits come from my coyote side, with few traits of my domesticated side i can hardly name.

the behavioral traits i have from my coydog kintype is that of a once-wild animal in a domestic environment. i have a very internalized wildness that claws at my ribs to show. i have the skittishness of a wild yote and the loyalty of a retriever

photos!!

the first two pictures are absolutely coydogs. i look like a mix between the second and third photo. the third period claims to be a coyote x retriever, however i will remain skeptical on what i find online. the final image is from a reddit post asking if it’s possible for a coyote and a dog to breed and a photo of their dog. i share a similar build to the last pic mixed with the third, and many of the patterns of the second pic.

i hope you enjoyed my ramblings!!

#therian #otherkin #dogkin #therianthropy #alterhuman #nonhuman #caninekin #dog therian #canine therian #otherkinity #coydog therian #coydogkin #otherkin pls interact #otherkin community #psychological therian #therian community #physical nonhuman #physical therian #alterhumanity #alterhuman community

[cressthebest]

Crimsons Rivers thoughts pt. 36

chapter 55:

1. kingsley is mad at lily and i GET IT i understand. but all those people are adults and CHOSE to go on the mission. it is not solely her fault

2. NOOOO!! sybil is so dear to me!! and kingsley broke up with her!!! no!!!!

3. god, i feel so bad for euphemia and fleamont. yeah victors were saved. but their children, their two children, were the only ones not brought back home. i don’t know how i would recover

4. “there was Narcissa, who wasn't just in the hunger games; no, she played the game, and she played it well, so well that Euphemia never doubted she would win.” yo that’s fucking terrifying. i-

5. andy and narcissa reuniting has me crying so hard. their sisterhood is so important to me

6. regulus doesn’t have sirius, so all he wants is james to comfort him. i- i can’t do this

7. “It's like this, that he turns to her, and Euphemia knows immediately, just that simply, that Sirius isn't here.

He isn't, because if he was, that's who Regulus would cling to; that's the only person he ever wanted to cling to.”

okay, um, simply stabbing my heart would have been easier

8. “They all knew only one could make it out, and Sirius wasn't going to be the one who did, except more than one has, and Sirius is the only one who didn't.” 😧😧😧

9. god i love dorcas. she is not lying to anyone they saved by saying there will be comforts, but she is saying they will be safe and everyone there will be kind. i love her so much

10. dorcas caring for marlene first >>>>>>>>>

11. LILY AND REMUS REUNITED!!!! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! THEYRE REUNITED!!!!

12. oh shit. wait. that was too soon. before the lily and remus reunion, he hears her say that the absolute love of his life is probably dead

13. remus’ breakdown has me in shock. like i’m not even in tears anymore, i’m just shocked. i- this hurts too bad to even cry

14. “Lily does not know much, she doesn't know what Sirius was to Remus, but she does know for sure now that he was something.

Maybe, as much as she dreads to think it, he was everything.”

😀😀😀 you can’t write lines like that. that feels illegal, to mess with my emotions like that

15. i want someone to care for me the way dorcas cares for marlene. she starts a war early to save her life. she’s willing to kill anyone to keep her alive. she will do anything.

16. “"Perhaps if you had considered the impact of the lives you planned to shape into martyrs, you would have realized that this could happen, and would be no one's fault but your own. You put those people in the arena this year, Albus, didn't you tell me that? All the ready opposition to Riddle, and you couldn't foresee this? Opposition to you?"”

get his ass alberforth. 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

17. “In all his years, Aberforth has never seen a loyalty and love exist as the loyalty and love between those two boys do.”

this is so sweet if it weren’t for the context of the statement

18. 😀😀😀 wow i hate albus

19. “They are at their best together when they are showing their worst to one another and basking in the relief of being next to someone they know won't really care, or have an opinion on it, or judge them.”

regulus and remus’ friendship >>>>>>>

20. as reg is literally beating lily up he’s like “i love her! she’s amazing! she’s my savior!! 😊😊 that’s why i must try to kill her!!!

21. “It was supposed to be me and you, but Sirius is gone. Come back to me, baby, Regulus thinks, but James is gone.” 😀😀 what a fantastic start to my day

22. lily should have had a gun in canon. this au only further proves that to me. the war would be so short is lily evans was given a gun and told to just go off and do what she wanted with it.

23. zar gave marylily hints in the authors notes ??? 👀👀 marylily??? 👀👀 marylily endgame?? 👀👀🌸🍓🎉

24. authors notes: “lily lily lily my beloved <3 she really was about to blow albus' skull open, soooo sexy of her 🥰” AGREED

25. also there’s 420 comments on that chapter and i don’t want to fuck with that number.

#marauders #regulus black #jegulus #sirius black #remus lupin #crimson rivers #lily evans #dorcas meadowes #euphemia potter #lily and remus

[grimalkinmessor]

Ryuk and Light's relationship is so important to me, you don't understand—

I am a staunch 'Ryuk is aro/ace' believer, so it's not about that, but whatever they have is also not anything else more than the other. Like, they're not lovers, they're too close to be acquaintances, too vicious to be friends, too uncaring to be enemies, like,,,,I can't EXPLAIN it but I adore it, it has me by my whole neck.

The way that Light isn't afraid of Ryuk at all, the way that he patiently explains everything he's doing without putting up that Perfect facade of his—because Ryuk is the only one that Light has ever shown all of himself too. The only being that he's ever given bits of himself to freely.

Meanwhile Ryuk is possibly the only being that wouldn't shy away from Light as he truly is. (Barring L but that's a different story and this ain't about him). Light's a little fucking monster and every other person around him wouldn't just roll with it like Ryuk does. His family would either fear him or try to fix him, his peers would likely do the same, and Misa already got a glimpse of him and disregarded it in favor of seeing what she wanted to see—even Rem has reason to be wary of him because of her feelings for Misa (and also the fact that she likely has more humanity in her than Ryuk).

Ryuk sticks by Light's side through all of it. He cares for him, but not in any traditional or even tangible way—why else would he stick around for those five years between L dying and Near and Mello showing up? It HAD to have been boring at some point in those years, but Ryuk just chilled with Light through it instead of killing him/finding something more interesting.

There's a mutual respect there. Their personalities reflect each other enough that they understand each other while also being highly aware of what the other is capable of. There are no soft feelings between them, but they're there. They play video games together and have inside jokes and expect almost nothing from each other even as they play around for their own ends.

Their parallels—"This world is rotten." "I've been bored too."—make them able to intimately understand one another. They're like brothers, like twins, and yet nothing about them is familial.

I have absolutely no clue what their relationship is but it is fascinating.

#ryuk #yagami light #light yagami #death note #its romantic in the sense that it's absolutely not #i imagine this is what the relationship would be between people that grew up in a cult together #like 'idc if you die but i'll stick by you until you do' #there's no loyalty but also there IS do you feel me? #blood brothers or conjoined twins or a fucked up version of soulmates #i dont KNOW its great #character analysis #sorta #relationship analysis #more like a rant but eh #*puts them in a jar and shakes them* #WHAT ARE YOU #and yes im aware that most of this is due to ryuk being a metaphor for the audience #like paul in llamas with hats #but also #it creates SO many interesting situations #ryuk doesnt want light to die but he kills him #ryuk sees all of light and is fucking thrilled by how fucked up he is #light knows that ryuk will eventually kill him but stills plays and talks with him #they are so important to me #i honestly kinda ship them but IDK H O W TO WRITE THIS LIKE #HOW DO I PUT THIS INTO WORDS

[bumblingbabooshka]

[Tuvok & Janeway: Control, Distance, Duty & Connection.] Sources: St Voyager Transcripts / Mitski 'First Love Late Spring' / Disco Elysium

#web weaving #star trek web weaving #st voyager #Kathryn Janeway #Tuvok #be the change you want to see in the world - make a long post about Tuvok & Janeway's similarities <- angel on my shoulder #I feel like a lot of people see them as 'opposites attract' sort of friends where Janeway is unhinged & Tuvok reigns her in #but in reality I think that while there is that element in there (exacerbated HEAVILY by their delta quad circumstances) #what I see most in their relationship is how they both value loyalty and duty above all and are extremely rigid with themselves #and the people around them. How they both have to maintain distance from others bc of their positions as captain & vulcan #I hate when people dismiss Tuvok as not being remotely interested in Maryana or Noss - it erases an interesting struggle that he and Janewa #both share - their desire to stay loyal to their spouses vs the 70 years of loneliness that that loyalty demands of them #But they BOTH triumph and they BOTH remain loyal (Tuvok until he returns to T'Pel and Janeway until Mark informs her that it's over) #and for both of them it's a little bit insane for them to do that. #Isn't it more interesting that Janeway and Tuvok both have feelings for people other than their spouses but don't give in #to that temptation? #They're both people who live very fastidiously by codes. Either written codes or moral codes - they very rarely if ever do things because #it's what THEY want to do. I'd say they're the least emotion-driven members of the crew and yes I'm including Seven because Seven #has a very...how to describe? It's a blunt and insular selfishness. She does what SHE wants to do and doesn't really care about others. #To me that's emotion-driven. Or...personal desire-driven? Not a bad thing at all but very different from Janeway & Tuvok who #are always more 'this is logical' or 'this is for the crew' rarely do they think 'this is what I want' bc they can't afford to #for different reasons (captain & vulcan) #they both also are in the most 'caretaking' positions on the ship from my POV. Security and Captain - both are directly in charge of #ship and crew safety. #Janeway & Tuvok #star trek voyager #st voy #when I say caretaking I'm NOT saying they're everyone's mom and dad or whatever - I'm saying they're in positions where they always #have to think about the greater good and the crew as a whole and how much danger is acceptable etc etc. #Janeway is always killing herself for the crew but Tuvok is right there beside her

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[lurking-latinist]

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#after uh. not enjoying hornblower: loyalty all that much I finally watched hornblower: duty #and enjoyed it a lot more. I think there's meta there with mutiny/retribution #I gather they were sort of not allowed to mention kennedy but you know that makes sense in-universe. #horatio isn't allowed to mention him either. not really. and I do think he'd clam up about him. that's horatio all over #but you can't convince me that survivor's guilt of his is only over bracegirdle #(bracegirdle makes it worse obviously) #also his letting doughty off really makes me want it to have been him that pushed sawyer #I always want it to have been him just because so much of his later career either makes more sense or has additional dramatic irony #if he knows himself to be an unhanged mutineer #BUT he doesn't have to have actually done it. he just has to THINK he is guilty #for instance - recently aubreysmaturin made a pretty good case for it having been Wellard in the books #but if it's Wellard--then Horatio's gone down a path of 'I was his senior officer I was responsible to have stopped him I wanted Sawyer dea #so basically I am guilty' - because again that is what it is to be a Horatio Hornblower. #(in fact another clue pointing to Wellard is that the universe always seems to bend to keep Hornblower's hands clean #like that time he lied that the war was over only to later find out that in fact unbeknownst to him it was over. #he gets the thing he guiltily wanted and he gets it without actually doing the guilty thing and so no one will blame him #except his own conscience) #anyway that's the books. I don't think it was Wellard in the show #I'm not sure what I think happened in the show #but whatever it was Horatio *feels* responsible #I'm not saying that's *why* he let Doughty off but I think there's a kind of secret symmetry there #hornblower

[catacropolis]

SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 7!!!!

Malleus Overblot sketches

#chapter 7 #twst chapter 7 #twst chapter 7 spoilers #chapter 7 spoilers #i have a lot of feelings about ch 7 #its a lot ok like silver finnally crying about his dad made me physically weep in a hotel room like you cant do this to me #malleus overblot #silver is one of my favorite charicters and so far i am absolutely loving how much conetnt were gettinng of him #HOWVEVER I CANNOT GO ANYWHERE WITHOUTADDRESSING HOW GOD AFWFUL THE OB MODEL LOOKS #omg malleus my boy what have they done to you . also is it just me or is this chapter extremly short . like ch6 was like 6 hours worth #it feels a bit soon for everything idk maybe its me but it was so fast. #anyways i still think that bits and peices o my original ch 7 theroy still holds water . like sebek while horribly briefly was confronted #with a decision between loyalty to malleus and the right thing to do SEBEK of all people was terrified of malleus. #and then everyone fell asleep ( except idia) witch makes my og theroy hold water that he will invent somthing to wake some people up and or #stave off the affects of it or smthn idk im excied and scared

[fluffypotatey]

you

you get it

(talking about Azure)

stop it! i’m blushing! 🥰

#also i am sorry to cloud for ranting on their azure poll twice bc i don’t actually talk about azure much but i do have thoughts about him #like listen *pulls up chair and sits right next to you* #he is written to be sympathetic #Azure is written to be a likable antagonist and someone we could believe has a good heart but ended up on the wrong side of the story #BUT!!! *taps presentation screen that was totally here with us the whole time* #Azure is an antagonist #Azure was never meant to be redeemable #why? #well remember when MK tries to reason with Azure that maybe he’s mistaken about his view of Wukong? #and how Azure interrupts him stubbornly reaffirming his skewed and biased vowed of swk? #this was flag number 1 #and have y’all fucking HEARD the way he speaks????? does anyone else like feel their skin crawl???? #have you not met someone who believes that they have everyone in the palm of their hands??? that they can convince you of anything???? #bc that’s like the first thing i picked up #also how Azure used similar mannerisms to swk but it just seems for forced and mechanical or was that just me???? #anyway #moral of the story: i would (if i had the ability) totally punch Azure & mock him but also he’s got really juicy narrative writing #he was clearly written with the intent to make MK doubt and question his loyalties (which MK just chews him out for in the special 😍) #lmk #lmk azure lion #asks

[rin-enjoyer]

behold my totally sensical dynamic diagram. from aus that everyone knows about. yeah

#makes sense mhm mhm #i just think. that if they were to meet. they would be strange about it #rin would HATE obito for daring to base all his ambitions around 'her' death (even if hes really only paying lip service to it) #but also you know she would get SO mad at anyone who dared to imply she was anything like either of the other rins #also she just. legit does not even remember kakashi's name. who dat guy. why does he have narrative significance #vs obito who would mostly just be elated to see his friends in a position where they are cool and can totally be friends again!!! #yayy #vs kakashi who is SO weird as akatsuki version. mind breaking #not because i think he is incapable of harm (he is very very very capable) but because his defining trait to me is loyalty #and him joining the akatsuki would be breaking that loyalty. feels weeird #scale of madara manipulation for sure goes kks>obito>rin #becuz kks needed SO much convincing. and obito needed the seal and rin murder #but rin definitely heard the words “perfect world” and just decided to push off and finish that existential crisis #prolly freaked out madara a bit. rip that old man i guess he should have gotten a better vessel #who DIDNT do all of that in the name of *checks notes* throwing herself into the sun. man akatsuki!rin goes hard #we havent even gotten to the kagurin of it all. but i really do need to sit down and write a whole Thing up about that so #it can wait. lmao.

[thedeadthree]

-`. WHATS YOUR OCS ROLE IN A TRAGEDY?

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MISUNDERSTOOD VILLAIN

prepare for an onslaught of both the most dehumanizing and hateful takes, and flood of thirst comments. you are chronically misunderstood. whether or not you're actually evil is debatable. you may be acting out for revenge, to defend someone you love, or even just to protect yourself. you're a pretty jaded person. you don't trust or even really like most people. maybe you did at one point. but that part of you is gone, and you don't go a single day without grieving it. you think a lot about what your life could have been. you're stuck in the past. you're angry and maybe you don't even want to be, but this is the only way you can see to survive. you're open, but less in a trusting way and more like a wound. you don't like to let people see you, but the hurt spills out of you before you can stop it. you're impulsive, even as you try hard to plan and prepare. maybe someday your side of the story will finally be heard. until then, you can convince yourself that being hated is safer anyway.

DESPERATE NARRATOR

this story is a cycle, and you're spinning around it like a hamster in a ball being tormented by a cat. you know how this story ends. after all, you've told it a thousand times. but you try to change it every time. you love the people in this story more than anything. so watching them fall victim to the narrative breaks you in a way you can't begin to describe. but all you can do is tell the story── their story── with tears in your eyes. you're prone to anxiety and feelings of helplessness. you have so much love in your heart, and for once you wish it would change something. it didn't. it doesn't. it won't. but you refuse to stop telling the story. and you refuse to stop loving the people in it. in this way, no one is stronger than you. you just wish being strong hurt less.

UNASSUMING EXTRA

you had maybe 3 lines but you will forever own my heart. you play a very minor role, one often forgotten about (not by me tho bby, i'll love you forever). however, your significance in the story is pretty big. something about you propels the story forward in a way no one else can do. you tend to blend into the background, and you probably like it that way. you want a simple life, free from the drama of the main characters. unfortunately, your story is almost always cut short. your role is usually a death that kickstarts the plot. going unnoticed did not save you, but it probably did bring you some peace of mind.

TORTURED LOVE INTEREST

you're so hot. sorry about the horrors. you're the kind of person people immediately notice. whether you have a distinct style, are more outgoing, or are just plain beautiful, you make an impression. people usually feel the need to protect you, which probably frustrates you to no end. you're not weak! you're not fragile! you're not helpless! but the people in your life tend to disagree. maybe it's your lover, the protagonist, trying to keep you out of their own turmoil. maybe it's someone responsible for you in some way, keeping you away from your lover, while they head down an increasingly dark path. regardless, all you really want is a sense of autonomy! unfortunately, you're very likely to die before that happens. the audience will be so caught up in the grief your death causes the protagonist that they forget to grieve you as a person. you deserved better, but unfortunately this is not your story. maybe it should have been.

SWEET SUPPORTING CHARACTER

i wanna be your grandma so bad, please let me pinch your face and knit you a sweater. you're most likely the best friend of the protagonist, and there's some possible overlap between you and the narrator. you're sweet and try very hard to be selfless. you watch the ones you love descend into darkness, and make every effort to help them through it all. it's not enough. you keep trying to make it enough. you provide comic relief, a listening ear, a hug, advice── any method of support you can think of. your own personal tragedy isn't documented. sometimes you wish it was, even though you're the one who ensures it is not. you want people to care for you the way you do for others. but you refuse to ask for it, so you wait for others to read between the lines. they usually don't. at least you're the one who gets to survive the tragedy. no matter how many times you beg to trade places, it is always you at the end, sitting at someone else's grave.

BOLD PROTAGONIST

you're the star of the show, baby! and boy does that come with a lot of emotional turmoil. you have a seemingly endless supply of determination. whether you have a lot of goals, or one big one, you're constantly working towards it. you're pretty restless, and struggle with imposter syndrome and generally feeling like you should be doing more. your insecurity might not be immediately obvious to others, however, as you come across as very strong and bold. vulnerability is not your strong suit, and that's likely to be your downfall. if only you had just let people in, and asked for help... well, maybe this was always gonna be a tragedy.

#only if you want to of course 🥀❣️ #oc: aerea andoral #oc: olga litvinchuck #oc: iryna pasternak #oc: alphonsa cousland #oc: alkyone uesugi #oc: valaenya targaryen #ok ok for the oddest reason the read more i believe is being eaten by tungle 🥀😖 it’s fineeee it’s fine! #and alas the laptop passed away yesterday but ! luckily this saved in the drafts and that i was able to buy a new one today <3 #ANYWAY ! 🔮✨ #pleased to introduce dearie girl aerea here ! <3 🔮✨ #ofc she doesn’t remain a villainess forever (darn din making her reconsider her loyalties darn feelings 🔮✨💀) but! so true bestie! #‘you may be acting out of revenge’ and the whether or not she is truly a villain FIRST OF ALL uquiz are u reading my mind bc?? EXCUSE ME? #i am so excited i am SO excited for y’all to get to know her 🔮✨😭 I ADORE HER ALREADY #she has a backstory and story i am so excited to develop AHH (and also her relationship with m*ando my BELOVED) #EXCUSE ME THE AUDACITY IRYNA ISNT A MERE UNASSUMING EXTRA ✨😠 THE AUDACITY #me and raul making the leave iryna be society 🥀🗡✨😭 SHE JUST WANTS HER PEACE AND QUIET!!!!! #and me and logan making the protect olga at all costs society bc her ANSWERR HER ANSWER TOOK ME OUT 🥀🗡✨😭 #‘but all you can do is tell the story their story with tears in your eyes’ and the ‘you wish it could change something it didnt it doesn’t’ #thinking about her arc and trying not to cry thinking about this answer and trying not to cry (alyssa im soo normal about this TOTALLY) #ALFIEE THE TEYRNIRS DELIGHT THE ASHEN QUEEN i am not emotional about this it’s so SILLY ✨😖 #i mean thinking of how she may be in d*readwolf likely presumed deceased by the realm and how NOT WELL any particular love interest who gave #her a rose may be feeling at this very moment <3 ✨😖 SOOOO NORMAL 🥀✨ #ALKY SWEETIE PIE HONEY BUNCH <3 they’re a nymph and my baby and i adore her very much <3 (they go by they/she pronouns btw<3) #alky is one of my ocs for tcp and i am very very excited for y’all to get to know them 🌿✨ nymph dearie! she’s so special to me! #THE WAY I WAS LIKE OH ENYA WOULD FOR SURE HAVE THE ANSWER SHE DID AND AHH! vindication! i was right! and so true bestie 🥀✨🗡😌 #leg.ocs #leg.tagged #and once more appreciation for ash and her galaxy brain making this CUTEST banner templaye 🥀✨🗡😌

[whatsanameanyway]

honestly still the biggest personal tragedy of session 5 is that when grian joined gem in the tower building. in gems episode, there were almost a solid 10 minutes of just that. them hanging out, calm, peaceful, no danger, away from people that could hurt them . and guess what ? grian left LESS THAN 3 MINUTES OF THAT IN HIS EPISODE dbjksffejw

#rant in tags #gems episode straight up got me to start drawing the most complicated fanart in a year or so just of that scene #and grian just. cut most of it out #(gem probably did too. but come on g. only 3??) #i think i know what im feeling. i called it in a yt comment on session 2 or so #im clinging to the last remains of peace and happiness we get #i watched every pov and i think this episode grian's is my favourite (even if he cut out most of my fav scene overall) #he almost died' rigged a charity' loved bdubs and built a tower. it was nice #he barely interacted with the reds (love them too but). he was just hanging out. the cleo&etho&grian & i guess bdubs team is my fav #literally not a single spec of danger in that house. all positivity (thanks etho for starting the 'we love bdubs' day too bdw) #even martyns single trap got disarmed immediately #i was hoping for an grian & cleo team because of the potential for chaos but i think i love this more at least for now #ive been thinking too. the heart foundation honestly stresses me out so much #i love them with all my heart. i do #but i dont trust bigb at all. havent since episode one and wont start now. feels like that man has no loyalty to tango and skizz #hes very fun dont get me wrong but he makes me worried. i still have no idea what his deal is #theyre also very open. no fortification ( i like walls theyre safe) #and their system is very easy to rig (as shown in this episode) #(also bigb straight up saw grian throw his quartz in and said NOTHING) #“this is a death game! why do you not want death? what are you even here for?” SHUSH #this is all /positive. its good stress #(and i love death and betrayal martyn's win is my fav ending so far) #i just got too used to the peace and happiness at the beginning #i did not mean to rant this much but i have a lot of feelings about this series i dont have anywhere else to express #trafficblr #secret life

[fangedtracks]

sorry i am having Real Emotions about this cm punk thing (and the sonny kiss thing) and also how AEW has been dog shit .

#chatter #not to be controversial on main but . #1) @TK just say you hate women and go. it has become increasingly obvious how little you care about the women on your roster #2) stop fucking . booking shit like ur smashing action figures together. yes wrestlers r dolls nd yes we make them fight fuck nasty in the #ring and kiss but that doesnt mean that you can just. squish wrestlers together and have it make sense (see adamjf vs. dark order.) #you HAVE to build up a story. you have to add context and emotion and personality to it. you cannot just pick wrestlers like ur throwing #a dart at a board. anyways . #3) i feel like AEW's roster has gotten SO large that storylines and whatever have become diluted. like there are SO many people (that he is #ACTIVELY NOT USING) that its like hard to follow whats happening and what feuds are occurring . #4) its also increasingly obvious to me how little he cares about queer wrestlers (see what he did to sonny + how he treats nyla rose + #how queer wrestlers are very often tokenized but not utilized or showcased) #5) i can also see where his . loyalty? lies (see to the elite) because i do feel like that has effected storylines (still REALLY angry how #their feud w the bcc went down whatever) #anyways i just feel like . AEW has been dog shit for a little bit and its just going to get worse bc TK literally does not know what hes #doing.

[autisticandroids]

DEAN: Cas, I just can't...

[youtube]

dean's perspective on godstiel arc. the way cas failed him. the feeling of abandonment. the obligation to control. affection for cas souring on his tongue as the imaginary idol he built in his mind shatters. the trials and tribulations of being the center of the universe.

that is not my lover and that's not even my friend.

#spn #vid #so. director's commentary. this video is mostly about dean's control issues with a couple of other themes. #like it's both about how dean feels responsible for cas (see: 'clear my name' over 'cas you child why didn't you listen to me' and also #death blaming dean for godstiel (????)) but it's also about how cas used to be someone dean felt he could control and that's no longer true #like cas used to be someone dean felt like he could just get to do anything. and now he's not and that's kind of a shocking revelation that #renders cas mysterious and unknowable and scary #like when dean felt he could control cas. when he felt like they were in it together. then it could just be the two of them against the #rest of the world (we made love in the tower of babel and it fell down). but now cas isn't doing what dean says #and worse: he has other loyalties. loyalty to god/heaven which is NOT acceptable in dean's book. it means there's a part of cas dean can't #have and dean can't deal with that. it's also bound up with another theme of this video which is: dean and cas' relationship is on the #rocks in s6 because sam died and cas didn't and cas didn't fix it and also he's still loyal to angels/god (very different things for cas #but the same to dean) and dean blames them for sam's death. and then sam continues to be not really back for most of s6 so dean's still mad #plus cas and dean haven't seen each other for a year so dean has had tons of time to massage his memories of cas to be more pleasing #so dean has all these idealized memories of cas and a cas who obeyed him when he threatened to withdraw affection and a cas who was alone #in the world and only his and now he's faced with the real cas who values other things higher than dean's approval and has other commitmnts #and he hates that cas for not being the cas in his head who is perfect. and also now that they're having this big conflict dean is denying #that cas was ever anything but his enemy and the object of his hatred. because he's so angry and also because he blames himself for #anything his loves ones do that's outside his control because he has huge control issues so the only way to assuage the guilt is by #denying that cas was ever one of his loved ones #oh and also the montage of dean refusing to help cas/helping very grudgingly/demanding things of cas is there as a contrast. to show that #the ideal cas who needed nothing from dean and did everything dean wanted never existed. he's an invention in dean's mind #and also that sequence is the explanation for WHY cas didn't go to dean (which is what dean's maddest about because it takes away control): #he had no reason to think dean would help. and if dean actually thought about it he'd realize that. but dean's self-image is OFF the WALL #and cas in 4x18 is THEE idealized image of cas because he's breaking ranks to be with dean he's choosing dean and doing what dean wants #because dean is able to get through to him EMOTIONALLY ('we're done') which is what dean likes. rationality is nothing to dean #and dean denies 'are you god' not only because he's denying any former affection for cas. he's also denying that he would ever put anyone #(god. heaven. cas.) in an authority position above himself. only he can be the authority. because he's angry and so all the cracks in his #shell close up. he has to maintain his identity as a Real Man invested in Freedom and Power harder than ever. he can't be told what to do #oh and 'under the bridges of fame it's always nighttime.' that's about dean being The Protagonist. & the consequences cas suffers from that