#this movie meant/means so much to me

[katebeckets]

GET TO KNOW ME ✰ [1/10] Movies ⤷ Frozen (2013)

"The heart is not so easily changed... but the head can be persuaded."

#frozenedit #adisgifs #disney frozen #frozen #i have no idea what tags to use lol #idina menzel #kristen bell #jonathan groff #santino fontana #josh gad #my gifs #my edit #gtkm #em.movies #this is my first time doing gifs of an animated movie. it was fun! #rewatching the frozen movies was very emotional though lmao #this movie meant/means so much to me

[aroanthy]

i love how fraught and complicated discourse around various utena characters ‘dying’ is when anthy is literally stabbed to death eternally by a million swords imbued with human hatred. and then utena gets stabbed to death by them also. like. ‘death’ is incredibly interesting in rgu because most of the time it’s this ambiguous figurative thing that has interesting implications re: ohtori as a closed-off world one can escape. we are all trapped in our coffins. mamiya is the only named character with a grave. nemuro memorial hall functions as one all the same. ruka is implied to have died in the hospital— was he dead all along? who was the boy we saw for these two episodes? is this dead boy the same boy, or is this just another coincidence from the shadow girls, cutting like a knife? it’s heavily implied that akio and anthy murder kanae by poisoning her, adding to the previous implication that they were poisoning mr ohtori too, but there are no perceptible consequences of this. kanae’s absence is not felt. she’s fed an apple slice. what happens to the bodies? we know what happened to the 100 boys, but what about everyone else? and so on and so forth. ‘death’ is a tricky thing in utena, i think it’s constantly functioning on figurative and literal levels in very different ways for very different purposes. dios died. dios was dying. dios didn’t die. he grew up. etc etc

#what am i trying to say here? #idk! think about all of the pieces you have #dying is complicated in ohtori in countless different ways #and i find it boring to see so much ‘this character is dead and that’s it’ stuff #when death is used farrrrrrr more figuratively than some ppl give credit for #and i think the movie too does wonderful things with death #and what ‘dying’ really means #being disbelieved. being forgotten. being rejected. haunting despite this #much more interesting to think about wrt commentary on abusive relationships than it is #to think about what?? oh me when my brother died but plot twist he’s alive and can walk on this road all cool. like????? #akio doesn’t have the power to make himself revenant #he THINKS he does and he absolutely has power when he’s alive and he imbues that power with such meaning that it does live on after him #but ANTHY. anthy is the one struggling with herself and her feelings and the impact of trauma and abuse (that power!!) in aou #he’s dead? he died? she brought him back through her memories? or she’s left him (metaphorical death) and he’s haunting her?? #all such interesting interpretations #i haven’t mentioned touga bc i don’t have the energy today. if dead and just illusion of others memories then why active. why awful #like in aou akio is only Obviously scummy when he’s alive. his illusory self is based upon anthy’s love for him #if anime!touga is nothing more than nanami/whoever’s memories of him before he died……. why does he actively choose to suck again and again #like nanami wouldn’t do that. unless it was meant to be a subconscious thing like ooo he’s dead all along but that’s not what her arc is #it’s not ‘he’s been dead all along’ literally or figuratively. it’s ‘he’s unsafe and i don’t want him’ #sigh. once again i am asking people to think about nanami and touga’s dynamic through touga’s eyes #it’s so interesting to me how people forget to consider his motivations or feelings on ANYTHING #like sure his motivations and feelings are scummy but they’re interesting!!!!! they intrigue me!!!! #compel me even #anyway ignore how i said i didn’t have the energy for this and then typed it all out anyway #dais.txt

[white-weasel]

Before I watched Saw IV and V, all I knew about Hoffstrahm was that they had a bit of an antagonistic relationship to each other (that caused people to ship them) and there was a scene where they’re in a Saw trap together and one of them gets into a glass coffin to survive while the other subsequently dies

All this to say: I thought the whole glass coffin scene was supposed to be Strahm sacrificing himself by shoving Hoffman into the box and Hoffman watching in horror, trying to open the coffin but being unable to… and in hindsight I could not have been more wrong about any of the context of the scene lol

#me: omg it’s gonna be so sad when jigsaw traps them in a room and only one of them can survive :((( #kinda like a parallel to the bathroom trap in the first movie except this time it will end with a selfless choice :((( #saw v: … anyways here’s Hoffman tricking Strahm into meeting him in a death trap room and making sure that no matter what choice he makes #he’s gone bite it. just one way much more violent than the other #and this is by no means meant to imply that I don’t love the actual film because I do #just funny to point out expectations vs reality for me lol #saw v #mark Hoffman #saw series #saw franchise #Peter Strahm #Hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #white weasel talks #I scream about saw

[fiepige]

Just pointing this out since I haven't seen anybody else mention it:

Notice how Hobie's already collecting parts for his own watches before they even get to the lab?

Look at him in the gif above and you can clearly see him pickpocket something from a tray from a bypassing spider-person!

I love this detail so much!

And notice when they get to the lab and Jess is no longer with them he no longer hides the fact that he's taking stuff from the lab (he even makes sure Miles sees it, probably to signal to him that he doesn't respect the spider-society and neither should Miles).

This also shows that Hobie trusts Miles more than the other spider-people already! Since he doesn't have a problem with Miles seeing him take all this stuff from the lab, but he hides it when he's around the other spider-people as seen in the first gif!

#AHHH there are so many details in this movie!!!! #I've been thinking about this a lot ever since I saw the movie for the second time #but now I'm finally making a post about it #I just hope I've made it clear what I mean #I've been having a hard time comming up with the right words to formulate this #but I'm going to try anyways #Hobie is so great and I love how much care and thought is put into him and his actions! #also I hope it's clear from the gifs what I mean #I've never made or uploaded gifs before but I felt like pictures couldn't clearly show what I meant #hobie brown #spider punk #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse analysis #my post #my gifs #please talk to me about hobie I love this guy so much

[holy-loki]

the emerald pin in velvet goldmine (1998) 

#velvet goldmine #film #listen i would apologize for posting about this film so much but i cant. bc it means so much to me #obviously the sisterhood of the travelling green pin tells a whole other story within the story of this film #and it's a fascinating one at that #because -- from what we know -- brian is the only one who STEALS it #reaps the benefits (and the tragedies) of something beautiful that was never meant to be his #and the HANDS #it's immeasurably important to me that jack fairy picks up this pin with his DIRTY hands - and makes it something his #and then the next time we see it - it's in arthur's beer-soaked (dirty - still - but in a different way) hands #ready for something new and bright and beautiful under arthur's care #SCREAMS #anyways #wonderful cinematography #i love this movie #if i haven't made that clear

[crossbackpoke-check]

Why I Am Not Coming In To Work Today [abridged], Jess Zimmerman

part one | part two

#toronto maple leafs #HELLO EVERYBODY THIS HAS BEEN MONTHS!!! MONTHS IN THE MAKING BECAUSE i AM UNHINGED AND NEEDED THE PRECISE PICTURES THAT I KNEW I WOULD GET #like. seventy five percent of this has been done since the first time i posted this and while it has gotten better with time because #my narratives simply got more complex and there's so much of this that is For Me but don't worry i will explain but aLSO goddamn mitch coul #you have gotten married any later in the year. also willy you truly disappointed me by not getting an absurd haircut this year (now that #i've said this he's going to debut it on instagram like. tomorrow. but anyway that meant y'all got to enjoy my neuroses of #Loving Tyler Bertuzzi who is a goddamn leaf. the joys of having to wait to post this (was not a leaf at the time i started it) and anyway i #have at length i think had the breakdown about tyler in pigtails girl dad & how i got a bob & then tyler copied me which was rude. that's m #gender. ANYWAY starting from the top we got sheldon keefe documentation which was really just the personal decision that i wanted all the #coaching staff to be the markers in the poem/the bold & also at the TIME keefe hadn't re-signed &we thought it might be everybody out w/kyl #anyway the title of the scrap of an old lover's flannel is literally 'u think this is about sheldon & kyle NO it's about timothy liljegren' #bc. liljegren was on the marlies winning cup team & has had a contentious relationship w/keefe ever since & was healthy scratched in playof #& the narrative is sooooo. also at one point for the ryan o'reilly i was going to edit the stlb out of his grandma's shirt or cover it w/th #childhood dreams line but THEN i found the gio snapped stick one which was too perfect for 'crumbling copy' the ryan o'reilly To Me is so. #ur insane in ways u did not think for that one. like. how soft her hands were. his grandma you guys. he grew up a leafs fan. if he ever get #to lift the cup with her again i will lose my shit. the cup run a movie i remember nothing--OKAY the spezz one i knew i needed him stresse #but also i believe in the spezz/kyle narrative so. it comes up later don't worry ALSO SPEZZ FOLLOWING HIM TO PITT CAME AFTER I MADE THIS bu #the muzz tea one makes me a little sensy bc muzz was out with an injury for most of this season & it was a really scary spinal one & so yea #& then the simmer one just straight up makes me cry bc i love him so much & the work that he does for anti-racism in hockey means so much & #if you have that video open & watch it i promise you will cry i do every time it's so beautiful he had to be on comforted by beauty & sammy #boy is on the a man who doesn't know me because EYE remember the caps goalie tandems. baby lilya. the mo one is a little funny bc it is #solely due to wade's thread about mo rielly the coal miner homestead husband. that's why he moves to omaha also i think it suits him (quiet #OK NOW OLD MEN IN LOVE NARRATIVE this one's in contention for my fave bc it's spezz coping w/retirement fundamental meaningless of existenc #u heard abt tyler already that's for me the minchy picture was just too good i had found it earlier & i spent SO LONG looking for an empty #leafs rink picture for bathtub i have some cool construction photos but i wanted the melting ice ones (thought about tahoe lol) & the sprin #one i manip'd a lot bc i needed a spring picture bc playoffs clinch in spring & that one fit so coincidentally perfect bc it's 7 straight #seasons 7 guys so. :) & i KNEW i swore to god they did more milk advertising i knew i was gonna do this one from the minute i saw the poem #the milk patch & it took a hot minute BUT I FOUND THIS ONE this one's for funsies. AND THE PIC I WAITED SO FUCKING LONG FOR this is actuall #from kerf's wedding but i was like i know on god mitch is getting married this summer & that's about to be the drunkest shenanigans wedding #i'm waiting for the pics. & then i was BLESSED with this one which is beautiful & perfect & LOOK AT THEM. anyway the last one is bc

[joelletwo]

[The Final sugi dying kitten betrayal -> utsuro-gin fight -> sakura boat imagination -> completely tonally consistent with these ginpachi-sensei closer]

now listen. u know i would rather die than post five nearly-uninterrupted minutes of a fight scene. so take that into consideration.

#slight-- #flashing #--in the first scene but i tried to cut the worst of it #sopping wet gintoki posting #videos #my computer is screaming at me. can i recall my thoughts. #i think theyre INSANE for that utsuro falling -> takasugi bound on the ground watching shouyou's execution transition. #rereading the manga fight scene. there IS some. how do i want to phrase this. unreliable perspective fuckery. retconning of memories. #nonliterality Mind Tricks. but like. things still happened. this movie here takes it so far that im like. IS GINTOKI EVEN REAL? #is this just the gintoki that lives in takasugi's dying brain and utsuro's dying brain that utsuro got from shouyou's humanity brain fungus #being his shinigami/psychopomp to walk him thru his first ever death. guhhhhhhh. littlest baby on the planet who is afraid of dying. #<- i love utsuro with all my heart. sorry for being mean to him at first turns out he's the char of all time meant for me. #anyways i think the movie is. SO BALLSY to stretch reality so far for their climax fight. and in such a. way. #taking place in complete silence. almost no actual fighting in the 200 Chapters Of Fighting arc fight scene conclusion. #reanimating so many key moments just to canonize the identity blurring triangle between three dead guys (tho gintoki gets kicked out of #the world of the dead on that sakura boat. sad.) #just a really ambitious thing to put in this aesthetically ugly and boringly standard as hell movie. AND TO SERVE WHAT END. #more standard as hell jump Power Of Friendship in the end. just with some extra weird cannibal ouroboros endless mirrors gay ass flavor. #<- gintama has always been abt making and surviving connections im not mad abt that but u know. got so generic lol. #thoooooo rereading the manga scene and understanding the plot more this time i do like the feeling that utsuro wasnt defeated so much as #just ran out his time. being kept busy from causing more problems in his final hours w a pointless fight hed never be able to turn down. #[about to digress 20 more times] anyways what else. theres an utsuro soft expression when he regrows sugi's arm that i like. interesting-- #choice. i also cut it but i love gintoki wandering gaze avoiding sugis eyes dying in his arms. and his fighting back tears so badly. #the way the dynamic and emotionally destroying shot transitions dont stop even while sugi's dying. someone on staff was working their ass #off for him and i appreciate that.

[crazypossumman]

There is something incredibly charming about the bitchy-older-man-who-hates-kids-develops-a-meaningful-healthy-relationship-with-a-parentless-child trope. Especially in a world where nearly every movie/novel/whatever has to have a romantic plot/subplot when there are a plethora of other options. It’s a trope that carries great weights of love, caring, and understanding without being romantic; it expresses a different kind of love that is equally important in this world. To open your heart to a child and become the friend or parental figure they not only need but deserve is such a beautiful thing, and to watch a child help an adult learn something new about the world and the way they see it is a constant reminder that people will always have room to grow and change. To see an adult learn as much from a child as the child learns from them, sometimes even more so, is the reminder that so many people need that wisdom often comes in the form of a fresh perspective.

#anyway i finally watched nimona #and what a cute little movie #yes im aware that shes a 1000+ year old creature of some sort and not exactly a child but you get my point #i'd assume that the reason she takes a younger form instinctually is that she is close to her species' equivalent in developmental age #explaining why she has a younger child form 1000ish years ago and a more teenager-esc form in the present #meaning her kind likely just ages much much slower #unless the child form is meant to be more “accepted” as children are seen as nonthreatening and that was a time she wanted to belong #and the teenage form is meant to scare others away because teenagers often don't fit in or conform to societal norms #explaining the punk aesthetic as well #but that's just my interpretation #anyway it reminds me of the no-we-are-not-getting-a-cat dad memes where they fall in love with the cat #it’s hilarious and beautiful #also by GODS did that movie do the gays justice #queer characters #and never once was sexuality mentioned #it just existed without being a big deal #fantasy worlds with no homophobia are the best fantasy worlds #and it touched on some very heavy topics like depression and suicidal ideation in a way that was serious and thoughtful #but easy for younger audiences to understand #which is so so important in a world where we want younger people to feel understood #and to feel as if they can actually talk to others about their problems #roan rambles #random #nimona #nimona movie #i have a lot of opinions and they don't all fit in the tags whoops lol

[cave-monkey]

Monkey King 2009 Episode 3

Them having Stone Monkey (apparently purely on instinct) constantly scratching while being introduced to the troop was pretty cool, since that's a legitimate deescalation behavior in monkeys. Something about how revealing stress acts as a bonding behavior and makes it less likely they'll be attacked. Humans do it too, kind of, when they rub at their hands or shoulders or neck (etc. etc.) when nervous or overwhelmed. ("Empathize with me! I am very stressed!").

Also something-something instinctive behaviors aside Stone Monkey being excited/overwhelmed/maybe a little overstimulated and choosing "ESCALATION!!!" as his response to all of that. He thinks the troop being scared of him is hilarious. He's scratching the fur off his arms but he's also going to get right up in your face anyway. Cautiously join him in admiring his cool new rock? He is going to play-lunge and also scream. Absolutely amazing. The troop has no idea what to do with these mixed signals. This kid is a menace and I love him.

Six Ears even gets in on the scratching behavior occasionally in the background, which might be because Stone Monkey actively terrorizing literally everyone trying to be playful (because he has the social skills of a literal, actual rock) is stressing Six Ears right out or it could be an attempt to deescalate on Stone Monkey's behalf. Monkey version of following in his new friend's wake throwing apologetic grimace-smiles at everyone. Possibly it's both. Point is: They included these behaviors and it's very fun.

You can also tell it worked because in just the journey to the cave you watch the four generals' views on Stone Monkey go from "uncanny valley horror entity lurking in the forest probably to kill us all" to "what a rude little kid >:| Emphasis on RUDE."

And, okay, I admit, I have softened my stance on the four generals. Somewhat. They seem to actually be taking their jobs seriously now. Maybe Episode 1 was a wake-up call and they won't utterly fail to notice an incursion until it's in the heart of their territory again. I don't want to go too crazy, but maybe they'll even be able to even muster a coherent response! Good for them.

Should probably still not be managing children, though.

Speaking of, Six Ears's increasing despair watching the train wreck in motion that was the four generals fumbling hard in giving Stone Monkey his very first etiquette lesson after he finally settled down and seemed willing to hear them out is also very relatable and hilarious. He knows they failed the test. Stone Monkey is definitely never going to listen to them again. They blew it. RIP Flower Fruit Mountain.

Stone Monkey does check in with Six Ears when he decides the generals are useless about explaining though, and that's pretty cute. He trusts his friend :) He also definitely internalizes that thing about having to ask to leave the presence of the king, so at least they managed to teach him some manners. ONE manners. A single manner. (Spoiler: They immediately regret this.)

But hey! This time Six Ears is left entirely to his own devices and still manages to get caught smack in the middle of enemy action. Not the Generals' fault for once! Six Ears just attracts this kind of thing, I guess.

3/3 Six Ears is Damsel-ed, but only 2/3 it's the adults' fault. The tally develops.

#also not gonna lie I first thought stone monkey might have hella fleas. he still might to be honest. someone check up on that. #mhw09 personal #squinting at old monkey king pretending to be asleep this episode #my guy you were definitely ACTUALLY out of it in episode 1 don't you be acting like you weren't #you passed out in the middle of an invasion and almost got your kid killed #the fact you managed to make it to your seat BEFORE you passed out so you could pretend you were just too cool for the LITERAL INVASION #doesn't mean a dang thing. you're not fooling me. #also. stop that. you are giving the troop SEVERELY mixed signals #I am easing up a liiiittle more on the generals since it seems the old monkey king is actively hiding and obfuscating the severity of his #condition from the very people who are presumably meant to help him shoulder the burden of leading the troop #no wonder they don't take him fretting about his age seriously: he's turning it into a joke himself #considering episode 1 and then here and also how much more energetic he seemed in episode 2 #I'm headcanoning (if this isn't just straight up canon) that old monkey king has good days and bad days #but you can't tell which he's having because he uses his good days to turn all his bad day low energy behaviors #into games. it's all DELIBERATE guys. he's keeping you on your TOES. he isn't LITERALLY DYING- #hiding his weakness makes perfect sense on the *whole* in keeping his troop from panic and insecurity. maybe. #but it's not smart that he's even letting his generals believe it #they're still not off the hook for throwing a kid out to face the horror movie monster they were convinced was living in the woods though! #and it's no excuse for being THAT negligent in their duties and then their straight-up professional incompetence in episode 1 #they let themselves get rusty and put everyone in danger and that's on them #but not being as much of a help to their king as they should be maybe isn't so much their fault #if they're being lied to about how much the old monkey king can actually handle. BY the old monkey king. #I GUESS #dang this troop is a total mess. I love it.

[sugo1stuck]

i think everyone has that one fandom or interest where you literally cannot interact with the fanbase too deeply because you feel that everyone misunderstands it. anyways hi scott pilgrim is that fandom to me

#i follow the few scott pilgrim blogs that i follow bc they're the only ones who are right #i dunno it just kinda sucks bc i have seen so many god damn posts that are just. either just straight up wrong #about what happens in the comic #or read it with such a bad faith viewing #its what you get for being autistic about a thing for over four years i guess #and none of my other hyperfixations have that big of a fanbase i mean #when was the last time you heard someone talk about how i met your mother #i dunno #this is just a comic/movie thats meant so much to me over the years #mine

[running-in-the-dark]

ugh. I felt amazing yesterday. it just felt like things were finally moving forward, and like I can actually do this (especially writing my thesis, or alternatively dealing with it if I don't manage to do that). like. I felt like a person. I don't know how else to explain it.

then today my friend visited, and then my brother and his wife and their two kids also came over at the same time. there were people here for 6 hours.

I'm so tired. I'm so exhausted. I just want to sleep for a week. but tomorrow I've got a meeting about my thesis (which is scary), and on Friday we've got to go look at an apartment. but I just want to sleep 😭

#I hadn't seen my friend in almost a year and was really looking forward to seeing her #but it was just so. much. #she's so mean. not to me. but when talking about others. very direct. it's hard to deal with for me #and my brother... yeah he is really just mean sometimes. very macho. very 'eww girl stuff is gross' #he saw my Barbie movie steelbook and made fun of it. a lot. #also my niece loooved my rainbow high dolls haha. she played with all of them (she asked first of course) #unfortunately that meant just laying them all out on the floor in the kitchen 🙃 it's not super dirty or anything. but it is the floor. in a #room that my brain considers Dirty #so it'll take a while until they feel clean again #but it's fine. it was really cute how much she liked them #I want to be social so bad but it just exhausts me so fucking much 😭 #personal

[viridiscrow]

I got to spend the last 11 days with my girlfriend. It's been long-distance for a year+ and we finally met. It is the happiest I've been in years.

#love is extremely rare and difficult for me #I don't think I can effectively convey how important that is to me... #for how rare it is for me to feel these feelings... how much that means for me and how important that feeling is... #and how important that person is to me... #I'm ace and demiromantic and it's so rare and scary for me #being able to see them meant everything to me #we kissed in the airport #we fell asleep together #we watched shows together #I cooked some lunches and dinners for us #they showed me their sketchbooks and I cried #I held them while I was falling asleep and heard their heartbeat and thought ''this is the most important heartbeat in the world'' #I cried a lot (from overwhelming emotions because I love them) #we watched their favourite anime (we've been watching it together for a while) and we got to a very emotional part and I cried more #we went to the mall #I bought them dinner and gifts #I gave them stickers #we ordered Taco Baco #they kissed me #I kissed them a lot #they painted my nails #I watched them play a video game #we watched Ponyo (it was their first time seeing a Ghibli movie) #they tried sushi for the first time bc I suggested it #I got to watch them draw so much #watching them draw is almost my favourite activity #my favourite activity is talking w/ them #I love her more than anything #I mean that as sincerely and emphatically and importantly and openly-emotionally as I can say anything #⭐

[princelune]

sigh. i wish the motherless brooklyn movie had actually been good

#the book means/meant so much to me and the movie came out.... anticlimactically and wrong #it was barely based on the book. stole the main characters name and illness and rolled with it. #speaks #the POTENTIAL for the actual story to have been adapted.... and then shoving it into the fifties for no reason ???? come on

[andthebeanstalk]

Dear horror youtubers who write video essays explaining and examining extraordinary works of horror that I deeply want to see and understand but will literally never be able to safely watch due to my own trauma - thus providing me with a way to learn from and connect to works of art that would be otherwise forever inaccessible to me,

I love you.

#original #horror #final girl studios #if this youtuber is on tumblr someone should tag her #LOVE the idea of a girl coming of age and becoming monstrous but now obsessed with how they described this movie as #'a girl coming of age and finding that the people AROUND her have become monsters to her' #fucking. brilliant! thank you for giving me a way to learn from and enjoy this movie! i am more sure than ever that i should not watch it! #but i am so grateful to you for giving me such a gift! how wonderful! #that said - folks please be very cognizant of the warnings at the beginning of the video. there were still parts I had to look away from #also it was cathartic experiencing this movie from this POV bc 'the horror of girlhood being validated' is healing tbh #it was HORRIFYING being a little girl who became a teenage girl! and no one seemed to care what girl-children went through! #I mean folks were dismissive of kids in general but teen girls and little girls are like. a Joke to a lot of people. #everything we liked was ridiculed. and our fears held similarly little weight to adults. and yet. The Horror of Girlhood is so Real. #I Can Only Imagine how much more girls of color were dismissed and targeted and dehumanized. #and then you've got the little Trans girls and teens - who were playing The Horror of Girlhood on like. Nightmare Hard Mode. #the specific horror of girlhood for me as a transmasc AFAB person meant that the existential horror of being seen as a girl #meshed with my gender dysphoria in a way I did not have the language for and would not for many years to come #like the internalized misogyny and the gender dysphoria were literally impossible to parse apart. i couldn't tell which was which. #i just knew i HATED being a girl and i wanted it to STOP. and it was mostly because of how people treated girls. #like it probably took me longer to figure out my gender because of that.

[sparxymcfly]

Today I am feeling SO soft about the fantastic running theme in the Back to the Future series about the power of love. Yes, I hope you heard it in your head too when I typed it out but REALLY I can’t stop thinking about it. About love and belief and support and how powerful it can be. Sure, there’s the inverse, we see plenty of that in the conga line of adults either being flat out awful or just utterly neglectful to Marty in the opening of the first film, and we know that didn’t do him well. But my brain’s hyperfocused on the good right now- how even the smallest bit of friendship, of goodwill, of caring, can utterly change the trajectory of a person.

In the first film, you’ve got “Calvin” with George and Lorraine. Sure, Marty was in on it to some degree to save his own skin, but there was nothing about saving his own skin in following his dad when he didn���t know what else to do, in saving him from being hit by the car just on instinct. Trying to stop Lorraine from drinking and smoking wouldn’t have affected much, but it’s still something he wanted to do. Marty hits George with the same saying Doc instilled confidence in him with- “if you put your mind to it, you can accomplish anything”. And after a week of this, of believing they could be better and helping to cheer them on, what did we get? Lone Pine, where the McFly family is prosperous and happy and doing leagues better than they had been before.

Kindness, love, belief, they have impacts. Hell, look at Goldie in the first film- Marty says he’ll be mayor and he’s floating on top of the world for the entire rest of the scene at the idea someone just said they bet he could do it. Sure, Marty wasn’t exactly saying that solely with the intent to cheer- Marty just knew it was going to happen. And yet, when the cafe worker is berating Goldie’s talk of a big future, that’s when Marty chimes in. That’s when, and more importantly why, Marty decides to say it- like yeah, Marty’s probably never been shaken more in his life, but hearing someone getting torn down when he knows they’re wrong, his first instinct is to shoot back and say ‘no, you’re wrong, he is going to be great someday’. 

And for all the smaller examples, we have our biggest ones. Doc and Marty themselves. Marty, who was torn down by the entire world around him and could easily have been doomed to spiral downwards- both acting by presumption and by seeing “the sins of the father” in the son in 2015- and the man who Marty befriended, who drills into his head every day that he is capable, that he can do it, that he’s an amazing kid worthy of amazing things. Something he pushes forward all the time, honestly- with George, with Goldie, Marty’s go-to for cheering really is from the one guy who’s shown him mountains of kindness, love, care. In Marty’s mind, this is the truth, you can do it!

For all examples, I’m choosing to pull from the game for Doc, if nothing else because of the fact it was these examples that triggered a lot of this. Citizen Brown, who’s spent roughly 50-60 years of his life solidly under Edna’s thumb and for whom nothing has shaken him before, and Marty refusing to leave until he’s cracked through to get to the man who knows this is wrong, who loves science, who wants to help people and make things right! It’s in the absence of true love and support, in how Edna even managed to twist him to that at all even though we all know Emmett Brown is a good man who wants to help. And it was real love, the love and support and again, that belief, of someone who truly wants what’s best for him that snapped through it- shook Citizen Brown of the wrongdoings of what was going on, shook Emmett on that rooftop [and although it perhaps took some unfortunate methods to get there, the amount of unease Marty felt in doing a lot of what he did in episode 4, in my opinion, shows a lot of that love and of strength of resolve that he was willing to make himself the villain for even just moments in the face of wanting to help and so rarely knowing what else he could possibly do].

In the absence of love, people fall and cow and do whatever it takes to survive because there is no other option they can see. And in the face of just the tiniest bit of that love, they can blossom. We see it in Lone Pine’s existence, we see it in the game’s timeline having grown even kinder with Emmett’s reforged relationship with his father, in the McFly family’s happiness and in Marty and Doc themselves when they’ve got even just one other person who believes they can do amazing things. And they do! They literally love each other so much as to continuously, time and again, help save each other’s lives in both a milder sense and a very literal one.

The trilogy- or, really, the entire series, because it’s where it all begins- opening on The Power of Love is really truly doing something to me today. It’s true! Love is powerful and it can reroute time itself. And god that’s sick as hell.

#back to the future #bttf #sparxy talks future #what a comeback! i am soft! #also rambly but i think that just means a return to form #i'm just #like #listen #it's always meant so much to me that back to the future is a series full of heart #like feelings are everywhere #kindness is huge and so is friendship and family and like #LOVE #it's big! #and like especially in the face of say #the older drafts of the first movie #you literally can only appreciate it more #that these movies #this series #it could've just been a mccoolguy series of films #it could've been something that had a cool kid who does crime and nothing flaps him and his employer #who's just got this edge of 'i'll show them #i'll show them all' #but no we literally #we get a kid who loves and feels so much #and his best friend who loves and is kind and honestly kind of clumsy about all of it #but both of them are #they're earnest #the films are earnest #and that just means so much to me

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NIMONA MOVIE GOOD 👍

#I don't think I can articulate. How much nimona meant to me when first read it in middle school & how much it still means 2 me #& how much this movie means to me now. & how much harder all of it hits as a trans dude #LIKE I want to write a big essay on how much it means and how much everything ND Stevenson has made or worked on has resonated w me but lik #idk im not very articulate or good w words so I guess I'll just say thank you #IDK. FUCK. #nimona #leo yells