#this news is PAINFUL AS FUCK

[notsoattractivearenti]

how i’m feeling today and probably the rest of my life:

RIP Andre Braugher. gone too soon but never forgotten. thank you for bringing Raymond Holt into our lives and beautifully portrayed a queer black man in power. i’ll always cherish you and Captain Holt in my heart 🤍🕊️

#this news is PAINFUL AS FUCK #horrible year for sitcom fans 😭💔 #now ​i’m gonna cry everytime holt appears on my screen #gif credits to original owner(s) #andre braugher #brooklyn nine nine #brooklyn 99 #b99

[crybaby-bkg]

I think Deku has a bit of a mean streak, actually. he’s no Bakugou—that’s for sure—but he’s not this innocent, sweet angel baby that the media has painted him out to be. but you only catch it when you least expect it, when you’re pushing his nerves, when the stakes to everything around him are high, when he’s tired of endless sleepless nights and just—snaps.

“Oh?” you go, grin unfurling like some grinch, chin resting on your hands as you leer at him from across his expansive desk. “You’re mean.” your words are teasing, a snarl that curls your mouth up. Deku stutters, eyes going wide, jaw snapping shut in surprise as he tries to think back on how rude he just sounded.

“No, I’m not—I mean, you wouldn’t stop and I just—there’s a lot on my plate right now—and you just—you keep on—I’m not—I’m not mean.” He’s sputtering, hands all over the place, the glasses perched on the bridge of his nose falling even lower with how he jabbers on and on. it’s endearing really, to see how he tries to upkeep his image of being so kind and understanding, even though his nostrils just flared at you. and his eyebrows turned down and he gritted at you, his hands were balled into fists, his words were so nasty, so ugly, so unbecoming for Deku.

you liked it. loved it even—vowed to get him like this every single fucking second that you could.

you pick and poke at him whenever you see him, teasing him and pulling at him. pushing him around even though the hero is so much stronger than you, so much bigger. and he lets you, tries to defend himself but—that’s not what you want. you want the ugliness, the snark, the mean.

he snaps, eventually, when you least expect it. grabs you up in black whip when you go to push him against the wall for the third time in only a minute, his eyes suddenly dark, the aura of the room suddenly charged.

“That’s what I was looking for.” you whisper to him, the grin spreading your face quickly dissipating in only seconds when you become the prey. when you become the one pushed up against the wall with teeth at your neck, a hand in your underwear, bullying your hole with too thick fingers.

“Why do you want me to act like this? Be so mean to you, huh?” he sounds so frustrated with himself, with you, growling and nipping and licking when you don’t answer quick enough. but your breath is caught in your lungs because finally—finally, did you get what you wanted. it just took a little bit of pushing, you suppose.

#omg I wrote this idea down last night and couldn’t even type it up #bc I took some sleep meds and it put me out SO FUCKING QUICK???? #usually I don’t lay down until like an hour and a half or two #but it was literally like 40 mins and I was DONE!!!! #but I finally wrote it :D #there’s also been so much talk of him on the dash and i am. very much so liking this #I miss him bc I don’t think about him enough #but I also think he can be. so mean. like NASTY mean when his limits are pushed enough #ohhhh my god I wont him so bad #okay gn I took more meds bc my pelvis has been in so much pain???? #just the right side too??? omg AM I DYING GELP #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #deku treats! 🍬

[egophiliac]

swipes everything else off of the table to yell about diasomnia flower bookmarks

(I gave Silver one too :D)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #white rabbit festival #me: oh boy i wonder what excitement will happen in this new part #characters: now it is time to buy souvenirs :) #me: oh god #jk jk even when the filler is kind of painful i do enjoy the little character moments #like everyone screaming as loud as they can into silver's watch #deuce busting out his suzy izzard impression #SMASH IT WITH A HAMMER! #and of course silver assigning flowers to the other dias and getting all sappy over lilia. god. delicious. #you don't understand this ten second long scene is everything to me #though we all know the real highlight #the knowledge that 1) deuce used to have an extremely silly edgy badass nickname #2) he almost certainly gave it to himself #3) he harassed epel's extended family to the point that they told horror stories about him and he was briefly epel's personal idol #epel: i heard he once killed three men with but a look #deuce: what no i never...i mean...ha ha sounds weird nothing a model student like me would know about #also deuce: if you fuckers don't apologize to my mom right now i'll fucking kill all of you (sees dilla) uhhh i mean #deuce: i challenge you to a children's game #black bunnies leader: (strapping on his duel disk) i accept #meanwhile silver is running full speed at a group of children screaming to them about donuts #we aren't going to talk about what ortho did with that fantasy-gregg's sausage roll #so glad that we've reached the 'what the heck is even happening' portion of the event #anyway i completely screwed up the resolution of these so here's hoping they don't look terrible! #whoops!

[kabeddon]

They are DONE!!! LOOK AT THEM AAA

They will now be there under my monitor (totally dont mind the shamos chilling behind them...)

#tf2 #lil pootis #medimedes #...and a shamos from mh:w #anyway listen medimedes gave me so much trouble the entire time I'm making him #not only he was a massive pain in the ass that didnt let me form him easily #after his paintjob the spray paint fucked me over #took me three repaints to get him to top condition #the good news is the spray paint gives him this... fuzzy texture #so while pootis is smooth asf medimedes feel fuzzy ish in comparison! #the... glasses was also a challenge but nothing a wire extracted from a ribbon cant fix!

[ghirahimbo]

evil time loop escape conditions where you can't get out until you've fuucked up your life in the most spectacular way possible, confident that the next night will reset the slate as usual.

instead, the next day comes.

#that's the first chapter btw #the rest of the story is about coming back from the fallout #trying to make amends #something something the hubris of believing you were above consequences #coming to terms with the pain you were willing to cause in the moment because you never thought it would last (but it did) #actually maybe this is just undertale geno route #post cancelled undertale did it already #lol mostly i was trying to figure out if i could get to new york in a daily reset time loop #i probably could if i fucked up my life #and of COURSE that would be the day it didn't reset

[your-local-granny]

fall from grace

#I actually did this for inktober like a year ago whoops #Thinking about her again 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 did you know she makes me ill #hey wasn’t it kind of fucked up she literally got shot #wasn’t it fucked up how she lived with this phantom pain carrying around her father’s greatest failure the mark of a killer #and then. She was also shot. In the same shoulder. Wasn’t that fucked up a bit #Oh also this was gauche on like a 4x6 sketchbook so there’s a lot of patchiness but that was kind of the point srry #all about unlearning imperfection and trying something new yknow #franziska von karma #ace attorney #ace attorney fanart #portal art 💕🌸🌤️

[actual-changeling]

someone should have stopped me from putting these side by side but here we are. i can't do this anymore what the fuck.

a difference from at least six thousand years—and they are completely different people, crowley is absolutely right about that. the starmaker was lost in the fall, and crowley has been trying to find himself again ever since.

the final fifteen robbed him of anything light that was still persevering, because crowley's don't bother is him giving up. he's done. he can't do this anymore and then he still waits.

he still waits.

and he will keep waiting.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #ineffable husbands #ineffable wives #ineffable spouses #ineffable divorce #the final fifteen #what if i took apart a wall brick by brick with my bare hands #jesus christ i cant do this anymore #every day i find new ways of inflicting pain who gave me this curse #also david tennant genuinely fucking blew my mind with the starmaker #i dont know how he does it but goddamn

[souredfigs]

Of lovers burdened with glory and doomed since the beginning of time

Book mentioned: The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller/Song used: Achilles come down by Gang of Youths/Jujutsu Kasien 0 manga/Jujutsu Kaisen light Novel 1/Jujutsu kaisen manga chapters 78 and 236 by creator Gege Akutami/Jujutsu Kaisen season 2 , director Shōta Goshozono

#so please please please let me let me let me #im not even kidding when I tell you how long ive wanted to make this thread #like the resemblance is INSANE #also let me just say im new to webweave and I need to get seriously better at it but anyways #Satosugu #satosugu webweaving #blood curdling angst #they loved each other sm you guys): #jujutsu kaisen #jjk 0 #jjk 236 #gojo satoru #geto suguru #geto is quite literally gojos achillies heel fight me on that #im gonna read some teacher geto aus to dull the pain #jujutsu kaisen season 2 #gege when i catch you gege #gege when i fucking catch you #madeline miller #the song of achilles #the iliad #and vampy once again screaming about fictional and historical gays #theres so much i wanted to add in this thread but oh well #achilles come down #patrochilles #their stories are one in the same ur honour

[milkweedman]

It is interesting how much math comes into even the most basic of like. Making things. Making almost anything. And often not numbers necessarily but proportions and geometry. I think all the time about how castles were built with geometry at the heart of it. And I use the same kind of proportional math to make socks fit. And none of my pieces are ever knit with a prime number of stitches--because you use factors to make neat colorwork and ribbing and different stitches. Idk ! I remember constantly thinking 'how the hell is THIS gonna come in useful ?' But it always does. Math is at the heart of everything, and knowing how to apply it is a tool of critical importance to Thinking Up A Shape And Making It.

#it turns out it is not covid vaccine making me highly fucked up but rather this new med which is fun #um #one of thise 'high but wow. in such a bad way' kinda experience atm #almost fell down the stairs #tripped while just standing #and its like. ok so the thing is i go to pain management to manage my pain right ? makes sense #and then all they have to offer is shit that fucks me up more. the muscle relaxant that seems to have permanently #loosened all my joints so they are WAY WORSE NOW #stupid ssris that make me fall constantly and fuck with my brain #i literally just need a painkiller that works. that is all. we know what was effective from surgery #but they of course will never prescribe opiods. oh the horror. imagine. #i could scream #anyway. uh thinking about the interconnectedness of math in all things is much more fun than screaming #knitting

[kingly-court]

Sequel to this

#Chronic illness #Chronic pain #Chronic illness memes #Chronic pain memes #actually chronically ill #Three! New! MEDS! *FUCK* #Also. Emphasis here on the MIGHT BE. I’m. Cautious

[jewishcissiekj]

Local Prequels girlie thinks about Anidala for more than two seconds and proceeds to eat drywall

#GET AWAY FROM MY THOUGHTS DOOMED YURI #I MISS THEM. I REWATCHED AOTC THIS WEEK. I NEED THEM GONE. FUCK. #sw #star wars #anidala #anakin skywalker #padmé amidala #padmé naberrie #padme amidala #padme naberrie #anakin and padme #sobbing throwing up screaming into the void #used to not be the biggest anakin lover or anidala shipper #no idea what happened but here we are #pain suffering agony #watched a bunch of tiktoks of them which was a) a mistake #b) FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK #new comfort ship dropped #i have the most incoherent thoughts about them they're so special to me

[cosmichawk]

past and present

#more like pain and suffering #btw this is not a triptych anymore bc while working on it i came up w/ new panels (??idk) for this shit #but that's a story for another day #first one is a ruin grader on devantaka mountain near the statue of the seven #second one is a ruin golem on that same devantaka mountain #third one is the abandoned eleazar hospital or dar al-shifa #it's not 100% clear who was that one doctor that operated there but let's be real - it can only be this bitch #first panel almost was my 13th reason why bc i fucked up w/ composition - redrew it - fucked up again but for diff reason #then i completely changed it and THEN i reversed that decision #first panel is what started it. i had to keep it. and i suffered for that. #genshin impact #dottore #il dottore #ch - art

[yvesolade]

“Perplexed is a soft word, charming. A dog turning its head to the side when it doesn’t understand what you mean when you say I love you. I was perplexed, and by this I mean I was stuck in the space between terror and awe. I wasn’t confused; I wasn’t weighing the options. I was startled by the incomprehensible—as if confronted for the first time by vinegar or polka music or a bright yellow. It was delicate, precarious, the eye of the storm. It collapsed, often and easily, into fear or confusion. It was constantly interrupted by self-pity and breakthrough pain.”

Richard Siken, “On Perplexity: Chrysanthemum” in Poetry Magazine, October 2023

#richard siken #new siken is fucking me UP #writing #self-pity and breakthrough pain

[novalizinpeace]

Heavens why i had posted too much?

#'m trying to put the new tags in the post that need it #and putting a read below to some long post to make it more easy to scroll #but still #is so fucking much #nova is in pain

[buwheal]

alright gang what we thinkin Ive been doing this without a reference this entire damn time and its KILLING my consistency.... sigh... me when i have to follow the properties of a character to draw them correctly.... (bwomp)... /j

is he fucked up enough

#his jaw was NOT being tapered and his face was a tidbit too wide and it makes all the damn difference #fuck this guy hes so weird and unusual and hes a pain in the ass to draw right and i cant for the life of me /aff #i cant do the asks because every time he looks so off and its been really bothering me honestly #his wack ass arm length vs leg length is on purpose im trying to mimic the sprite a little. I want him to be a freak and somewhat triangula #[you've got mail!] #i did this because i was sketching the next ask and like... his chest looked weird asf so i tried to do a full body underneath to fix the #proportions and it was pissing me off so i just opened a new canvas #I CANNOT believe i do not have a reference sheet. Its been like 4 months since i made one this is criminal

[theworldinclines]

#that bit when top said i AM friendly! :) as long as he doesn't fuck with me :) LIKE that was the first thing i thought of DSGKJHGLKJ #he is SO crazy <3 #can i say something bold and suggest that yo's bf shouldve been gunsmile HDFLKGHDGKLJD #as an apology for killing his character in 3wbf so that they couldnt end up together #bc that shit was EVIL and i think it would be funny esp bc yo and her bf in this are barely there anyway like why not just give this to me. #smh #like her and gunsmile had actual chemistry in that and her and this guy dont have it lmao he seems pained every time he has to #act like her likes her or am i hallucinating #update: in the new ost it seems like they have a fight where HE dumps her and its like ?? u have no personality and r dry as hell lol #only friends series #my edits #only friends the series #ofts #only friends #ofts squad #sandray #sanray #sand x ray #san x ray #topmew #top x mew #nickboston #bostonnick #nick x boston #boston x nick