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foxstens · 3 days

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love how kandreil is just three people who'll never give up on each other

#my posts #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #kandreil #you could write an essay about this but i'm not eloquent enough for that #but it's so central to the themes of the series #all three of them grew up traumatized and isolated from their peers #they didn't have any people their age to believe in them and give them strength #but now they do? and they latch onto each other so hard #and they value each other's autonomy they inspire each other to /grow/#AND THEY'LL NEVER GIVE UP ON EACH OTHER #no matter what you might think of kandreil as a ship you can't tell me their dynamic isn't special

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thewandererh · 3 days

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bOO‼️

@if-you-heart @if-you-mind @if-you-soul

told heart this but i drew fanart of ya’ll’s sweet angular soul guy :]! i couldn’t not…look at his dumb face…..🥺

i have two versions because the lighting experiment came out ok-ish. t was originally blue (because it was coming from the left side lmao) but red looks better 🤷

it’s a little simple and the composition is messy, but it was a good stress relief + shading practice :D! im proud of it. i’ll definitely draw him (and the gang) more though if i can!! been getting better with hair recently and tested out my skills with this one :]. styling and keeping consistent with hair is tough, but oddly relaxing. did some lineart in the car somehow 👀??

he looks like such a,,,bro i can’t….. i love how stupidly spindly he is

i was attached to this stupid lanky fictional(???) man the *moment* i saw this post. absolutely bonkers. i was so charmed by this concept i shared it to all of my friends you don’t understandjshdkdhdgsgd /silly /but yeah i did do that XD

also you fazgang have been reblogging and liking my stuff 🐥 <- looks up at you like this chick

which,,,,thankie,,…🐥🐥😳💛✨

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for you onlookers have some more posts by the fazgang (what the if-you-hms-gang call themselves) to gaze upon. you will not regret,,

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i’ve noticed a trend that i often tend to write big paragraphs about a simple piece of art i’ve made, which is okay but i get the lack of interaction lol. im very proud of my art, and go on rambles on why i like it. the formatting i turn to aswell as the text and images almost turns the post into a collage? visually?? i love collages so it works out XD! but anyways,, im not upset over notes, i just like getting my art out there. so thank you to everyone whose viewed, read, liked, and followed for the ride :]. im glad you appreciate my stuff, it’s what i can offer <3. it won’t be consistently one fandom but im glad to not be alone in my interests. good god that sounded like a traumatized rant (maybe it was but:)

TLDR: check out if-you-heart/mind/soul :]! they are very cool and nice💛

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shinyhappysims · 1 month

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Please, please, please everyone send up prayers for my sister Sochima!

She just gave birth to her 4th baby. Unfortunately, this’ll be her last child. His name is Solace, which is definitely what she needs from the Lord right now.

On top of that, Sochima and Ciaran have been stressed with their son Benjamin. Ben is 90% deaf in both ears and struggles with walking. He has a rare chromosome abnormality and they have yet to receive a proper diagnosis. Between the birth of Ben and little Solace, Sochima had several miscarriages, including an ectopic pregnancy that resulted in her getting an ovary removed. During her labor with Solace, she suffered an uterine rupture and had to undergo a hysterectomy. Sochima always said she would be willing to make sacrifices to make sure any children she conceived would have a chance at life. I’m so proud of her to have had so much faith in God to be able to do such a brave thing.

Sochima’s on bed rest for the forseeable future. Luckily her two oldest girls, Trinity and Hannah, are huge helps around the house. A few of our siblings have made trips to Henford to make sure Sochima’s alright, to help around the farm and to meet Solace. Thank you all for keeping my sister in your thoughts.

Yours, Isioma <3

#fundie simblr #fundie sims #fundie snark #sims 4 legacy #shs: izzy #ngl to you #this post was traumatizing for me to write #anything for the plot #tw miscarriage #tw hannah’s goofy ass shirt

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lovereadandwrite · 1 month

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Fyodor would absolutely invent a medieval cello just so he could celebrate😌🎶🎻 my tlkt0k: sarahdeleonart

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deservedgrace · 5 months

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i appreciate the curiosity and desire to understand when people ask me what growing up religious/in a cult was like, how religion and religious trauma impacts me, why i'm so against christianity, but i kind of dread those questions now because it's so... impossible to explain it properly. i don't know how to explain to people that don't have that experience that it's everything and it's a million little things.

#like. there's a reason my therapist didn't really get the religious trauma until we had been working on it every week for at least a year #i keep trying to write this post and explaining it but i keep dissociating and like #that's part of it too #there are a lot of things i don't remember that only come to me when i'm triggered/having a flashback #there are a lot of things that are normalized so even when i realize they're traumatizing #other people don't #there are a lot of things that don't sound very upsetting and only make sense in the context of larger things #there are some things you can't understand the weight of unless you've been in it #there are some thing you just straight up forget until something reminds you of it #there are just... so many bits and pieces that make up what makes it traumatic #and xtianity is so fucking normalized that nobody blinks an eye about it #if i never have to explain my religious trauma to a MHP again it will be too soon #religious trauma #ex christian #ex cult

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gentil-minou · 2 years

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"It's really me, Adrien Agreste."

I commissioned this from the amazing @ladyofacat for @miraculers-for-ukraine! Check out the HD version here and here!

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riverkingmarley · 8 months

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Emma is so compelling to me, especially now that I’ve read her interlude.

She was just a little kid who was a little spoiled, selfish and cowardly and the right set of circumstances came together to make her ruin her life on purpose.

She intentionally becomes what she sees as a bad person because she is desperate to avoid pain and the emotions that swirl in her own head. She is essentially a foil to Taylor in how none of what she does to herself would have been possible without the systems in place enabling her. The system enable her to become a bully the same way Taylor becomes a villain in opposition to it.

Reading her interlude I wanted nothing more for her to recover and come out healed. Finding a way to fix the damage she is doing to herself but I’ve seen enough spoilers to know that it doesn’t happen.

She drives her life into the ground and she is pretty miserable about it the whole way through. Everything might been different if someone had stepped in and stoped her from hurting herself and Taylor. The system fails one more time to protect people.

I was gonna put a whole personal anecdote here but instead I’ll just say that I’m so deeply sad that we don’t set up our world to protect and help people who need it. We have the resources to protect people but we don’t use them. It’s so deeply tragic.

#worm spoilers #parahumans #worm web serial #worm #taylor hebert #emma barnes #I can’t believe I have to post about Emma Barnes #I’m terrible at analysis #get someone else to do it #also someone write some good Emma fanfic for me please #I need it in my bones #wormblr #also wasn’t a big fan of how they show Emma is going downhill #by having her side with Sophia #like I get what it’s going for but show her some sympathy too lol #she’s also a traumatized 15 year old but they treat her like she’s jack slash #not that he’s unsympathetic either but you get it

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iguessigotta · 1 year

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Thinking about Sirius Black

Thinking about dating him

Thinking about laying in his lap

Thinking thinking thinking

#not a fic #just a thot #putting my gay trans hands all over the series specifically to spite rowling #Sirius is my husband #suck it rowling #anyway I'm in my feels for this man rn but i can't seem to write atm #please come talk at me about how much you also love Sirius Black #and we're talking post-azkaban sirius #none of this pansy pre-trauma shit blech #i like my men a bit sad and traumatized #sirius x reader #sirius black x reader #sirius black fluff #sirius fluff

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beanghostprincess · 3 months

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Sparkling nights

For @sanusoweek || Day 3: Firsts (pretend this was posted on time) (yes. I am again late)

Relationship: Sanji/Usopp

Rating: General Audiences

Tags: First kiss / Not Actually Unrequited love / Denial of Feelings / Internalized Homophobia / Mutual Pining / Unresolved Romantic Tension ("but there is a kiss!!" you'll see what I mean dw) / Romantic Angst / Post-Alabasta / Bittersweet

Words: 8,972

Summary:

“You want to kiss somebody.” He speaks calmly. Rationally. And it is not like he doesn’t care. He cares. He does. Sanji can see it in his eyes when he turns his head around, too, ignoring the ashes falling on the deck beside him. Usopp looks at him with so much care it almost makes him want to stay here forever. “If you can’t kiss a girl because it needs to mean something and yet you feel like you are missing out, just kiss me.” Usopp doesn’t even know.

Read on Ao3

More of my works!!

#IGNORE I AM LATE I AM NOT LATE OKA-#okay yes i am late but honestly who cares the important thing is. that i posted another sanuso fic #i was thinking. wow. sanji should be in love with usopp from the beginning. because me too #so this ended up happening he is down bad #this one is bittersweet btw #also usopp is also pining and i think it's obvious but maybe not???? but it IS mutual pining #okay bye gonna write day 4 and see if i have time tomorrow for day 5 without my hands falling off from writing idk #also mentioned namivivi and sanuso yayyyy #i just like these idiots being teenagers for once and having like. teenager worries #except that sanji is still heavily traumatized no matter how you look at it #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso #sanuso week

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butter1knife · 20 days

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i may be wrong but your art style reminds me of that one dib instagram account that I used to rp with years ago

YOU KNOW ME oh god. Secret is out guys 😍 wish I could delete that era of my brain. I was a roleplay maniac, that was my life before Butters. I was a very confused child with too much time drawing fake Instagram accounts. I will add, that everybody that rp with me back then was so lovely, and acceptable people, I was so lucky to find a community and continue to have fun with no shame. If you want to do something do it! You'll look back and have a good laugh. To the nice anon that figured me out, I'm so sorry you had to endure stupidity 💔

#thank anon #you made me revisit all of my Dib account art #txt post #truly traumatized the stuff I used to write #anon ask #I don't know how I feel being recognized as the Dib rp account artist #dib membrane #invader zim #invader zim rp

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dyrewrites · 7 months

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Amazon is awful, but I am forced to use it

Who sends someone an email to inform them they're getting a payout of less than a dollar this month? Amazon, apparently.

So, in the interest of not curling into a tight little ball and wondering why I tried to do all of this in the first place as I slowly sink into deep, dark, squelching dread...

Here is a link to short stories what you can purchase!

If that is indeed a thing you are into.

They are quite spooky, most are bloody, one has a horrible thing happen to a generally nice dude (that one is Don't Look, and if you're not comfortable reading about assault of the sexual variety then I insist you obey the title).

I apologize for my face, it has no excuse to exist, but it does and I was told to put it up...so it is there.

#writing #horror #short stories #ebooks #amazon #marketing #lgbtqia #because they're all a little gay #buy my books #it'll be fun #you might get traumatized though #let me know if that happens #i'll add you to the list #this is a terrible marketing post #i don't know how to do this #i will be reblogging this at a more reasonable hour

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szoller · 24 days

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I need more Birdrick fanfics to deal with the amount of shit I had to experience today.

#gabriel speaks #/abuser tag #finding out your abuser is a groomer isn’t great #traumatizing actually #write more pls #I hate seeing incest so normalized in this fandom it makes me sick #rick and morty posting #birdrick #rick and morty

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heeha-must-die · 9 months

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oh to be a narratively doomed jo(h)n

#i have way too many favourite characters named john #i mean i don’t know what the hell is wrong with all of them #i guess if your name is john you just automatically get a lifelong subscription to all sorts of paranormal and/or simply messed up #things #like just let me check real quick #we have jon sims #john ward #john marston is not that bad but still traumatized #and uh /looks at smudged writing on the back of the hand/#the spit from atsv #i don’t even want to talk about literature #just wanted to say jonathan harker didn’t deserve all of this #and johnny joestar RIGHT #i don’t even know why i made this post #traumatized jo(h)n club

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angorwhosebabyisthis · 4 months

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i think one of the things that upsets me the most about velma and shaggy's relationship in sdmi--and boy there is a lot--is that not only is her constantly ''correcting'' him for minor, harmless, and usually completely reasonable things with physical and emotional abuse, well. abusive by itself. but so many of the things he does that she treats him that way over are very autistic things, and what she subjects him to is textbook abuse aimed at autistics in particular. (including the part where she gets more and more pissed whenever attempts at said emotional abuse fly over his head, because he's too bad at picking up cues for them to land fully.)

[cws: anti-autistic ableism, ABA, self-harm, physical and emotional IPV, victim-blaming, and abuse apologism. it's a lot and it's really fucking bad lmao]

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like. there's a lot of examples there; shaggy's behavior coming across as autistic is worth a whole post of its own, and a lot of media depicts abuse targeted at autistic traits because ✨️hooray ableism.✨️but she straight up tries to Fix Him (read: force him to perform a Presentable Personality) by forcing him to wear clothes that are sensory hell, and trying to condition him to self-harm every time he does some small harmless, reflexive thing she thinks is Poor Socialization until he stops. and to catch himself doing it, and punish himself, without being prompted. i cannot fucking overstate how fucked up that is.

they even got down the fun little aspect of ABA where the methods of conditioning-through-pain are presented as toys and kiddish things: she gives him a rubber band to wear on his wrist, and tells him to snap it as hard as he can every time he says 'like.' 🙃🙃🙃🙃

like. this does not begin to scratch the surface of the abuse she puts him through in general. and again, characters being abused for autistic traits with the approval of the narrative is a common thing in media, which sucks. but holy fucking shit! they really took the 'violent ableism that is done to autistics irl' to the next fucking level here!

.......and it's portrayed as kind of cringey, immature teen drama on both sides. the self-harm, his dread over how much he knows it'll hurt, and the extreme pain it causes him to the point of screaming are all supposed to be funny. and her arc is all about learning to accept that she deserves better, because she was repressed and had low self-esteem and therefore putting him through fucking DIY ABA didn't make her happy.

🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

anyway if you couldn't tell i can't fucking stand sdmi velma and i have a lot of words in me about it. when one of your main heroes would have made a way more compelling villain as they are, on a more mundane level compared to all the wild fantastical shit they go up against, holy shit go back to the drawing board you have fucked up. she could have been genuinely good representation of a marginalized person dealing with the trauma of her experiences in some shitty ways she has to grow past, and an interesting flawed character, without being absolutely despicable--hell, she'd have made a great foil to pericles if they'd handled him decently too. they have a lot of parallels, which only gain more depth when you add their respective parallels with cassidy into the mix. and it really fucking sucks that we got this instead.

#sdmi #scooby doo mystery incorporated #velma dinkley #shaggy rogers #SDMItag #cws in post #sdmi velma lies at the intersection of A Lot of Hard Feelings for me; in ways both inherent and personal #so she is viscerally upsetting to me in a lot of ways mostly re: framing; and that makes it difficult to analyze her in a sympathetic light #even though i recognize she is very much a depiction of a hurting; traumatized person lashing out in nasty and interesting ways #but the older i get and the more perspective i gain; and the more i unpack and understand about my own experiences #the more important it feels to me to talk about this stuff #i still want to try writing fic sometime about newniverse velma and how she ends up being a non-abusive; less shitty person #without just *being* a completely different person who's All Nice Sweet Sunshine with No Hard Feelings About What She's Been Through #and about the confusion and grief newniverse marcie goes through when one day her loving girlfriend is gone #and in her place is someone who is so much like her and has clearly been through a lot; but is Different in ways that hurt more and more #that marcie keeps trying to justify and make excuses for; and sits in the pot and slowly boils #until she finally has to face that this isn't the girl she fell in love with; that that girl will never come back; that this is velma now #i'm totally not working through anything here lmao #and a nasty; pretentious; controlling; insecure young adult who's up their own ass about Being Super Intellectual and Telling It Like Is #abusing a teenager to make them stop saying 'like' because it's Annoying and What Stupid People Say and Not Gramatically Correct(tm)(tm)(tm #definitely does not hit dead on some very specific 'hi that scarred me for life and i don't think it's particularly fucking funny' buttons!#anyway. protect shaggy and marcie and daphne while we're at it #SDMIcrit tag #the crit files

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alexenglish · 4 months

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saw this tweet (and thread) and i think it's a good perspective and great time to say: reminder, pain is traumatizing. trauma can change your relationship with your body, mind, and even the people involved alongside you in a traumatizing event. it's a good reminder that people, historically, died in natural childbirth at horrible rates and that has improved drastically because of modern medical treatments, including pain management.

i personally had to have an epidural extremely early in my labor process because my shitty spine and as a result, it wore off almost entirely by the time i gave birth. despite having no complications, and my child and i never being in danger during the process, childbirth was extremely traumatizing for me because of the amount of pain i was in and how much i panicked as a result of that pain. i was in literally, actually, the greatest distress of my life, especially towards the end. and i would like to emphasize that my child and i were not in danger during the process.

like the thread says, autonomy and control are extremely important during childbirth. you should always have a choice, you should always be well informed, but this attitude that accepting pain management makes you a bad birthing parent or someone who is corrupting the process with pain management is incredibly harmful, incredibly judgemental, and can have lasting effects on people who attempt birth without pain management 👍

#look a personal post #parent tag #reading the replies to the thread are sending my blood pressure through the fucking roof lmfao #also writing this made me look up the relationship between traumatic births and postpartum depression and lol okay well!

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defiedlife · 3 months

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HC: AVENTURINE AND NAMES.

This is something I've been meaning to make a little post about, as I realized it shortly after playing through the 2.0 story. Names hold a unique significance for Aventurine, both for himself and when he refers to other people.

"Aventurine" is not his real name, nor does he really treat it as a name at all. It's a title, it's an occupational designation, but it's not truly him and it never will be. Though this title grants him some degree of freedom, it also still represents the hold that the IPC has on him. He bears the title, accepting it because it's the only way he's even remotely free, but he resents it too.

He will never simply say "I am Aventurine." He's careful about it, of course, but he'll always word any introduction of himself such that he could be referring to a title, nickname, or even an object—specifically a tool of the IPC—when he tells another person his current moniker.

If he ever willingly tells someone his real name, it is a privilege and a sincere sign of trust that he'll hope the other person does not take lightly. His real name is foreign on the tongue to most, and a door to the past that he barely survived. To say his real name is to open that door and call upon the person he used to be; to look beyond the mask and truly see what's become of someone scarred so deeply by trauma that he still has nightmares of his past to this day.

It's for this reason that if he couldn't call himself Aventurine, he wouldn't know what name to give anymore. One identity is him, and yet isn't, while the other is deliberately hidden away from the majority of the universe. He must protect what's left of his real self, lest he lose it completely.

Conversely, and partly because of his attitude towards his own name and title, he very rarely addresses or refers to anyone only by their first or last name (or both). He typically includes some form of honorific or simply uses a title instead, or else a combination of the two. If neither are possible (or for variety, so that this habit of his is a little less obvious), he'll append some sort of specific description immediately before or after a person's name. If use of a name isn't necessary, he might even avoid saying someone's name altogether.

If he does refer to a person only by their name, it's indicative of either a significant closeness or intentional disrespect, with the latter intent reserved only for those he really hates. (There's only one known person on his "hated" list so far. It's Oswaldo, for reasons.) This all creates a form of distance between himself and others; an intangible barrier to keep any connection or relationship from being too personal. Despite him being a gambler, that's one risk he isn't willing to take until he truly feels it's safe.

#* || ooc #* || aventurine #* || headcanon #tl;dr he's traumatized and thus rarely uses just a name for anyone; including himself #“little post” I say and it's seven paragraphs long oops fldsja #to anyone who reads this whole thing: thank you #this is also why I rarely write 'Aventurine [insert action or description or emotion etc here]' in replies #bc his muse usually won't fucking LET ME. sighs. bastard.

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