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otrtbs · 2 years

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NAT OMG! i can't believe your writing, it is so fascinating the way that you make us all feel while we are reading your story. I just love it so much <3 This kind of stories are the main reason i keep reading and they give me motivation to go through with my day.

I really can't stop smiling/crying because of this chapter. It was so full of emotions, i was really going from joy to tearing up in just 2 seconds.

Can we please talk about the way they were all together at night because of the excitement, that was so freaking cute my lil babies. And i can't say i weren't sad about reg and james not spending anytime together before the actual heist, but that lil bit gave me the hint that neither of them was dying on this chapter because they deserve having a goodbye if one of the does eventually fufill the MCD tag (which i still can't quite comprehend, but i love u and your writing so i am trying to be understanding untill the "event" happens). And let's not even begin talking about sirius and james being besties for a minute there, they were made to be platonic soulmates. Whoever, i am still suspicious of sirius (thanks to my trust issues). On the other hand, you literally had no right to make pandora talk about effie??? so uncalled and sad, literally criying, screaming and throwing up about that (james i see u). Still crying over regulus telling james to just shut the fuck up, because i was thinking the exact same thing in that moment. I really hope the police won't catch them while they're getting on the plane, or else i am throwing hands. And please, PLEASE don't let james die cause og the shot he got, i am begging you to let sirius black, for once, be absolutely right about anything, and that being james wound just superficial. please have some mercy on us and let the black brothers keep james potter in this universe </3

kay, that's it! thank u for everything that u give us, i am so excited about next chapter (btw do u have an aproximate date for the release?? not trying to hurry u at all, just me being my anxious self.

HIII!!! What the heck, this is literally so nice :,)) I am literally so over the moon that I can make anyone feel anything with my writing, ohmygosh <333

It started out really sweet and then,,, so much happened!! So many things !! A lot of them not so sweet hahaha!! All of them being together because of excitement and nerves and everything is so personal to me,, bc every knows how everyone else is feeling and just being together is such a comfort :,))

The mcd will now be referred to as “the event” from here on out hahah! It’s so ominous that way and I love it!!

Sirius and James just have these moments where they click and they just get each other and understand each other when they’re both not trying so hard to figure each other out and those moments >>>>>>> they are soulmates!!

James is the ultimate mama’s boy, nothing is going to cut him deep like bring up Euphemia,, 🥺😭

Regulus telling James to shut the fuck up,, so relatable,,, he said absolutely not. Don’t try me, hoe.

Next chapter will have some answers! And it should hopefully be out within a week?? so next Monday?? (I say that but I ask for 1/2 days lenience just in case!! haha)

Thank you again :)) <3333

#art heist baby!#asks #chapter 28 #spoilers

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selectivechaos · 10 months

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little vent

i can't even go to school without ending criying in fear because people are perceiving me, i can't stand all those eyes, and when i get home i just cry even more because i know i humiliate myself there

and making friends is so hard, and finding people is even more hard, and keeping friends is... even even more hard

i can't do this, i'm triying so hard... aah...

(don't feel forced to answer if you don't want to ofc!)

tw: school ⚠️⚠️

hey anon, i had a similar experience at school. it was so scary all the time.

schools are a haven for social anxiety especially because you’re being watched All The Time.

am so sorry you’re going through this. but you can get through it. take care. 🌹🌹

sorry, this is going to be an obscenely long reply. you don’t have to read it all. i just need it out there. because the reason i started this blog to help people who went through what i did in school. back then, i wanted there to be some secret alliance of quiet and bullied kids. i wanted someone to show me how to survive those years, and i was counting the days.

my social anxiety at school got so bad i couldn’t look up from the floor or desk ever. and yeah i cried a lot too. felt so vulnerable like no-one was safe to be around. didn’t want to be counted in things. every new ‘activity’ in lessons caused a spike in fear because it could be a group project or i could be asked to speak or read something out.

tw: bulling ⚠️⚠️ (skip to ‘other ways to cope’.)

most people were cruel because of the culture of bullying, and any niceness just looked like either pity or a trick ( i can’t read people well, and there also was a lot of that psychological bullying - you know where they pretend to be nice and then laugh for no reason, just to make you feel like shit).

had friends but lost them because isolated myself because social anxiety convinced me that they hated me because i couldn’t talk to them (those friends were nice; it was a cognitive distortion).

being friendless at school is a survival game. and it is often traumatising. i want you to know that it is not your fault.

🌹 if you’re bullied, it is not your fault.

🌹 if you have no friends, it is not your fault.

🌹 if you’re anxious or scared, it is not your fault.

it may not be because you’re not trying enough; it might just be because of a shit school system which systematically traumatises the mentally ill and/or neurodivergent.

i’d look into finding or asking for a quiet room you can go to when overwhelmed or anxious, or just to be alone knowing oif they won’t provide it (my school used to kick loners out of empty classrooms during lunch, because “they shouldn’t be there unsupervised” (when really they were just there because they would be bullied in the canteen).

other than that i don’t have much advice. i didn’t cope in good ways.

tw: therapy mention ⚠️⚠️

hid in the toilets and got traumatised by the fact i had to hide. many people refuse school (which is not something i advise. but fuck any place or people that makes you cry from fear). meds and therapy might help if they’re an option.

🌹🌹🌹other ways to cope:

headphones, especially ear defenders and / or ones that can blast music to distract you.

when i was in school i had long long fringe, covered my peripheral vision, and that helped with fear of being perceived because otherwise i would constantly have to look around to see if anyone was looking or laughing at me. it’s kind of a ‘if you can’t see them, they can’t see you’ fallacy.

grounding techniques. wish i’d known these. because i just dissociated out my head.

please don’t hate yourself. i know that that is often impossible. had a therapist once who asked me “what are you scared they’ll see, when they look at you?” turns out the root of my fear was that they would see something weak, vulnerable, laughable, small; something to be humiliated and judged and hurt. (stemmed from childhood traumas including bullying). that therapist told me to ask myself: “what kind of person would judge you like that, would see you as worthless or funny or broken?” the answer is: only the cruelest, most insidious person in the world. you understand? when you have a small flame of self-worth, the judgement reflects badly on the judger, not you.

what are Good things you would like people to see when they look at you. maybe you’re brave, or kind, or you have cool hair or nails. in school had punk hair that i got bullied for, but it was a source of pride. pride is an absolute good. there were times it actually made me Want to be seen.

calming grounding things that you can associate respectively with going to school and leaving school (i listened to the same song on the way out every day. i changed into my comfy hoodie, and it made me feel free and safe again.

oh and when i left school for good, like finished my final year, i left them a “thank you” if you could call it that. it was actually a framed sheet of paper containing details of the bullying and how the teachers (general) ignored it. the note told them to do better. i hope that school is safer now. but the system needs to change.

🌹🌹🌹

#anon ask #tw school #tw therapy mention #tw bullying #this is a very long reply. sorry :/#and i can delete if you want. anon ask replies always go public i think

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rottingbxy · 10 months

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translation: "I WOULD NEVER HIT A WOMAN"

I'm criying so hard...

#✦ 🗝️ | eden chats |

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irishforjane · 7 years

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my frenemy @wesminski tagged me to answer these hella hard questions. and idk who to tag rip i always tag the same people i swear someone’s gonna get fed up with me soon but i lowkey want this tag to circulate so i’m tagging @pynchfluff @@moonwitche and @lxntsov

interesting questions and not very interesting answers under the cut. ^_^ (prepare for lots of question marks and hmmms and repetitive answers)

i. which character are you most similar to?

hmm i think i’m part cath (from fangirl), part ari (from ari & dante), and part molly (from the upside of unrequited)

ii. which character are you most dissimilar to?

the wild ones. take from that what you will.

iii. if you were in a zombie apocalypse, which character would you bring with you?

i’d want to be w all the badass (see also kinda ruthless) characters for guaranteed survival. ie kaz brekker, andrew minyard, lila bard

iv. what is your favourite au?

i dunnoooo O.O T_T

v. what trope did you suspect a character would fall into but proved you wrong?

hmm inej ghafa?? i thought she’d be one of those characters with kickass skillszsz but have self doubt of epic proportions or whatever, like not confident and self deprecating and all that. but she’s not. and i love it.

vi. what is your favourite genre?

fantasy. definitely.

vii. if you could write a book, how would you describe it in five words?

spoiler alert: it’s so bad

viii. describe your favourite book in five words

everything is aesthetic as fck; dreamthieving asshole has a crush; coca-cola shirt is a bamf; spoiler alert: president cellphone dies

ix. do you prefer guarded or open characters?

guarded characters.. i think

x. which three songs suit your favourite character(s)?

young volcanoes - fall out boy

sinister kid - the black keys

renegades - x ambassadors

xi. what fics do you wish there were more of?

hmm i don’t actively look for fics; i read them when they’re on my dash or somebody recommends one. but idk, i’d like to see more bluesey??

xii. what’s your favourite line?

duh impossible to answer

xiii. what line made you laugh?

what doesn’t make me laugh?? i’ll give you this tho: “Man, don’t SAT at me. Here’s what’s up. The Ronan you know is no more. He’s having a coming-of-age moment. A - a - bildungsroman. Goddamn me! SAT that, Dick-dick-dick.” (I thought of this bc of ‘fuckweasel’)

xiv. if you were paired up in a group project, who would you want to be with?

i say adam parrish as well bc i have no originality and bc adam

xv. if you could turn your favourite book(s) into a different genre, what would it be and why?

ohmygod genre-wise idk?? but setting-wise, it’ll be cool to see trc set in an earlier time? like 70′s maybe? so gansey’ll have to have a much older aesthetic af car.. or soc set in our world?? why? bc it just seems fun?? i’m useless. i know.

xvi. which character would you be best friends with?

binch i wanna be bffs with matt too. T_T also, jesper llewellyn fahey

xvii. which character(s) would you:

• go on a road trip with?

henry cheng and kuwei yul-bo. i’ll take my under appreciated boys on a fun, fun trip (loljk henry’ll drive bc i can’t)

• venture into the woods with?

the gangsey ofc!!

• go on late-night escapades with?

probs nikolai lantsov. or wesley ayers. or levi

• cause trouble and get away with it with?

kaz brekker DUH

• share a mixtape under the stars with?

hmm.. something tells me simon spier has excellent taste in music so him. or kevin day bc classical music? under the stars? seems pretentious af but also FCKING GIVE IT TO ME (noah is an A+ choice btw)

• fight to the death

all the shitty characters. the shitty fathers the shitty mothers the shitty ex lovers?

• give up your entire mortal existence for?

don’t make me choose i’d die for ALL my childruuun

• go on a heist with and succeed?

doOOod the dregs?????

• be in a gang with?

a girl gang sounds good so inej ghafa, nina zenik, blue sargent, puck connolly, karou and zuzana, kizzy shao, helene aquila. all the badass girls!!

• have a dorky handshake with?

henry cheng. totes

• bring home to the family?

richard campbell gansey the third my pride and joy light of my life solution to all my problems

• bake with?

nicky hemmick. i kind of hc him to be really good in the kitchen idk why

• fall in love with? (platonic/romantic/sexual, depending on your sexuality)

in case you missed it, gansey for all of the above OKAYY????

• sit on a roof at 2am in peaceful company with?

neil josten my boy

• bring into a different book and explore with?

all my kids ofc and binch i swear i didn’t copy you i recently finished the book and space seems so cool and terrifying and my children are all adrenaline junkies so we’re going to ‘the long way to a small angry planet’ world

#this was so hard i crii #interesting interesting stuff tho #tags

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drethanramslay · 4 years

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OH MY FUCKING GOD TJIS BROKE ME HELLO IM DYING IVER HERE MY BESTIE EYE- AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#IM BLUBERRIBG MESS #I AM CRIYING SO HARD RN #BRYCEEEEE #oh bryce #open heart bryce #bryce lahela #choices stories we play #playchoices #choices #choices stories you play #pixelberry #open heart #open heart 2 #open heart mc

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scathachevergarden · 4 years

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Just woke up and my eyes are puffed after watching Weathering with you, I want to eat your pancreas, and A whisker away last night.

#well what did I expect #i crii so very hard #weathering with you #i want to eat your pancreas #a whisker away #anime movies

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sad-nymph-club · 5 years

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not only Once Upon a Time... In Hollywood is a masterpiece, but a documentary about how cool Brad Pitt is

#brad pitt #once upon a time... in Hollywood #Tarantino #FUCKING GREAT I CRIYED SO HARD #yes i love everything brad pitt touches

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takumochi · 7 years

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on august 15, 12:30 in the afternoon,

#kagepro #kagerou project #hibiya amamiya #kuroha #kano shuuya #ayano tateyama #kuroha kokonose #my art #click to enlarge pleasE #a kagepro art dump for today...! ive only ever drawn hibiya and hiyori so i wanted to draw more chars i love #except kuroha hes just there bc it was 2 am and i wanted to draw something edgy #i couldnt draw kido...shes so hard for me to draw crii #i miss kagepro #im so emotional kagepro will always make me emotional #anyway please take this!!! i have one more thing coming up #more of my art can be found on paigee which is linked on my profile..!! please support me!

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sunootonin · 2 years

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my perfume smells like vanilla and white hot chocolate and I'm not even hungry rn but its making me wanna walk to the village and buy myself hot choco powder (if I could but I can't use my inhaler so that's outta the question too)

SJSKSNSKZJ RELATABLE ITS SO HARD NOT TO CAVE IN TO CRAVINGS CRII

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nitannichionne · 4 years

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Luna IV, Chapter 8: Discipline (A Cavill / Syverson Fan Fic)

Chapter Eight: Discipline

You are not sure which feeling was worse: dread or anticipation. You don’t struggle; you have a feeling you will need your energy, and you have to keep your wits about you…or what was left of them where he was concerned. In your nervousness your mouth has gone dry. You try to lick your lips as you realize the house isn’t as cool as it was before. It is as if he changed the climate of the house.

He returns with a small bowl of ice and sets it on the bedside table

You take a deep calming breath. “I said I was sorry.”

“You said it, yes…” He is calm as he takes off his shirt, making you long to stroke his chest. He kicks off his boots and socks. “But you didn’t mean it.” He unbuttons his trousers, and lets them slip to his ankles, stepping out of them easily.

You turn away, closing your eyes from his body and the erection you’d never been allowed the taste of. You hear his soft teasing laughter and the clink of the ice in the bowl before feeling his weight on the bed and then on your body. You turn your head and open your eyes to find him on his hands and knees over you.

No storm of anger rages in Sy’s eyes, and you wonder what you are in for. Those deep set pools were the color of a gentle sea. Rage and anger you are ready for, but not this. You watch his eyes lower, seeming to heat each part of your body as they passed, and she found herself taking in broad shoulders, sculpted chest and arms which led to a flat muscled abdomen that led to his manhood, hanging down between them. Her mouth parted slightly. She suddenly felt short of breath.

“I want your eyes—“ He kisses each of your eyes. “Closed.” He blindfolds you.

The next sensation is his lips, firm but soft, nibbling hers. Part of you wants to nibble right back, and part of you wants to be as still and quiet as the grave. You don’t realize you are holding your breath until you hear the clink of ice. Then you felt his hot tongue and cold ice swirling and alternating inside your mouth. You respond in kind, sucking his tongue in thirst and in a plea for mercy from what you can only imagine would happen. The cube melts quickly in your combined heat, and you hear the clink of ice again from the bowl as his mouth leaves yours.

Once again, you feel his lips, cooled by the ice, trailing on your neck and setting off a wave of chills on your skin and flutters in your lower depths. You feel his lips part and the edge of an ice cube draw patterns on your neck. It was in his mouth, you can still feel the warmth of his breath in contrast. He then licks the excess water from your skin. You twist underneath him, arching to his body, his caress, helplessly enjoying it. He quickly takes your breast into his mouth, and you gasp softly. The ice hardens your nipple quickly, making it tighten almost painfully for an altogether different reason. You groan, twisting again, but there is more agitation. He goes to the other, and you are twisting in frustration.

He kisses you again, allowing the ice to melt in your mouths, and then asks, “Sorry?”

You don’t know what to say, and you hear him chuckle at her apparent inner struggle. You hear him take another ice cube and in one motion, parts your legs and pushes it against you.

A strangled cry comes from you, half surprise, and half rapture. You feel his tongue and the ice alternate against you, applying pressure inside your most private place while he sucked the soft folds that surrounded it. You move against him, shivering, moans coming from her that you can’t contain. You gyrated wildly, insides opening in silent invitation for him to warm and claim, but he won’t. He brings you to the very edge, and stosps, crawling over you and then rubbing the blunt tip of his erection up and down your slit.

“Sy!” You strain against the cuffs, and your frustration doubled. He removes the blindfold, and you look at him. “Please…”

“Nice, but not what I want to hear—“ He pushes the head of his erection inside you, and your body pulls on him as you criy cried out. You watch his muscles tense in control, poised to give him what he wanted. Damn him!

“It…aches…” She strained against the cuffs again, her athletic body lifting off the bed in its frustration. She could barely speak; she was choking on her tears, the last of her pride. He withdrew from her, and she fell back on the bed with a moan, feeling wetness underneath you on the sheets. Only one thing could stop that ache, and he had given you a taste that left you starving. “Please…”

His look is one of strained. His voice sounds the same to you. “What do you say?” You watch him watching you as you swallow hard, biting your lip. You watch him swallow hard. Why would he gulp like that?! “Think about it.” He gets off the bed, turning to leave.

“Sy!”

He stops, but doesn’t turn back to you. “Yes, love?”

Being called that breaks the last of your reserve. You swallow hard, your throat dry. “I’m sorry.”

The mournful wail brings him back to you, and he positions himself between your legs, teasing your sex with the hardness of his own as he has before.

“And?” He licks his lips, almost in anticipation it seemed…

Your body begins helplessly gyrating again. “I…will never hit a man on this planet.” Unless I have to, you amend to herself. You can’t believe you have the sense to do that.

You see his body relax as he leans forward and takes another ice cube from the bowl, popping it into his mouth, and kisses you, bringing moisture and coolness back to you. When it melts, he pulls away slightly to look down at you, caressing your cheek. “Next time, let me defend you. I can do more.”

He didn’t have to say that, you realize, but he wants to…he wants to!

You whimper softly, reveling in the hope and knowledge that he feels more than he lets on for you. “I’m sorry.” And you lift your upper body so you can kiss him. You begin sucking his tongue.

He plunges inside you, making you cry out, and your bodies meld. He stifles a moan, easing in and out of you, teasing you both. But then, nature begins to take over…

He begins a pounding rhythm, his muscular body sliding against yours. You look in his eyes, reveling in him reveling in you. He strokes your body with his hands as he moves. He seems to love the firm softness of your body—your legs which clasp around him and he takes the time to caress, your flat belly and firm breasts which tease his nipples because his teases yours—even your arms which strain against the cuffs in need to touch him. You pant lightly at first, but he drives you to gasping cries.

You look up at him. His look changed yet again! He no longer clasps your body to his, but comes up on his elbows to look at you. You feel a chill losing his body heat and see that his eyes are no longer gentle, but are becoming distant. He was going to stop, stop and leave you in need again...!

But he isn’t stopping yet. He doesn’t want to! You know it now. You want to scream it.

You close your eyes. It will take all you have to do what you are contemplating, but you want the man you were in the throes of passion with minutes ago. You want Sy, not Captain Syverson…

You opened your eyes. You are ready.

His look is one of puzzlement at your expression. He’d probably never seen a look like the one you are giving. You realize her eyes hold a power over him, a message he doesn’t understand until he tries to withdraw, only to find that your legs have wrapped around his, and he is trapped.

The look makes sense to him. His blue eyes widen with the realization that he isn’t going anywhere. He tries to get up on his hands for leverage, but to no avail. He slows his movements and tears his gaze away from your knowing look. You are locked in a battle you know you both have never fought before, but you want to win more than anything. He feels you arch and hears you moan, the muscles of your heated sex clenching, pulling him deeper. A moan escapes him as she watches him throw his head back and rock against you to pull free, only to find he is aiding your cause and losing his own to carnal desire.

The battle resumes. He tries to kiss you, but your warm willingness, your mouth sucking his tongue makes matters worse. He tries to slow his thrusts, rotating his hips, but you move yours in response and in time with his. A moan escapes him again, and you echo him. You rub your leg up and down his side, beguiling him to give you what you want—his warden’s pride, his surrender as a man.

He growls, finally giving into his natural inclinations, and holds your hips to drive in and out of you hard. You cry out, her head falling back though your body stays arched to him, anything he could give you. The sexual hunger of his body penetrates yours in an almost desperate search for fulfillment, and you are breathless. You watch his throat constrict with the knowledge it wouldn’t be much longer, his muscles bunching and tightening as his thrusts become primal, making you both scream as he finally shoots hard and deep, shuddering and rocking against you over and over as your orgasms feed on his, your hips gyrating to prolong the euphoria.

He looks up at your arms. You knew you’d bruised yourself in your passion but you don’t care. He unclasps the restraints, and your arms fly around him, squeezing him. He takes one of your wrists, kissing the dark marks in apology, but you smile at him. This…he was worth it.

You don’t know how long you kept looking in each other’s eyes. You only know you could stay this way forever. And then he says what you had only guessed about:

“I believe you.”

“Thank you,” Your say as your heart flutters and you rake his scalp lightly.

You both have met and found a match in the other.

Everything is going to change…

Thanks for the support! DM me if you want to be tagged and as always I welcome comments/questions!

@fckdeusername @maan24 @rn7rocks @kaatelyyynn @october505

#henry cavill #henry cavill fandom #henry cavill fan fiction #henry cavill fanfic #henry cavill smut #henry cavill fluff #henry cavill x reader #henry cavill x you #captain syverson #geralt #superman

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puroresu-musings · 3 years

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NJPW WRESTLE KINGDOM 15 in Tokyo Dome Night 1 Review (Jan 4th 2020)

New Japan Rambo *1/2

BOSJ 27 vs. SJC 2020 IWGP Jr. Heavyweight No.1 Contenders Match: Hiromu Takahashi vs. El Phantasmo ****

IWGP Heavyweight Tag Title Match: Taichi & Zack Sabre Jr. (c) vs. Guerrillas Of Destiny ***1/2

IWGP U.S. Heavyweight Championship Right To Challenge Match: KENTA vs. Satoshi Kojima ***1/2+

Hiroshi Tanahashi vs. Great-O-Khan ***1/2

Kazuchika Okada vs. Will Ospreay ****3/4

IWGP Heavyweight & Intercontinental Double Championship Match: Tetsuya Naito (c/c) vs. Kota Ibushi ****1/2

Photos.

So the first night of WK15 is in the history books, held in front of a socially distanced crowd of 12,689, which is an amazing number given the state of the world at present (I’m in the UK and we can’t even have two people in the same room, so near 13,000 seems mind-blowing!). This is the biggest crowd to have seen a wrestling show in Japan since last years Dome shows, and the biggest major wrestling show held anywhere since March of last year, so it’s quite the achievement. In quick results from a very fun show:

Bad Luck Fale, Chase Owens, BUSHI and Toru Yano (who never even made it to the ring) were the “winners” of the annual Rambo and will face each other in a 4-way to determine the KOPW champion on tomorrows show. The Rambo was as it always is, which is very forgettable, very long, and not especially very good. After a Japanese Don King (who sings!) introduced Riki Choshu (a guy who, in this very building in 1998, squashed FOUR guys in a row in his “retirement” match), and his young grandson, to the masses for a nice opening, BOSJ winner Hiromu Takahashi pinned everyone’s favourite/most hated douchebag heel, the 2020 Super J Cup winner El Phanatsmo, in 17:46, when he turned CRII into a Frankensteiner and cradle. This was an excellent match that was a great way to start the show. Hiromu essentially played crash pad to ELP’s highflying moves, and seemed to be saving himself for the Ishimori match tomorrow, which he earned with this win.

Next up, the GOD won the IWGP Tag Titles for what must be the 476th time. The match was very good (once it got going), but at 19:18, it felt very long, and the finish and result were lamentable; after a ref bump and prerequisite Jado interference spot, Tama nailed Taichi with his own Iron Fingers From Hell, which allowed Loa to hit Apeshit and win the belts. Honestly, I could have done without this title change. The Guerrillas with the belts just feels like I’ve been transported back in time three or four years, and the Dangerous Tekkers felt both fresh, and like they were just getting going as champions. Whatever. After a video taped Jon Moxley promo, KENTA defended the U.S. Title Right To Challenge Briefcase against the legend that is Satoshi Kojima, in a very good little match. Obviously, Koji was a late replacement for the broken orbital boned Juice Robinson, and honestly, with all due respect to Juice, this was a much better match for it. Even though no one feasibly bought him winning, Kojima was on fire here, showing the world that he does indeed “still have it”, and drove the action throughout. It wasn’t to be though as KENTA retained the briefcase after a Go 2 Sleep at the 14:12 mark. So KENTA will challenge Moxley in the U.S. at some point, which should be a fun match.

Hiroshi Tanahashi defeated the returned-from-excursion Great-O-Khan in my least favourite match of the show. This was far from bad, but realistically, this was the match where I started to lag, as it just wasn’t all that interesting at times. The former Tomoyuki Oka has a very weird gimmick, and his offence is like something from a 1970s regional promotion in the U.S. He isn’t a bad worker, he’s very solid, but this wacky Mongolian gimmick, which I first clapped eyes on at a Rev Pro show what must have been 7 years ago now (it was three, but time has no meaning anymore), is going to need some serious revamping. Tanahashi was his usual great self here, carrying this beyond what it should by all rights have been, and had the babyface fire of a thousand babyfaces. After surviving O-Khan’s Claw based offensive manoeuvres, The Ace scored the win at 17:13 after hitting a High Fly Flow to the back, followed by one to the front, to get the winning three count.

From here the show picked up considerably. Okada sought revenge on former protege Will Ospreay, in a fantastic, dramatic outing, that would most likely have been a Tokyo Dome all-time-classic under regular conditions. This went 35:41, which sounds long, but felt half of that whilst watching. It told a great story, and the work from both guys was exceptional. This was less the inventive spot fest of their 2019 G1 classic, and instead was a stiff strike war. It was also the final point of Ospreay eschewing the Junior mantle, and becoming a full fledged heavyweight. Like most Okada matches, this really turned into something special in the last 10 minutes, after Ospreay hit a nasty Brainbuster through the timekeepers table, and stomped the bejesus out of Okada’s face, the newly crowned “Commonwealth Kingpin” escaped a Money Clip, hit Okada with a Tombstone, and his own Rainmaker for a great near fall. Okada dropkicked Will out of the air on a Super Oscutter attempt, which looked great, then turned a Storm Breaker attempt into a Fire Thunder Driver, and hit a stiff Rainmaker, for the first time in A YEAR, to score the win and seemingly awaken the Okada of old. Tremendous stuff here.

And the Double Title Main Event that followed had a lot to live up to, but was another excellent outing. Obviously, with the last few times these guys have squared off being borderline public executions, my heart was proverbially in my mouth on some of the spots here. With the notable exceptions of Ibushi taking a German Suplex on the ramp, which he of course landed square on top of his head for, an insane Frankensteiner off the apron, which saw Naito land very hard on the floor, Ibushi taking a reverse rana off the second rope, and both guys taking signature spots onto their heads, this was, on the whole, the “tamest” match these two have had against one another in maybe 5 or 6 years now. Ibushi hit Kamigoye for a great near fall, but misses a Phoenix Splash. Naito hits Destino, but Ibushi gets the shoulder up. Naito kicks out of another Kamigoye, then drops Ibushi on his head with Valentia, and goes for another Destino. Ibushi escapes and hits a wrist clutch V-Trigger, followed by a third, knee padless Kamigoye to FINALLY win the two top prizes in New Japan after 31:18 of great action. There was a really wacky bit, that only Ibushi could do, after the match, where he seemed to sell being in a “fugue state”, tried to pin Naito again after the match, and sold disbelief when Red Shoes explained to him that he’d won. Naito presented The Golden Star with both belts, then Ibushi’s opponent tomorrow, Jay White, came out in the post match, and cut a promo, promising Ibushi’s reign would only last 24 hours. Ibushi informed Jay that he is mistaken, and that Ibushi will indeed become a God. This was a show built around happy ending babyface wins (in the major bouts), and was a dose of positivity the world needs right now. Bring on Night 2 already.

NDT

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Could you elaborate on that Gordon fan theory about him being an inside mole? I haven't heard of it before and it sounds intriguing. Plus ever since the small reference to him on the memorial in ILM, I've been wondering what your thoughts were on how he ended up

Oof, okay, buckle up. This will be the abridged version but that’s still gonna be long. (Don’t read if you want to avoid spoilers for the Saw franchise).

So, in Saw, Gordon is a fkn anomaly to most of the fanbase. Becuase he has a wildly solidified character. You watch Gordon & Adam both go through three different character arcs back to back, and trauma bond, and the second to last scene in Saw is this fkn devestating & beautiful one where—let me back up. So. Quick Saw summary. Two people wake up chained by the ankle to pipes in a small nasty abandoned bathroom with a corpse on the floor between them. They’re each left a tape recorder which tells them why they’ve been targeted (Gordon because he doesn’t value life enough which is evidenced by...? — real reason is he’s literally just the unfortunate Doctor who told John he had Cancer, and John Kramer is that petty of a stupid bitch. & Adam is grabbed becuase...Literally he didn’t even bump into John Kramer or something. The guy took him because he’s a starving early 20s kid who is a photographer, and John thinks his occupation & he are pathetic. I’m not joking. Or exaggerating. This is quite literally the given reason for torturing & killing Adam being fine to John). Anyway, Gordon’s wife and like 7 year old daughter have been kidnapped and are being held at gunpoint. Gordon is told that if he finds a way to murder Adam by six (poor Fkn Adam is 6 feet away & hears this whole tape) on the clock, they and he go free. Adam is told if he can stay alive until after six, he wins and can go free.

They spend then the remaineder of Saw trying, like you’d hope good, decent, or even medium or somewhat shitty people would, to help each other escape, rather than Gordon trying to kill Adam at all. They attempt to fake Adam’s death & fail bc they didn’t realize their shackles were wired & they could be zapped, which makes playing dead really hard. Initially they are frustrated by each other, especially Gordon, who is an adult & levelheaded, by Adam who is young and jouvenile and freaking out & being a pain at first, but they bond through attempting to escape & to figure out what’s happened to them, and also learn more truth about each other. Meanwhile you also get backstory on Jigsaw & the case, and follow Detective Tapp’s story through a few investigated murders, the loss of his partner, and to where he is following Gordon, whom he is convinced is Jigsaw, now. Back in the bathroom, Adam and Gordon reach 6 on the clock, and Gordon gets a phone call where the man holding his wife at gunpoint makes her tell him he failed his game & now she and their daughter have to die. His wife bites the man’s hand, and they fight, but all Gordon hears is screaming in his wife and child’s voices and gunshots, and he has a mental breakdown believing they’re being murdered on the other end of the phone. Then is electrocuted. Adam flips out and tries to throw small stones at Gordon’s body to wake him up, terrified he’s dead, and succeeds. Adam is overcome with relief, but Gordon has a full mental breakdown, almost having died and believing his family is dead, then swapping immediately to denial and convincing himself it’s not too late and he can still save them. Adam tries desperately to apologize and calm him down, then to in horror talk him into stopping while he watched Gordon begin to saw off his foot (Adam was given a saw for this purpose too, but his broke early on before they realized the saws were meant for their feet instead of the chains). Gordon does not stop, and Adam watches in horror as he cuts off his foot, crawls to the gun the dead body on the floor has been holding, and puts the one bullet he was given into it. He tells Adam while crying and breaking down that he’s sorry but he has to die he has to save his family. Adam begs him not to shoot, but he does.

Meanwhile, Bc he’s staking out Gordon’s home, Tapp hears shots, runs in, and is able to chase off the killer and save Gordon’s wife and daughter. He pursues the killer to the meat packing plan, where he is ambushed, struggles, and then is shot in the stomach and left for dead. The man, Zepp, makes it to the bathroom where Gordon tries to shoot him with the bow empty gun & screams at him for what he did to his family, who he still believes are dead, then breaks down crying again. Zepp takes out a gun and tells him he failed to kill Adam by 6, so he has to die. Gordon asks hopeless why, and he tells him those are the rules, then goes to shoot him while Gordon tries to shut his eyes and brace for death. Adam, who is not dead, grabs Zepp’s feet and drags him down in a surprise attack, rips the toilet bowl lid off the toilet, and beats him to death with it, saving Gordon, who watches in shock and then crawls over and puts a hand on his shoulder and gets him to stop beating the dead corpse. Adam is wounded & criying because gunshot wounds fkn hurt, & Gordon tries to comfort him. Tells him it’s just a flesh wound—it’s his shoulder—he’ll be okay. Just keep pressure on it. He has to go get help. Adam begs him not to leave him alone in the bathroom, but Gordon says he has to or he’s going to bleed to death (which is incredibly visually apparent). Adam tries to keep him, then watches him crawl and pleads for him to wait and asks if they’re going to be okay? Gordon tells him “I wouldn’t lie to you.” and gives him a reassuring smile while half dead and crawls out to look for help. Adam is left alone and searches Zepp’s corpse for keys to his shackle, then finds a tape exactly like his & Gordon’s. He plays it, and realizes to his horror this man Zepp was another victim, not Jigsaw. He was poisoned and told to kidnap Gordon’s family & shoot them both & Gordon if Gordon lost to earn an antidote, or just accept death and refuse to participate. While the tape plays, the corpse in the room with them stands up, and Adam realizes to overwhelming horror it has been alive the whole time, and it is Jigsaw, who wanted a front row seat to their torture, suffering, and death. He tries to grab Zepp’s gun & shooot him, but Jigsaw/John electrocutes him w a remote (the shackles are wired) and leaves, congratulating him on winning & telling him where his key is (it got flushed down a drain when Adam woke up, which John no doubt planned), then telling him “Game Over” and locking him alone in the bathroom because John’s a fake ass piece of shit who doesn’t even keep his promises & let the winners go.

The end scene between Adam and Gordon is phenomenal & heart wrenching (Saw is an amazing character piece of a film, & the first film is the reason it became a modern horror staple! Watch here if you’re curious! :’-]

While Gordon does eventually, under extreme duress, shoot Adam, he never wants to kill him, and they are definitely close by the end of the film (which is clear both from the way they treat each other, and their more decisive actions, like Adam risking his life to save Gordon after being shot by him & never seeking recompense for the gunshot, Gordon trying to help Adam & comfort him as well as get help for them both). This is the central relationship of Saw 1, and it’s really well done.

Then, in Saw 2, there’s just no mention of Gordon going back to save Adam. We wonder what happened, until Amanda & Danny stumble to the bathroom form Saw 1 & you are greeted by Adam’s decaying corpse still chained there. It’s later revealed that Gordon escaped the bathroom, cauterized his wound on a hot pipe because he knew he was going to die otherwise, then passed out from pain. John found him and took him to his workshop, where he nursed him back to health & gave him a prosthetic leg, before convincing him to join the team.

Understandably, this did not sit well with any of the Saw fandom. We fight about all kinds of stuff, but the one thing I’ve like, never seen disagreement on, is that it makes no fkn sense for Gordon to betray Adam like that after how close they were, and it makes even less sense he’d willingly join the man who super tried to murder his wife and kid. If it wasn’t for Tapp and Adam, Gordon, his wife, and his child would be dead now. John endangered all 3 intentionally, and did not save or spare any of them.

Still with me? So. Because of that, people started digging. Now, out of Jigsaw’s apprentices, Gordon is the only one who never takes a very active roll. He did not run games or kidnap people. Becuase he was a doctor, John called him in to do medical work for tests, such as sewing a key into the eye of the man from the cold open to Saw II. The only active work he takes is catching Hoffman at the end of Saw 3D & locking him in the basement, which John asked him to do if Hoffman killed Jill (which Hoffman does). This together with Gordon’s character led to a massive fan theory. Let me try to break it down.

After Saw 1, Gordon joins a support group for Jigsaw game survivors, and returns to his family. We get very little info about him period until Saw 3D though. However! Pre Saw 1, Jigsaw basically never lost, the cops never even got close. Suddenly after Saw 1, the entire gang falls apart, starting with Amanda and John, then finally Hoffman & Jill. In Saw 3, it’s revealed Amanda went back to the bathroom to kill Adam when he survived his test. She promises she’s there to help him when he wakes up scared and half dead in the dark, and then puts a plastic bag over his head and smothers him while he fights. This lead to a fan theory that Gordon went back to save Adam once he could (able to walk & not being shadowed by Jigsaw), but was too late, and decided to take revenge very carefully. However, Amanda has a shit track record of thinking she killed someone & not checking for a pulse (see Eric Matthews, who she thought she beat to death), so the even more popular theory is that Adam was not dead by the time Gordon got to him, and Gordon saved him and replaced his corpse with another. This theory is backed by the fact that Adam was shot in the shoulder, but when the body is seen in other films, it is both too decayed to be recognizable, and the gunshot wound is in the stomach (where Tapp was shot). Furthermore, when Amanda & Danny find Zepp and “Adam”’s bodies in Saw 2, Zepp, who was already partially bald, still has hair, yet Adam’s corpse is completely bald. The shackle is also on the wrong foot now, which would indicate it was removed and then replaced by someone in a hurry. Now, obviously it’s possible this was just a continuity error, but given that Saw usually has a good track record with continuity (and uses them a lot for big reveals), that gives more weight than usual to the theory.

So, this led to the idea that Gordon was able to either save Adam, or at least remove his body & bury it, replaced it with a fake (possibly Tapp? but considering the bodies wouldn’t be decayed enough for the skin to be missed if he did it when Adam was alive or in decent preserve even, and Tapp is considerably taller, I’d assume he, as a doctor, didn’t have too much trouble stealing a John Doe cadaver from the hospital) corpse in Adam’s clothes, then agreed to help Jigsaw becuase he was smart enough to know if he didn’t play along, John would kill him (he would, and has. He never lets people with dangerous information go). John also tends to have failsafes in place, like “if Gordon betrays me, kill his daughter” kind of stuff, so the theory is Gordon played along to keep his family safe, instead of going to the cops, since he knew at least Hoffman worked for Jigsaw already, and there might be more plants, and did his best to engineer the breakdown and eventual demises of the whole team from Saw 1 on. (Was the one who gave Hoffman the idea to threaten Amanda or the info to do it, intentionally failed to protect Jill from Hoffman to have an easy excuse to kill/see both dead, etc). Makes double sense if Adam was alive, becuase if Gordon revealed himself as mole, first thing Jigsaw & co would check is what else he messed with, and they knew he was close to Adam.

There’s a lot more details to it, but that’s the short version. Most people I know in the Saw fandom ascribe to it in a weird kind of “Look I know it’s probably just inconsistent character writing and in that case fuck Gordon he can go to hell, but since I truly don’t believe Saw 1 Lawrence Gordon would do this & there’s enough evidence for reasonable doubt, I choose to believe the convoluted theory that makes him make sense & also means Adam could maybe be alive” way. Including me. If Gordon really decides he has no issue with John after what he did to him, his baby girl, Adam, and his poor wife, joins him willingly & helps, then he’s as bad as Amanda & Hoffman & fuck that guy. But since the characterization doesn’t match /at all/ & there’s never an explanation given, & fan theory makes more sense, I tend to think of Gordon as if the fan theory is right? Although if you don’t & thus hate Gordon, 100% respect. I just cannot watch Saw 1 & believe Lawrence would join up for any reason but revenge & long con to keep family safe. I mean, he tried to kill a /friend/ to save his family. You’re really going to try to convince me the man who cut off his own foot by hand to try to save his wife and daughter would ever be cool with or forgive the man who tried to execute them for no reason? Uhhh, to quote Dr. Gordon himself,

I mean.

💁🏻‍♀️ You can’t convince me the man this hellbent on destroying the man who was threatening his family did not make him pay, and just decided to be pals. You can’t. It’s inconsistent writing. :’-] anyway, there’s other info too—one of the disguised figures who helps Lawrence take out Hoffman is the exact height Adam was, the plastic bag from Amanda is gone & the corpse in a different position, etc—been like 2 years so I don’t even remember it all, but it’s very fascinating. & that’s the short yet somehow still too long version of the Gordon theory I definitely did not proof read at all for which I apologize! It’s more convincing than I write it I swear I am just exhausted. :’-] But yeah, most saw fans ascribe to it, which is why we all seem to still like Gordon, and he’s so often shipped with Adam, both of which would probably otherwise seem massively confusing. Hope it helps!

(Oh! & in ILM, since i ascribe to that theory, I wrote him that way. Failed to save Adam, buried his body, then took slow, careful revenge on Jigsaw & co. to keep his family safe. Knows there are deaths he is not blameless for becuase of that, and is full of guilt over wondering if going to the police wouldn’t have saved people, even if he had understandable doubts & reasons for what he did. Is especially guilty for Adam’s death. Seeks to make reparations slowly his own way. [tho also soemtimes secretive characters lie to me until it becomes necessary for me to know, so it’s possible Gordon saved Adam & is hiding it, but given the whole gang is dead, I don’t know why he still would be, so I think ILM verse all he could do was bury the body]).

#ask #could be he knows about the dude from Jigsaw tho. except that given it was a stupidass film ive elected to ignore Jigsaw #anonymous #sorry for this monstrosity #saw #lawrence gordon #Adam Faulkner-Stanheight #spoilers #in living memory (fic)#in living memory

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hellomynudebrain · 3 years

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Paths (Jumin X reader) Part#21

All the way to the Saeyong and MC's house, your mind was saved to overthink about Jumin's confession since they spent all the ride singing the last song of Grease.

"We go togetherLike rama lama lama ka dinga da dinga dong

Remembered forever

As shoo-bop sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom

Chang chang changitty chang sha-bopThat's the way it should beWah-oooh, yeah!*unisone*"

You lean your head to rest your head, close your eyes and put your mind in blanck.

From time to time, you opened an eye and saw how MC and Saeyong held hands, rub their noses and gave little pecks on their lips.

In another time of your life, you might felt a little embarrased, but this time you felt happy for them and nostalgic. Your mind brought back the image of Jumin, you didn't know if you could forgive him for what he did. For an instant you wanted to cry, but you limited to lean your head agan, close your eyes and slept all the way.

"Honey! Hey, wake up?" A sweet voice sounded between dreams.

"Visiter, we arrived to the space station!" An annoying voice invaded your dreams.

"Just a bit more..." You mubled."

Isn't that guy...JIHYUN AND JUMIN?!" Saeyoung screamed next to your ear.

"WHAT?!" You got up and stumbled with Saeyoung's car.

"Hahahaha! You're funnier than Yoosung! hahahaha!" Saeyong was laughing hard, but MC hit his arm."Stop it! She is not fine and your mocking her!"

"Sorry, honey! I couldn't help it~" Saeyoung made a cute face and winked to MC, while you were on the ground with your knee hurted. Suddenly, your view became blurry and you face wet, the sobbing was inevitable.

You started criying. "I told you!...Come on, dear! Get up, this bully is not going to hurt you anymore! Come on, Saeyong! Open the bunker!"

"Oh, yes!" You couldn't understand what Saeyong said to open the door of his house, but you were sure he spoke in arab.

Once inside, MC abligated to Saeyong to gave you a blancket, a cup of tea and tissues. Your mascara was all over your face and you had puffy eyes. You began to wonder since when you became such a crying mess. Maybe since Jihyun left you or maybe since you met Jumin? The answer didn't came and made you wanted to cry more, but MC stoped you. "Dared, dared! You know, dear. You shouldn't cry for a man!~"

"I wasn't...crying for a man..."

"You are not deceiving anyone, dear! We know everything!~ " Saeyoung implied with the movement of his eyebrowns.

"...Do you?....Do you know evething, everything?"

"Of course! The super agent 707 and the cute agent 606 knows E V E R Y T H I N G! We know about your relationship with V and the contract with Jumin! We investigated you~"

"So...you know...everyhting about me?!" You were upset and afraid with the people in front of you, which made you got up and looked for the entrance. If they were telling you the truth, they were awared about all your issues.

"Saeyoung! Don't scare our guest!" MC yelled to Saeyong, turned her head and talked to you.

"Dear, please! Take a seat!" MC made you sit down again, but her voice was so calming that you didn’t questionate her.

"Ok....How much do you know?"

"Dear, maybe Jumin already told you about how I became a team member from the RFA, rigth?"

"Yes, he did..."

"Well, then you know about Saeyoung's job, right?"

"Yes, I do..."

"Then...yes, Saeyong and I did a background check about you when Jumin did the annoucement about getting a girlfriend. Don't get us wrong, we did it since we didn't know anything about you and the way that Jumin got himself a girlfriend was weird to us."

"....So...you know about my engagement with Jihyun and the contract with Jumin, don't you?" You were to direct, but it was because you wanted to know how much they know and didn't beat around the bush.

They looked to each other and nodded their heads at the same time.

"...Oh....Don't you hate me...?"

"Of couse not, dear! You didn't know anything! But trust us when we say that Jumin loves you, we never saw him that depressed after you ran to your room! He even had to pay to keep you save from the media...."

"The media?...Wait! Did you see our talk that day?!"

"Hehehe! I just wanted to see how was Eli doing since Salem wasn't with her anymore~" Saeyong scrached his back with an apologectic look in his face.

However,you were more than upset and finally you exploded.

"None of you know about boundries?! I thought that I could trust in a man again...fall in love and move on from a relationship which was based on lies. I trust in two men who betrayed me. One splitted my relationship and the other one changed me for his ex because he felt guilty?! WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT IS THAT?! WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT...is that...?!" Finally, you crumbled in front of those two people you barely knew and look at you with pitty, but you really didn't care. You felt hurted, they hurted you.

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