(995) we think in polaroids
i'm a poet, we think in polaroids
snapshots of this here this now
artificially and chemically aged
composed of candid framing
i haven't lived a snapshot in awhile
or maybe it's why i don't remember dreams anymore
i used to dream of snapshots
these pearls on a string where i'm present in myself
an unmistakeable situation
instead of day in day out just people rubbing themselves on my last raw nerve
once, the rickety staircase and the sea of trees twelve years before in sleep to presence
a black dog labrador slinking under the chainlink fence
that's all in the past now so
does that mean i'm where i'm supposed to be
are there more polaroids to come
aging yellow and black a chiaroscuro in 50mm
the feel of a you gripping my shirt in your trembling fist too stoic to cry
the lines of our apres vu fading away even before you open your mouth
is this a dream i want to dream or is this a dream where i'm supposed to be
you doubletake when you see my university license picture with all the lines faded
i gave that t-shirt away or it's piled holey in the landfill
i was half my weight now but it's all the invisible burdens like punches and my stomach paunch
i used to live more in daydreams than in the screams embedded in the drywall
but i closed my eyes and gave myself up to overstimulation instead to sleep at night
did my snapshots die or did i kill them myself
trying to cut apart polaroids with dull scissors they rend jagged and don't split clean
i used to garden ideas like resettling dead land
they flowered in places until i choked on them
i knew going in that as i got older i got more rigid
more the camera, less the polaroid
more the hardware, less the art
less creative less imaginative less less less
was that written in the stars or did i do it to myself
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No bc Judy and Nick are definitely the kind of couple that take selfies in bed together
They literally invented selfies so as they should 🥺
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when harry has finally gone to sleep
for @meredarling <3
regulus: macdonald, is that my t-shirt you're wearing?
mary: no it's not
regulus: there's literally my name on it
mary: ... fine yes it is but i had to do harry's laundry and i didn't have anything else to wear
(close ups of the polaroids under the cut)
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This makes this blog the 4th or 5th thing I've titled Municipal Building
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p.s. the el hard times edit was almost a willel edit bc i feel like it sums up el's relationship with brenner And will's relationship with henry. I'M TIRED OF YOU!! STILL TIED TO ME!! but there aren't enough s4 will clips that were relevant bc they sidelined him and didn't let him do anything except be gay s4.. rip </3 perhaps i can make one after s5
OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO FUCKING REAL FOR THAT. JESUS. NO STOP WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME THIS😭😭😭
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Looks like Alex isn't following Janelle anymore.. I wonder if he saw that weird story she posted with the polaroid of him in it and thought it was creepy like we did and finally hit the unfollow button? she is so cringe.. good for him.
i think it was this lol
@overbearingstruggles blames the marriage counselor lol
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