#whereas now it is like...

[dobranocka]

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#anyway #keeping this in tags because of the obvious reasons that i don't want this to spread etc etc #but i feel so tired and burn out and disillusioned in this fandom #to the point i feel bad about the thing i was very very excited to be working on for myself #and i hate the fact that i feel this way #like usually a fandom has been a crutch to me when i was feeling worse in terms of mental health #and the only time i felt a need this strong to disengage was like... in 2019 when some really bad stuff happened in my life #and i can't look at the things i wrote then without thinking 'oh this is a chronicle of my grief' #which yeah makes me sad but also nostalgic for the messages and support i got from fandom friends back then #whereas now it is like... #it's not only that i feel like i am posting and writing fics for the void #since apparently giving any sort of feedback is not something done anymore #or maybe not in this particular community? #why give comments when you can shoot someone a message 'oh you wrote a thing i am definitely going to read it never' #which is... fine i guess #i can deal with people not liking my writing #me ego is big enough i guess #but this is like... the first time in years that i've been finding talking to people in fandom spaces seriously tedious #like not because i don't enjoy talking about this piece of media! #because i do! #but i feel like somewhere along the way people lost the concept of boundaries and idk #not trying to shove your own fic with a weird kink/pairing/concept down someone else's throat #or hear about someone else work and immediately go 'oh amazing i can write the same thing!' #like... how on earth is that a normal behaviour #(not counting like normal assholery behaviour) #idk #maybe i am being too unkind or too fragile #or i just don't get modern fandom 'etiquette' #since apparently now being mindful of potentially triggering things and not spitting them in someone's face is too high of a bar #but i am just... tired

[aeide-thea]

on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance

#it's such an ugly word but like. self-pleasure is good‚ actually #it's good to know yourself and what you like and lovingly treat yourself to it! #like similarly 'meretricious' is extremely tempting if you ignore the underlying metaphor #but. hard to. #language #and quite frankly i think people who whip out 'masturbatory' in this sneering sort of way #are leveraging‚ if we're honest with ourselves‚ a particular framing of it as a gross thing that boys do #because like. when have you ever heard a *woman's* self-indulgent art described as masturbatory #like don't get me wrong we absolutely still dismiss it! but we dismiss it in other ways #that are usually about how embarrassing her *yearning* is #and so even our sneering is reinforcing an idea that men Act whereas women Feel #anyway this was prompted by some things but i shoved it in the queue so now i forget what lol #so here you are getting some contextless thoughts on the use of 'masturbatory' as sneering dismissive assessment! #just what you were hoping for i'm sure :)

[choccy-milky]

I can imagine Clora reading the "Final Problem" where Sherlock "DIES" and being depressed for like a month and sending hate mail to Conan Doyle while Sebastian tries to cheer her up.

THATS SO FUNNY YOU SENT THIS BECAUSE I LITERALLY DECIDED THE SAME THING A WHILE BACK BAHAHA i plan to mention it in my fic too

seb would 1000% find clora crying during their seventh year when "the final problem" is published LMAOO and he'd freak out wondering whats wrong. and when i read about how tons of doyles' fans sent him hate mail and were outraged i was like yup, clora would've been one of them BAHAHA. ["Obituaries for Holmes appeared everywhere. Petitions were signed and “Keep Holmes Alive” clubs were formed."] CLORA WOULD HAVE FORMED ONE OF THOSE CLUBS TOO LMFAOO

all the outrage made doyle resurrect sherlock a decade later, so that also means when they're older + married + have kids, clora's just gonna burst into the room one day and be like "HES ALIIIIVEEE!!!!!!!" BAHAHHAA clora's hate mail to arthur conan doyle is what brought back sherlock, CONFIRMED!!💯💪✨

#ironically as i was drawing this i was re-watching hbomberguys video essay 'sherlock is garbage and heres why' LMAOO sorry clora #i do want to read the OG stories now though i was looking at the sets on amazon👀 #ask #choccyart #i can also imagine clive and clora arguing over sherlocks death and the ending bc clive thinks it was effective but cloras like NO #arthur conan doyle hated his sherlock series since he wanted his historical stories to be more popular #i can imagine clive enjoying his historical stories more and agreeing whereas cloras like hell no MORE SHERLOCK ONLY SHERLOCK #god and margaret just sitting there as they have a heated debate during dinner like :) how are the mashed potatoes you two?? :) #save her #also cloras face in the first panel cracks me tf up and i also kinda have the urge to punch it which just makes it funnier SORRY

[super-nova5045]

sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)

#anti taylor swift #like she can be problematic that’s okay #there are SO many problematic artists i like #but she’s not even that good #like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo #aka her peers #and realise how much better they are #they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it #whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL #she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so #by romanticizing the most mundane #thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit #GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it! #fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back! #mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows! #lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression #all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab #Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd #todd anderson #AND JOE ALWYN #joe alwyn my favourite man ever #joe alwyn #dead poets society #anderperry #sylvia plath #virginia woolf #the bell jar #lana del rey #fiona apple #mitski

[doctorsiren]

Part 10

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#doctorsiren #ace attorney #ace attorney au #gregory edgeworth #miles edgeworth #metis cykes #ace attorney fanart #astro boy edgeworth au #comic #digital art #my art #procreate #guys…I made 100 comic pages in 19 days 😳 #oopsie #dw the reasoning for Gregory snapping at Metis does exist #it will be elaborated on lmao #for the first full colour hug of Gregory and Metis #I referenced the picture of Lana and Ema hugging #METIS SAYING THE THING ABOUT GREGORY SMELLING LIKE COFFEE LIKE HER DAD DID #IS REFERENCING MY DEFENSEWORTH AU WHERE MILES THINKS OF DIEGO SMELLING LIKE COFFEE LIKE HIS DAD DID #😭😭😭😭 #also their lighting switched (now Metis is the backlit one whereas Gregory used to be in earlier parts)

[sysig]

Those wacky skeletons ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Sans #Papyrus #Handplates #You can tell because of Sans' gloves lol #Getting-used-to-them-again doodles as well as just expressing Feeling <3 Happy towards them! Want them to be happy too! #It might seem silly for these - how many sets in now? - to still be getting used to drawing them again lol but it's because they're adults! #Their clothes and the way they hold themselves - but also especially Sans lol I dunno why I have such difficulty with him at times #He's got a cute face and I still find myself like ????how your face #Other than that tho it's just silliness hehe ♪ My favourite lads :D #I feel the need to make the distinction: I do actually have different favourites based on the AU lol #Like for example in classic I still love Flowey just a tiiiiiny bit more than Papyrus but it really is constantly neck and neck #Whereas in Handplates it's no competition even a little bit lol - Papyrus is just my Very Favourite #But Gaster is my favourite Handplates-specific character since he's unique to the AU! It gets a bit in the weeds lol #Sans isn't far behind at all of course the trio are very important! The duo even moreso imo #Going back to gloves tho I did carry over one of my quirks from my original UT doodles about Papyrus' gloves lol #I initially envisioned them as combination mitten-gloves with a free index finger and all the rest together #I still rather like the design! But it is admittedly not Handplates accurate lol #The occasional dip into self-indulgence who me? Lol #Sleeping on each other is important to me as well!! It is such a favourite hehe #Honestly I just imagined Papyrus getting so exhausted that he fell asleep in the snow lol poor lad #Sans teleported in but it's also funny to imagine him just walking up like ''you good? yeah he's fine'' *flop* haha #Silly lads <3 Do love 'em ♪

[comradekatara]

katara’s fatal flaw when it comes to politics and also just general communication is that she cannot fathom why anyone would wish to act in a cruel manner and knowingly harm others, whereas sokka’s is that he does not understand how people can be willfully ignorant or even just plain dumb. it’s why sokka is always having to point out to katara that someone is a malicious actor who is taking advantage of her compassion and idealism (jet, hama, aunt wu, etc) because he knows that not everyone has pure, altruistic intentions, but he also doesn’t understand that king kuei isn’t just sheltered, he is also straight up an idiot (or that hahn isn’t just arrogant, he is also incompetent, etc etc) until it’s too late.

#katara assumes that everyone knows they ought to conduct themselves compassionately #whereas sokka assumes that everyone knows they ought to conduct themselves rationally #like in their minds (respectively) that it what is in everyone’s best interest at all times #and sokka’s ‘rationality’ is compassionate in nature #but he also acknowledges that other people mind find it in their best interest to be selfish #and conduct themselves accordingly #while katara always just sees the best in people #and is pretty unforgiving if they ‘mess up’ despite herself not being a perfect beacon of compassion #(she can be selfish myopic etc) #same goes for sokka perceiving himself as rational but also just. having a huge blind spot when it comes to his self esteem & daddy issues #(family issues in general tbh) #which can cause him to act irrationally #and then zuko and azula have the same thing (where zuko believes in compassion and azula believes in reason) but also like. far more cynical #just because they were raised to believe in their natural superiority and it fucks with their perception of themselves and others #but zuko does have a very similar fundamental worldview to katara & azula to sokka #anyway. im off topic now #katara #sokka #katara&sokka #analysis #ish

[mintjeru]

(not ship)

the way i was like “don’t expect much art from me for a while!” and then go and do something like this 😐

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[Image description: A four page comic detailing Kaeya’s Hidden Strife event dialogue with Adelinde and his strained relationship with Diluc.

A box on the first page states, “Hidden Strife event final day”. Adelinde explains with her head bowed politely, “I’m sorry, Captain Kaeya, but the Dawn Winery is having a fire safety inspection today. You’ll have to come back another day.” Kaeya averts his eyes with a concerned expression.

On the second page, Kaeya forces a smile. He starts: “Haha... seriously, shouldn’t you at least ask me to stay for din- -ner?”. He sees something in the distance and his eyes widen in shock.

The third page depicts Aether and Paimon running out of the manor. “Come on!” Paimon exclaims. “Diluc is waiting for us at Falcon Coast!” Kaeya and Adelinde can be seen in the background.

The fourth page starts with a flashback to a scene in Angel’s Share during Diluc’s Noctua: Chapter 1 story quest. Kaeya recalls telling him, “I feel strangely comforted by the fact that you now have an assistant, Diluc.” “I just wish,” he thinks to himself, “it could have been me standing by your side again.” At the bottom of the page, a young Diluc and Kaeya dressed in their Knights of Favonius uniforms laugh together. Kaeya has a hand on Diluc’s shoulder. Diluc has an arm slung over Kaeya’s shoulder and bends over slightly as he laughs.]

#kaeya #diluc #ragbros #aether #paimon #genshin impact #genshin #fanart #myart #comic #the whole time i was making this i was like 'why do i draw stuff that makes me sad' #so now i get to subject all of you to ragbros angst #the parallel between diluc asking the traveler to stay for dinner vs. kaeya not even getting an offer from adelinde #and the fact that kaeya was one step behind in knowing where diluc was whereas we got to meet him and tag along to falcon coast #judging from the letters they do have some sort of working relationship but man. it's very stiff and limited #they make me Really Sad ok #struggled a bit drawing kaeya's expressions #i hope i managed to convey the emotions well enough #also now taking ragbros fic recs bc i read glacial heart a while back and it was so good (cried my eyes out)

[whetstonefires]

Hey here's an angle on the Jiang family dynamic and its impact on Wei Wuxian that I haven't seen discussed:

Wei Wuxian grew up seeing Jiang Yanli routinely having her agency cut off and denied in both large (betrothal) and small ways. That were largely tied up in her gender, sure, but this was also a family containing Yu Ziyuan. A daughter in this household had every chance of having her gender treated as of secondary importance.

She just had to earn it.

The way Jiang Yanli was hemmed in and her potential as an independent actor dismissed was at least as strongly correlated with her failure to be a powerful sword cultivator.

So Wei Wuxian's total refusal to let anyone know that he'd lost access to his cultivation and his violent reactivity against being diminished or condescended to during his Sunshot-to-death period, when before he was pretty immune to being looked down on, could have a lot to do with having been presented with this clearly labeled diagram of how your personhood gets stripped away when you are, by the standards of your society, disabled.

#hoc est meum #like jiang cheng's desire to die about it also has this #but he had some specific shame issues #and the realistic assessment that rebuilding his sect and getting revenge was now impractical #and his problem was never really feeling like his place in the world was actually going to be taken #just like he failed to deserve it #whereas wwx had his secrets to keep but even after he'd lived up to most of his obligations #during this period #and i think it's what he's so mad at himself about looking back #during the Empathy flashback #that he valued his pride and clinging to his status when it turned out #it did jack-all to help and he got everyone killed #(Present-Day wwx is not an objective source on himself lmao) #and this in turn is why in the present-time of the novel he's so willing to lean into the indignity of mo xuanyu #he now has nothing to lose and it's liberating #but during his march-toward-death era having any more of his self-respect and conceptual status stripped away was agony #because it felt like an unpersoning #and some of the disability angles around this come up in fandom sometimes but #the fact that he internalized the idea that not having this specific type of power means you lose your personal freedom looking at jyl #doesn't really #and i think she Very Much informed his relationship to #power gender disability and #marriage #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang yanli

[nicollekidman]

kendall is suicidal. kendall thinks he is a cog made to fit only one machine, promised to him since he was seven. kendall cannot admit reality to himself. kendall will never move on from this loss or be “successful” in the way that he chooses to measure success. but kendall is still. STILL. the only one who has people outside of the hermetic seal of waystar that care about him. he will not recover fully but now he will be able to hold conversations with the people who love him and maybe they’ll look him in the eye. he has his children who are still young enough to build something with him. he has rava who has always treated him with more care than he deserves. he has roman, who will always come tail wagging to nuzzle into his hand. he has stewy, who held out the friend card AND got the money he wanted all along. he has colin, a dark dark shadow who never wanted to be one, who only wants to be steady. he will have frank and karl, soon to be out of jobs, who watched the little prince teeter around in diapers and who miss his namesake. and you know what? shiv will need him. kendall has always had people and now, even as he flounders and never raises himself above the possibilities of what he Could Have Been, he can be something for those people outside the shadow of his father’s corpse.

#succession #like kendall deeply deeply wants to die and thinks he should die but ken has ALWAYS! #had people pulling him back!!!!!! #and that will continue now whereas it would not have from behind logan's desk #don't read into this as coming from someone who still grieves d*an

[k-martins]

Is it just me or did Yuji and Megumi not be able to take their eyes off each other in this episode?

#Can you make a compilation just with Yuji looking at Megs #he looks like a puppy #I'm just a little worried about how Megs seems a little less... charismatic? #I don't know #I think in the first season he seemed more expressive #whereas now he's more -_- #I might be being a little heavy-handed #let's see what happens next #itafushi #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #itadori yuji #fushiguro megumi #yuji itadori #fushiita #jjk spoilers

[thelaurenshippen]

the way that silver said "I will stand here with you an hour, a day, a year" to flint and "I will wait a day, a month, a year, forever" to madi....I'm sick to my stomach. who is doing unhinged devotion like this man

#I have no doubt this exact post was made ten years ago or whenever the finale aired #but I'M NEW HERE #black sails #black sails spoilers #lauren feels things #the way that silver is just like...'oh there's a strong willed person who wants to change the entire world with their strong will?' #guess they're my life now! #the way that flint and madi are sooooooo similar #except that silver diagnoses flint perfectly! he mostly just wants to burn the world! #whereas madi actually has true strength of conviction and ideals #and silver #who has been living with james 'my way or the highway but also if you outsmart me I might grudgingly respect you #but my whims are going to be IMPOSSIBLE to understand or track' flint #sees madi and is like 'yeah she'll be mad for a little while but we'll move past it' #and maybe they do! but he soooo miscalculates I love it #also the way that he looks at madi when she is looking at flint after they're all safe #is........so insane #loves her knows she loves him #is obsessed with flint #and yet the fact that madi respects and trusts flint #and that they share so much naturally in their thinking that silver has hard won #drives him craazyyyyyy #ANYWAY I'M UNWELL CAN YOU TELL

[magistralucis]

pronouncing the necron 'sz': personal rating list*

broke: /s/ only ('seras')

woke: /z/ only ('zeras')

provoke: /s/ and /z/ pronounced separately ('s-ze-ras')

bespoke: /ʂ/ or /ʃ/ ('scheras')

invoke: tensed fricative /s͈/ ('sseras')

misspoke: /s/ but evil ('ßeras')

(* Further notes in tags.)

#warhammer 40k #wh40k #necrons #illuminor szeras #necron #shitpost #german speakers i am so sorry you had to read that with your eyes 😂 i also speak german i do know eszetts can't start words #originally this was just for fun but it seems there are quite a lot of ways wh40k fans pronounce this #native english speaking fans usually seem to stick to 's' #whereas in languages that actually use this digraph it would be s/ʂ/ʃ #but in korean translations 'sz' defaults to 'z' so it's definitely 'zeras (제라스)' and 'zarekh (자렉)' #and sometimes the 's' and 'z' are both present and pronounced like in japanese ('s-za-rekh';スザーレク) #(i personally use ʃ because it seems the logical compromise) #in lore terms i think all or most of those pronunciations were used among the necrontyr and there is not one 'canon' version #variety is the spice of life it's fine they're all good. well maybe not the last one but still 😂 #according to TDK the necrontyr didn't have a united language until szarekh came along so they must've had different dialects #i reckon that's why the silent king made his universal language. so people could pronounce his name how HE specifically wanted it #it's all becoming so clear now!!!! 😬

[susieandhobbes]

I feel bad because Ayo is clearly legitimately pissed about the baseball video of her and Jeremy blowing up like this and her feelings are valid but in my extremely unprofessional and not at all certified PR perspective - she/her team are handling it SO BADLY.

Deleting her tik toks or IG pics, not dropping another vogue partnership video that (allegedly) was coming today, reposting that video about filming people in public - BABY THE STREISAND EFFECT!!!

The more rattled you seem, the more the internet is going to think they caught you at something and the harder they're going to read into everything. Hell, half the people who saw the video were like "oh this must be a marketing strategy" and while that makes literally no sense because you don't promote a ~platonic~ friendship by stirring up dating rumors, it was still something people were willing to believe. She should have posted "anyway The Bear Season 3 airs June 27th! Go cubs" on her IG story and kept it pushing

#ayo edebiri #jeremy allen white #someone made a tweet comparing her and jeremy to Kerry/Tony and Andrew/Danai and they could never #while the natural chemistry that makes people respond so strongly to them is there #it's like they get mad when people notice #whereas Kerry and Tony break that shit out to boost their engagement whenever they feel like it #YEARS after their show ended #and while I kinda don't think Andy is that calculated #he's earnestly obsessed with Danai and clearly doesn't give a fuck who sees #And I think Danai is tuned in enough to use it for promo when necessary #It feels like Ayo/JAW are going to put in a bunch of effort into not being friendly or affectionate from now on #when they could simply go the other way #go so far over the top that everyone is left too baffled to really speculate

[moonsidesong]

i feel like everybody else's interpretations of dedf1sh makes them so cool and aloof and punk and i'm jusg sitting here like. hello this is ahato she's my little thingy. she is slightly scared but she is loving and doing her best to find the good in every day. she loves cake and smoothies and her best friends

#granted i made her when i was 15. i definitely would've done something different now #but i love my little hato she's important to me #ig also the thing is i drew her much younger than most? #i feel like a lot of the ahato mizuta interpretations i've seen have involved them being already an adult when they get sanitized #whereas crush ahato is. sixteen lol #not really going anywhere with this point i'm just drawing her rn and thinking about that #bri talks #14 crush #moonsidedoodles

[comradekatara]

actually i would like to see late teens katara in like. an indie coming of age dramedy set in the mostly reconstructed southern water tribe. and all her problems are mostly just petty 17-18 year old girl stuff, interpersonal conflicts that are emotionally resolved by the end of the movie. like yes there would also be political conflicts wrt the northern water tribe and the fire nation, but that’s not the focus of THIS movie. the focus of THIS movie is just katara being kinda silly as she grows up. no plot just vibes

#my problem w katara is that i want her to be happy whereas i want sokka to suffer #so i have a lot to say abt sokka suffering #but when it comes to katara im just like LET MY GIRL CHILL 😭😭😭 #(literally. she lives in the south pole) #LET HER BIGGEST PROBLEM BE THAT SHE FELL DOWN A HILL BUT AS SHE WAS ROLLING DOWN IT ACCUMULATED A BUNCH OF SNOW #AND NOW SHES TRAPPED IN A GIANT SNOWBALL #LET HER GET A FLUFFY WHITE CAT NAMED CATARA #LET HER HUG HER GRANDMA #ETC ETC #katara #postwargaang #ish