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[neuroticboyfriend]

What are some little things that are slightly cool about a disability you have?

Hm.. I don't know if you'd call it cool (I would), but my experience with schizophrenia has given me a perspective on reality that sane people don't often have. TW for unreality? I think I've made a post about it a long time ago, but there isn't one singular reality that we all experience. Yeah, there's the collective existence of everything, but as human beings, we can only experience well.. what we experience. We're not omniscient.

This is to say, everyone has their own reality, and the closest thing we get to Reality (singular) is interacting with each other and the world around us. We share our thoughts, feelings, memories. We experience life at the same time, in the same place, and form similar yet different views on the existence of all of that. So, no one is ever really out of touch with reality... everything someone does, says, believes, makes sense within the context of their life - what they've been through, what they've been taught, what they feel and think.

The problem comes when we use our lives - our realities - to harm others. To remove their agency, invalidate their existence. That's something a lot of psychotic people go through. Even when our beliefs and experiences harm no one - not even ourselves - we're forced to change. And when we do experience disorder, we're not given an option to really cope and experience fulfillment as a psychotic person. We're just made to be sane.

I kind of miss being psychotic. It was harmless, when I was younger. Believing I was a deity or cat person or whatever, it made life more colorful. More interesting. The most distressing thing I dealt with was thinking there were microscopic cameras in my walls... and I feel like that could have been coped with. Unfortunately, once my psychosis became severe and life threatening (due to the trauma of antiplurality and psychiatric abuse) the safest option was to just get me on meds to make me sane.

So yeah. Reality is weird and I think psychotics are cool. Also fuck sanists and psychiatry.

#me writing a whole essay after being so garbled earlier is Something #sorry for the essay btw #im passionate about this #asks #yaybox #anon #schizophrenia #psychiatric abuse #psychotic #actually psychotic #delusions #actually delusional #delusion tw #psychosis tw #psychosis #schizoaffective #schizospec #neurodivergency #neurodivergent #neurodivergence #antipsychiatry #antipsych #abuse tw #trauma #trauma survivor #ableism #sanism #unreality tw #unreality #??

[intersexfairy]

what does it feel like to drink ace respect juice and have so much swag

it feels so great i love being acespec and respecting my ace peers <3

and i am also arospec and respect my arospec peers!

and! and! aspecs who arent acespec or arospec! i see you and i respect you! <3

(click here to see some examples of non aro/ace aspec orientations!)

*the asocial page doesnt define antisocial well.

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[yay9]

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[avontheavocado]

#yayboxes #fucksquares

[neuroticboyfriend]

idk if you want other experiences about cannabis? So feel free to ignore!

But it is our go-to and helps our psychosis and schizo stuff more than anything else. (Antipsychotics had no effect on my psychosis.) Weed helps me so much both with reducing the amount of delusions and their severity. It also makes me care way, way, way less (same for my social anxiety and phobias and physical pain). It also just reduces my stress which reduces my hallucinations and delusions. I don't think it specifically reduces visual or auditory hallucinations much for me outside of that but it does make me not care about them. [And note: if I get *really really really high* (like taking double my tolerance in edibles or something) it can make my psychosis worse but still in a way where I'm less distressed by it and don't need to act on it, so like, still a win?]

I had fully developed schizoaffective for years before I tried cannabis, and stayed away from it for a long time, for the same reason as you. So totally up to you, and I respect your decision either way! (Not that my input matters lol but just reaffirming it's your right to choose!] and I definitely would try it with someone I trust the first time, and not use very much.

But i know quite a few psychotic people who really benefit from cannabis. And I know a couple who aren't psychotic in regular life but get paranoid on weed. So like. It depends! It's not for everyone but it can really help some people. My partner and i are both much saner on cannabis. But it's up to you if you want to try it or not! Feel free to message if you ever wanna talk about it or have questions. <3

I'm sorry things are hard, have another baby Julian (he's growing up so fast sob emoji 😭 )

ID: a five week old dilute orange kitten. He has white on his chest and big ears and is sitting among a bunch of toys, and half sitting in a coiled spring toy

That's honestly really good to know. I thought there was no chance someone like me could ever use weed, but maybe there is hope. I cant be normal about substances, but maybe I cant get a medical marijuana card.

I'm trying to see substances as a means to an end, instead of moralizing them and feeling like I'm doomed because I use them. Yeah, I definitely am on a downwards trend but, harm reduction. That's what helps me most, and weed is a lot safer than narcotics and alcohol.

Also so happy to see kitten Julian growing up!! honestly the fact you link me to him even tho we dont know each other in person or talk privately a lot is :') it warms my heart. Thank you friend, I always love hearing from you - your experiences and insight are always helpful.

#asks #moots #yaybox #drugs tw

[neuroticboyfriend]

I heard you’re autistic for cats… I’m autistic and I have cats.

This is licorice the long boi.

This one is Bella. Yes she was named after twilight 😭

This one is Milo and he has 1 braincell. He sleeps weird.

Extra one of weird sleeping but of licorice. I hope you have a good, cat filled day!

AAWWW OMG SO MANY KITTY PHOTOS THANK YOU ♡♡♡ I havent seen a cat in person in 6 days and im going feral. I cant wait to see my cat when I get home tomorrow!! Especially since Im going to respite for 28 days on monday. I must find ways to add cats to my life while Im gone!!

#asks #yaybox #cats #no id

[neuroticboyfriend]

I wish it was easier for us disabled folk to just live together as a community and support each other. humans social creatures are meant to live in groups!!!! we thrive by supporting each other!! being disabled would be so much easier if we could get help when needed and help when we can.

i wish the same so very much... life is unrealistically hard for us. we deserve so much better. i hope things get better.

#asks #anon #yaybox #disabled #disability

[intersexfairy]

Okay so I'm a dyke. Lesboy, full fledged lesbianaire, if you will. So its generally not a topic I go deep into but I love men. Not romantically, or sexually, but in a deep way that goes beyond platonic. I love queer men, I love trans men, I love intersex men, I love gay men, I love men who are women and all the beyonds, between and interceptions. I love the gender and I love how diverse all the interpretations of it can be.

Ik you're multigendered but k want you to know that you being a man? Its so fucking beautiful and that's not me exaggerating in the least. I've held witness to plenty of shitty men, with shitty interpretations of manhood and I can tell you very sincerely that the gender you've crafted and inhabit is glorious. It's so spacious and welcoming and never fails to remind me how lovely men and manhood can be. I hope you have a lovely day. never forget you have a gender that has brought tears to a dyke's eyes. Ty for having the courage to share it.

holy shit im crying (/pos). i want to print this out and put it on my bedroom wall. we love you too. thank you. so much. for these beautiful and kind words.

#asks #anon #yaybox #yaybox^2 #gotta make a new tag because of this one #dyke #lesboy #intersex #gay #gay man #trans man #transmasc #multigender #trans #trans positivity #pride

[neuroticboyfriend]

Her name is pumpkin and she is silly

AWW THE SILLIEST PUMPKIN

i love her!!!

#asks #yaybox #cats

[intersexfairy]

Small crab and some lovely cats for you ^^

BLAKC CATS BEST CATS ♡♡

THIS MY BABY

#asks #yaybox #drunk posting #posting under the influence #cats

[neuroticboyfriend]

hello! im really into anti psych right now, as i am a black queer 18 year old whose struggles often get ignored, therefore i self diagnoise. what advice would you give to someone who wants to start a blog about advocating for madpride?

i'm not sure, but honestly all i really do here at the end of the day is speak from my heart! i've committed to unlearning ableism against all Mad people - including people with heavily stigmatized conditions, like paraphilic disorders, addiction, factitious disorder, and all personality disorders (namely cluster Bs). i share what i learn about my own relationship with Madness, and i do my best not to censor myself. i think the main thing about Mad Pride is that kind of thing - being our authentic selves, accepting the good, bad, and ugly. we aim towards change and growth and rights, for all of us, regardless of what we have or haven't done.

i think it's really great you want to get into antipsych and mad pride, btw. and i more than encourage you to make a blog about it, especially from your perspective as a young black queer. there is so much to say about the combination of ableism, sanism, antiblackness, racism, queerphobia, and ageism.. and of course, much to say about having pride in all the marginalized identities involved. i also find having Mad pride does wonder for our health and internalized bigotry, especially due to how ableism/sanism amplifies and (unfortunately) synergizes with other forms of bigotry. so yeah. that's my little ramble - less advice, more just insight and joy in seeing someone wanting to engage. much love and joy to you <3

#asks #yaybox #anon #mad pride #antipsych #antipsychiatry

[intersexfairy]

For the anon from a couple days ago, if it helps, my boyfriend (trans man) is v much going for the mix and matched vibe of androgyny and I think he is very pretty and I want to kiss him

aaa that is so beautiful and makes me so happy to hear! <3 i hope he gets much gender euphoria as he grows into who he knows himself to be, and i wish you both so much queer joy!!

#asks #anon #yaybox #trans man #trans men #transmasc #transmasculine #androgyny #androgynous #trans pride #pride #trans positivity

[neuroticboyfriend]

Pain scales in case it helps

oh that is helpful ! even tho i already submitted it im keeping these, especially the 2nd one that's really helpful

#asks #yaybox #moots #chronic pain

[intersexfairy]

Last ask sent before I could type but my kitty buddy Cosmo sends you love and healing purrs!

I LOVE COZMO... give pets for me!!! xant get uo to pet my kirty rn.... i lobe cats.... cats ar e besf...

#asks #yaybox #cats #drunk posting #posting under the influence

[intersexfairy]

hi i am also intersex and both transmasc and transfemme. and that experience has felt very isolating. so seeing you Also being that ??????? and just having another person exist to the same degree i do feels. really good. thank you for existing lmaoo ♥️

omg yay!! thank you for existing too, i really don't see many other people who are both. we are so epic though. i love our transness and intersexness <3

#asks #interasks #yaybox #intersex #transmasc #transfem #transmascfem #transfemmasc #transfemasc #trans

[neuroticboyfriend]

On the subject of the teeth thing, imo people's "that could NEVER happen to me, I'd never let it get THAT bad" reaction, I think people don't realize that it can kinda sneak up even when it hadn't really been an issue before.

Like I ended up catching myself before it could cause me problems, but I thought I'd never have a problem like that, until I hit a bad streak of a few nights where I stayed up really late as an anxiety control mitigation thing with some depression swirled in and my little compromise to myself when I got freaked out about how late it was was that I'd "go right to bed right now" (without brushing my teeth) and I did that for about a week before was able to reign my brain in a little bit

And like I know it's not the same and I'll fully admit that, but it really did kind of force me to stop and realize that "actually, yes, that could very easily be you too in the right set of circumstances." All It Takes Is One Bad Day and all that.

(Sorry for the mini TedTalk, thank you for coming lol)

(but FR, your blog seems so genuinely compassionate, I really do have to commend you for your content! <3 <3 <3)

you're right -- that's a larger theme with disability & ableism as a whole. ableist people often see themselves as separate from disabled people (or other disabled people, in the case of ableist disabled people), as if there's something unique and inherent about people that justifies their bigotry. but in reality, anyone can become disabled, and even if they couldn't, the disability naturally comes on in a variety of ways.

also, thank you for the compliment <3 it makes me happy to know my compassion is seen.

#asks #anon #yaybox #disabled #disability #ableism #sanism