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https://archiveofourown.org/works/39104607/chapters/97825659

Been a while! I finally wrote that really sad fic based on the prompt I posted in January! It’s pinned if you wanna read the prompt

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I was late this morning bc I woke up to my first alarm at 6:45 and fell back asleep, waiting for my 7:00 alarm. But I started dreaming, and the whole dream was that the new meme was just mayonnaise. And they were really fucking funny too but even my alarm tones turned into funny things about mayonnaise and in my dream I was thinking like, oh when it’s time to wake up to my 7:00 I gotta tell everyone about these fucken Mayo memes! And then it was 8:15 and I jolted awake and realized I had been dreaming and mayonnaise had made me late to work.

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okay so i know you’re not supposed to talk about what you’re writing or youll lose passion for it, but this story is killing me. it hurts so bad oh my god. it’ll be okay though but holy shit. 

#s and d tier #lighthouseraiders #fanfic #Alex and Morgan

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Not telling people about what I’m writing is so hard. I know if I tell people I’ll feel too much pressure and I won’t be able to finish it, but oh, how badly I just want everyone to know…

#s and d tier #writing #fanfic

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im afraid i may be going insane.

i am excited about my latest project tho

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you ever write a letter to someone that is deeply personal and emotional and very important, and you feel so conflicted on whether to give it to them, but at the same time you just want to read it to anyone who will listen but also it’s deeply personal and you’re not willing to be that vulnerable 

but it’s just such a cathartic piece of writing expressing emotions you’ve been blocking out for years that it feels like everyone needs to know

but you know it wouldn’t hit them as hard as it’s hitting you anyway and when they didn’t react the way you did to your writing you’d feel rejected and stupid and suddenly the letter would become one of the many things you’ve written and the started hating and you can’t help but cringe every time you read it bc all you can think about is that time you shared wayy too much with someone who didn’t actually care about it and probably thought it was weird but you made them feel like they had to read it so they did and it made them uncomfortable? 

and so it makes you sick to think of anyone reading it but you also just feel the immense urge to tell everyone even though you know how it will end. in tears and self-hatred. and you’ll remember you’re just an over-dramatic attention-seeker with one friend and a fucked up sense of reality and a deep-seated fear of being perceived for all that you know you really are because the inside is so much more twisted than anyone will ever be able to untangle and understand and you’re drowning in it.

yeah, me neither.

#fuckedup #depression

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I depressed myself by writing this. I have now lost what little hope I had left and all motivation to do the things I love. This post reminded me just how much I hate living.

TW: sad(in case you’re not up for it)- S&D Tier

20 January 2022… 2:33AM

Let’s be real: Morgan is mortal, their mind and body are naturally set up to expire at some point. Morgan and Alex are canonically the same age, so Alex is a very young immortal being and has yet to fully grasp the knowledge that the people around them will all be gone and replaced. Right now that doesn’t matter to them: why would it? Especially as a supervillain.

I think we all know Alex doesn’t intend to let Morgan ever die. Morgan is the only person they really care about and their love for them(whether you perceive it as platonic or romantic) is deep and true and undying. And they’ve made it clear in multiple episodes, that they intend to keep them alive. Now let’s say Morgan doesn’t mind— they love Alex too. Just as much as Alex loves them. They want to stay alive and be with Alex; but regardless of Alex’s ability to keep them physically alive, Morgan’s mind would grow wary of living with no end in sight much more quickly than Alex’s. Their body would have expected to have taken the eternal nap long ago as well— even with Alex’s power keeping it physically alive and well… evolution set Morgan’s body up for a maximum on 120 years. I imagine the conflict might cause psychosomatic aching in their bones. Their youth may stay on the outside, but the inside would stop matching. Alex wouldn’t understand this feeling; they are naturally immortal after all, so this conflict between mind and body doesn’t arise in their case.

When Morgan begins to withdraw it’s not because they don’t love Alex. And they are afraid to admit for a long time how tired they are of making friends every generation and losing them. Alex was sad to see those friends go, but Morgan was always the only one who mattered— Morgan was the first one who mattered.

But what happens when Morgan can’t pretend anymore?

…..

I just made myself cry

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I do intend to write this eventually, I’ll repost with the link when I do, no idea when that would be tho. If you want to bounce a fic off this is don’t mind. Please tag me though, I’m here and @nickelodeon0973 on wattpad and ao3

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it’s okay i figured out how to make it so I could use the drive thru 

Wish me luck I have to go to the bank and usually it’s not a big deal but today I have something I have to go in for and I’m so scared I wrote it all down so the teller can just read it, I can already feel my ability to speak dissipating.

I’m afraid they’ll think I’m being rude by not talking and just walking up and handing them a sticky note.

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Wish me luck I have to go to the bank and usually it’s not a big deal but today I have something I have to go in for and I’m so scared I wrote it all down so the teller can just read it, I can already feel my ability to speak dissipating.

I’m afraid they’ll think I’m being rude by not talking and just walking up and handing them a sticky note.

#help I’m 20 #autism #adult autism #nonverbal #I’ve only been inside a bank twice since I’ve been tall enough to see over the counter

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TW: sad(in case you’re not up for it)- S&D Tier

20 January 2022… 2:33AM

Let’s be real: Morgan is mortal, their mind and body are naturally set up to expire at some point. Morgan and Alex are canonically the same age, so Alex is a very young immortal being and has yet to fully grasp the knowledge that the people around them will all be gone and replaced. Right now that doesn’t matter to them: why would it? Especially as a supervillain.

I think we all know Alex doesn’t intend to let Morgan ever die. Morgan is the only person they really care about and their love for them(whether you perceive it as platonic or romantic) is deep and true and undying. And they’ve made it clear in multiple episodes, that they intend to keep them alive. Now let’s say Morgan doesn’t mind— they love Alex too. Just as much as Alex loves them. They want to stay alive and be with Alex; but regardless of Alex’s ability to keep them physically alive, Morgan’s mind would grow wary of living with no end in sight much more quickly than Alex’s. Their body would have expected to have taken the eternal nap long ago as well— even with Alex’s power keeping it physically alive and well… evolution set Morgan’s body up for a maximum on 120 years. I imagine the conflict might cause psychosomatic aching in their bones. Their youth may stay on the outside, but the inside would stop matching. Alex wouldn’t understand this feeling; they are naturally immortal after all, so this conflict between mind and body doesn’t arise in their case.

When Morgan begins to withdraw it’s not because they don’t love Alex. And they are afraid to admit for a long time how tired they are of making friends every generation and losing them. Alex was sad to see those friends go, but Morgan was always the only one who mattered— Morgan was the first one who mattered.

But what happens when Morgan can’t pretend anymore?

…..

I just made myself cry

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I do intend to write this eventually, I’ll repost with the link when I do, no idea when that would be tho. If you want to bounce a fic off this is don’t mind. Please tag me though, I’m here and @nickelodeon0973 on wattpad and ao3

#s and d tier #s&d tier #lighthouseraiders #so many tears #fanfic #alex and morgan #this came to me at 2am

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thank you for your service OP

A Million Miles Away, Right Beside Me- Prologue

It Started with a Bang

An S & D Tier Fanfic

Morgan had known who his soulmate was for a long time. It was kind of hard not to, when he saw his soulmark emblazoned across the news at least once a week.

“S.” Villain, to top all villains. Required the entire League of Heroic Good to even attempt to take him down. The few times they had succeeded, it was only a short amount of time before he was able to escape confinement to enact his reign of terror once again. So overpowered that he was the only villain currently classed as an “S-tier.” And there, emblazoned across the chest of his costume, was Morgan’s soulmark.

Well, their soulmark, he supposed. It matched too perfectly to be just coincidence. A dark planet, surrounded by stars, and two golden glowing slit pupiled eyes staring out from the planet. A bit ominous for a soulmark, which is probably why no one ever thought to imagine that same symbol was on Morgan’s chest, right over his heart. The few people who had caught glimpses of it had all thought it was just a tattoo, an aspiring villain admiring the greatest villain the modern age had ever seen.

Oh yes, Morgan was a villain. Well, trying to be a villain. Hard to say when he had made that choice. When he was a child and bullied for the weak power he had developed? In college, when he and his few friends had chainsmokers in dingy bars and wrote slam poetry about fighting the man? Morgan knew. He knew it was the first time he had seen his soulmark on something other than his own chest and he so desperately wanted to impress the person who shined like he was the only star in a pitch black sky. But here was Morgan. Never a complete failure, but certainly not a protege. He watched from afar as his soulmate held nations hostage. Meanwhile, his most impressive feat to date was robbing a bank. Hell, most of the time they didn’t call on heroes to deal with Morgan, and just sent the police instead. He’d only recently been bumped up to a D tier villain because his villain name was on the deeds to his properties he leased. He wasn’t even that bad a landlord! Just average.

Morgan’s thoughts remained morose as he laid on the couch and took another swig of beer. He knew he was never going to amount to anything special. He wasn’t going to become some feared super villain. Maybe just a feared landlord. And he never, ever, was going to be able to meet his soulmate.

And it was around the time that Morgan was thinking this that there was a flash of light, a loud cracking boom, and his soulmate appeared, collapsing onto his carpet in a pile of sweat and blood.

I know it's quite short, but wanted to get the prologue out inn time to meet the deadline. Will be continuing this soon. Working on figuring outa rotating update schedule.

Taglist- @anxietyplusultra

#s and d tier #s&d tier #lighthouseraiders #fanfic

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thank you so much for this. if you have more i would like to see it please! 

There's been this original Tiktok series I've been into recently so I decided to write fan-fiction for it. Go check it out.

Prolonged Love

They signed the next paper, forging Morgan’s signature. They didn’t know why they didn’t do it themselves but they’d always hated paper work. Too reminiscent of office jobs. Alex didn’t particularly care for them but it was a rhythmic job. Also, they were happy to help their favourite person.

A smile spread across their face thinking about Morgan. Such a lovely person. Taking the newly signed paper off of the stack of unsigned papers Alex started reading over the next one.

Oh? This was, interesting. It was a... wedding certificate? Already signed by Morgan. They read it over, and then read it over again. Not quite believing their eyes.

#s&d tier #s and d tier #lighthouseraiders #fanfic

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I went looking on spotify and look what i found! haven’t heard it yet but abt to start-- just found it

in case anyone was interested

#s and d tier #s&d tier #lighthouseraiders #fandomshit #tiktok series #spotify #fandom playlist

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i swear most people ‘round these parts don’t know what earbuds do. i wear the ones with a cord largely so it will be obvious I cannot and do not want to hear other people. how am i to write fanfiction under these conditions!!

#help #send help #s and d tier #my focus pill ain't working

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tumblr is like youtube used to be. suggests the weird but intriguing shit and next thing you know you’re four hours in and deeply invested. beware lmao

I made a Tumblr thinking it will be all about pretty pictures and fanart and all that BUT NOOO I entered a rabbit hole that sent me to ebby deeby and a horse pinko????? I'm sacred

#tumblr is a dumpster fire

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fic concept

i think i wanna write a fic where alex has to go away for a while and he’s nervous morgan won’t be there when they get back bc they’ve become such a target for vigilante and hero violence due to the public figuring out they’re alex’s friend. so they decide to give morgan a good power to defend and disguise themself. and morgan has mixed feelings abt it bc they feel like it’s just kinda too much but also they like having enhanced powers so they don’t always have to rely on alex to keep them alive-- makes them feel less helpless. would anyone read that? will take some time to get started though bc of all the demands for hostage negotiations and I have limited writing skills but I want this to exist so bad and i love writing soooo

Edit(19 Jan): today i saw lighthouseraiders answer someone’s comment asking if that could be a thing for Alex to decide to give Morgan more powers if they wanted to and they said yes. Which is so coll bc I wanted to write something like this and now i also have that validation. thank you very much

#s and d tier #alex and morgan #lighthouseraiders #fanfic #headcanon