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I'm being so real with you all, stop trying to appeal to fakeclaimers.

I am diagnosed with DID, in treatment, have an extremely covert presentation, and pretty much ONLY talk about having DID online. I got the trauma to show for it, which I've been open about before, and I'm heading for final fusion. I don't get mad when people fakeclaim me and just shrug it off bc I know I'm not.

I still get fakeclaimed.

You're never gonna win. You're always gonna be faking in their eyes, whether you are or aren't. No matter how many qualifications you have, they will never believe you.

So just stop trying. Be yourself, be weird about it.

#I couldn't have put it any better #fakeclaiming #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder

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hehehe i hate nazis

you punch nazis!

(requested by anonymous)

#anti nazi #i think i just gave the alt right anxiety

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just left a toxic environment forever today. i struggled with leaving it many times, would leave and come back, would be easily guilt tripped into staying, just to get hurt, excluded, gossipped about, and have my mental health get worse especially my low self-esteem, self hate and trust issues. it took every bit of strength in me to leave.

now that i have, i feel free. like i can finally work toward healing again.

#life update #im proud of myself #my avpd and dpd make it hard for me to leave toxic situations so be proud too guys

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that npd moment when your "friend" says your their number one best friend just to leave you out of their posts, activities and never talks to you unless they need something, and you feel worthless and like nobody cares about you. just because of one rejection.

#actually npd #npd culture is #npd #cluster b

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#anti radqueer #anti transid

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The radqueer fandom is dying. Reblog to making die faster :3

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same here!

Happily 💜

- Roman B

#anti endo #endos fuck off #endos dni #dissociative identity disorder

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self-proclaimed empaths will praise each other for actively stigmatising NPD and talking about all the ways they advise others to kill and abuse narcissists, whilst calling themselves survivors.

but if someone with NPD was to say that shit about them they’d say it was because we’re evil and abusive.

your ableism disgusts me.

#clusterb #actually npd #this exactly

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EXACTLY houses aren't hotel lobbies or a small town Target lmao

I hate the “open floor plan” that everyone is obsessed with in houses now. I want nooks and crannies and bizarre floor plans. I don’t need to be able to see what someone is doing on the other side of the house. I want places to hide and lurk and dwell in the shadows. I am the beast who awaits in the labyrinth

#stop renovating old weird houses into white hotel lobbies for gods sake

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i just got reblogged by a proshipper who (probably pro endo) corrected me by saying the same pro endo bullshit about "theres people who are aware their integrated self states and writers interacting with their characters" something else and that im generalizing these people by calling them endos. i was NOT generalizing. i know not all people who nickname their "work me home me" states and interact with their own characters while writing are endos. im saying a lot of ex-endos did this. (trigger warning) and being reblogged by a proshipper (who supports cnc and rape fantasies or reading about them or whatever) gives me the ick. being "corrected" in that reblog only intensifies the ick.

for reference, heres their top posts:

okay as a csa and rape survivor, the first one just pisses me off. yes, theres survivors with cnc and rape kinks because of the trauma. i know making stories about it gets off steam from the trauma. but theres also people without sexual trauma who have these same kinks, and those people should be ashamed. im not kink shaming, we have trauma holders and sexual protectors, among others, with kinks we're not kink shaming. we just dont like seeing sexual abuse and rape being glorified and if people want to make vent fiction or whatever to get off the tension from trauma, they can but dont make content fetishizing cnc, rape, and sexual abuse.

id just block this person, proship is dangerous to csa survivors and incest survivors (we're both) and while we're okay with vent fiction we're not okay with the glorification of cnc, rape, sexual abuse and incest. idk if thats what theyre for, i didnt want to look for mental health reasons. just... block proshippers, pro endos and radqueers.

#syscourse #anti proship #anti map #anti endo #endos fuck off

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theres a transramcoa blog. that calls themself transramcoa. blatantly. please block and report them. heres their profile:

transramcoa is a transid identity when a person wants to be a ramcoa survivor. they feel like it was meant to happen to them. abuse, especially such complex and degrading abuse like ramcoa aren't meant to happen to anyone and nobodys meant to be abused. it is not a destiny. it is not a missed opportunity. it is a terrifying experience that makes you wonder if it even happened and ruins your mental health for life starting as a young child. ramcoa is already stereotyped and seen as fake. this doesnt help. ramcoa is not quirky or a trend. its a very real form of abuse and abuse is never quirky or a trend. from a ramcoa survivor.

#ramcoa #anti radqueer #anti transid #actually dissociative #i gotta pee so bad i probably didnt explain myself that good and elaborate

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radqueers actually admit it. they support faking disorders.

studying a disorder enough to convincingly fake it is wrong and damages the perceived credibility of real people with disorders. now fdc and systemscringe have more things to use against us. its ableist to fake disorders and have the opinion this person does.

#actually dissociative #actually did #actually mentally ill #anti radqueer #anti transid

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A rant, which I typically don’t do.

You are NOT “transabled”. You are not “transid” or “transx” or whatever. YOU ARE AN ATTENTION SEEKER.

There are REAL people with REAL disabilities that struggle daily with ableism and depression because of their REAL disability, not the fake “UwU I’m so cute and silly! I have transautism transadhd transdepression transosdd transdid transfreckles transthisandthat!”

I get it-you want to feel like part of a group. You want attention, you want friends. But minimizing the struggles of real disabled people, or saying you have whatever when you DON'T is not the way to do it. Essentially, you’re just being ableist.

Tldr: Get off the internet, you’re not disabled.

Also, I HAVE autism, and I, a “cisautistic” person, find it absolutely horrific that people WANT to have autism. Sure, it may give me “superpowers”, but often, it just makes life harder. Disabilities MAKE LIFE HARDER. Be thankful that you have a body that works in the way it should, and a brain that makes life easier, not harder.

#actually dissociative #actually autistic #anti radqueer #anti transid

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gonna just put this here for everyone to know- DID develops from trauma only. it doesnt even have to be abuse. just trauma. dont believe the endos and pro endos who say because a factor in developing DID is a genetic ability to dissociate means DID can develop without trauma. dont let them call you science deniers. they twist science and even make it up on the spot. are you a system? you have trauma and you're valid. DID can only develop from early childhood trauma.

#actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #osddid #anti endo #endos dni #endos fuck off #i gotta pee so bad

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I think for a while I thought, if I REALLY had DID, I would be so much better at … everything, right?

I’d handle conflict perfectly and resolve conflict and never lose any friends.

I’d handle emergencies perfectly. I’d never freeze up.

I’d always do the hard self-care things when life got dire.

I’d never have a panic attack during an exam.

I’d never shut down because someone yelled.

I’d always make the right choice, do the right thing, make everyone happy, take care of myself.

It took until now to realize that you don’t end up with the alters who flawlessly handled every single possible situation.

You end up with the alters who successfully kept you alive.

Please … Thank them for that.

#actually did #actually dissociative #osddid #sysblr #dissociative identity disorder #did system #actually osdd

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It's not wrong to do stuff solely for attention. Being an attention seeker isn't a problem. If someone does something bad for attention, it's because they haven't been given enough.

When someone does something for attention, and you intentionally ignore them, you're just being cruel.

"they just want attention" THEN STOP NEGLECTING THEM!!!

#Npd #narcissistic personality disorder #Npd safe #Npd hot takes #Unpopular opinion #Cluster b #relatable

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people would be more connected if social media was actually social and less media. people dont care about anyone else anymore. they js use social media to get attention. they post pictures and make fake lives and fake stories for fake fame. social media could have united people and made the world better but its being used to isolate people and ruin mental health. if social media just had messaging and text posting features only no photos or videos people would be happier and social media would really be social media bringing everyone together. right now its just like another hollywood. when it was meant for connection not entertainment.

im not a luddite, im anti luddite anti technophobes i love technology especially the internet dw this is just a fact on how we can improve technology

#mental health #how to improve social media