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Going thru 4-5 minor health issues again, this period 🤦‍♂️

Got sick out of blue, injured muscle tissue, old injuries popping back, acne-ish shit poppin’, all im gonna say is, whether there’s a series of unfortunate events of infections running around (actually there is, i think, many friends got sick too) 😅 ~ or in the slightest case of someone wishing random shit on me, well, I gotta stop being so peace oriented, FUCK YOU, and get 20x worse, mumbo jumbo voodoo spell bad energy wishing sons of bitches.

If it’s only coincidence, well, fuck infections too, getting my vitamins, bending it over and fucking its ass.

I feel more aggressive towards life lately, like who I was before. This is the positive outcome these above conditions couldn’t have guessed, i guess, lol, so thank you, universe🖕🏼

#personal

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Door Handle Carnsorepoint

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My mother raised me a God (Hey)

(Fuck you)

A goddess told me "good morning" when I woke up

(Fuck you)

You know I had a good morning when I woke up

(Fuck you)

Gotta thank God every morning then I woke up

(Fuck you)

Would you remember me if I never woke up?

Bye bye (Fuck you)

I am a sinner, I'm just tryna sin

Warm in the winter, and I'll be on my way

I'm just a drifter, in endless seas of whispers

I just need some shelter, give me shelter from the wind

#personal #mac miller #perfect circle #perfect circle / God speed #god speed #lyrics #spotify

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"Relationships are about compromise, deciding how best to make all people in the relationship as happy as possible.

But I see more and more people talking as though that isn't a thing. It's much more egocentric and people should accept me and my way of doing things 100% completely or they're toxic and not worth your time."

[https://www.reddit.com/r/unpopularopinion/s/e1FszcJDFo]

#reddit #thoughts #personal

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Mac Miller is such a versatile and complete vibe.

At times you vibe through its dark side, then you hope for the brightness in his other songs.

Just like life.

Such a vibe.

#personal #ros #mac miller #Spotify

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I just gotta keep my foot on the ground and stop romanticising life.

#personal

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#personal #frank ocean #self control #mood

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How living feels like lately

Taysir Batniji: Suspended Time (2007)

#on pause #personal

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It’s the times like these I realize, I’m brutally, and really, all alone. Sharing my fears with a fucking internet journal. What a life to preserve, anyway. Ffs

#personal

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I’m having a minor health problem that is an odd and first time happening to me.

In constant pain with my stomach for about a week.

Finally booked an appointment for today and was perscribed ultrasounds, will see how it goes, hopefully nothing so major, but thinking my family’s history with cancer and tumors, losing 2 uncles one at 33 one at 45 ~ I am a bit afraid of this being something serious too.

And first time in a long time, I admit to myself feeling a bit alert and… maybe a bit afraid?

I am trying to think positive that this shit is something not so serious but if this is this how I go, then, well, fuck.

#personal

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Trying to build something that is real; like anything else in life, reality has its ugly and “brutally real” sides. There are ugly feelings we all have here and there, and type of things that triggers our insecurities, projections, traumas etc depending on the person.

And its all good, that’s what makes us human. Personally I am in peace with who I am, in a sense of “needing constant improvement”, have my own share of issues too but I’m never denying that I have those issues and never actually stop working to better myself, for myself too at first. I am not in denial that I do too have human feelings that are provocative to mind, ugly and real. I am working on them. I am willing to work on them and put actual effort too.

Hiding behind the “This is who I am, take it or leave it” approach would only get a shittier person to take it. Or someone below your mind level cause this is not mutual, in a sense, this is settling down for less and only desparation can take someone there.

I am not desparate. It’s not ego talking either, cause the sense not desparate for me is not about finding whoever but being ok to die alone. And not dramatically or whatever but I actually made peace with this idea.

I would have solitude over something I settle for less, any day of the week. And I won’t feel sorry for it.

I am however sorry about my edgy ways, open to misunderstandings and sounding harsher than I sometimes think it is. What I don’t like is hurting people cause I have been feeling ‘hurt’, even if this whole hurt thing is a very small thing.

I need to change my ways in sense of choice of behavior and not the mentality of it.

#personal

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Along the way life goes by reminding myself to “take it easy”

#personal

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Undivided attention can easily be divided if common denominators are non existent. Just saying.

#personal

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How fast things can change

#art #personal

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#personal #suffocator #Spotify

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Don't get any big ideas

They're not gonna happen

You paint yourself white

And fill up with noise

But there'll be something missing

Now that you found it

It's gone

Now that you feel it

You don't

You've gone off the rails

So don't get any big ideas

They're not gonna happen

#radiohead #nude #personal #feels #rainy day #Spotify