i havent been on in a while things have been really fucking difficult in life and id like to put on a happy face and pretend that things are okay but hell no theyre not so just letting anyone who cares know although i doubt anyone does you probably see some of my stuff on your dash and like or repost it and thats that doesnt matter who posted it. im no one. even here. so just letting you know. im still here. if that matters?
sry but depression for me isn’t smudged mascara and crying into a boy’s chest and acting romantic and reckless, it’s honestly just staring at the wall and not showering for days and not going out with friends and feeling so fucking disconnected from everything that i can barely breathe. it’s not pretty. it doesn’t have to be pretty. fuck you for trying to make a mental illness aesthetically pleasing, like it’s something i should be proud of.
does anyone else constantly get the feeling that you’re running out of time?? and for no reason!! i could be lying in bed in the middle of summer vacation and my mind is like “hurry up!!! before it’s too late!!!” and i’m just like “hurry up and do what?? leave me alone wtf!!!”