biddyfox

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why dont you make art anymore?

got too high

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They say i got brains but they aint doin me no good

#twilight sparkle #mlp #my little pony friendship is magic #mlp fim #fim #anthro

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server room

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Doing This Shit Up Jesus Christ / Knuckles Style... Happy Easter

#sacrilege #pooltoy #self #sfw furry #ken penders

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no delineation from the voices in the air

#plush furry #plushie #sad #furry sfw #self

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Ramblings Reuploaded #2

My Trans story so far (2024)

Hoi there, and happy trans day of visibility. I can't possibly be more vissible then this right? I had to share my story with someone a few months back when i came out to them, and ever since then i had the idea of making it my next post in this inconsistent and confusing series.

I say series because this is part two. Here's part 1 on...sonic cd. yup.

So the format is simple. I take something i already typed and try to make it more legible for a blog type racket. No reason not to get right into it. Beware of typos, and transphobes begone!

I'm a kid in a barber shop. My grandpa is talking up a storm to some random clerk. I'm extremely bored. There are some toys though. Poly pocket. I never seen these before. These are so cool. I wish i had one of these but they don't make boy versions right?

Some time in 2022, I was at work dealing with closing cleaning type things which let my mind wander. I started thinking about a fairly innocuous interaction I had in FFXIV no earlier then 2021. The race I wanted to play was gender locked so I was playing as a female character. Two players starting joking around with me and the whole time they used fem pronouns for me. I didn't think too much about it back then but on that day in late 2022 it made me question why I was so ok with that use of language towards me

That was the day my egg cracked.

I spent the rest of 2022 trying desperately to figure out what my relationship to gender was. Just what the heck was I and did that even mean anything? Maybe I was gender fluid. It was hard to feel fem at work. Or oh! Maybe i'm just a drag queen in the making. But why did I not want that to be true and did that mean anything? Well clearly i wasn't actually trans right? Nevermind that gender fluid was trans. I thought maybe that I only felt that way because I was playing a character. So I made up my mind. In 2023, at the start of a new year I would begin to experiment.

It's around the era of the nintendo wii and something is bothering me feircly. I spent days on my gamecube on my tiny crt and realized I was picking princess peach a lot on my precious 'cube. I confide in my friend that I really must have a crush on her. When pressed I can't say why. I'm so glad he doesn't embarss me for my stupid feelings. It was a little weird I didn't like her as much in that one game though. Not my fault she just looked better in a dress.

I stopped cutting my hair and started trimming my beard and prized mustache so I was always smooth and baby faced. Anyone who asked I simply told them that it was a new year and a new me. Except for my friends who were the first to know.

My imposter syndrome was HIGH. And it remaind so for a long time. so afraid was I that I was actually, secretly, a fake trans. I had no evidence for this except piss poor self confidence. I only talked myself out of it much later with the idea that "Being trans and just really thinking you're trans is functionally the same so it doesn't mater if i'm 'fake' "

Unfortunately, my friend group wasn't doing a lot of online gaming at the time. I got a little desperate to see if my new pronouns fit. To my shame I basically asked one of them to contrive reasons to put pronouns into a sentence so they had reasons to use my new ones. They did not oblige.

Another pokemon game for my precious nintendo 3ds. I pick the girl because clearly they'll have better fashion options. I had just learned my lesson from Pokemon Y. No other reason. A few other simular things. I pick up megaman zx for the first time and choose the girl because, obviously, only female megaman.

I got a break when I was invited to a short lived DND group. I started hanging out with a separate friend group I was already beginning to know before gender stuff started. With ample chances to try my gender out I realized that something felt right.

So I went deeper. I remember wandering around a good will trying not to draw ire or eyes as I went and both tried on a dress and managed to bring it home. The few times I wore it felt great. Would feel much better if it actually fit.

It's my childhood again and i'm sat in front of the ps1 with my little brother. Namco museum only had one true co-op game. Toy Pop. I pick the girl so he won't have to.

In days to come I kept experimenting. I started to realize all the small signs. You already know many of them. I've peppered them througout my story. Unbeknownst to me I had already started to experiment with gender. Awhile ago I, once again trying not to get attention, bought some thigh highs from a party store. I really enjoyed wearing those. Everyone except for me knew I was trans before me, including me.

When I was dead certain on my path I set up an appointment with planned parenthood. I told my grandparents I was simply heading to Dave and busters which was technically not untrue. I began my medical transition but I was also urged to come out to people. I couldn't live in the closet forever. So I did so with my very obviously gay manager… And it went nothing like I expected. It went well, but not how I thought. I ended up coming out to the whole work force as well.

The right wing had tricked me into thinking any "regular" person would react with shock and confusion on a reveal of my new gender identity. All the media I consumed had colaborated this.

I'm just entering furry twitter when I see quite a few posts of male characters in dresses, usuasly of the maid variety. How cute, i think. I'm allowed to do this one because it's a shared joke. So i draw the one dress.

And then a few more.

"I wish I could look as good as my characters do right now"

Eventually I managed to come out to my grandparents. They were confused but attempting to be accepting. Things have mostly been rocky in the sense that they haven't made any effort to treat me the way I ask, but they don't deny me. The parents who raised me are forbidden to know their daughter.

I even came out to my astranged mother. (seperate from my step mother mention a second ago). When I was in highschool she moved back in town and we started to rekindled our relationship. Being the first to know I was ace, it was a shock when she became a born again christian. I thought she'd never accept me and I was almost right. Behind closed doors she tells my younger sister to not refer to me by my pronouns, or so i'm told.

After I was out for awhile something weird happened and I stopped.. Policing my own behavior. How I held myself. The words I used. I was my own women. I didn't need to fit into a box. The more I went on the more free I felt!

I started holding my hands in gay little ways. I crossed my legs. I walked however the hell I wanted. I used 'hon' whenever i felt like it. I wore this cute little collar I owned out to my weekly dnd meetings. Who cares. I'm me now. This cat can't be boxed.

The longer I've been on this journey the more I felt right. And here we are now. A two year or more journey still ongoing

It's 2023 and i'm attempting to put on eyeliner for the first time. It goes horribly. I laugh, inform my friends of my mistake, and we play games through the night. I wear my favorite of the two dresses. I ask them if it's ok to do so. They laugh. What and absurd thing to ask. Why would a woman not be allowed to wear a dress?

I would like to thank a huge number of people for their help in my journey but my brain is mush so i'll try to get as many as I can

@tuttifruttifox my ex who's been supportive of my journey and put up with my experimentation @biddyfox girl you are my sister and I couldn't have done this without you. Thank you so much for everything. @bigbadkingboomboo for casually replying to my nervous bullshit with "ma'am this is mcdonalds" which was simultaneously very funny and very affirming.

@cynical-cy for being you. Honestly just being a out trans woman who's art I happened to enjoy did wonders I think. Sorry to tag you. I know we're not really friends.

Honorable mentions to my friend xio. he doesn't do twitter, but He's been my best friend through everything and his support is invaluable to me. I love you buddy.

if you think you should be on this list too, let me know and i'll add you cause honestly it takes a village to raise a catgirl.

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silver the hedgehog at his first day of college

#silver the hedgehog #sonic

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nanachi sketches

#nanachi #made in abyss

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fursona drawover

#furry #datamoshing #self

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I just wanted to let you kow I checked out a litte bit of your bandcamp the other day, & i think you're really talented, and I think Crystal Sand sounds really nice & i've had it stuck in my head everytime i feel cold wind since.

@jackymcstone you fucking did it homie

#jacky wrote that song LOL #i am glad you enjoy it though

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calling a work of fiction "saccharine and masturbatory" to indicate that it is awesome. just like sugar and cranking off

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hey it's me

[biddyfox]

hihi! 2.0

hey everyone,

i'm still embedded in a rough situation and it's worsening by the day, and to a degree i am genuinely afraid of my parents.

i need to get out, as soon as i am able to do it.

here is the link: https://gofundme.muu.gay/

for the sake of transparency all money goes towards the following:

-rent while i find whatever job i can get my hands on

(if you are in pdx and have a bedroom or couch available for rent, please feel free to reach out)

-food, while i try to get back on ebt

-shipping costs for important items

-uber to airport and one-way plane ticket

if you can't donate, sharing helps immensely thank you for reading, have a wonderful day

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Welcome! yip~ Are you interested in some art from me? I'm glad to draw for you as long as you have the tasty greens~

Commissions are OPEN! You can either contact me through DMs or fill this request form

You can find my past commission work (such as the art in the video) on the #commission art tag and all of my art in #bowties art

(check original post for current status, queue in tags)

Q: Is that really your only price point?

Yip yup! I don’t offer clean sketches, lineart, flat colors or stuff, only full renders. This was a decision made based on observing other artist friends experiences and my own work process

Regardless of character quantity, background, full body or bust, I always end up getting the piece done in a afternoon. there is a point where this is no longer true (don’t expect me to draw you a 20+ page comic for that price), I will tell you if that’s the case

Too much? The fees are only getting bigger for me!

Too little? Well, if you can afford to pay me what you think my art is worth, then I'll reiterate that tips are always appreciated :>

Q: How much comic can I get for that price?

4-6 panels either spread through 1 or 2 pages, based on how I structure it, ideally your story idea should be like, fit for a strip, a small snipet of your skrunklys

Q: What does the "reserved" tag next to queue (check original post)

"reserved" are for commissions that have been paid for, but whose client is still sorting out all the details, like waiting for a ref to be finished.

I made these comms a separate counter as a way to give people a better idea of how long they'd be waiting before I got to their commission

feel free to ask any more questions

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might print some of my old comics as zines

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Werecat (2023)