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Sorry you’re having a hard time. Hopefully this helps a little

thank you~

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When you feel you have lost everything, you still have

books

unexpected kindness in strangers

the rest of the world to travel

languages to learn

animals to take care of

volunteer work to do

the power of a good night’s rest

the changing of seasons

infinite things to learn

billions of people to meet and possibly love

billions of people who might love you back

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TW mention of suicidal thoughts

Today I woke up at 4am only to be crushed by awful suicidal thoughts and anxiety, I honestly thought I was gonna die. And here I am, in my online classes, drinking coffee and listening to loona!! Apparently everything turns out okay after some time?? Honestly, I'm scared of being happy and feeling positive because something bad always happens after that. And then another bad thing happens, and another, aaand another.. So I often feel like I'm causing those bad things with my happiness and it almost feels like universe hates me. So every time I'm happy and having a good time, I'm always scared something bad will happen after it. I always try to find some good things in something bad, for example: I'm at home with my parents because my bpd got really bad and I couldn't be alone and now I miss my girlfriend, but I have my cats here and I'll see my gf in a few days!! Of course it's incredibly hard to focus on good things when something bad is happening, but it's not impossible. I'm really happy when I manage to think about nice stuff and look forward to future because I wasn't able to do that in the past, so that means progress!

#bpd #bpd feelings #bpd thoughts #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #bpd problems #bpd recovery #bpd rant

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This blog supports people with BPD, NPD, ASPD, and other stigmatized personality disorders.

If I do anything that sees to show otherwise, please do tell me.

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hello ig

I made this so I could deal with my bpd without oversharing to my gf and friends, so yeah, I’ll overshare and vent to strangers online!! I’m Max, I’m 18 and I’ve been dealing with this since I was 13 I think. I also suffer from ocd, ed and dysphoria so there’s a trigger warning for that! I have a hard time expressing my feelings and I feel like that’s one of the worst things about my bpd because I feel so misunderstood. I’m treating this tumblr like diary and a place for sharing advice/tips how to deal with it because venting on the notes app got boring lol. That’s it from me, you’ll probably hear from me again when a minor  inconvenience happens uwu 

#bpd #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd things #mental health #bpd feelings #bpd feels