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I’ve lost years to this mental illness

time I will never get back

that isn’t poetic

it’s devastating.

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Forever my favourite quote. Forever a lingering thought.

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I’m young. I’m meant to be planning how to start my life not planning how to end it.

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Everything could stop working.. this feeling I fight most every night.. I don't have to feel it. February 15th was the last time I cut but I need a distraction.. because all I can thing about is the other thing

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I want to be put in a room full of glass so I can shatter all my anger with my bare hands

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If you can see a future without me and that doesn’t break your heart then we’re not doing what I thought we were doing here.

(via broken-and-recovering)

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Dear future lover, I am weak.  A human embodiment of ‘FRAGILE - HANDLE WITH CARE’. So please do not be scared when all I can see is a black lake swallowing my brain,  My blood turning to smog, Because I will come back to you. Dear future lover,  I won’t trust you -  I can’t trust myself. How do I know that you will not drop my heart from a fourteen story building and watch as my life turns to dust? How do I know that I won’t do the same to you? Dear future lover,  I will always be sorry, For caring too much, Not enough. For being too quiet, Too embarrassed. And for saying one right word in a thousand wrong ones. Dear future lover, I am not perfect; I won’t write you songs that drip with admiration, Or remember why Wednesday is your favourite day of the week. I cannot promise that I will always be everything that you need. But I can promise you this: I will always stay, until you tell me that you can face life without me.

This world has worn me down but I am never too broken to love (via insertevenfunnierurl)

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I did something brave tonight

#text #sad #depressed #angry #frustrated #confused #lost #playing #feelings #vulnerable #sick #opened up

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someone: i love you

me internally: prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it prove it

also me internally: please dont love me i dont want to hurt you this is terrifying please dont love me

yet also me internally: good, everyone should love me. get on your fucking knees and worship the fucking ground i walk on.

somehow also me internally: THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME THEY LOVE ME!!!!!

me externally: aww i love you too!!

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