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//everyday i stare at my blog wondering if today is the day spoiler alert, it is not

#i miSS rping sm #i also miss yall #but goddamn katsuki isn't working with me #it doesnt help that my brain has been rotting over gen.s.hin #·∴∵✷ [ ooc ] #also tu.mblr keeps chanGING and i dont like it aoweinawe #im a taurus pls spare me from constant change

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Katsuki took pride in his strict routine. After all, taking care of his body by eating right and sleeping was important if he wanted to become the best hero. Because like hell he'd purposefully handicap himself like an idiot just because he didn't get proper amount of sleep. If he wanted to be the best, he'd had to always be at his best.

However, most people did not agree with his logic. Something he found out very quickly as soon as the dorms were implemented at UA. Which really just showed how fucking stupid everyone was. And, no matter how much they grew, the lot of them still made poor ass decisions as if they wouldn't regret it every morning.

Case in point. Katsuki having gotten up for just a glass of water, only to find fucking Izuku muttering away at his phone. Again.

" ...Izuku. What. The fuck. Are you doing? " The 'this late' wasn't said, but very much implied. After all, not staying up till ass o'clock was basic common sense that even babies understood.

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He'd heard about people writing stories about him and Kacchan, but this was the first time he decided to actually read one. Though Izuku was a bit embarrassed to admit it, the story was quite interesting and had become the reason his cell phone screen remained brightly lit at 2AM.

#awoeinaweae izuku honey pls #sleep #i say #as i am also currently not asleep but yknow #it's not me we are talking about here awoeinawea and katsuki can't yell at me so #roguesenses #·∴∵✷ [ ic ]

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" More like miss being a pain in my fucking ass, fucker. "

   " i do !!  i miss you sometimes,  y'know !  "

#casually answers this ages later awoeinawoein #mndfreak #·∴∵✷ [ ic ]

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@roguesenses​​

A hand quietly slipped itself around Katsuki’s.

Yes, it was Valentine’s Day, but they were right in the middle of a very public street and were supposed to be chasing down a villain. This was neither the time nor the place, plus they weren’t a couple. In fact, they just became friends, sort of.

“I can explain,” Izuku said quickly - before the wrath of Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight could unleash itself upon him. “The villain just now hit me with his quirk and…uh…I have to hold hands with the first person I see, or else I start hearing this ten seconds tick down.” Guess who the lucky person he saw first was? “Apparently if the counter hits zero, I will…spontaneously combust.” Izuku laughed nervously, rubbing the back of his head with his free hand. “I mean, he could be lying, but…” Just in case, want to hold hands for a bit? It’s for survival. 

Really, Katsuki shouldn’t have been even surprised at this point. If anyone were to get themself into a fucking ridiculous as fuck situation like this — it would be Deku. It would be the fucking idiot who gets into these kind of ridiculous situations all the goddamn time, because he was too busy looking for people to save instead of looking at what’s right in front of his dumb nerd face.

“ You should have just kept your eyes closed, idiot. ” Which, really wouldn’t have resolved anything about this situation, but it would have at least made Katsuki’s life easier ( no, it wouldn’t have, because nothing to do with deku makes his life easy, and he’d have ended up needing to lead the nerd around regardless )

But, it would have been better than this. With Deku’s dumb wide eyes on him far too goddamn close because they couldn’t fucking let go of each other’s hands. “ Do you have anything helpful to say at least, shit nerd? Like how long this fucking quirk lasts or how the fuck we’re going to get anything done like THIS?! ” he roughly shakes their joined hands around to make clear what he meant, though he also purposefully tightened his grip so there was no chance of separation. And if his grip was just a bit too tight? Well, the idiot should have considered that before getting hit with such a dumbass quirk. 

#submission #awoeinawe #they finally held hands!!! #too bad it's a uh less than ideal situation #also i can't believe you send this in for valentines day and here i am answering it when it's almost apirl awoeianwe #roguesenses #·∴∵✷ [ ic ] #·∴∵✷ [ answered ]

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headcanon.

bunch of random headcanons about Katsuki and people as I am slowly crawling out of writer's block

he's never been a hugger. probably never really will be

As a kid he was very rambunctious, never stopped long enough for there to be soft contact with anyone. His family wasn’t the soft contact type of family either. And it’s never bothered him. It still doesn’t, but as he finds himself surrounded by people who are huggers, it’s something he realizes isn’t that bad. He’d never let it go on for too long ( certain circumstances aside, like after nightmares, etc ) but he isn’t so quick to completely reject it as he once was.

That being said, time and place matters.

He is, ridiculously, easily embarrassed. If you try and make a big spectacle in some crowd while hugging him, he will blast you in the face and storm away lol. You are better likely to succeed in getting a hug if no one is around

Katsuki is well, very affected by other people’s opinions

Despite how Katsuki likes to walk around with a ‘I don’t give a fuck about anyone else’ attitude, he does, very much, care. He’s trying to become better by his own standards and merits, and he’s stubborn as hell, but after growing up thriving off people’s praise, it’s hard to suddenly not be affected by what people think.

That isn’t to say he cares about everyone’s opinion’s equally, nor does he care about every opinion everyone has of him. If someone thinks he is a shit Hero, well he doesn’t care as much, because he knows just how good he is. ( his civilian interactions could use some work, but he’ll save and win in the end, so!! )

Katsuki isn’t used to getting teased. No one dared to in middle school, and friendly teasing is just so very new to him.

He is struggling to get used to it. People making fun of him in good faith was new and didn’t feel great. It felt horrible, actually, after being so used to people being so quick to sing his praise. But it was something that did help him in the long run. Got him to loosen up, become someone who can take himself a bit less seriously. Which was very much a needed change.

True friendship in general is just so new to him.

He’s clumsy with his way of showing care. Not likely to outright say it, but he’ll stay with you if you need him to. He’ll make you food if you need it. He’ll remember the random facts you tell him. He is more likely to show he cares through actions rather than words. But he also knows some things need to be said aloud. It just takes him a bit to work up to it.

One of the reasons he is so affected by other people’s opinions is because he’s trying to care

He used to genuinely not give a shit about others. He saw himself as the best, so nothing else mattered, right? Well, he knows better now. Knows that looking down on others does nothing but make him blind to reality. But well, thinking about other people is new to him. He’s likely struggling to figure out how much he should care. On the outside he’ll absolutely never (on purpose) show he cares, but internally he struggles a lot.

He was the one to point out just how bitter everyone in UA was to class 1-A during the band arc. And he noticed by paying attention to what other people are saying. I know it’s fun to pick at his habit of eavesdropping, but really it just shows that he is paying attention to other people (even extras) and listening to them.

He has a complicated relationship with praise

As I’ve said many times already, he grew up with nothing but praise. It resulted in him standing on a flimsy pedestal. And he fell from it, hard. He is not so easily accepting of praise now. Now, it’s hard to believe when people tell him he’s good at this or that, that it comes from good intentions. It feels like nothing but cheap words during the worst of times. Nothing but lies for people to say in order to get on his good side.

Or, even when he does believe in the praise, he still wants to reject it. Because even if it is true, it still feels wrong to accept, sometimes. He’s confident in his physical abilities. He knows his quirk is great and his ability to put it to use is great. But having other people point it out – he’s unable to just let himself feel good about the praise. He doesn’t want to fall into bad habits, after all

When someone does praise him, he is quick to shut it down. Verbally to others, but internally he rejects the idea and instead thinks of ways to improve instead as well. Whereas if no one says anything, he probably would have let himself bask in the feeling of accomplishment for much longer before later going over improvement plans.

But, he still wants the praise. A part of him wants that validation that he used to have so easily. Still, he won't let himself have it since he knows that it got to his head before and he refuses to become like that again

It’s not really healthy, but he’ll probably grow from this too with the continued good people he has around. He just needs to really understand that some praise towards him is good, and well deserving.

#·∴∵✷ [ HEADCANONS ] #this is barely proofread but im posting anyways aoweinaowein #please excuse any random typos

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" You really gotta show your face EVERY time, huh. "

  " KACCHAN !! "

#AWOEINAOWEINAWE #GRABS YOU #hello #pls ignore this grump #kisho is always welcomed #LOL #·∴∵✷ [ ic ] #mndfreak

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" Nah. Sounds like a real idiot. " Unforunately, Katsuki would likely not, in fact, get along with himself.

"You guys would really hit it off." Same hobbies, same habits. Also blond, sweet-smelling, and angry. In fact, it's almost as if the love of Izuku's life is the same person as the grumpy gremlin currently before him. Gasp.

#roguesenses #aweoinaweawe #he do be pinning #but izuku isn't supposed to know that shh #·∴∵✷ [ ic ]

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" Good for you. Introduce us sometime. "

Everyone. My wife is back from the war.

#AOWEINAOIWEN #THIS WAS MEAN IM SORRY #but alsO AOWEINAOWEIAWE #roguesenses #·∴∵✷ [ ic ]

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@roguesenses asked:

[  WARMTH  ]  *  your muse moves snuggles up to my muse for warmth.

The 'meeting' was a farce to begin with. Someone had brought up how they should go over the plan one last time, as if they haven't drilled it into each other's heads a million times already. As if they haven't been preparing for this war since the moment the first one ended. No, they didn't need another recap of the plans, but here they all sat anyways, with just a flimsy excuse to gather and linger as a class, despite how all of them should be getting proper rest instead.

And Katsuki was no different. Having seen through the ruse from the start, but still sitting his ass down on the couch with the rest of the idiots. Knowing the clock was ticking well into the night, and most of the talking had long since ended, but still scrolling mindlessly on his phone as if he was doing anything of importance that warranted his continued presence in the common room. There was truly no reason for him to still be down here with the rest of the bunch.

( if he was honest. there was just one reason he continued to dawdle anyways, despite how he usually despises wasting time. if he was honest, he'd admit how he wasn't even sure what was on his phone, too preoccupied with watching deku slowly nod off more and more. ) The nerd was clearly exhausted, but didn't want to head up to his room despite half the class having tried to convince him. Stubborn asshole.

He was seconds away from deciding to just drag the nerd up the stairs himself, when he felt Deku shift, sliding until he was stopped by Katsuki's own shoulder. His first instinct was to blow up, as he was so prone to do, but it was quickly suppressed with just a glance at how tired Deku looked. So, he simply shifted till he could better support Izuku's weight, knowing just how ridiculous it was how unbothered he truly was by this. He set his phone down, giving up on all pretense that he was doing anything besides just being there for Izuku. ( it was a pretense that everyone saw through anyways. the looks his classmates has been giving him since he first woke from the hospital had only increased since they succeeded in bringing deku back. ) He ignored them, as he always did. No longer in denial, and long since past trying to pretend what was obvious to everyone except the idiot leaning on his shoulder, but also knowing full well such a thing was trivial in the face of all that they had going on. It was hardly a time to worry about something as stupid as feelings, something he had made clear to the class and refused to be swayed on. ( and really, it would hardly be fair to izuku. if katsuki tried to push his feelings onto him after everything they've been through. izuku, the idiot who felt far too much for others, who was trying to carry far too many burdens as it was. katsuki refuses to place yet another thing onto the nerd. not when it was katsuki's own problem to deal with )

Which was exactly why he just had to get the nerd up to his room for an actual night's rest. But just before he could, one of their idiot classmates had opened the front door, causing a cold breeze to blow in. Despite it being well into spring, the cool air was out of place in the warmth of the common room. And it seemed unconscious Deku agreed, because Katsuki found himself freezing as Izuku shifts even closer in response to the cold air, tucking his big nerd head right into Katsuki's neck. The chatter of his classmates grew, because even though they were all going out to fight another war tomorrow, they were still a bunch of idiots. Katsuki simply gave them the finger before miming them to shut it. The last thing they needed to do was wake Izuku up and jolt all sleepiness away by getting him flustered like the awkward fuck he is, not when the shit nerd needed his rest. And that was the only reason, he'd insist. Or at least, it was the most important one. ( a minor, far less important reason, would be how the weight of izuku against him settled something in his chest. ) Somehow, the feeling that the nerd was truly here, after so many weeks out looking for him, still not feeling real. ( the feeling of izuku being so far out of reach, having long since become katsuki's new reality )

But Izuku feels impossibly close now. Even though Katsuki knew it was only for this moment. Knew it could only be for this moment. And he wasn't one to allow himself to indulge for very long. ( even as a part of him wished he could. could just let them stay like this for a bit longer, izuku by his side in a way that felt just right ) But he still needed to get the nerd to bed so he can rest properly.

He gives himself three seconds. To really feel Izuku's weight, receiving comfort from it despite knowing it was hardly fair. To count Izuku's steady breaths, each one reassurance that the shit nerd hasn't gotten himself killed ( yet ). To swear to himself, that he will never let Deku fight alone again. ( an oath he already made weeks before when they first cornered deku. with rain in his eyes and the throbbing of his shoulder and stomach. but somehow, it felt right. making the promise again, outside of urgency and desperation. ) Because it wasn't a promise just for in the midst of battle. Because he knew Izuku had been fighting alone in every part of his life for far too long, since way before he received a flashy quick ( and he could picture tiny middle school izuku. having time and time again gotten up to fight for what he believed in. despite the world, despite katsuki himself, telling him he had no right ) But NEVER again.

And with that, his three seconds was up, so he shifted to get Deku onto his back in a piggyback carry, trying to move smoothly enough to not wake the other. He could feel the busybody assholes around them staring blatantly. ( surely an unfortunate amount of teasing would be awaiting him, but he'd deal with those bunch of idiots later. when he wasn't at risk for waking deku up ) Feeling Deku shift into semi-conciousness, he glares at the far too noisy idiots before muttering softly for Deku to go back to sleep.

#the way this prompt barely had to do with my answer AOWEINAWEAWE #i have decided that kacchan's feelings are just on full blast ever since izuku ran away #his classmates had to see how desperate katsuki got with all his worrying #and katsuki doesn't even try to defend himself #knowing it was farrrr too obvious to everyone #(except for izuku) #izuku gets nice things when he sleeps continues LOL #roguesenses #·∴∵✷ [ ic ] #·∴∵✷ [ ANSWERED ] #·∴∵✷ you’re worth more than what you sacrifice [ roguesenses ]

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#comes back just to reblog muffins promo #love muffin yes #they are such a good Izuku #i adore them #i am unable ti get to laptop so #mobile tbt

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//sorry i havent been active!!! I was struggling sm with writers block and now i am con crunching so hard LMAOO

#me chilling bc all i had to do was make a vest and half ass a cape #but then realizing FOUR days before con that the colour of the pants i was going to use DONT MATCH LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD #so now i gotta make pants and vest and cape #and this may have been a mistake #by this i mean leaving things to the last minute like i always do awoeinaweawe #but hey is it the con experience if you aren't con crunching #·∴∵✷ [ ooc ] #but anyways #i will still be inactive until next week!! till after con

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//lays across all your dashboards

what do you guys do to defeat writer's block?

#i have been struggling for over a month now #i dunno #i know what i want to write but then i sit and write and hate every word i type aowienawoenawei #pls send help #i wanna rp aweoiANEOAWNE #·∴∵✷ [ ooc ]

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🐝  *  ―  send ✨ or ( ‘SPARKLE’ ) and i’ll tell you at least one thing i like most about you, your blog, your portrayal, or your muse.

#this will not be done today!!! #maybe not even tomorrow #just expect a random answer from me with no rhyme or reason as to when #i will also probably not do them all at once #if i get more than one i mean lol #·∴∵✷ [ memes ] #·∴∵✷ [ ooc ] #·∴∵✷ [ queue ]

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you're not supposed to shamelessly steal people's ideas, Deku. Or do you just not care enough to come up with your own gifts?

My apologies, Kacchan. Shall Izuku gift himself to you in the same way then?

#me jumping through ten hoops just to reply to you awoeinAWNAE #t RY and match like that and katsuki will kill you in the afterlife aoweinawe #·∴∵✷ [ ic ] #roguesenses

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//imma fight tum.blr. I can't see random people's blogs. I can't see my own posts when i go to the account post page. I can't scroll past the first page on dash. I can't even see posts that were reblogged from my post????

#·∴∵✷ [ ooc ] #i am #struggling

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Wow. Izuku considers Katsuki the WORST gift, huh. Fine. Guess Izuku should just never 'get' Katsuki, then.

#strips away all context #to purposefully twist your words 🥰 #·∴∵✷ [ ic ] #·∴∵✷ [ DASH COMM ] #something is wrong with my tumblr it keeps acting up help awoeinawe #posting this was a war against tumb/ lr #roguesenses

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//...every time i see a start call/inbox call i want to like it. but then i remember i haven't responded to the last 2479414 starters/asks given to me awoeinaweawe

#i have not been active in days and the first thing i do is borderline gay crack #i apologize to all my rp partners i swear i've been trying to do replies but i think i am somehow stuck with a block awoeinae #·∴∵✷ [ ooc ]