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When a person with ADHD complains of severe anxiety, I recommend that the clinician not immediately accept the patient’s label for her emotional experience. A clinician should say, “Tell me more about your baseless, apprehensive fear,” which is the definition of anxiety. More times than not, a person with ADHD hyperarousal will give a quizzical look and respond, “I never said I was afraid.” If the patient can drop the label long enough to describe what the feeling is like, a clinician will likely hear, “I am always tense; I can’t relax enough to sit and watch a movie or TV program. I always feel like I have to go do something.” The patients are describing the inner experience of hyperactivity when it is not being expressed physically.

At the same time, people with ADHD also have fears that are based on real events in their lives. People with ADHD nervous systems are consistently inconsistent. The person is never sure that her abilities and intellect will show up when they are needed. Not being able to measure up at the job or at school, or in social circles is humiliating. It is understandable that people with ADHD live with persistent fear. These fears are real, so they do not indicate an anxiety disorder.

holy SHIT

#adhd #hmmm... #might have to get a proper diagnosis one of these days #i am 40 after all #seems like a good time to spiral about being unperceived my whole life

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The Choctaw-Irish Brotherhood(via)

#crying into my lunch #Ireland #choctaw #navajo #relief #humanity

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Tumblr Top Ships Bracket - Round 2 Side 1

This poll is a celebration of fandom and fandom history; we're aware that there are certain issues with many of the listed pairings and sources, but they are a part of that history. Please do not take this as an endorsement, and refrain from harassment.

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"Longing. Longing for a wave of love that would stir in me. That's what makes me clumsy. The absence of pleasure. Desire for love. Desire to love."

Wings of Desire (1987) dir. Wim Wenders

#wings of desire #der himmel über berlin #i love this film so much

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if a wiley old serpent such as myself, say, wanted to obtain some ngk principalityangelcontent with a sprinkle of eshh erm ineffible husbands and mmm yeh those two actor fellows, who might one follow?

asking for a friend

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Once more and again: props to Stede Bonnet. He spent literal months longing for Ed, writing him letters, working through his own fears, trying to figure out where he was. Then he finds out that that his crew killed this man with whom he’s deeply in love, and his response is to think of them first. He takes the blame on himself. He defends them, he tries to talk Zheng out of executing them, and he saves their lives - including the life of a man who tried to kill him many times.

And only after they’re all safe does he take the space to mourn.

What a fucking hero.

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The Big Damn Kiss

Buckle up, my fellow Good Omens Ineffable Mystery Puzzlers, Crackpotters, and Assorted Brainrotters, because I learned something HUGE yesterday.

This will be a bit of a long post, because I want to show you exactly how I got where I am. I want you to understand. I want to put all the naysayers to bed (ha! But I'm still gonna try), and settle this once and for all.

I know (almost) exactly what Crowley gave to Aziraphale during the kiss.

DO NOT TAKE ANY OF MY THEORIES TO NEIL! PLEASE!

Okay? Okay. Thanks. Shall we begin?

Ahem.

Firstly, whether you believe me or not, I am 100% certain that Crowley did, indeed, give something to Aziraphale in his mouth during The Kiss. I've covered that in the link previous. Okay? Okay.

I did not know what it was. I've now heard theories that it was a bullet (nope), a ball bearing (nope), hellfire (nope), and no one, NO ONE has suggested what I see. (If you have, hello! Talk to me!)

Here's our first foreshadowing Clue:

And here's our next foreshadowing Clue:

And the next:

And our last Clue:

With me so far? Well, that first GIF is a bit off, I couldn't find one of Crowley actually spitting out the flies. But he does. When Beelzebub first drags him to Hell, he actually goes "Pleaugh!" and spits out four or five flies.

Moving right along, we come to Crowley in Heaven with Muriel, looking at the trial. We learn two important things here:

One, Gabriel doesn't have a desk.

Two, Muriel does. Where they keep the records. And it's a bit lonely. Every few hundred years, someone comes and asks for something. Muriel can't access the sensitive ones, you have to be pretty high up. A throne, dominion, or higher. Like, maybe Supreme Archangel?

So if Gabriel doesn't have a desk, whose desk is he at when he's getting ready to leave Heaven? Of course I can't find a damn picture of Gabriel at the desk, but it's Muriel's. Where they keep the RECORDS.

Gabriel puts his memory into the fly, then gets on the elevator to go to Earth.

Now, when Gabriel opens the fly with his memories inside, we find out that it's a container. Bigger on the inside. You can put thing(S) in it. The bit we see of him remembering is shot in two parts, one where he's flying down a red tunnel, one where he's flying down a blue. If you slow this scene down and watch, you can see that he is NOT looking at just his own memories. There is more going on here, more that he was not present for. @embracing-the-ineffable put up a great meta about that here. Go look!

Now I figured Gabriel must have taken something else. Something important. Something useful. Something he meant to give to Aziraphale, except he forgot.

I also figured he must have left whatever it was in the fly when he took his memories out.

But I had no idea what Gabriel took until I started working on the chiastic structure of season 2. I'm not done with that analysis yet, but let me show you one thing that I have found so far:

(The numbers are just to try and help me navigate the story and its events without time stamps)

My note #357 of what happens isn't quite right, but when I saw the only two times Aziraphale says "I forgive you" are towards the beginning of Season 2 and towards the end, I realized I had something.

Rephrase line 357: Crowley's kiss is forgiven IN EXCHANGE FOR RECORDS.

(Not that I think Crowley's kiss needs to be forgiven. It's just what Aziraphale says, and had to say at that moment, because the Metatron was listening in.)

What does Heaven in Good Omens remind us of most of all?

A big corporate entity. And what do powerful people do when they get fired from a big corporate entity? They download all their emails while they're cleaning out their desks. Damning emails. Emails that can be used to black mail or even destroy big corporate entities. Or, ya know, maybe they swipe some sensitive RECORDS?

Oh yes.

Here's Aziraphale reading the records:

Here's Aziraphale being horrified and outraged by what he's reading:

And here's Aziraphale realizing he has got some GOOD DIRT on Heaven. Maybe enough to bring them down:

That's it folks. I have no idea what the records actually say, and maybe we're not meant to know until season 3, but whatever it is, it's GOOD.

That's my story, and by God Herself, I'm sticking to it.

#good omens #speculation #different spin on the bullet theory #love it

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#other #The X-Files #episode: #Monday #polls

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Me every day:

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Good omens series 3 sneak peek

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Baby made their first .gif, yes yes, thank you i am proud of myself for braving technology!

What is everyone’s take on what he mouth’s here? To me, and have it be known I am incredibly bad at lip reading, it looks like:

“We need help.”

It also looks like he’s miming a ‘timeout’ signal.

please discuss and let me know your opinions lovebugs! and no, there is no dialogue that takes place during this gif if you’re unfamiliar. all these mouth movements are *silent* 👄

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Time to go home.

Mood improved from this:

To this:

Good night, dear void.

I hate when time gets away from me on the most inconvenient occasions.

Makes me feel even shittier for always being late.

So... I'm gonna be late to a big concert where family members sing. Not only did I leave a bit pressed for time but manageable under ideal conditions, public transport and Uber played Murphy's Law on me.

Yay.

#personal #about me #selfie #my aunt #my cousin #not pictured: #my grandparents

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To add insult to injury I had to try and surpress coughing fits the whole damn time in a classical concert!

...and now I have to socialise.

Anyway. The concert was beautiful and exceptionally well done!

I hate when time gets away from me on the most inconvenient occasions.

Makes me feel even shittier for always being late.

So... I'm gonna be late to a big concert where family members sing. Not only did I leave a bit pressed for time but manageable under ideal conditions, public transport and Uber played Murphy's Law on me.

Yay.

#personal #about me

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Which reminds me why I was so low energy to begin with. Work was a mess today, like a real shitshow of messy organisation and passive aggression against our team.

It's only fitting that the day continues like that.

I hate when time gets away from me on the most inconvenient occasions.

Makes me feel even shittier for always being late.

So... I'm gonna be late to a big concert where family members sing. Not only did I leave a bit pressed for time but manageable under ideal conditions, public transport and Uber played Murphy's Law on me.

Yay.

#personal #about me

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So, after the subway didn't come as expected and the Uber dropped me off not even half way there and I went by subway after all... Only to find that the whole area had disintegrated into a huge construction site, that first led me the wrong way and then in a roundabout way to finally get my ticket from the stage door. When I made it back to the main entrance I was told the next entry would be in 30 minutes.

So here I am, even more disappointed and disappointing to my family than usual, waiting to be let in to hear them sing. I have no one else to blame for going out to late but everything else is just unfair .

Add it to my already not so great mental health status at the moment.

I hate when time gets away from me on the most inconvenient occasions.

Makes me feel even shittier for always being late.

So... I'm gonna be late to a big concert where family members sing. Not only did I leave a bit pressed for time but manageable under ideal conditions, public transport and Uber played Murphy's Law on me.

Yay.

#personal #about me #sometimes it really sucks to be me

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I hate when time gets away from me on the most inconvenient occasions.

Makes me feel even shittier for always being late.

So... I'm gonna be late to a big concert where family members sing. Not only did I leave a bit pressed for time but manageable under ideal conditions, public transport and Uber played Murphy's Law on me.

Yay.

#personal #about me