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Monkey see, monkey do?

More like monkey think, monkey do.. with how delusional you are. The snake who pits friends against one another just to see who will be most loyal, and come out on top.

Your ego will be the death of you, the manipulative monarch role you've given yourself in this game that you seem to be playing.

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Alexander McQueen: 'Dante' autumn/winter 1996

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Fender Custom Shop Masterbuilt Retro Paisley Floral Decor Telecaster

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artwork by Stefan Visan

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Georgia O'Keeffe, Red and Blue no 1, 1916,  Watercolor

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While I am looking, to sweep you off your feet; every time I see you, my heart skips a beat. Your smile, your laugh.. your body, your brain, are all imprinted into my memory; providing flashbacks, drowning me in unattainable "what ifs". While I do not regret my past I still crave to complete uncompleted business from time to time, and we have quite a bit I think about. Do you?

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Constantly thinking, to fathom I am in pain is an understatement. I have held my breath for over a year afraid to mess both things that could possibly open my heart to new heights, but out of fear of losing one I completely destroyed another. I reached the point of no return foolishly trying to escape myself I then look to find myself falling, all while looking at you.

I've been reaching and never make the right move, waiting, hoping, craving more. More of you, your time, your energy, your vibe. I am not craving just anyone, only you.

I am lucky enough to have found someone I want to bare my heart and soul with, let alone a person who will bend over backwards to help me as I would for them. I was also lucky with the experience and sensational pull that brought you into my life, and what still keeps us here, or so I'd like to think. I want to learn how to encorperate our knowledge of our past mistakes and how they will only make us all stronger together in the long run, longterm.

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Sorry for the bad timing,

That happened to just be the next time I saw you. It's bad timing, after what was not our time; what reunited us was this bad scenario, sadly, even though I have all the right scenarios playing in my head; I just can't, seem to reach them.

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Between numb and incredibly sad a lot,

You could say I'm very distraught .

I never knew when it would be, but I thought I'd at least have a little longer;

I knew it could be any day, but not how literal.

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i hope my absence gives you the peace my love never could

- dee

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Have you ever felt in riddles?

Like the world is testing you, therefore you try to be prepared for all emotional outcomes?

Trying to make sense in a word full of nonsense. No matter how much you actually prepare you're still never prepared for how it's going to go.

Life is a tsunami and it can be a struggle to stay above water, but if you can you will get to see the calm after the storm.

Simpler times are always nice, but you out grow situations; which sadly, happen a lot in life to help you find what makes you flourish.

Continually receiving new obstacles to overcome and help better yourself, which can be challenging but will reward you with simpler times again.

I hope your battle wounds heal, and please know if any scars are left behind they are beautiful just as you are, and the simple times will come again.

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Be grateful for  every single stage of life. Especially the ones  that break you open.

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“Once you realize there is life after mistakes, you gain a self-confidence that never goes away.”

— Bob Schieffer

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“I’m not everything I want to be, but l’m more than I was, and l’m still learning.”

— Charlotte Eriksson, Everything Changed When I Forgave Myself

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If hurting me does not hurt you, you don’t love me. You’re using me.

k.b // by jerry flowers jr

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“Until we have seen someone’s darkness, we don’t really know who they are. Until we have forgiven someone’s darkness, we don’t really know what love is.”

— Marianne Williamson

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Alexander McQueen for Talk Magazine (1999) Photography: Nick Knight