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in case you're wondering what england is really like i'm on a train to london at 11am and the man opposite me is drinking a stellar

this is a proper country

#england #never too early to drink here #london

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feel like shit just want them back

#ofmd #ofmd season 2 #ofmd season two #stede bonnet #blackbeard #ed teach #ed x stede #ofmd stede #edward teach #our flag means death #taika waititi #rhys darby #david jenkins

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when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

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You guys do know you're supposed to reblog things, right

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i actually really enjoy winter i don’t mind that it gets dark so early

>completely dark before 5:30

i think being alive is the worst thing that can happen to a person

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I am unfortunately just like other guys. I like trashy horror, dog poems, cannibalism as a metaphor for obsessive devotion, religious imagery, people who use my name in a sentence, academic validation, lying for fun, being bisexual and bleeding out in the snow.

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sometimes I see older people and I’m like... how do you do it? how do you cope with the loss of people and places and things as life progresses

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now having watched the entirety of OFMD S1 and S2 multiple times, one place that never fails to take me out at the knees is the audience finding out that Ed’s mother was in service in the very same episode that he goes to a fancy rich person party where Stede—who is himself impossibly wealthy landed gentry—intentionally sides with the servants and his lowborn crew.

Stede slipping away from all the posturing and sniping to hang out with Frenchie “who was in service for a minute”. Stede who is more excited to meet and collude with Abshire than to talk to a single rich person from his own world. Yes, Stede burns all the rich people alive for being cruel to Ed and that’s very charming of him! But every rewatch, the thought of baby Ed growing up to find the kind of gentleman he always hated and envied embodied in someone who would take his side every time just knocks me flat. Ed sought out an avatar of everything he longed for (yet wanted to destroy) and accidentally discovered a lonely oddball who wanted him more than any of the rest of it. “I found the kind of person I envisioned as my bitterest rival and he smiled in recognition of a kindred soul only to swear he’d make all my most ridiculous and insignificant fantasies come true” is just so!!!!!!!!!

“the crew is my family now” and “peasants marry for love” and marmalade with a flourish of twine and Ed on the verge of tears finding Stede hiding outside the party agreeing with Frenchie about the absurdity of spoon politics. my god my god my GOD!

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i feel like americans generally are more likely to realise if they're being haunted because unlike britain most of their houses aren't semi-detached or terraced houses that are sometimes several hundred years old

like in the uk you hear fifty weird noises in the night and you just assume it's your neighbours on either side, or the wind getting in through a gap in the roof, or the old pipes, or your dodgy water heater, or something outside coming through your buggered windows, or your bed that's god knows how old you got from a charity shop creaking,,, i think you get my point

its only really in these manor houses and remote farmhouses that people usually tell ghost stories about (Ordsall Hall's white lady, Treasurers House's Roman Legion) bc, well, it's more interesting, but also because they can blame noises on a lot of things but definitely not neighbours and town sounds. maybe a bit more nature but nature can sound scary, like have you heard the noises foxes make?? the powers of suggestion take over, and who knows maybe they actually do see ghosts 🤷🏻

but my point was in america and probably other places, where there's way more space and all the houses look like they're practicing social distancing, a higher proportion of noises can be interpreted as ghosts bc they have less reasons to discount it

this is why the are way more "hauntings" and ghost sightings in the country than the city, they have different standards of general noise level

but the question is are some country folks' minds playing tricks on them or are there a load of city ghosts who are mad no one pays attention to them?

#for context its 2am and i don't even know how this thought first formed #ghosts #hauntings

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this is how this scene went right [x]

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Bonus:

You can say anything and I will not abandon you. Unwrap the worst things you have done. Watch me hold them up to the light and not even flinch -  Trista Mateer

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We're joined to one another. Intertwined. We wrote our names on each other in permanent ink.

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I confess, my initial numb anger at the whole Izzy thing was one part hearing him finally, finally say the shit that was so obviously true about his relationship to Ed, but only after well over a year of trying to stand in place against an endless tide of ass-backwards fandom woobification, and another part the dull realization that this motherfucker was going to overwhelm all other topics of discussion again. I like Izzy just fine as a TV character, but as a fannish experience he is fucking exhausting.

This wasn't any great insight on my part, but I said at the start of the season: if you think Izzy is the true hero of OFMD, you don't actually like the show. And sure enough, Izzy died and we were treated to a vomitous tsunami of bile, because without Izzy, all the stans have left of the show are things they hate. (Aka everything that wasn't Izzy.) So I'm just...waiting for it to pass, so maybe we can just talk about this show like nerds together.

Because there was a lot about the death scene that was good! It was that OFMD density at work again - look at "Sit with me, Eddie." You have a callback to Fang's advice to Ed to learn to sit with himself. You have the opposite of Izzy's old attitude if "we need the plan now Ed now now now when are you killing that twat Ed now now now." And it recalls Izzy's shark, too, the idea that if you don't keep moving you die. Izzy was dying, so he could finally ask Ed to be still with him.

And finally, there's the use of "Eddie," which only seems to be used by people who knew Ed when he was younger, with the exception of the crew asking for a second song at the end of last season. "Eddie" was not necessarily a good time in Ed's life, but maybe it was before he and Izzy became completely dysfunctional - when they could still maybe pass for friends. Or maybe it was something Izzy refused to call him because it was too juvenile for the Great Blackbeard. Whatever it is, it's redolent of the past and of true affection. All that in just a few words.

I completely get why people were repelled by Ed calling Izzy his only family, but, uh. I actually one hundred percent buy it. Izzy was Ed's constant companion for years, and the person he was closest to. Did Izzy actually know him? Nope. Did they actually have a loving friendship? Also no! But it's as close as Ed got to family since killing his dad - the wire mother version of love. When Jack betrayed him and Stede left him...well, Izzy also betrayed him, but he stuck around after. So yeah, Ed thought Izzy was his only family, and that's incredibly sad.

Do I want to flick people in the ear when they say the crew hates Ed and only ever loved Izzy? Yes, of course, because it's hilariously wrong. They were plotting mutiny against Stede in the early going and took 30 seconds to mutiny against Izzy, but had to be driven to the brink of doom to do it against Ed. And no, it's not just because Ed was scarier - you think Jim would be held back that long by intimidation? It's because they hadn't grown to love Stede and Izzy at those points, and Ed was another story.

There should have been more verbal reconciliation in "Calypso's Birthday," but to argue, for example, that Archie cheerfully gave Ed a drink at the party while hating his guts is just disingenuous. She had absolutely no issues saying what she thought of Ed.

But that's a classic Izzy stan issue - this assumption that love is in limited supply, and getting it is a zero sum game, so if someone else has it then Izzy doesn't. And since that's unacceptable, clearly no one else can be loved in Izzy's presence or else. What a weird, weird way to watch this program. But it makes sense that with Izzy buried, to them there's no love left in the show at all.

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im rooting for the ned lowe survived somehow and kidnaps the kids theory someone came up with (sorry I cant remember who) so stede has to go rescue them

bonus points for ed and mary meeting because i'd give my left arm for that interaction

Something I would like to see in S3 (if we get it) would be a return of the Bonnet kids in some way. No idea how it would work but it makes me kinda sad to think that Stede is just okay with never seeing his children again! In flashbacks we have seen them have quite a sweet relationship, and surely he misses them. Hopefully they can visit the inn!

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd theory #ofmd s3 #Bonnet children #stede bonnet #ofmd stede #ofmd ed teach #blackbeard #mary bonnet #ned lowe

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delusionally clinging to the fact that in his show last night rhys darby said "we're all good friends here" to mean rhys is my friend

i'm friends with rhys darby guys

#jokes aside it was an amazing show and such a privilege to get to see him in person #he has such a magnificent energy that's so unbelievably funny #also just an amazing crowd of people that made the whole experience so fun #rhys darby #steve wrigley #and the warm-up was so good! #just such a fun time 😭 #rhys darby tour