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the worst feeling is when you give someone everything you have and receive pain from them.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home #parental abuse #i physically cannot #mentally tired #mental abuse

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i’m physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted. please let this stop.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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exams are killing me

#i wanna kms #i hate school #exams #no to exams

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what did i ever do to deserve a life like this one?

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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i was supposed to be the kid, not the parent

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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I actually love being alone. i feel safe.

#alone with my thoughts

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i don’t understand why my mum likes to hit me. what did i ever do to you?

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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why do i always fuck up? is it because i’m not good enough? is it because of my family issues? why? sometimes i feel like i don’t even want to get better anymore. i lost hope. i feel like giving up on everything, let go of everything but the thing is, i can’t. i feel like i’ve felt this pain for so long, so many years that it feels like home and i can’t let it go that easily. i feel like i deserve this pain. i’ve been feeling this for such a long time that it isn’t even a problem, it’s more of a home in a sick and twisted way.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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sometimes i ask myself why the hell am i friends with people like this

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #sh #self h@rm

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I hate life so much most of the time, but today, I hate it way much more than usual. why did my uncle needed to be murdered?! he was the nicest, most caring and loved person i’ve ever known. i’m gonna miss you so much.

#i hate life

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i need to understand why the hell do my panic attacks happen at the worst times

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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i’m so not excited for school. i’m not physically, mentally and emotionally prepared for school.

#mentally tired #i physically cannot #emotionally exhausted #school #i hate school

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my family loves me sm to the point they forgot my bday yayyy, happy bday to meed.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home

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so basically my parents want me to remove my scars from my wrists either surgically or with like a strong medicine, yay me

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #self h@rm #sh #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #growing up in a broken home

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sooo my parents saw my arms and instead of comforting me like normal parents would do, they told me “we are ashamed to call you our daughter” “such a disgrace to this family” “you are such a disappointment for us to call you our daughter” yay love them.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #sh #self h@rm #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #growing up in a broken home

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guess who relapsed? me

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #self h@rm #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #sh #growing up in a broken home

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that’s it. i can’t take life anymore. it’s enough.

#i wanna kms #toxic household #i’m not okay #su1c1dal #toxic parents #im so fucked up #growing up in a broken home