hollowb1rd

[hollowb1rd]

Working at a grocery store with an ED is so weird. I feel like I get so many temptations but also I get the experience of ‘having’ that food since I’m a personal shopper.

Also you realize how weirdly low calorie baby food is.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana trigger #tw ana diary #thinspø

[hollowb1rd]

✨My personal rules right now✨

- always round up/overestimate calories

-Drink👏 Water 👏. Hydrate or diedrate.

- 10,000 steps a day minimum

- if a meal can’t pass for mealspo or you wouldn’t post that food online, ask yourself why you’re eating it in the first place

-fast after a binge

- lost progress can be gained back, though it will be hard work. Effort and persistence are the key. Tomorrow is a new day.

#tw ana trigger #tw ana diary #thinspø #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw thinspo #thinspo

[hollowb1rd]

Man last week sucked ass. Binged so much over the holidays even if I was basically forced to/was performative.

Anyone got some thinspo (preferably holiday/new year related)?

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana trigger #tw ana diary #thinspø

[hollowb1rd]

Wdym the 3 straight days of 1200 cal binges made me gain weight

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana trigger #tw ana diary #ed meme #just binged

[hollowb1rd]

Could I please request some meanspo?? Need to lose like 40kg and I hate holiday season

Tw: meanspo:

Imagine being at that dinner table. Everyone earned their right to pig out. But you? You can’t even lose 40lbs… come on, don’t you want everyone to compliment you on your weight loss? Don’t you want everyone to notice how tiny you are? How much less of a bother you are to them? Well they certainly aren’t going to notice you at this rate, that’s for sure.

Imagine all the fun clothes you might recieve this year… too bad you don’t deserve them.

Put the fork down, and give me 30 sit ups.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana trigger #tw Ana #meanspo #tw meanspo #meanspø #thinspo request #anon ask

[hollowb1rd]

Can you make a thinspo about being ignored already so soon youre just small enough/skinny enough that no one hears your steps, or even notices you? My bf and friends have ignored me for so long id love some motivation on being ignored because youre thin instead of just dumb lmao

Tw: thinspo

Sometimes, to me anyway, few things feel better to me than being able to slip by someone unnoticed and unbothered. I feel like a ninja. Sounds stupid but as an introvert it’s really satisfying to get out of social situations like that. It’s something I can only rarely get away with though. I know people notice my size and hear my loud, heavy footsteps.

How great would it be if you could? To have tiny, delicate fingers that simply dance over your keyboard? No more fat thumbs in the way? Or to have dainty little feet that glide over the floor, quietly? No more weird looks when you move?

If you’re going to be invisible, be unnoticed while you’re at it.

If you just push yourself a little more, if you keep getting thinner, you’ll eventually disappear. You’ll eventually stop feeling like a burden. How great would that be? It’ll be like your own little superpower.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana trigger #tw thinspo #thinspo #thinspø #thinspo request #anon ask

[hollowb1rd]

Man fuck restaurants. Fuck going out to eat.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #tw ana shit

[hollowb1rd]

I kinda want to make thinspo/meanspo.

I do feel really bad about encouraging this disease and all but thinspo is my own coping mechanism and if there’s enough demand for it from others I’ll open my asks for requests.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #thinspo #thinspø #tw thinspo

[hollowb1rd]

So I just discovered that the scales I used for my starting weights were broken and inaccurate… So I guess I’ll never know what my exact starting weight was 😭

My new scale won’t come in the mail for another couple days too

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #tw ana shit #tw ed vent #tw weight

[hollowb1rd]

Genuine question, how do I tag ed shit?

The tags in this post are the main ones I’ve been using for the most part but idk what exactly to mark as trigger warnings or if there’s anything I miss (like different spellings).

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #tw ana shit #ana shit

[hollowb1rd]

I need some restaurant help. (ed)

TLDR: I’m going to Olive Garden tomorrow and freaking out.

I’ve been doing so well with restricting and feeling great but I’ve been looking foreword to this meal for months. Idk what to do or at least what to order without seeming weird/to at least enjoy myself a little,.

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I’m so scared but excited at the same time. Everything at Olive Garden is my weakness. Bread, cheese, pasta, butter…

I get (have) to go this weekend with my sister. It’s a reward for her finishing a very long project that she’s super proud of. I’ve been one of her biggest cheerleaders on the sidelines and she wants me to be her buddy.

But I’ve been doing SO good with my restricting. This is gonna be the thing that screws it all up, I know it. I want to enjoy this, but everything is so high calorie there.

I’ve cut out a lot of calories in the past couple of days to try and balance the calories put a little and I’ve even tried to tell myself it’ll be my ‘very first metabolism day!’ And that I can recover but-

Ive been doing so SO good. I mean that sincerely. And I feel great. I’m talking calorie limits no higher that 800-900 and as low as 300-400 some days) I’m on freakin fire.

I’ve also been looking foreword to this meal for like 3 months and I don’t just want to get soup and salad and call it a day. I want pasta. I want a breadstick. I want all the thing I shouldn’t have… and if I don’t it’ll just look weird to my sister who knows I (used to) devour all of those kinds of this in great amounts with ease.

Idk what to do or how else to prepare for such a binge that I know I’m gonna eat (if anything to seem normal in front of my sister who knows me incredibly well).

Should I fast after? Try to purge? (Never done that successfully, only throw up these days because of nausea)

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana shit #ana #tw ana diary #tw ana trigger #how do I tag my ed #tw food #do I even have an ed?