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“In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about ever again. But you do.”

— C.S. Lewis, The Wonder Years

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“Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in you or the world, that one song stays the same, just like that moment. Which is pretty amazing, when you actually think about it.”

— Sarah Dessen

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To my ex, that left me for another girl

I love you. I loved you since the moment I met you. I saw no one as beautiful as you in my entire life before. I loved the way your voice would sound after I had a really long day. I loved your smile and your one dimple. I remember looking at you and just being in awe of you and that you were my person. I would be lying if I said I didn't still love you. The best parts of my day were because of you. I saw us growing old together. Building memories, building a life, an empire. And every single day, my only goal was to make you happy. I know I wasn't always successful, but I tried. I wish you could have seen and noticed that. Waking up to you, falling asleep next to you, talking to you through the day was the best part of everything. And now I realize I have to let you go. Because you didn't feel the same about me. And that's hard, and it hurts. And it sucks, But I can't keep destroying myself trying to love you anymore. So I'll let you go. I know even after writing this I will think of you and want you to come back and say all the right things, but I have to make the first step. I have to try and let you go. Because at the end of the day, you already moved on. And you are happy. And I deserve to try and be happy too. I love you so much. But this is goodbye.

Love a girl who thought you loved her

#trying #regrets #broken #depression #breakup #ex #letter #i love you #comeback #missingyou

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This is terrifying to me. I don't want to compare my past loves to my futures loves. I want someone to love me for all of me. All my pieces and through my good and bad. What if I messed up my only chance at that one love? If no love is the same that means I can never have that love again. I guess that would be the consequences for leaving such a love. But what if they were the one to leave. But I guess then that doesn't matter. Because someone who loves me the way they should the way I want wouldn't leave me. Therefore I am still looking for that love.

“There are all kinds of love in this world. But never the same love twice.”

— Unknown

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All I’ve ever wanted in my life was a friend who really understood. To accept me for who I am. Hold me to their heart like I’d with them… Just… Y'know, that type of friendship where we have no secrets and are close.

Apparently it’s too much to ask for, though 3

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“I had to learn to live without you and I couldn’t make sense of it, because I left so much of me inside of you.”

— R.M. Drake

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Yes, and why is it always worse at night?

“Are you ever so sad that you can actually feel your heart ache.”

— Unknown (via quotefeeling)

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I just wish having such a soft heart didn't hurt so bad.

“Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness.”

— Katherine Henson

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“Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.”

— Unknown

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To the girl my ex left me for

Most days I hate everything about you. I hate everything from your name to the way you nestled your self right into the place beside him. But on my dark nights I realize there would have been no place to nestle into if he didn't make room. Heartbreak feels like him telling me that we were done that he was with you. It was coming over to pack the rest of my things and finding your clothes scattered over the apartment and your hairbrush on the bathroom sink. Heartbreak is your name on his lips. It's leaving everything I knew and the only place I ever felt like home because I was no longer wanted there. You caused that. You looked me in my face and pretended. You pretended to just want to be friends. You wanted him for yourself. I want to be the better person. I want to wish you the best. I want it to not hurt every time you tag him in another stupid sappy Facebook quote. I want to move on as easily as it seemed for him to move on with you. I want my heart to not cry out for him at night and curse your existence. I want to stop being so full of anger towards you. I want to be able to forgive you. But heartbreak is not forgiveness. Healing is, moving on is. And as much as I am trying I just cant get there yet. I want to get there. Not for you. But for me. I hope you appreciate him. I hope you appreciate his amazing hugs and the sound of his laugh or the sound of just his voice after a long day. I hope you eat every bite of his cooking and are there for all the good and all the bad. But not because I hope you guys the best. But because I love him so much. And loving someone is holding the door for them and letting them go even if it rips you into pieces. Or in some cases leaving so they can move on without you. So they can be happy. I hope you love him with all of you. I do hope he is happy. Its just hard for me to wish that for you too.

Love a forgotten ex

P.S The curse I would give you is to feel my pain just for a day. I'm sure you would be in tears in just an hour.

#ex #pain #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #inpieces #crumbling #crying #emostional #alone #depression #depressed

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Was mending her heart worth the price of breaking mine?

#broken #depressed #missingyou #late #night #heartbroken #dumped #cheated #traitor

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All I have ever wanted was to be loved. I have so much love to give yet you still couldn't love me as much as I loved you. You wanted her. I could never be her. So instead I'm laying here alone wondering what I did wrong and why I wasn't enough.

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“I would not be the person I am without the authors who made me what I am - the special ones, the wise ones, sometimes just the ones who got there first.”

— Neil Gaiman (via quotefeeling)

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Why are goodbyes so hard?

“I don’t just want words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

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Old memories hurt. Sometimes I can go whole days without think of it all, of before. Before my life turned into this, working every weekend, being broke more times than not, being alone with coffee as my only friend. But there are those times when I allow myself to be sad of what use to be and could have been. I feel like we all need those days to be sad. To let the memories wash over us and not have to force a smile. 🙂