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An animal

We cling on to other

We observe the norms

And merge together

Leaning onto the next shoulder

Whispering stories

Delightful fantasies and fervent debates

Loved heroes and hated villains

Heart wrenching gray characters

Who are neither here nor there

Chatter Chatter of news

Important people and Impactful incidences

All this chaos encompassing

An entity- society

I wander in the fringes

Indifferent and strange as I could ever be

Dazed and Drugged

I never understood

And i could never feel

All I could do was a weak imitation

Eons have passed

I have lost confidence and hope

In being human

Now I keep counting down the days

Till the last of my links fade

Like they never existed

And those ties that remain

I wish to snip it at its roots

Only if a spell existed

I would obviate my way out

They will remain unhurt

And I will drown myself in misery

Dance with death

At any chance I get

I can withstand

All kinds of pain

Endure the burning cold dessert

Or the searing heat of the flames

Than accept being a Human

#original poem #poem #poems and poetry #poems on tumblr #spilled ink #ink on paper

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All stories are bland

And all words fail to stir my heart

There is only Eun seong that makes me want to shred something to peices

I am glad he exists

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I can barely open my eyes

They weigh so heavy

Drooping down

I close them on time today

And they become fresh

Like a dew drop at dawn

And now the thoughts pile

On either side

Swinging like a seesaw

At a rapid speed

Broken things that need to be fixed

And regrets that smell like rotten eggs

I appeal

To the world of fantasy

Kill me

Or turn the clock

And send me back

To last year

I want to fill all the check boxes

A crackle of laughter and a devious voice

Is a year enough ?

To catch up on all that’s lost

Then I said

Let’s go further back

Short hair and glasses

A bag full of books and a world so vast

She brings out an old reel

The distinct smell of alovera

Constant sounds of the radio crackling

Diary of lyrics that I don’t own

A spark

A thirsty obsession with all that is living

A brewing anxiousness

Words stuck at the throat

Lost forever

Tears flowing

When the world is alseep

A restless mind

That craves stories and treats

Queasy Stomach

That settles only when empty

Insecurity dripping out

Sweaty palms and feet

Slippery as an eel

I ask

Who am I ?

The truth crashes

I am all that I see

All that I hear

And all that I breathe

I accumulate trash

I grow like a weed

With no purpose or direction

Then I press stop

A face of my mind sneers

Can you reedeem yourself ?

It’s not enough

I beg you

Let’s go further behind

Chubby cheeks and fiery temper

Broken teeth and broken DVD

A screeching voice and prideful stride

A world that belonged to me

A space that can’t be shared

Affection that can’t be divided

A vile child indeed

A chapter that I can’t return to

I say

Let’s go further back

Screaming and Crying

Sleeping and Crawling

No memories

A blank canvas

Let’s begin there

The joker leaps up in the air

Like a performer

Singing to the beat of the drum

Who is to say

That history won’t repeat ?

So close your eyes

And go to sleep

Time shall move ahead

The morning will arise

Like a new page

So fill it everyday

Till the moon rises

To the brim

With no space left

Slide into a dreamless land

The only possible reprieve

#poems and poetry #poems on tumblr #poem #original poem #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #pen and ink #pen on paper

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It would really be a twist if Hong Hae In chooses to die. She can’t recognise people anymore. I’m sure she is in despair. I wouldn’t blame her if she wants cherubim. But then this is a kdrama so I doubt that we will get that kind of ending..Also with her character even if she’s in despair her will to live is too strong. It will most likely be an open ended ending.. leaving it up to us to make a conclusion.

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Dear Universe

So vast and unreachable

I wonder if you can hear me

Over the trillion other voices

Infinite star dust and colliding particles

You must know what it’s like to be nothing

Numb

You must know what it’s like to expand uncontrollably

Overwhelmed

Hidden energy and Mysterious holes

You don’t even know

That is existence

Within my network they all lie

Neither here nor there

Constantly flickering

As I painstakingly wait

For all to fade

At a snap of a second

I can neither sleep

Nor be awake

I know you understand

So Kill me tonight.

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Revival

Time stands still

There is not a single whisper or rustle

And yet a blurry flash of colours

There is movement

Everywhere around but not within

Each step as heavy as the earth

We all need to die once to burn bright

Just like the stars

We all need to die once to be free

Just like the wind

We all need to burn to nothing to start moving

Just like the universe

Weary and depleted of wonder

We all need to die once

To become a child

And then

Maybe we can be alive

Once more

#thoughts on paper #original poem #poems and poetry #poems on tumblr #poem #poetry

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Self Reliance

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Permutations and Combinations penetrating from everywhere… ? A sign ?

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Manifested

Finally after years of waiting !!!!!

#yaya #mark #loveatfirstnight #thai lakorn

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Nothing big

#cherry magic #t

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A story that can gobble me up wholly

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Lets go to sleep said no brain cell ever.....

All the other cells *slowly dying*.

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Sleep forever

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My head is aching and its still raining but just for a split second I can smile because you can now smile while singing this song

#kim han bin #bi #131 label #kim hanbin #kimhanbin #hanbin

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A place of comfort and warmth turned into cold addiction. Now a layer of fog covers everything. Out of focus is normal. As normal as it can be. A twinge of jealousy spinning in my mind along with the never ending list of all the things I have to do. An intimidating beast loitering freely along the passageways of my mind. If a cell could feel each and every single one of mine would cringe in revulsion. Soon they will all burn themselves into ashes. They would restructure themselves like everything else in this universe - Just as long as it's not in anyway a human or part of a human.

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Like radioactive waste

Needed to be contained

Far Far away

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When did I turn so bitter ? Or was I always

Redemption is nowhere in sight