inthemiddleofsurviving

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“I do not know. I do not know myself sometimes, or how to measure and name and count out the grains that make me what I am.”

— Virginia Woolf, The Waves

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Help me

I’m falling into nothing

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Who is mania?

She is beautiful.

She is light and warmth,

To glow with a natural light.

To kiss sweet, sticky lips, and taste the hint of a flower.

Euphoria

Efervescent

She is mine.

She hurts, she destroys.

She is angry.

She makes you cry out in the night,

Longing for things you can never be.

Unpredictable,

My sweet girl.

She is mine,

But I can’t quite hold her for long enough.

#education #beauty #life #writers #body #poetry #mania #depressing thoughts #depression #bipolar #bipolor #brain #sharelove #sharethoughts

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Trapped

Living trapped inside a brain that longs for death,

with a soul that longs to survive.

Please make me live, please let me die.

Trapped, but free, willing yourself to be happy.

Let me go, but hold on to me tight.

It’s my time, but I’ll never have enough.

Her thoughts, my words.

She and I will never see eye to eye.

#trapped #poetry #life #writers #freedom #body #brain #me #bipolor

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Happy

Today I was happy.

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Tonight

I don't want to wake up tomorrow, I can't help but think, "Am I going to be happy?". Here goes nothing and everything all at the same time.

#depressing thoughts